"I can't do this. I can't pretend that it didn't happen." Audrey said as she stepped away from Nathan. She looked at Haley and then back at Nathan. "I can't...I thought I could but I can't. I love you but I can't."
Nathan reached out for her hand. "Audrey, please don't do this. Think about this carefully. Let's finish the ceremony and we can talk about this later."
Audrey shook her head. "I can't do what I don't agree with. (Looking at the guests.) Ladies and gentlemen I am sorry to waste your time. I know many of you have traveled from far and I am sorry that you made the trip for nothing. Nathan and I aren't going to be married today. Again I am deeply sorry for bringing you here for nothing, but thank you for coming."
The guests hissed and sighed in surprise. Nathan dropped his head and ran his fingers over his face. Audrey stepped over to him and grabbed his hand.
"I think that this belongs to you. You say all the right things, but something was missing. The feeling, the emotion, the love is gone. I don't feel it anymore and that is why I can't do this." She slid the engagement ring off of her finger and placed it in his hand. Nathan was going to give it back, but she ran out of the church. Nathan followed her to the bridal chambers while the guest quickly deserted the church.
Audrey sat in the bridal chambers alone. Her wedding dress thrown one corner and she was sitting in the other. She couldn't believe it. She never thought that he would be the one to cheat on her or cause her to embarrass herself at their wedding. She sat with her knees pulled into her chest. People were knocking on the door, but she didn't answer. She couldn't face anyone, not even her family. She cried until it hurt. She had been humiliated in front of everyone she knew and cared about. The replay of that one fatal moment lingered on in her mind.
*Flashback*
Haley and Nathan looked at each other and then Haley said. "Nathan is the father of my child." Nathan nodded in agreement as he watched Audrey's eyes well up with tears.
"Your kidding right? You have to be. There is no way that Nathan could have slept with you because that would meant that he cheated on me. Nathan isn't that kind of guy."
Nathan rubbed his thumb over her hand. "Audrey I am sorry. I didn't mean for it to happen. It just did."
She heard a distinct knock, followed by Nathan's voice. She rolled her eyes and just listened to him beg for her to open the door. She listened to Nathan beg some more then she sighed and did as she was asked.
A look of relief ran across his face and then a look of regret. "You don't know how sorry I am...."
Audrey's right hand went up to his face. She smacked him so hard that all the taste was knocked out of his mouth.
He rubbed his jaw and looked at her, "I deserve that. Honey, please just let me explain. I didn't mean for it to be this way. I want to marry you and start a life together....."
Audrey looked at the ceiling. "Please spare me the details and don't ever call me honey." She looked him in the eyes. "Look at me Nathan. Look at me. Today was suppose to be the happiest day of my life. I went all out to marry my Prince, and all I got was a toad. I can't believe this. What did I do to deserve this? What did I do that was so horrible, that you had to destroy my life?"
Nathan frowned as he watched the tears stream down her cheeks. "Audrey, you didn't do anything. You are perfect, I am the one who messed up."
"OH you messed up alright. We are suppose to be on our way to our honeymoon. We should be talking about scuba-diving in Spain or horseback riding in England, not Haley and One Tree Hill. You bet that you screwed this up."
Nathan nodded. Audrey opened her mouth to say something else, but she couldn't. All she could do was collapse and sit on the floor. Nathan kneeled down beside her and wrapped his arms around her. She was too weak to fight him off, so she just sat there and cried.
Dan, who had been thrilled with the calling off of the wedding walked into the bridal chambers and looked at his son and Audrey.
"Well its good to see that you two can still get comfy especially since you two aren't getting married."
Nathan jumped up and stared his dad in the eyes. "Just leave Audrey alone! She has had a hard day and the last thing she needs is to have to defend herself against you."
Dan looked over at the blonde, who had completely hit a new low for self pity, and smiled, "How does it feel knowing that I was right all along? I told you that Nathan was too good for you and I told you that it was only a matter of time before he realized it. And now look at you. You look like a cheap two-dollar slut."
Audrey jumped up and attacked Dan. She swung and hit him repeatedly. Dan fell to the floor and threw his arms up and covered his face. Audrey's fists were flying all around, even Nathan got nailed trying to get her off his dad. It took a minute, but Nathan grabbed Audrey by the waist and pulled her off of Dan. She looked at him and frowned.
"Don't you dare patronize me. You self serving son of a bitch." Audrey took a step back and looked at Nathan, then at Dan, and then back at Nathan. "I'm done. I can't do it. The two of you are wrecking balls and I have no more buildings to knock down. (Audrey wipes her eyes and glares at Nathan.) You're full of shit. Everything that you said you hated, everything that you said you never wanted to be...its too late. Like father, like son and silly of me to think that you were different. And to make you even more of a hypocrite you stay pissed at your mom for cheating and leaving, but you damn near did the same thing. Only difference is that you expected me to stay and deal. I can't and I won't. Now both of you get out. I don't ever want to see, hear, or talk to either one of you ever again. GET OUT!!!!!"
Dan put on his cocky smile and walked out the door. Nathan stood for a moment. Audrey yelled for him to get out. Nathan hung his head in defeat and walked out. He closed the door behind him and stood there silent. He knew that she was right. In the course of a few weeks he managed to destroy someone's life. Nathan slid down to the floor and leaned his head back against the door.
Nathan was sitting there when Deb and Brooke walked over. They had disappointment written all over theirs faces. Nathan didn't look at them. He just sat there. Deb sat down next to Nathan and wrapped her arms around him. Nathan put his head on his mom's shoulder and let the tears go. Brooke walked into the room to find that Audrey was getting dressed.
"Hi."
Audrey looked up and frowned. "Look if your here to tell me how great Nathan is please spare me."
Brooke sighed. "I don't condone whatever it was Nathan did. I think that he knows how wrong he was. I just wish that you would give him a chance to explain..."
"Do you want to know what I wish right now? I wish that I never met him. I wish that I never fell in love with him. I wish that I didn't want to marry him. The thing I wish the most though is that I wasn't stupid enough to believe that he was over Haley. I saw all the tiny sparks when they were together and yet I pretended not to. Well now look at me. I am a bride with no groom. Now please excuse me."
Audrey walked out of the room. She saw Nathan and Deb sitting by the door. She just walked right past them. Nathan got up and followed her out of the church. He watched as she climbed into the limo and speed off.
Haley sat in the church and cried. She was embarrassed. Haley sat and cried into her hands. A few moments after, a hand touched her shoulder. She glanced up to see Lucas standing over her.
"Are you going to tell me what's going on or do I need to call Nathan?"
Haley wiped her eyes. "It's simple....Nathan and I are having a baby."
Lucas frowned, "How? Why? When?"
"It happened that night we went to the Courtyard. It was an accident. And I'm only seven weeks along. Look it was wrong. I know that and because of it an innocent young woman was crushed. God, if you could have seen the look on her face when we told her last night. She didn't believe it at first, but then denial died and she looked like she was going to suffocate."
Lucas didn't say anything. He wrapped his arms around Haley as she cried into the jacket of his tuxedo.
*******************************Burn****************************
I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And it's better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn
Audrey sat in the hotel room that she was suppose to share with Nathan. It was getting to be a bit overwhelming for her and she cried like she'd never cried before. The more she thought about it, the more the idea burned holes into her soul. She didn't want anyone else, but she would have to move on and accept that it was over. She looked down at the paper in her hand. It was a one way ticket back to her life of supermodel boredom. A life away from the drama Tree Hill and the painful memory of Nathan. She had an early flight so she decided to rest as much as she could. She inhaled, exhaled and laid on the bed. The thought of Nathan and Haley bombarded her mind and she cried. After a few hours of non-stop crying, Audrey grabbed her purse and walked out of the hotel room.
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn
Haley sat down on the couch in her living room. Peyton had gone off with Jake and Jenny after the non-existent wedding. Brooke and Lucas were off looking for Nathan who disappeared after Audrey sped off in the limousine. Tim would be a comfort if he wasn't so busy trying to get into the pants of Audrey's model friends. Haley was alone. She rubbed her hand over her tiny belly.
"It looks like it's just the two of us and it may be that way for the rest of our lives. Auntie Peyton and Uncle Jake are going to move to California and live together. Uncle Lucas and Auntie Brooke are going to stay in sunny Malibu and live happily ever after. I don't have a clue what Uncle Tim is going to do. He's probably going to harass some female cops and end up in jail. So it's going to be you and me alone in the Big Apple." Haley cried as she spoke to her unborn baby. "As for your daddy....I don't have a clue what's going to happen there. Audrey left him and I love him, but I don't need his sympathy. I just want him to love me the same way that I love him, but it's impossible." Haley sighed and looked out of the window. Thoughts of how she and Nathan used to be filled her mind.
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Nathan sat on the single couch that remained in his cottage. He looked around at the bare walls. Everything was empty and he felt the same way. He felt empty. He'd lost everything that he cared for.
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same by myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)
Nathan opened his wallet and looked inside. He had a wad of cash and a group of pictures. He flipped through the pictures. Most of them were pictures of Audrey and him. A few of them were pictures of him and Haley back in high school. Tears welled up in the back of Nathan's eyes as he walked out to the backyard. He laid down on the hammock and thought about everything that had gone wrong. He didn't understand how everything had gotten screwed up. He thought he had everything under control, but he was wrong. He ended up falling back in love with Haley and when he told her she admitted that she felt the same. He was suppose to tell Audrey before the wedding, but every chance he got he chickened out. He ended up hurting her on the most important day of her life with news that he could have told her before hand. Audrey's words were going around his head. He thought to himself, 'I have turned out to be like my father. Hurting those that you claim to love. First Haley and now Audrey....' Nathan was too involved in his thinking to notice Audrey walking towards him.
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh
So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return
She stopped in front of him. Not a single word was shared as they stood face to face. They had already said too much. She could see in his eyes that his heart was breaking and he could see the same for her. He stepped closer to give her a hug but she retreated.
She looked down at the ground. "I'm leaving for good tomorrow morning at 7:00, away from Tree Hill and away from you. Before I go I have to tell you how I feel. I feel betrayed and it is strange because I don't hate you. I feel like its my fault and that I am the reason you cheated. I feel like I could have done something to stop it, and at the same time I know that I couldn't. I hate the way the feel. I hate what you did to me, but I don't hate you. For some unknown reason I am still in love with you Nathan. Not being with you is killing me, but I'd rather let it burn then to stay here and be unhappy. It's like I said at the church...the love that was there the day before yesterday isn't there anymore and I don't know what to do. You've fallen out of love with me and I can't fix that. I regret that it turned out this way, but we had a great two years. Haley is going to be a lucky lady. I want you to know that I didn't mean what I said about you and you dad being the same. Even with this notch on your belt of wrongdoings you are still a better man then he ever was or ever will be." Audrey turned to walk away, but Nathan's voice stopped her.
"Why do you do that? Why do you say things that make me feel better when you still feel like crap. You've done that for the past two years, why?"
(Turning and shrugging) "I love you Nathan and when you love someone, even if that person doesn't love you the way they used to, you do whatever it takes to keep them happy. Even if it means that I have to put my pride aside and admit defeat, I want you to be happy."
A tear fell from Nathan's eye and Audrey gently wiped the tear with her thumb. Nathan relished in the short physical contact. Audrey cupped his face with her hands and stared into his eyes. When she found what she was looking for she walked off. She walked back towards the house and when she got to the back door she turned and looked at him. Nathan just stood there and watched as she walked out of his life for good. When she was gone Nathan got in his car and drove off.
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Haley was still sitting in the living room of her house thinking about the events of the day. She was getting ready to go to bed when she heard a soft knock at the door. She stopped in her tracks. There was a second knock and Haley ran to open the door. She looked at the boy and smiled. She stepped close to him and pressed her lips against his. "Haley." he sighed with a smile.
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
