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Thank f**king god I can put this story back up again! I had no effing clue what happened yesterday and I crying my eyes out!!
I just remembered that the apple that changed when Jonas was younger, it changed to red but I changed it to green -_-.......I screw everything up.
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Losing The Grip of The Rules
Although Asher was uneasy about not taking his pill for the day, he followed Jonas inside the school.
Jonas seem to notice Ashers uneasiness. "Don't worry, it'll be ok."
"But what if I get in trouble!? Am I gonna get released!? I don't want to get released now! I'm almost done with my training!"
"Are you ok Asher?" asked Fiona walking up to the two.
"Jonas told-"
"Told him a joke, he just thought it was insulting, I apologize Asher."
Asher stared at Jonas in a shocked, confused way. Jonas just stared back firmly. "I accept your apology," sighed Asher.
Fiona looked from Jonas to Asher confused. "What was the joke?"
"Just about someone who stopped going by the rules and is running around the community," shrugged Jonas.
Fiona raised an eyebrow. "Pardon the rudeness, but that's not even funny...is it true?"
"No, I made it up."
Fiona frowned. "Um...right then...well we'd better get in class," and she walked ahead of them into their classroom.
"WHY!? I ask you, WHY did you lie?" hissed Asher looking at Jonas aghast.
"I had to, you know how Fiona is with rules," shrugged Jonas. It was true, a year after Fiona started her training she followed the rules very carefully and would report on anyone breaking the law.
"Oh right, I forgot," muttered Asher. They walked inside class as the lesson on science started.
Throughout the class time Asher was beginning to get a bit restless, the feeling that he woke up to was growing steadily inside him. He was getting bored with just sitting in a room listening to a person talk endlessly about the characteristics of a molecule.
He wanted to leave, play, see these 'Colors' that Jonas mentioned. 'But why are we 'color blind'? It can't be illegal to see colors, is it?' thought Asher.
Jonas kept glancing at Asher at times wondering how he was doing without his pill. 'This lesson's so boring! I'd rather drown in the river than to listen Mr. Halsey,' thought Jonas as he sleepily took his notes.
"Asher?" said Mr. Halsey. Everyone turned to Asher who was slowly dozing off with his pencil slipping from of his fingers.
"Hm?" said Asher sleepily then yawned. Everyone looked at him blankly.
"Asher?" repeated Mr. Halsey testily.
"Yes?" yawned Asher then froze realizing he was being rude. "OH! Professor! I apologize for being rude!!"
Mr. Halsey sighed. "I accept your apology, Asher, please pay attention."
"Yes sir, sorry sir!"
But again about ten minutes later Asher was dozing off. Jonas was in the same state as well.
"Asher! Jonas! Pay attention or you will have to stay after school to learn what you've missed!"
"YES SIR SORRY SIR!" said Jonas and Asher at the same time, waking up instantly.
Fiona looked at the two frowning. 'Did they even sleep last night?'
Very slowly the school hour was over. Jonas was about to mount his bike when he saw Asher riding his bike over to him.
"Uh...Jonas can I come to your training, I don't have my training today, so can I come?"
Jonas raised his eyebrows. "Uh...I don't think Giver wants anyone else knowing what's happening in my training."
"I won't tell anyone, I promise. I want to ask him about the feeling I had in my dream."
"Oh, ok," they rode off to the direction the House of the Old where the Annex entrance was at the back. "Something else happened in your dream?"
"Yeah, something I never felt before...there was someone massaging my shoulders, it felt good, I wanted to see who the person was, but I woke up, and I was left with a feeling I can't really describe."
"Want?"
"Yeah, but something more...deeper I suppose....I really should have taken my pill this morning! Why do I always forget!?"
"It won't matter anyway because once you leave your family unit then you'll keep forgetting to take your pill."
"Stirrings can really mess up your feelings."
"They ARE your feelings."
"So then...does that mean that everyday even though we take our pill, we still have our stirrings?"
Jonas stared at his friend blankly. "No, those aren't strong feelings, the feelings I'm talking about are the feelings that we are prevented to feel, that's why we take our pill. But I stopped because it's just a waste of time."
They left their bikes and walked off to the Annex entrance. "So I shouldn't take my pills either?" asked Asher.
"I'm not forcing you to stop, but it would be good for someone besides me and Giver to experience real feelings, but there's also pain."
"Yeah, The Chief Elder said that when you became the receiver."
"She wasn't lying. It's painful; both the Giver and I wish everyone could experience it, to show you all how it is to feel real things."
"But isn't it easier this way?"
"Not for me, it's hard to receive painful memories while you're all busily doing your jobs and not EVER feeling anything but illusions of feelings."
Asher fell silent for a while as Jonas gave both of their names to the Attendant. He followed him to the door that opened to The Givers room.
The room, to Asher, looked rather odd, the table with curved legs, luxurious looking furniture and its fabrics were new to him.
And he saw the old man he had seen in his ceremony of twelve at the desk looking at both of them.
"Asher wanted to ask you about a feeling he had in his dream, Giver," said Jonas calmly as he sat down in one of the two chairs in front of the Givers desk.
The Giver turned to Asher who looked a little nervous. "What did your dream have?" he asked.
Asher sat in the remaining seat nervously. "Um...I was looking at my reflection in the river, my face changed and so had everything around me, there was someone massaging my shoulders and I woke up before I could even see who the person was."
"When you say 'person' do you mean woman or man?"
"I don't know...the feeling was...deep...and gentle, but the size of the hands didn't feel like a female..."
"Then it would be a male."
"I suppose...so...what does that mean? I asked my parents and they barely even gave me an answer."
"Did you ask Jonas about it?" Asher nodded. "About the change?" Asher nodded again, "well then I expect you'll know about color, or at least some of it, but about the person...it must mean something about your sexuality."
Asher blinked. "Pardon?"
"Well, the type of gender you prefer."
"Yes I know, but...does that mean that I'm-"
"Well do you prefer girls?"
"I thought I did...I mean I thought I had a feeling for Fiona, but I suppose it was just friendship."
"Then?"
Asher stared off vaguely. "I don't know...maybe I like both...that is a possibility."
"Is that all you want to know?"
"No...I want to see it, the colors I mean, all of them."
"I don't know how to actually spread colors to everyone, Jonas has to have them so that he could....you said you SAW them in your dream?"
"Yes."
"That's interesting, very interesting...and there was someone-a male- massaging your back?"
"Yes."
"Then it's possible...Jonas can you still see colors?" Jonas nodded, "Then it's quite possible that the person you were with in your dream, Asher, was Jonas."
There was a pause for a moment.
"What?" said Asher bewildered.
"Jonas did you have a dream similar to Ashers?" asked Giver. Jonas blushed brightly and was grateful Asher didn't notice, what with him being color blind.
"Yes."
"Just this morning?"
"Yes."
"What was your last thought before you fell asleep?"
"I wanted Fiona and Asher to feel and see colors and emotions."
"Which one the most?"
"...Asher."
Giver nodded and everything was silent as he thought things through. "Well I suppose this could be a sort of telepathic communication."
Jonas looked shocked while Asher looked confused. "What's 'telepathic communication'?" he asked.
"It's a communication between minds."
"Really!?"
"Yes. It's a very rare capability; it could also have a meaning to it. How did the two of you feel? Did you know what you were doing?"
The two thought about it. "Well...I felt curious and very comfortable, but I barely knew what I was doing," shrugged Asher.
Jonas kept silent not wanting to tell anyone how he felt. But he had to answer because it sounded so important.
"I felt...excited...complete, happy. And I think I knew what I was doing."
"Hmmmmmm...I see...well, Jonas, you can leave for today, come back tomorrow, I can't train you in front of Asher."
Jonas nodded and both he and Asher walked out of the Giver's room.
"So are you going back to taking your pill?" asked Jonas as he got on his bike.
"I don't know yet, I'll try taking it tomorrow, see how things go. I felt kind of guilty not taking my pill earlier, but I don't know now."
Jonas nodded and rode with Asher away from the House of the Old.
"You want to ride with me through the park? I don't want to go home yet," said Asher quietly. Jonas looked at him blankly but nodded.
"Why don't you want to go home?"
"It's hard to say, I just don't feel like being home so early...but I never knew I preferred males more than females. Why didn't you tell me you stopped taking your pill?"
"I don't know. I didn't feel like it I guess. But what are you feeling now?"
"Curious...and more, calmer...I barely messed up on my words too."
"I've noticed...why are you curious?"
"I'm just curious about something, but it's against the rules to do it."
"Do what?"
"How do YOU feel?"
Jonas was taken aback by the sudden question. "Curious now that you won't tell me what YOU'RE so curious about. But I also feel like I can float all the way to the moon for some reason." Asher looked at him a bit confused but Jonas didn't answer. He knew why he felt so floaty, but he didn't want to say it because he wasn't really sure how to say it.
"You feel like you'll float to the moon?"
"Yes, now tell me why you're so curious."
"I don't want to!"
"Alright fine...I wonder how we got connected by telepathy."
"Beats me. But I wish I could see those colors agai-what are you doing?"
Jonas was about to touch his shoulder. "Well I was GOING to show you a little bit of color, but if you don't want to then fine."
"What? NO! No I want to see them again!"
Jonas laughed a little at Ashers eagerness. He reached out again and lay his hand on his shoulder. They had to stop their bikes because it was difficult for Jonas to ride with one hand and concentrating on something other than the path in the park.
He thought about the rainbow, the shades of red, yellow, green, blue, all of them.
Asher was a bit nervous; he kept looking around their surroundings to see if anyone saw them. He knew this was a rule being broken; no one outside a family unit can touch each other.
Then quite suddenly he saw everything around him change, Jonas changed as well. 'These must be colors' thought Asher looking around. He noticed Jonas was concentrating harder, so Asher took Jonas' hand off his shoulder.
"What?"
"You're concentrating too hard, but I saw it, thanks. Did it hurt?" Asher couldn't see colors anymore but the memory of how Jonas changed was still in his head.
"It's kind of hard for me to share a memory instead of giving it, I still have to have the color memory."
"Then it hurt?"
"Yes a little, but it's gone now. That's why you were curious?"
"No."
Jonas raised his eyebrows. "So you made me concentrate on sharing colors for nothing!?"
"No! I really wanted to see it again. But I was...never mind, I'd better get back home, thank you for letting me see the colors again!" and Asher rode of leaving Jonas dumbfounded.
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Thank f**king god I can put this story back up again! I had no effing clue what happened yesterday and I crying my eyes out!!
I just remembered that the apple that changed when Jonas was younger, it changed to red but I changed it to green -_-.......I screw everything up.
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Losing The Grip of The Rules
Although Asher was uneasy about not taking his pill for the day, he followed Jonas inside the school.
Jonas seem to notice Ashers uneasiness. "Don't worry, it'll be ok."
"But what if I get in trouble!? Am I gonna get released!? I don't want to get released now! I'm almost done with my training!"
"Are you ok Asher?" asked Fiona walking up to the two.
"Jonas told-"
"Told him a joke, he just thought it was insulting, I apologize Asher."
Asher stared at Jonas in a shocked, confused way. Jonas just stared back firmly. "I accept your apology," sighed Asher.
Fiona looked from Jonas to Asher confused. "What was the joke?"
"Just about someone who stopped going by the rules and is running around the community," shrugged Jonas.
Fiona raised an eyebrow. "Pardon the rudeness, but that's not even funny...is it true?"
"No, I made it up."
Fiona frowned. "Um...right then...well we'd better get in class," and she walked ahead of them into their classroom.
"WHY!? I ask you, WHY did you lie?" hissed Asher looking at Jonas aghast.
"I had to, you know how Fiona is with rules," shrugged Jonas. It was true, a year after Fiona started her training she followed the rules very carefully and would report on anyone breaking the law.
"Oh right, I forgot," muttered Asher. They walked inside class as the lesson on science started.
Throughout the class time Asher was beginning to get a bit restless, the feeling that he woke up to was growing steadily inside him. He was getting bored with just sitting in a room listening to a person talk endlessly about the characteristics of a molecule.
He wanted to leave, play, see these 'Colors' that Jonas mentioned. 'But why are we 'color blind'? It can't be illegal to see colors, is it?' thought Asher.
Jonas kept glancing at Asher at times wondering how he was doing without his pill. 'This lesson's so boring! I'd rather drown in the river than to listen Mr. Halsey,' thought Jonas as he sleepily took his notes.
"Asher?" said Mr. Halsey. Everyone turned to Asher who was slowly dozing off with his pencil slipping from of his fingers.
"Hm?" said Asher sleepily then yawned. Everyone looked at him blankly.
"Asher?" repeated Mr. Halsey testily.
"Yes?" yawned Asher then froze realizing he was being rude. "OH! Professor! I apologize for being rude!!"
Mr. Halsey sighed. "I accept your apology, Asher, please pay attention."
"Yes sir, sorry sir!"
But again about ten minutes later Asher was dozing off. Jonas was in the same state as well.
"Asher! Jonas! Pay attention or you will have to stay after school to learn what you've missed!"
"YES SIR SORRY SIR!" said Jonas and Asher at the same time, waking up instantly.
Fiona looked at the two frowning. 'Did they even sleep last night?'
Very slowly the school hour was over. Jonas was about to mount his bike when he saw Asher riding his bike over to him.
"Uh...Jonas can I come to your training, I don't have my training today, so can I come?"
Jonas raised his eyebrows. "Uh...I don't think Giver wants anyone else knowing what's happening in my training."
"I won't tell anyone, I promise. I want to ask him about the feeling I had in my dream."
"Oh, ok," they rode off to the direction the House of the Old where the Annex entrance was at the back. "Something else happened in your dream?"
"Yeah, something I never felt before...there was someone massaging my shoulders, it felt good, I wanted to see who the person was, but I woke up, and I was left with a feeling I can't really describe."
"Want?"
"Yeah, but something more...deeper I suppose....I really should have taken my pill this morning! Why do I always forget!?"
"It won't matter anyway because once you leave your family unit then you'll keep forgetting to take your pill."
"Stirrings can really mess up your feelings."
"They ARE your feelings."
"So then...does that mean that everyday even though we take our pill, we still have our stirrings?"
Jonas stared at his friend blankly. "No, those aren't strong feelings, the feelings I'm talking about are the feelings that we are prevented to feel, that's why we take our pill. But I stopped because it's just a waste of time."
They left their bikes and walked off to the Annex entrance. "So I shouldn't take my pills either?" asked Asher.
"I'm not forcing you to stop, but it would be good for someone besides me and Giver to experience real feelings, but there's also pain."
"Yeah, The Chief Elder said that when you became the receiver."
"She wasn't lying. It's painful; both the Giver and I wish everyone could experience it, to show you all how it is to feel real things."
"But isn't it easier this way?"
"Not for me, it's hard to receive painful memories while you're all busily doing your jobs and not EVER feeling anything but illusions of feelings."
Asher fell silent for a while as Jonas gave both of their names to the Attendant. He followed him to the door that opened to The Givers room.
The room, to Asher, looked rather odd, the table with curved legs, luxurious looking furniture and its fabrics were new to him.
And he saw the old man he had seen in his ceremony of twelve at the desk looking at both of them.
"Asher wanted to ask you about a feeling he had in his dream, Giver," said Jonas calmly as he sat down in one of the two chairs in front of the Givers desk.
The Giver turned to Asher who looked a little nervous. "What did your dream have?" he asked.
Asher sat in the remaining seat nervously. "Um...I was looking at my reflection in the river, my face changed and so had everything around me, there was someone massaging my shoulders and I woke up before I could even see who the person was."
"When you say 'person' do you mean woman or man?"
"I don't know...the feeling was...deep...and gentle, but the size of the hands didn't feel like a female..."
"Then it would be a male."
"I suppose...so...what does that mean? I asked my parents and they barely even gave me an answer."
"Did you ask Jonas about it?" Asher nodded. "About the change?" Asher nodded again, "well then I expect you'll know about color, or at least some of it, but about the person...it must mean something about your sexuality."
Asher blinked. "Pardon?"
"Well, the type of gender you prefer."
"Yes I know, but...does that mean that I'm-"
"Well do you prefer girls?"
"I thought I did...I mean I thought I had a feeling for Fiona, but I suppose it was just friendship."
"Then?"
Asher stared off vaguely. "I don't know...maybe I like both...that is a possibility."
"Is that all you want to know?"
"No...I want to see it, the colors I mean, all of them."
"I don't know how to actually spread colors to everyone, Jonas has to have them so that he could....you said you SAW them in your dream?"
"Yes."
"That's interesting, very interesting...and there was someone-a male- massaging your back?"
"Yes."
"Then it's possible...Jonas can you still see colors?" Jonas nodded, "Then it's quite possible that the person you were with in your dream, Asher, was Jonas."
There was a pause for a moment.
"What?" said Asher bewildered.
"Jonas did you have a dream similar to Ashers?" asked Giver. Jonas blushed brightly and was grateful Asher didn't notice, what with him being color blind.
"Yes."
"Just this morning?"
"Yes."
"What was your last thought before you fell asleep?"
"I wanted Fiona and Asher to feel and see colors and emotions."
"Which one the most?"
"...Asher."
Giver nodded and everything was silent as he thought things through. "Well I suppose this could be a sort of telepathic communication."
Jonas looked shocked while Asher looked confused. "What's 'telepathic communication'?" he asked.
"It's a communication between minds."
"Really!?"
"Yes. It's a very rare capability; it could also have a meaning to it. How did the two of you feel? Did you know what you were doing?"
The two thought about it. "Well...I felt curious and very comfortable, but I barely knew what I was doing," shrugged Asher.
Jonas kept silent not wanting to tell anyone how he felt. But he had to answer because it sounded so important.
"I felt...excited...complete, happy. And I think I knew what I was doing."
"Hmmmmmm...I see...well, Jonas, you can leave for today, come back tomorrow, I can't train you in front of Asher."
Jonas nodded and both he and Asher walked out of the Giver's room.
"So are you going back to taking your pill?" asked Jonas as he got on his bike.
"I don't know yet, I'll try taking it tomorrow, see how things go. I felt kind of guilty not taking my pill earlier, but I don't know now."
Jonas nodded and rode with Asher away from the House of the Old.
"You want to ride with me through the park? I don't want to go home yet," said Asher quietly. Jonas looked at him blankly but nodded.
"Why don't you want to go home?"
"It's hard to say, I just don't feel like being home so early...but I never knew I preferred males more than females. Why didn't you tell me you stopped taking your pill?"
"I don't know. I didn't feel like it I guess. But what are you feeling now?"
"Curious...and more, calmer...I barely messed up on my words too."
"I've noticed...why are you curious?"
"I'm just curious about something, but it's against the rules to do it."
"Do what?"
"How do YOU feel?"
Jonas was taken aback by the sudden question. "Curious now that you won't tell me what YOU'RE so curious about. But I also feel like I can float all the way to the moon for some reason." Asher looked at him a bit confused but Jonas didn't answer. He knew why he felt so floaty, but he didn't want to say it because he wasn't really sure how to say it.
"You feel like you'll float to the moon?"
"Yes, now tell me why you're so curious."
"I don't want to!"
"Alright fine...I wonder how we got connected by telepathy."
"Beats me. But I wish I could see those colors agai-what are you doing?"
Jonas was about to touch his shoulder. "Well I was GOING to show you a little bit of color, but if you don't want to then fine."
"What? NO! No I want to see them again!"
Jonas laughed a little at Ashers eagerness. He reached out again and lay his hand on his shoulder. They had to stop their bikes because it was difficult for Jonas to ride with one hand and concentrating on something other than the path in the park.
He thought about the rainbow, the shades of red, yellow, green, blue, all of them.
Asher was a bit nervous; he kept looking around their surroundings to see if anyone saw them. He knew this was a rule being broken; no one outside a family unit can touch each other.
Then quite suddenly he saw everything around him change, Jonas changed as well. 'These must be colors' thought Asher looking around. He noticed Jonas was concentrating harder, so Asher took Jonas' hand off his shoulder.
"What?"
"You're concentrating too hard, but I saw it, thanks. Did it hurt?" Asher couldn't see colors anymore but the memory of how Jonas changed was still in his head.
"It's kind of hard for me to share a memory instead of giving it, I still have to have the color memory."
"Then it hurt?"
"Yes a little, but it's gone now. That's why you were curious?"
"No."
Jonas raised his eyebrows. "So you made me concentrate on sharing colors for nothing!?"
"No! I really wanted to see it again. But I was...never mind, I'd better get back home, thank you for letting me see the colors again!" and Asher rode of leaving Jonas dumbfounded.
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