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Losing The Grip of The Rules
Jonas walked lazily into the house. His parents and sister were home already.
"Everything ok, Jonas?" asked Mother from the sofa.
"Yes," nodded Jonas as he went to put away his schoolbooks. He felt a little tired from sharing the memory of colors to Asher, but he felt lighter as well.
He trudged off to his sleeping area and lay in bed feeling strange about today.
'Why was he curious?' thought Jonas as he stared at the ceiling like he had this morning.
"Jonas?" came Lily's voice.
"Yes?"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Sure, what?"
"Well, I've almost completed all my volunteer hours, and since you've seen what kinds of...volunteer work I've done, I was wondering if you knew what assignment I would receive."
Jonas sat up and looked at his sister who was fidgeting with her fingers looking nervous.
"You're asking me to-"
"Well you don't have to tell me, I just want to know because-I apologize for interrupting!"
"Forget it, don't apologize to my Lily."
Lily looked at Jonas as if he'd grown an extra head. "But it would be rude of me to-"
"I don't care about rudeness...what did you want to say before you apologized?"
"Well...it's just that, I don't know what my assignment would be."
"Neither did I when I was your age."
"Yes but you're different, no offense, I mean, you saw things change before you became Receiver of Memories, and you had the qualifications. But I don't know what I'LL be because I've noticed I've been very...diverse, in my volunteer hours."
"Didn't you like newchildren?"
"Yes but I'm too loud for them, I wouldn't be a good nurturer, and there's the fact I have to release some of those newchildren who aren't growing very well."
"You KNOW about the whole release deal?"
"Yes and I don't want to stick a needle in a child and kill it just because it's not qualified for our community."
Jonas looked mildly surprised at this. "What about speaker?"
"Too boring, I'll release myself if I ever get that job."
Jonas raised his eyebrows. Then suddenly remembered about what the Giver had told him about his daughter, Rosemary. She released herself, and she was the failed receiver. He couldn't see Lily releasing herself like Rosemary; that would be terrible.
"Storyteller?"
"Yes I've been thinking about that too, but I can't create really good stories like the storyteller when I was a six."
Jonas racked his thoughts; it was kind of a shock to hear Lily say 'no' to all the things she wanted to be when she was an eight.
"I wonder what job Gabriel would have gotten."
Jonas snapped his head to Lily. "He's happy in Elsewhere, Lily."
The first year that Jonas had begun his training with the Giver, Gabriel, a newchild, was in danger of being released. He was in the care of Jonas' father. When he was going to be released, Jonas took him and they both ran away to Elsewhere.
They arrived fine (even though they had a cold), a family took both of them in and they had a happy year there.
But it seemed that Jonas' community had caught on to his and Givers plan. They arrived to Elsewhere and took Jonas away from the family he was beginning to love.
They took him back the community; his punishment was to be forbidden to ever leave the community, even for school trips.
But he knew that Gabriel was doing well in Elsewhere. He was slowly realizing that his memories of Elsewhere were blurry.
"I miss him."
"Me too. But I don't know what your assignment would be, the Elders would know though, you'll just have to wait until the Ceremony."
"But that's why I'm asking you. I don't want an assignment, Jonas. That's why I want to know before hand to see if I'll like it or not, if I don't like it then I'll run away to Elsewhere and join Gabriel."
"It's a long journey."
"I don't care...I broke a rule."
"What rule?"
"My pill, I stopped taking them...and I think I feel the same feelings that you have about this place."
"When have you stopped?"
"Last month...I'm sorry but...well when I was cleaning out your bathroom-don't look at me like that! It got into a habit-I saw your trashcan full of your pills. So I stopped because I was curious."
"Then you agree with me when I say that this 'community' is a living hell?"
"Yes."
"How did they come?"
"Well it's not just only emotions, I see different things, everything's changed."
"You mean as in, you see things in different shades?"
"Yes, like your folder," Lily picked up Jonas' school folder.
"It's a color."
"Color?"
"Well, the folder is the color blue."
"Blue, your eyes are like this folder, only brighter."
"Yes I know."
"But what's the name of the color of your tunic?"
"It's black."
"Is it the darkest color?"
"Yes, and your skirt it purple, your blouse is white, and your hair is blonde."
"That's the name for my hair?"
"Well for hair, it's blonde, but for other things like this pencil for example, it's yellow."
"That's confusing...so my earrings are yellow?"
"No it's gold."
"That's even more confusing." Jonas laughed.
"How long have you been able to see colors?"
"For a few weeks, I never told anyone about it because I thought it would go away, then my stirrings became stronger. Especially after I saw that twin baby being released by that MAN!"
Jonas' ears perked up. "You mean father?"
"Oh I don't even want to think of him as my father anymore. I saw it happen last year, our substitute teacher showed us how it's done if we don't pay attention in class."
"But you said you stopped taking your pill last month!"
"Yes I did, but last year when I saw it, I just felt sympathetic about the baby, now I feel horrified."
"At least you'll be able to run away to Elsewhere, I'm stuck here."
"We'll think of something."
"What do you mean?"
"I'm planning on run-"
"Ok I get it!" Jonas said quickly, "not in front of the speakers!" he whispered quickly.
"OH! Sorry, where can I tell you?"
Jonas thought about it. "Giver can help you-"
"US!"
"OK! Us, just keep it quiet."
"Ok."
* * *
But when they arrived at the annex room the next day after school, the Giver couldn't see them because he was in pain. He still had a few very strong painful memories.
"We'll try tomorrow," said Lily confidently. Jonas raised his eyebrows at this but then Lily sighed, "I hope he's ok, I wouldn't mind taking the painful memories away from him so he could feel better."
"It'll go away...I hope..these things happen sometimes."
"You're not supposed to tell me about your training."
"I know, it just slip-how did you know?"
"I read your rules when you left that year with Gabe, I thought you were just following some training thing and I was worried."
"Oh...why didn't you-"
"Jonas!"
Jonas and Lily stopped their bike and turned to see Asher rushing over to them on his own bike. "Asher?" said Jonas uncertainly.
"Jonas I need to tell you something important-hi Lily," panted Asher as he screeched to a stop in front of the two.
"What is it?"
"Well remember when you told-" he cut off and looked at Lily uncertainly.
"Won't tell anyone anything," she said making a motion with her finger to her lips as if she were zipping them together.
"O-ok...well remember when you told me about the pill, Jonas?" Jonas nodded. "Well I forgot taking it again today and the stirrings came in stronger, is that supposed to happen?"
"Of course, when I did it, it spread faster through me," shrugged Lily.
"You don't take them either?"
"Nope, better this way too."
"Who else doesn't take their pill!?"
"Quiet!" squeaked Lily looking around nervously.
"So are you gonna tell me what you were curious about yesterday?" asked Jonas.
"What-NO! It's embarrassing."
Jonas sighed. "Fine, whatever...can you at least hint me?"
"The 'prefer' thing."
"What about it?"
"I was just curious about how...." Asher started blushing and was unfortunate to notice that Jonas and Lily noticed it.
"Uh...mind telling me about this 'prefer' thing?" asked Lily.
"The Giver told me I preferred males more than females, I was just curious about how it feels to be..."
"You blush anymore and it'll be hard to tell the difference from a cherry," said Jonas laughing a little
"Blushing?"
"When blood rushes to your face-not like that!" for Asher had quickly touched his face and looked at his hands to see if there was blood, "I meant that it when it rises to your face then it turns your face red, it happens when you feel embarrassed or angry about something."
"Oh...what's red?"
"One of the colors, like in that vision, the petals on the flowers in the park were red."
"Oh."
Lily looked from Asher to her brother. "Ok, I'm going home, good luck with whatever you're talking about," she sighed as she left them and was off to her dwelling.
Asher stared after her blankly. But he looked away too soon, not realizing where Lily was really going.
"So what are you curious about?"
Asher jumped and nearly fell off his bike. "I'm not telling you. It's really embarrassing and I would be breaking a lot of rules if I told you anyway."
"Which would be?"
"Touching-oops!"
Jonas blushed brightly. "...Let me get this straight," he said blushing steadily harder, "you're curious about males touching males?"
"Well...sort of, yesterday I was curious about the touching and last night I had a dream and now I'm curious about...well I don't know what it's called but it involves two people pressing their lips against each other, and there was another part where their tongues were...I don't know, it looked a bit like wrestling, but in a strange affectionate way-"
Jonas's face now resembled a cherry. "W-well, Asher. You dreamt about kissing, um...French kissing."
"That ACT was called 'kissing'?"
"Yes. French kissing," said Jonas remembering the dream he had last night, it had the same exact description, "wait a minute! Did you see who you were-"
Asher grabbed Jonas close to him and laid his lips on his, at the same time they both opened their lips and they touched each other's tongues. It felt strange at first; it was a new feeling.
Asher was beginning to understand this 'kissing' business and held Jonas closer to him as he explored his friends' mouth with his tongue, feeling somewhat aroused as Jonas slowly ran his hands around his back.
They separated when they heard someone gasp nearby.
"Jonas...Asher? What are you two doing?" breathed Fiona; she was on her bike a few feet away from them looking shocked and horrified.
"Fiona-" started Jonas.
"You broke a rule! You two aren't supposed to touch each other! What were you two thinking!?"
"Calm down Fiona-" started Asher.
"No! No I won't hear it, you two aren't supposed to be touching each other, especially with your mouths and especially because you two are males!"
"Will you listen-FIONA!" shouted Jonas as Fiona quickly turned and rode away speedily, "we are so fucked."
"'Fucked'?" said Asher.
"It's a curse....rude word."
"Oh...we'd better go home, Fiona will probably be off telling our parents what we just did."
"Huh? Oh...yeah, yeah see you tomorrow."
They both quickly hurried off to their dwellings feeling frightened about what Fiona might have told their parents and somehow excited at the feeling when they kissed each other.
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Losing The Grip of The Rules
Jonas walked lazily into the house. His parents and sister were home already.
"Everything ok, Jonas?" asked Mother from the sofa.
"Yes," nodded Jonas as he went to put away his schoolbooks. He felt a little tired from sharing the memory of colors to Asher, but he felt lighter as well.
He trudged off to his sleeping area and lay in bed feeling strange about today.
'Why was he curious?' thought Jonas as he stared at the ceiling like he had this morning.
"Jonas?" came Lily's voice.
"Yes?"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Sure, what?"
"Well, I've almost completed all my volunteer hours, and since you've seen what kinds of...volunteer work I've done, I was wondering if you knew what assignment I would receive."
Jonas sat up and looked at his sister who was fidgeting with her fingers looking nervous.
"You're asking me to-"
"Well you don't have to tell me, I just want to know because-I apologize for interrupting!"
"Forget it, don't apologize to my Lily."
Lily looked at Jonas as if he'd grown an extra head. "But it would be rude of me to-"
"I don't care about rudeness...what did you want to say before you apologized?"
"Well...it's just that, I don't know what my assignment would be."
"Neither did I when I was your age."
"Yes but you're different, no offense, I mean, you saw things change before you became Receiver of Memories, and you had the qualifications. But I don't know what I'LL be because I've noticed I've been very...diverse, in my volunteer hours."
"Didn't you like newchildren?"
"Yes but I'm too loud for them, I wouldn't be a good nurturer, and there's the fact I have to release some of those newchildren who aren't growing very well."
"You KNOW about the whole release deal?"
"Yes and I don't want to stick a needle in a child and kill it just because it's not qualified for our community."
Jonas looked mildly surprised at this. "What about speaker?"
"Too boring, I'll release myself if I ever get that job."
Jonas raised his eyebrows. Then suddenly remembered about what the Giver had told him about his daughter, Rosemary. She released herself, and she was the failed receiver. He couldn't see Lily releasing herself like Rosemary; that would be terrible.
"Storyteller?"
"Yes I've been thinking about that too, but I can't create really good stories like the storyteller when I was a six."
Jonas racked his thoughts; it was kind of a shock to hear Lily say 'no' to all the things she wanted to be when she was an eight.
"I wonder what job Gabriel would have gotten."
Jonas snapped his head to Lily. "He's happy in Elsewhere, Lily."
The first year that Jonas had begun his training with the Giver, Gabriel, a newchild, was in danger of being released. He was in the care of Jonas' father. When he was going to be released, Jonas took him and they both ran away to Elsewhere.
They arrived fine (even though they had a cold), a family took both of them in and they had a happy year there.
But it seemed that Jonas' community had caught on to his and Givers plan. They arrived to Elsewhere and took Jonas away from the family he was beginning to love.
They took him back the community; his punishment was to be forbidden to ever leave the community, even for school trips.
But he knew that Gabriel was doing well in Elsewhere. He was slowly realizing that his memories of Elsewhere were blurry.
"I miss him."
"Me too. But I don't know what your assignment would be, the Elders would know though, you'll just have to wait until the Ceremony."
"But that's why I'm asking you. I don't want an assignment, Jonas. That's why I want to know before hand to see if I'll like it or not, if I don't like it then I'll run away to Elsewhere and join Gabriel."
"It's a long journey."
"I don't care...I broke a rule."
"What rule?"
"My pill, I stopped taking them...and I think I feel the same feelings that you have about this place."
"When have you stopped?"
"Last month...I'm sorry but...well when I was cleaning out your bathroom-don't look at me like that! It got into a habit-I saw your trashcan full of your pills. So I stopped because I was curious."
"Then you agree with me when I say that this 'community' is a living hell?"
"Yes."
"How did they come?"
"Well it's not just only emotions, I see different things, everything's changed."
"You mean as in, you see things in different shades?"
"Yes, like your folder," Lily picked up Jonas' school folder.
"It's a color."
"Color?"
"Well, the folder is the color blue."
"Blue, your eyes are like this folder, only brighter."
"Yes I know."
"But what's the name of the color of your tunic?"
"It's black."
"Is it the darkest color?"
"Yes, and your skirt it purple, your blouse is white, and your hair is blonde."
"That's the name for my hair?"
"Well for hair, it's blonde, but for other things like this pencil for example, it's yellow."
"That's confusing...so my earrings are yellow?"
"No it's gold."
"That's even more confusing." Jonas laughed.
"How long have you been able to see colors?"
"For a few weeks, I never told anyone about it because I thought it would go away, then my stirrings became stronger. Especially after I saw that twin baby being released by that MAN!"
Jonas' ears perked up. "You mean father?"
"Oh I don't even want to think of him as my father anymore. I saw it happen last year, our substitute teacher showed us how it's done if we don't pay attention in class."
"But you said you stopped taking your pill last month!"
"Yes I did, but last year when I saw it, I just felt sympathetic about the baby, now I feel horrified."
"At least you'll be able to run away to Elsewhere, I'm stuck here."
"We'll think of something."
"What do you mean?"
"I'm planning on run-"
"Ok I get it!" Jonas said quickly, "not in front of the speakers!" he whispered quickly.
"OH! Sorry, where can I tell you?"
Jonas thought about it. "Giver can help you-"
"US!"
"OK! Us, just keep it quiet."
"Ok."
* * *
But when they arrived at the annex room the next day after school, the Giver couldn't see them because he was in pain. He still had a few very strong painful memories.
"We'll try tomorrow," said Lily confidently. Jonas raised his eyebrows at this but then Lily sighed, "I hope he's ok, I wouldn't mind taking the painful memories away from him so he could feel better."
"It'll go away...I hope..these things happen sometimes."
"You're not supposed to tell me about your training."
"I know, it just slip-how did you know?"
"I read your rules when you left that year with Gabe, I thought you were just following some training thing and I was worried."
"Oh...why didn't you-"
"Jonas!"
Jonas and Lily stopped their bike and turned to see Asher rushing over to them on his own bike. "Asher?" said Jonas uncertainly.
"Jonas I need to tell you something important-hi Lily," panted Asher as he screeched to a stop in front of the two.
"What is it?"
"Well remember when you told-" he cut off and looked at Lily uncertainly.
"Won't tell anyone anything," she said making a motion with her finger to her lips as if she were zipping them together.
"O-ok...well remember when you told me about the pill, Jonas?" Jonas nodded. "Well I forgot taking it again today and the stirrings came in stronger, is that supposed to happen?"
"Of course, when I did it, it spread faster through me," shrugged Lily.
"You don't take them either?"
"Nope, better this way too."
"Who else doesn't take their pill!?"
"Quiet!" squeaked Lily looking around nervously.
"So are you gonna tell me what you were curious about yesterday?" asked Jonas.
"What-NO! It's embarrassing."
Jonas sighed. "Fine, whatever...can you at least hint me?"
"The 'prefer' thing."
"What about it?"
"I was just curious about how...." Asher started blushing and was unfortunate to notice that Jonas and Lily noticed it.
"Uh...mind telling me about this 'prefer' thing?" asked Lily.
"The Giver told me I preferred males more than females, I was just curious about how it feels to be..."
"You blush anymore and it'll be hard to tell the difference from a cherry," said Jonas laughing a little
"Blushing?"
"When blood rushes to your face-not like that!" for Asher had quickly touched his face and looked at his hands to see if there was blood, "I meant that it when it rises to your face then it turns your face red, it happens when you feel embarrassed or angry about something."
"Oh...what's red?"
"One of the colors, like in that vision, the petals on the flowers in the park were red."
"Oh."
Lily looked from Asher to her brother. "Ok, I'm going home, good luck with whatever you're talking about," she sighed as she left them and was off to her dwelling.
Asher stared after her blankly. But he looked away too soon, not realizing where Lily was really going.
"So what are you curious about?"
Asher jumped and nearly fell off his bike. "I'm not telling you. It's really embarrassing and I would be breaking a lot of rules if I told you anyway."
"Which would be?"
"Touching-oops!"
Jonas blushed brightly. "...Let me get this straight," he said blushing steadily harder, "you're curious about males touching males?"
"Well...sort of, yesterday I was curious about the touching and last night I had a dream and now I'm curious about...well I don't know what it's called but it involves two people pressing their lips against each other, and there was another part where their tongues were...I don't know, it looked a bit like wrestling, but in a strange affectionate way-"
Jonas's face now resembled a cherry. "W-well, Asher. You dreamt about kissing, um...French kissing."
"That ACT was called 'kissing'?"
"Yes. French kissing," said Jonas remembering the dream he had last night, it had the same exact description, "wait a minute! Did you see who you were-"
Asher grabbed Jonas close to him and laid his lips on his, at the same time they both opened their lips and they touched each other's tongues. It felt strange at first; it was a new feeling.
Asher was beginning to understand this 'kissing' business and held Jonas closer to him as he explored his friends' mouth with his tongue, feeling somewhat aroused as Jonas slowly ran his hands around his back.
They separated when they heard someone gasp nearby.
"Jonas...Asher? What are you two doing?" breathed Fiona; she was on her bike a few feet away from them looking shocked and horrified.
"Fiona-" started Jonas.
"You broke a rule! You two aren't supposed to touch each other! What were you two thinking!?"
"Calm down Fiona-" started Asher.
"No! No I won't hear it, you two aren't supposed to be touching each other, especially with your mouths and especially because you two are males!"
"Will you listen-FIONA!" shouted Jonas as Fiona quickly turned and rode away speedily, "we are so fucked."
"'Fucked'?" said Asher.
"It's a curse....rude word."
"Oh...we'd better go home, Fiona will probably be off telling our parents what we just did."
"Huh? Oh...yeah, yeah see you tomorrow."
They both quickly hurried off to their dwellings feeling frightened about what Fiona might have told their parents and somehow excited at the feeling when they kissed each other.
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Any good? Was that too fast for the slash part? Review please!!