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really.
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Losing The Grip of The Rules
Things went smoothly for the RTR, they went to meetings without being suspicious, the meetings were all random and the Giver accepted the resistance, he even spoke to a nervous Lily about an escape.
But this plan had to be thought through carefully and quickly because The Ceremony of Twelve was approaching fast and Lily DID NOT want to receive her assignment. And Jonas would have to go through it undetected.
Now that Jonas was receiving more painful memories it was hard for him to teach the resistance about emotions, who were now up to warfare and music.
* * *
The evening found Jonas, Lily and their parents sitting at dinner eating their food quietly. Mother and Father both kept themselves quiet about what happened to Jonas and Asher a week and a half ago.
"Would anyone like to be first to share their emotions?" Father asked calmly as he set his orange juice on the table.
Lily and Jonas didn't reply and continued eating calmly.
"I'll start," said Mother a bit firmly as she glared at her children. Lily, Jonas and Father turned to her, "I feel afraid.....afraid for Lily and Jonas....everyday you two barely speak to us, I just want to know what's wrong."
"There's nothing wrong," said Lily calmly returning to her food. Mother sighed.
"I feel pain."
Everyone turned to Jonas who stared at his food without even seeing it.
"What kind of pain?" asked Father.
"Did you hurt yourself?" asked Mother.
"The pain I feel is in here," Jonas laid his palm on his chest.
"We'll get a relief-of-pain medication for you," said Father.
"Not physical pain."
His parents looked blank except for Lily who looked worried.
"The pain is......sadness for the community."
"What do you mean?" Mother asked still looking blank in the face.
"I'm sad that the community cannot feel real emotions, cannot see colors, cannot hear music."
"Jonas what are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about the truth that this community cannot conceive. You two always take your pills, why?"
"Because we have to, it's in the rules, and it gets in the way."
"How?" Lily asked frowning.
"In our work and your school work, and anyway it's just a waste to have your stirrings the whole time."
"But that way you can feel real emotions," said Jonas heatedly.
"What are you talking about we feel emotions even when we take our pills," said Father.
"They're only ghosts...illusions of the real thing, it's nothing compared to the real thing. Fear is deeper than the fear you think is real, sadness is stronger than what you think, and anger is a lot more stronger as well as happiness."
"If your such an expert than prove it," said Mother laughing as though it were a joke.
There was a pause in which Jonas remembered about saddening things like war, death, release, things the community didn't know.
After having that in his mind he felt the sad feeling spread through him. He felt his face warm up, his nose tickle, and his eyes water in tears.
Mother and Father gasped as they saw tears roll down their sons face. Jonas looked back at them.
"That's how sadness looks like, this what I go through everyday whenever I leave this place," he said, his voice cracking shakily. He took the napkin Lily handed him and wiped his face and blew his nose.
"Are you sure you didn't hurt yourself?" Mother asked shakily.
Lily turned sharply to her. "I suppose you never knew what real sadness feels."
"Lily please," said Mother desperately.
"Anger, tell me about it mom, how do you think it feels?"
"It makes you angry at whatever you-"
"That's aggravation, I'm talking about fury, the urge to throw something so it'll cool you down."
"Lily what are you talking about? I don't understand why someone needs to throw something to calm themselves."
"For example, violence," said Lily grabbing her almost empty orange juice. She stood up and before her parents could even stop her, she threw the cup so hard towards the wall that it gave a loud smash making a mess of orange juice on the wall as shards of glass spilled to the floor.
"That made me feel better," sighed Lily as she sat down, "So, who else wants to share their feelings?"
* * *
The news about Lily smashing the cup was told at the RTR meeting and the announcer had said that an act of violence was against the rules and will be a violation to some degree in the rules.
"I don't want you all to do the same thing I did, I was just frustrated because The Ceremony of Twelve's approaching fast and I really want to leave this place," said Lily the next RTR meeting.
"Don't worry we'll think really hard this time, there has got to be a way to get to Elsewhere without getting a release," said Tom who was now admiring Lily's leadership and stand.
"Yes....I hope there is-"
"There's one way."
All of the children screamed and tried to hide under desks or behind others.
"Don't worry, I won't report you."
"How did you know about this place?" asked Lily shakily. Jonas and Asher looked at the intruder with shock but they didn't move from their spots.
Benjamin walked up to the desk towards Lily who stood shakily still. "I'm here to help you all go to Elsewhere."
Everyone stared at Benjamin in shock. Jonas and Asher both looked dumbstruck.
"Are you, Benjamin, the most smartest yet the most rule-abiding guy around, crazy? You're actually going to help us?" said Asher.
"Yes."
"How did you know about this place?" repeated Lily.
"I saw a ten come here, I listened to what you said and now I'm going to help."
"Really?" piped a male three. Benjamin nodded.
"I want to leave too."
"You do!?" shouted Jonas and Asher shocked.
"There's to many rules, even for me, and I see how unfair it is for you two to have to hide your love in the community."
"Yeah, that really-wait how did you know?" said Jonas raising an eyebrow.
"There were rumors springing everywhere, and I overheard two of your members talking about it."
Anna and Ben blushed in embarrassment.
"Fiona's sorry she told on you two," said Benjamin to Jonas and Asher.
"She is?" said Jonas raising his eyebrows higher.
"Yeah, she hopes you accept your apology and that she'll never tattle on the two of you ever again."
"Oh, ok, sure, we accept her apology. Is she comfortable with us being together though?" asked Asher.
"I don't know, she never told me, I'll have to ask her that-but I won't tell her about this place," he added when Phillipa shot him a suspicious glare.
"Uh.....I guess we have a new member," said Lily a bit shaken by the sudden intrusion.
"What kind of plan have you got in mind?" asked Tori.
"Chemicals," Benjamin said simply, "and a strong distraction."
* * *
"How are the RTR meetings going?" asked Giver the next day as he switched the speaker switch to OFF.
"It went well, Benjamin joined the resistance can you believe that?" said Jonas as he took off his tunic and lay face front on the bed ready to receive a memory.
"I can believe it. He's quite a mysterious character, but I can understand why he wants to go to Elsewhere."
"Why?"
"Have you heard about the latest release?"
"No."
"A friend of his, Daniel was his name, was released because he wasn't going through his training very well and he was breaking quite a lot of rules."
"So that's his reason. I don't blame him, I want to see Gabriel again, see how he's doing."
"Yes, and I want to see Rosemary again too," there was a pause as Giver took grabbed a chair in front of the desk and dragged it to the bed ready to give a memory to Jonas.
"What kind of memory will this be?"
"I realized, that I have kept one memory away from you, it's nothing at all from what you've experienced so far, it's both pleasure and illusion put together."
"What is it?"
"Madness."
"Isn't it the same as anger?"
"It's another word for insanity."
"Oh....you mean there's also REAL insanity like emotions?" Giver nodded and Jonas felt a bit fearful, but he nodded and waited for the memory to be put in him.
- - -
He found himself sitting at the very corner of a square white room; the walls were covered in a special type of cushion but the floor was white and bare.
'Why am I hugging myself?' thought Jonas, he looked down at his arms and gasped when he saw he was wearing some type of shirt that had his arms strapped around himself.
Then for some unknown reason he started to laugh, he stopped about a moment later and tried to think straight. He knew this place somehow, probably when he volunteered to watch over the Old but that was different, they were sane.
He found himself laughing again and wondered when he even started laughing.
But he felt happy. Why on earth would he be happy if he was imprisoned in a white room with nothing to do?
He stood up and walked to the only door, which was made of steel.
He looked through the only window and saw it was almost deserted, it was daytime according to the light flooding through the windows in the halls, a few people were walking through the halls, most where wearing the bizarre shirt Jonas was wearing, but others had on white t-shirts.
Everyone in the halls acted oddly, some walked with their arms twitching, others walked normally but they looked like they were talking to themselves, a few were sitting in wheelchairs looking around, some laughing.
Jonas jumped back when someone jumped up to the window scaring him. He cursed loudly at him and kicked the door not knowing why he was doing it.
'No....I have to think straight...ok I'm in a home for insane people...but I'm not insane.'
He looked around hoping to see an exit, but there wasn't any. He quickly tried to free his arms from the shirt but he realized with a pang of horror that it was strapped tightly to the back of the shirt.
He didn't know why, but he banged himself off the pillowed walls trying to free himself, in the end he was rolling around lazily on the ground humming to a tune while also looking up at the ceiling.
- - -
Jonas gasped and opened his eyes sitting up quickly.
"Are you alright?" asked Giver. Jonas nodded as he returned to his normal level of breathing.
"What was that shirt that strapped me called?" he asked.
"I can't really remember now that it's gone, stretch coat I think they called it," said Giver.
"That was the most strangest memory I've ever received," said Jonas as he fell back on the bed, "how there aren't any insane people here?"
"They were released."
"I feel sorry for them....I felt how they felt, and it's saddening."
"Yes it is."
"What else is there left?"
"Just the madness stuff, after that, you are the receiver and I will be sent to the House of The Old."
"WHAT!? Already?"
"Yes. By the time the ceremonies are over, I will no longer be the receiver or giver, that would be your job."
"I hope we get to Elsewhere before the Ceremony of Twelve, Lily really doesn't want her assignment even if she does like it."
"You know what her assignment would be?"
"No what?"
"Chief Elder, she's so good with being leader, you have a good sister Jonas."
"Yeah I know, she's really matured."
"Yes she has....but listen closely, the memory of madness that you've received, be very careful with it, it's very delicate you see, you'll have to keep calm with things, don't let things get too overboard. You see it can be triggered by a strong anger feeling."
Jonas nodded; he would have to be very careful now. "See you tomorrow then?" Giver nodded.
Jonas put back on his tunic and left the room.
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There you go, chapter six, REVIEW PLEASE!!!! (you realize I always say this at the end of every chapter, -_-;)
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Losing The Grip of The Rules
Things went smoothly for the RTR, they went to meetings without being suspicious, the meetings were all random and the Giver accepted the resistance, he even spoke to a nervous Lily about an escape.
But this plan had to be thought through carefully and quickly because The Ceremony of Twelve was approaching fast and Lily DID NOT want to receive her assignment. And Jonas would have to go through it undetected.
Now that Jonas was receiving more painful memories it was hard for him to teach the resistance about emotions, who were now up to warfare and music.
* * *
The evening found Jonas, Lily and their parents sitting at dinner eating their food quietly. Mother and Father both kept themselves quiet about what happened to Jonas and Asher a week and a half ago.
"Would anyone like to be first to share their emotions?" Father asked calmly as he set his orange juice on the table.
Lily and Jonas didn't reply and continued eating calmly.
"I'll start," said Mother a bit firmly as she glared at her children. Lily, Jonas and Father turned to her, "I feel afraid.....afraid for Lily and Jonas....everyday you two barely speak to us, I just want to know what's wrong."
"There's nothing wrong," said Lily calmly returning to her food. Mother sighed.
"I feel pain."
Everyone turned to Jonas who stared at his food without even seeing it.
"What kind of pain?" asked Father.
"Did you hurt yourself?" asked Mother.
"The pain I feel is in here," Jonas laid his palm on his chest.
"We'll get a relief-of-pain medication for you," said Father.
"Not physical pain."
His parents looked blank except for Lily who looked worried.
"The pain is......sadness for the community."
"What do you mean?" Mother asked still looking blank in the face.
"I'm sad that the community cannot feel real emotions, cannot see colors, cannot hear music."
"Jonas what are you talking about?"
"I'm talking about the truth that this community cannot conceive. You two always take your pills, why?"
"Because we have to, it's in the rules, and it gets in the way."
"How?" Lily asked frowning.
"In our work and your school work, and anyway it's just a waste to have your stirrings the whole time."
"But that way you can feel real emotions," said Jonas heatedly.
"What are you talking about we feel emotions even when we take our pills," said Father.
"They're only ghosts...illusions of the real thing, it's nothing compared to the real thing. Fear is deeper than the fear you think is real, sadness is stronger than what you think, and anger is a lot more stronger as well as happiness."
"If your such an expert than prove it," said Mother laughing as though it were a joke.
There was a pause in which Jonas remembered about saddening things like war, death, release, things the community didn't know.
After having that in his mind he felt the sad feeling spread through him. He felt his face warm up, his nose tickle, and his eyes water in tears.
Mother and Father gasped as they saw tears roll down their sons face. Jonas looked back at them.
"That's how sadness looks like, this what I go through everyday whenever I leave this place," he said, his voice cracking shakily. He took the napkin Lily handed him and wiped his face and blew his nose.
"Are you sure you didn't hurt yourself?" Mother asked shakily.
Lily turned sharply to her. "I suppose you never knew what real sadness feels."
"Lily please," said Mother desperately.
"Anger, tell me about it mom, how do you think it feels?"
"It makes you angry at whatever you-"
"That's aggravation, I'm talking about fury, the urge to throw something so it'll cool you down."
"Lily what are you talking about? I don't understand why someone needs to throw something to calm themselves."
"For example, violence," said Lily grabbing her almost empty orange juice. She stood up and before her parents could even stop her, she threw the cup so hard towards the wall that it gave a loud smash making a mess of orange juice on the wall as shards of glass spilled to the floor.
"That made me feel better," sighed Lily as she sat down, "So, who else wants to share their feelings?"
* * *
The news about Lily smashing the cup was told at the RTR meeting and the announcer had said that an act of violence was against the rules and will be a violation to some degree in the rules.
"I don't want you all to do the same thing I did, I was just frustrated because The Ceremony of Twelve's approaching fast and I really want to leave this place," said Lily the next RTR meeting.
"Don't worry we'll think really hard this time, there has got to be a way to get to Elsewhere without getting a release," said Tom who was now admiring Lily's leadership and stand.
"Yes....I hope there is-"
"There's one way."
All of the children screamed and tried to hide under desks or behind others.
"Don't worry, I won't report you."
"How did you know about this place?" asked Lily shakily. Jonas and Asher looked at the intruder with shock but they didn't move from their spots.
Benjamin walked up to the desk towards Lily who stood shakily still. "I'm here to help you all go to Elsewhere."
Everyone stared at Benjamin in shock. Jonas and Asher both looked dumbstruck.
"Are you, Benjamin, the most smartest yet the most rule-abiding guy around, crazy? You're actually going to help us?" said Asher.
"Yes."
"How did you know about this place?" repeated Lily.
"I saw a ten come here, I listened to what you said and now I'm going to help."
"Really?" piped a male three. Benjamin nodded.
"I want to leave too."
"You do!?" shouted Jonas and Asher shocked.
"There's to many rules, even for me, and I see how unfair it is for you two to have to hide your love in the community."
"Yeah, that really-wait how did you know?" said Jonas raising an eyebrow.
"There were rumors springing everywhere, and I overheard two of your members talking about it."
Anna and Ben blushed in embarrassment.
"Fiona's sorry she told on you two," said Benjamin to Jonas and Asher.
"She is?" said Jonas raising his eyebrows higher.
"Yeah, she hopes you accept your apology and that she'll never tattle on the two of you ever again."
"Oh, ok, sure, we accept her apology. Is she comfortable with us being together though?" asked Asher.
"I don't know, she never told me, I'll have to ask her that-but I won't tell her about this place," he added when Phillipa shot him a suspicious glare.
"Uh.....I guess we have a new member," said Lily a bit shaken by the sudden intrusion.
"What kind of plan have you got in mind?" asked Tori.
"Chemicals," Benjamin said simply, "and a strong distraction."
* * *
"How are the RTR meetings going?" asked Giver the next day as he switched the speaker switch to OFF.
"It went well, Benjamin joined the resistance can you believe that?" said Jonas as he took off his tunic and lay face front on the bed ready to receive a memory.
"I can believe it. He's quite a mysterious character, but I can understand why he wants to go to Elsewhere."
"Why?"
"Have you heard about the latest release?"
"No."
"A friend of his, Daniel was his name, was released because he wasn't going through his training very well and he was breaking quite a lot of rules."
"So that's his reason. I don't blame him, I want to see Gabriel again, see how he's doing."
"Yes, and I want to see Rosemary again too," there was a pause as Giver took grabbed a chair in front of the desk and dragged it to the bed ready to give a memory to Jonas.
"What kind of memory will this be?"
"I realized, that I have kept one memory away from you, it's nothing at all from what you've experienced so far, it's both pleasure and illusion put together."
"What is it?"
"Madness."
"Isn't it the same as anger?"
"It's another word for insanity."
"Oh....you mean there's also REAL insanity like emotions?" Giver nodded and Jonas felt a bit fearful, but he nodded and waited for the memory to be put in him.
- - -
He found himself sitting at the very corner of a square white room; the walls were covered in a special type of cushion but the floor was white and bare.
'Why am I hugging myself?' thought Jonas, he looked down at his arms and gasped when he saw he was wearing some type of shirt that had his arms strapped around himself.
Then for some unknown reason he started to laugh, he stopped about a moment later and tried to think straight. He knew this place somehow, probably when he volunteered to watch over the Old but that was different, they were sane.
He found himself laughing again and wondered when he even started laughing.
But he felt happy. Why on earth would he be happy if he was imprisoned in a white room with nothing to do?
He stood up and walked to the only door, which was made of steel.
He looked through the only window and saw it was almost deserted, it was daytime according to the light flooding through the windows in the halls, a few people were walking through the halls, most where wearing the bizarre shirt Jonas was wearing, but others had on white t-shirts.
Everyone in the halls acted oddly, some walked with their arms twitching, others walked normally but they looked like they were talking to themselves, a few were sitting in wheelchairs looking around, some laughing.
Jonas jumped back when someone jumped up to the window scaring him. He cursed loudly at him and kicked the door not knowing why he was doing it.
'No....I have to think straight...ok I'm in a home for insane people...but I'm not insane.'
He looked around hoping to see an exit, but there wasn't any. He quickly tried to free his arms from the shirt but he realized with a pang of horror that it was strapped tightly to the back of the shirt.
He didn't know why, but he banged himself off the pillowed walls trying to free himself, in the end he was rolling around lazily on the ground humming to a tune while also looking up at the ceiling.
- - -
Jonas gasped and opened his eyes sitting up quickly.
"Are you alright?" asked Giver. Jonas nodded as he returned to his normal level of breathing.
"What was that shirt that strapped me called?" he asked.
"I can't really remember now that it's gone, stretch coat I think they called it," said Giver.
"That was the most strangest memory I've ever received," said Jonas as he fell back on the bed, "how there aren't any insane people here?"
"They were released."
"I feel sorry for them....I felt how they felt, and it's saddening."
"Yes it is."
"What else is there left?"
"Just the madness stuff, after that, you are the receiver and I will be sent to the House of The Old."
"WHAT!? Already?"
"Yes. By the time the ceremonies are over, I will no longer be the receiver or giver, that would be your job."
"I hope we get to Elsewhere before the Ceremony of Twelve, Lily really doesn't want her assignment even if she does like it."
"You know what her assignment would be?"
"No what?"
"Chief Elder, she's so good with being leader, you have a good sister Jonas."
"Yeah I know, she's really matured."
"Yes she has....but listen closely, the memory of madness that you've received, be very careful with it, it's very delicate you see, you'll have to keep calm with things, don't let things get too overboard. You see it can be triggered by a strong anger feeling."
Jonas nodded; he would have to be very careful now. "See you tomorrow then?" Giver nodded.
Jonas put back on his tunic and left the room.
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There you go, chapter six, REVIEW PLEASE!!!! (you realize I always say this at the end of every chapter, -_-;)