Disclaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho.
Warning: Shounen ai, lime
Hiei POV
Crystalline Tears
How could he love me? Why does he love me? Is it wrong....? These were the thoughts going through my head that night. I was sitting on his bed, cleaning my latest opponent's blood off of my katana. He looked so deep in thought, sitting there with his eyes concentrating on his homework. Atleast, I thought he was thinking about his homework....but no. Later I would come to find out that he was thinking of how to confess his love for me. He turned in his chair, and his emerald green eyes gazed into my ruby ones. Opening his mouth to speak, only a small noise came out of it. He sighed and turned his back to me. I stared at him for a while, admiring the crimson locks of hair that I wanted so desperately to run my fingers through. He turned again, and seemed a bit surprised to find me staring at him. I looked into the depths of his beautiful eyes, some part of me hoping they would tell me what I needed to know. Kurama got up, walked over, and stood in front of me. Apparently he wasn't comfortable with his place and decided to sit down beside me on the bed.
"Hiei...I...", he sighed. I knew that what he had to say must be difficult for him because he can usually tell me anything. Not this time, I suppose. "Hiei...I've been thinking alot...", he managed to get out. I shook my head and said, "When are you not thinking, kitsune?". Obviously he didn't want me to interrupt, for he got an impatient look on his face. "I've been wondering what...my exact...feelings are towards you", he started again,"and I've figured out that....well, that I...love you..". I sat there in stunned silence. Kurama had his head turned towards the floor, his eyes closed. My heart was pounding rapidly. I felt a blush appear on my face as I continued to stare, disbelieving. Kurama opened his eyes and turned to look at me.
"Do you....feel the same way, Hiei?", he asked me, his voice full of uncertainty. Kami, I loved him so much. I wanted to tell him how much so badly. However, I decided to deny my feelings. I've always heard that it was wrong to love someone of the same gender. "Kurama....I....can't...", was all I was able to get out. Kurama looked as if I had murdered a litter of kittens right in front of him. I'll never forget that look or the emotions in it. Love. Sorrow. Curiousity. "I don't understand why you can't...but if you don't then...-" "I can't love you, Kurama! But I do! I do!", is what I said to interrupt him that time. Kurama's face took on the look of confusion. Confusion that I could not clear as well as I'd liked to. I sheathed my katana and got to my feet.
"Hiei, please don't leave! Please, I need to talk to you!", he shouted as I made for the window. I lifted it, and slipped out not saying a word.
I flitted through the trees, the icy night wind nipping at my face, tangling my hair. The whole time I ran, I couldn't stop crying. My tear gems crystallized as they fell from my eyes. I stopped at a large tree somewhere in a forest. I held in my hand the black hiroseki stones that had been the result of my untamed sorrow. Maybe Kurama was right...we should talk about it. That was the last thing I remember thinking before I drifted off into a deep sleep on a high up branch of the tree I landed on.
Angsty, ne? I hate angst, and look at what I just wrote! O_o Anyway, Review please! Let me know if I should continue this fic or not ^________^ Arigato!
Warning: Shounen ai, lime
Hiei POV
Crystalline Tears
How could he love me? Why does he love me? Is it wrong....? These were the thoughts going through my head that night. I was sitting on his bed, cleaning my latest opponent's blood off of my katana. He looked so deep in thought, sitting there with his eyes concentrating on his homework. Atleast, I thought he was thinking about his homework....but no. Later I would come to find out that he was thinking of how to confess his love for me. He turned in his chair, and his emerald green eyes gazed into my ruby ones. Opening his mouth to speak, only a small noise came out of it. He sighed and turned his back to me. I stared at him for a while, admiring the crimson locks of hair that I wanted so desperately to run my fingers through. He turned again, and seemed a bit surprised to find me staring at him. I looked into the depths of his beautiful eyes, some part of me hoping they would tell me what I needed to know. Kurama got up, walked over, and stood in front of me. Apparently he wasn't comfortable with his place and decided to sit down beside me on the bed.
"Hiei...I...", he sighed. I knew that what he had to say must be difficult for him because he can usually tell me anything. Not this time, I suppose. "Hiei...I've been thinking alot...", he managed to get out. I shook my head and said, "When are you not thinking, kitsune?". Obviously he didn't want me to interrupt, for he got an impatient look on his face. "I've been wondering what...my exact...feelings are towards you", he started again,"and I've figured out that....well, that I...love you..". I sat there in stunned silence. Kurama had his head turned towards the floor, his eyes closed. My heart was pounding rapidly. I felt a blush appear on my face as I continued to stare, disbelieving. Kurama opened his eyes and turned to look at me.
"Do you....feel the same way, Hiei?", he asked me, his voice full of uncertainty. Kami, I loved him so much. I wanted to tell him how much so badly. However, I decided to deny my feelings. I've always heard that it was wrong to love someone of the same gender. "Kurama....I....can't...", was all I was able to get out. Kurama looked as if I had murdered a litter of kittens right in front of him. I'll never forget that look or the emotions in it. Love. Sorrow. Curiousity. "I don't understand why you can't...but if you don't then...-" "I can't love you, Kurama! But I do! I do!", is what I said to interrupt him that time. Kurama's face took on the look of confusion. Confusion that I could not clear as well as I'd liked to. I sheathed my katana and got to my feet.
"Hiei, please don't leave! Please, I need to talk to you!", he shouted as I made for the window. I lifted it, and slipped out not saying a word.
I flitted through the trees, the icy night wind nipping at my face, tangling my hair. The whole time I ran, I couldn't stop crying. My tear gems crystallized as they fell from my eyes. I stopped at a large tree somewhere in a forest. I held in my hand the black hiroseki stones that had been the result of my untamed sorrow. Maybe Kurama was right...we should talk about it. That was the last thing I remember thinking before I drifted off into a deep sleep on a high up branch of the tree I landed on.
Angsty, ne? I hate angst, and look at what I just wrote! O_o Anyway, Review please! Let me know if I should continue this fic or not ^________^ Arigato!