Author's note- I'm writing this story based on my past experiences
everything I write that happens to Shaye is what happened to me. I'm sure
this has been done before but if it has I'm sorry that I also have the idea
to do a 'me attending horizon' fanfic. Nonetheless I'm now 16 so Shaye is
also 16. Sorry it has taken me FOREVER to update but some stuff has been
going on and yeah. Ill try to write more I just don't know where to go with
this anymore. Much like my life.
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The next morning Shaye awoke in the infirmary. Puzzled as to why she was there she quickly jumped up. With the amount of blood that she had lost, and her not eating in a few days she was lightheaded and soon collapsed back onto the cot. Peter had stayed with her all night, wondering, thinking what could possibly have this young girl so upset. Noticing that she had tried unsuccessfully to get up out of bed Peter walked over to her.
"Wh.what am I doing in here...again." Shaye asked rather cold. Peter looked at her; he stared in her sky blue eyes and tried to find a way to explain to her why exactly she was back in the infirmary. Obviously she had not known what she did or else she would already know why she was in the infirmary. Shaye turned her head. "Why wont you answer me?" she questioned getting nervous. Oh no I didn't..did I? I couldn't have he couldn't have I didn't say anything I couldn't have. Shaye kept questioning herself. Finally Peter spoke.
"You cut yourself last night. WE wanted to make sure that you were safe. I stayed with you all night. Nothing here can hurt you do you hear me, nothing." He spoke rather fiercely.
Shaye looked down to her bandaged arms and wondered why she trusted this stranger so much. Of all people she could trust she chose him..a guy. After everything.
"I.I'm sorry." that's all she could manage to say.
"You will be on restriction and 24 hour watch for the next 4 days at least. A counselor or a senior will be with you at all times." "We have a lot to talk about, but for now you have group."
Shaye got dressed and met Peter outside. They walked to group silently.
"Sophie why can't we start already?" Scott begged eagerly. "I have some important 'stuff' to get back to." as he winked at Shelby. Scott and Shelby had been through some rough times up at Horizon and considering their pasts well what more can one say. They fit together like a puzzle piece fits into its correct position. Sophie noticing the tension tried to lighten the mood.
"Look I know you all are a little impatient and eager to leave, but you have a new member in the cliffhanger group."
"Yah that psycho bit..bitter girl who tried to kill herself in OUR dorm last night." Shelby cut in rather coldly. She had not even met this newbie yet and already she hated her.
"SHELBY!" Sophie yelled angrily towards her.
"About time" Sophie whispered to herself, as she saw Peter walk into the lodge followed by a short girl who looked rather skinny than she did in her baggy clothes. "I'll have to make sure she eats all her meals regularly." Sophie made a mental note to herself.
"Peter I really..." "There is nothing to be scared of, this will be your group these people will be like family. You have to learn to trust them and live with them." Peter cut in. "Take a seat anywhere possible."
Sophie pulled her husband over to the side so they could talk in private shortly before group started. "What took so long, this is one impatient group." "I'm sorry Soph, she had some issues about coming. Plus she nearly passed out getting up this morning. I don't know how I'm.we're going to get through to her." "We will find a way, we always do. But right now you have to start group, and good luck with that."
"Alright everyone, sorry for keeping you waiting. As you all must have noticed by now we have a new member to the Cliffhangers. Everyone this is Shaye."
Everyone turned to look at the newbie. Whispers were heard and Shaye sunk lower into the chair. One thing she hated were people staring at her.
"Okay, let's start off with introductions and 'I feel.' Scott care to begin?" Peter asked..well rather demanded.
"Not like I have a choice now do I?" Scott said sarcastically. "Hey, my names Scott I'm here because I was abused by my skank of a step mom. And I feel anxious." And Scott winked to Shelby as to what will be happening later when they met at the docks. "Daisy." "I'm Daisy, I'm in here for clubbing daddy dearest over the head with a seven iron. I feel someone's wearing a mask." Daisy looked directly to Shaye who intently was wearing a mask. Daisy nodded to Ez, almost as if saying go ahead.
"Hey, my names Ezra I'm here because I became a pharmacist." "Ezra!" Peter said sternly. "Okay okay, I WANT to be a pharmacist but I'm here because I got into drugs.pretty bad. I feel rejected." He looked over to Daisy who turned her head away. It had only been two days since she told Ezra to leave her alone and that She wanted to be alone and not have a relationship. But Ezra couldn't handle, he got heartbroken at the thought that Daisy liked David.
"David?" "I'm David. And I shouldn't be here. But they sent me to cheer this place up." Peter opened his mouth about to scold David for not telling the truth but got interrupted. "Peter save it, okay names David I'm here because the General couldn't deal. I feel normal." "Auggie." "Yo, meat names Auggie. I'm in for being into gangs pretty bad. I feel amazing." Auggie smiled to himself, he and Jules just got together, and he hadn't felt this good in a very long time. "Jules." "Hey!" Jules said rather solemnly for her character. Sophie immediately wondered what was wrong with her. First Jules forgets about meeting the newbie, and then she shrugs Sophie off now she appears to be down on herself. "I'm Julliette. I.I'm here because I'm too much to handle for mother. I am an embarrassment to her and it is better without me around all the time. You know getting in the way." She looked to the floor. "Jules! Now you know that is not true." Peter tried to re-enforce that into her head. "Whatever." Was all Jules could manage to say. "Shelby." "I'm Shelby. I'm here because I'm here. And really that reason is none of your business. I feel angry." She said glaring at Shaye who didn't even want to look up. "Shaye, it's your turn now, just do what everyone else did. Say why you're here then an I feel." Peter hoped that maybe she would explain what is bothering her so bad.
"I'm Shaye, My wonderful parents sent me. Although I guess.." She broke down. Everyone was looking at her. "I did what I did last night because I can't deal. Okay!!!! SO STOP STARING AT ME!!!" She screamed.
"Group is over, I expect you all to be in class in 10 minutes. I'll send Roger to make sure you are all there." As everyone got up to leave Peter asked for Shaye and Juliette to stay behind.
Peter pulled Jules aside. "I can't help but notice that something serious is bothering you. I want to see you in my office as soon as class is over. But for now you are Shayes first week buddy. I know you can do this Jules, just be yourself. I need to talk with her for awhile so she won't be attending class today. So you may head off." "What if myself isn't good enough?" Jules asked her self silently walking away. "Don't forget Jules, my office after class." With that she was gone. In Peter's office.
"Have a seat." Shaye sat in the corner of the couch. Knees pulled up to her chest, staring down at the floor. It was an awkward moment of silence then finally she spoke. "I'm sorry." Peter and Sophie both looked at her stunned. "I'm sorry I made everyone hate me already and I'm sorry that I made your jobs difficult, I'm sorry about breaking the mirror and cutting I'm sorry about running I'm just I'm sorry." Tears were welling up in her eyes but she couldn't let them she how weak she was. Shaye blinked them back.
"I know it must be difficult for you. This is new, I understand. But you still have to abide by the rules. I need to know. When I searched your bag we found a vile of Ketamine and some glass. Did you use the day you came?" Peter looker her in the eyes hoping they would tell.
Shaye didn't want to lie, so she nodded. That's all she could manage. After all it was the truth.
"Your file is pretty vague, do you mind telling us why you're here?" Peter questioned Shaye, while looking to his wife. Sophie gave him a reassuring look as to say that he was doing everything correctly. He only managed a shrug out of the girl. Peter questioned her again, question after question all her got was a slight shrug.
"Well, I can see you don't really feel up to talking right now. You may as well go off to class. Soph will go with you."
Shaye got up and reached for the door.
"Oh Shaye. I'd like to see you later today after lunch. Nothing here will hurt you; you're in a safe place." With that she left.
How am I ever going to get through to her? She's solid. Peter thought to himself as he saw his wife and a small figure walk away from his office.
"There's something about her.something" he told himself. Something he couldn't quite put his finger on.
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The next morning Shaye awoke in the infirmary. Puzzled as to why she was there she quickly jumped up. With the amount of blood that she had lost, and her not eating in a few days she was lightheaded and soon collapsed back onto the cot. Peter had stayed with her all night, wondering, thinking what could possibly have this young girl so upset. Noticing that she had tried unsuccessfully to get up out of bed Peter walked over to her.
"Wh.what am I doing in here...again." Shaye asked rather cold. Peter looked at her; he stared in her sky blue eyes and tried to find a way to explain to her why exactly she was back in the infirmary. Obviously she had not known what she did or else she would already know why she was in the infirmary. Shaye turned her head. "Why wont you answer me?" she questioned getting nervous. Oh no I didn't..did I? I couldn't have he couldn't have I didn't say anything I couldn't have. Shaye kept questioning herself. Finally Peter spoke.
"You cut yourself last night. WE wanted to make sure that you were safe. I stayed with you all night. Nothing here can hurt you do you hear me, nothing." He spoke rather fiercely.
Shaye looked down to her bandaged arms and wondered why she trusted this stranger so much. Of all people she could trust she chose him..a guy. After everything.
"I.I'm sorry." that's all she could manage to say.
"You will be on restriction and 24 hour watch for the next 4 days at least. A counselor or a senior will be with you at all times." "We have a lot to talk about, but for now you have group."
Shaye got dressed and met Peter outside. They walked to group silently.
"Sophie why can't we start already?" Scott begged eagerly. "I have some important 'stuff' to get back to." as he winked at Shelby. Scott and Shelby had been through some rough times up at Horizon and considering their pasts well what more can one say. They fit together like a puzzle piece fits into its correct position. Sophie noticing the tension tried to lighten the mood.
"Look I know you all are a little impatient and eager to leave, but you have a new member in the cliffhanger group."
"Yah that psycho bit..bitter girl who tried to kill herself in OUR dorm last night." Shelby cut in rather coldly. She had not even met this newbie yet and already she hated her.
"SHELBY!" Sophie yelled angrily towards her.
"About time" Sophie whispered to herself, as she saw Peter walk into the lodge followed by a short girl who looked rather skinny than she did in her baggy clothes. "I'll have to make sure she eats all her meals regularly." Sophie made a mental note to herself.
"Peter I really..." "There is nothing to be scared of, this will be your group these people will be like family. You have to learn to trust them and live with them." Peter cut in. "Take a seat anywhere possible."
Sophie pulled her husband over to the side so they could talk in private shortly before group started. "What took so long, this is one impatient group." "I'm sorry Soph, she had some issues about coming. Plus she nearly passed out getting up this morning. I don't know how I'm.we're going to get through to her." "We will find a way, we always do. But right now you have to start group, and good luck with that."
"Alright everyone, sorry for keeping you waiting. As you all must have noticed by now we have a new member to the Cliffhangers. Everyone this is Shaye."
Everyone turned to look at the newbie. Whispers were heard and Shaye sunk lower into the chair. One thing she hated were people staring at her.
"Okay, let's start off with introductions and 'I feel.' Scott care to begin?" Peter asked..well rather demanded.
"Not like I have a choice now do I?" Scott said sarcastically. "Hey, my names Scott I'm here because I was abused by my skank of a step mom. And I feel anxious." And Scott winked to Shelby as to what will be happening later when they met at the docks. "Daisy." "I'm Daisy, I'm in here for clubbing daddy dearest over the head with a seven iron. I feel someone's wearing a mask." Daisy looked directly to Shaye who intently was wearing a mask. Daisy nodded to Ez, almost as if saying go ahead.
"Hey, my names Ezra I'm here because I became a pharmacist." "Ezra!" Peter said sternly. "Okay okay, I WANT to be a pharmacist but I'm here because I got into drugs.pretty bad. I feel rejected." He looked over to Daisy who turned her head away. It had only been two days since she told Ezra to leave her alone and that She wanted to be alone and not have a relationship. But Ezra couldn't handle, he got heartbroken at the thought that Daisy liked David.
"David?" "I'm David. And I shouldn't be here. But they sent me to cheer this place up." Peter opened his mouth about to scold David for not telling the truth but got interrupted. "Peter save it, okay names David I'm here because the General couldn't deal. I feel normal." "Auggie." "Yo, meat names Auggie. I'm in for being into gangs pretty bad. I feel amazing." Auggie smiled to himself, he and Jules just got together, and he hadn't felt this good in a very long time. "Jules." "Hey!" Jules said rather solemnly for her character. Sophie immediately wondered what was wrong with her. First Jules forgets about meeting the newbie, and then she shrugs Sophie off now she appears to be down on herself. "I'm Julliette. I.I'm here because I'm too much to handle for mother. I am an embarrassment to her and it is better without me around all the time. You know getting in the way." She looked to the floor. "Jules! Now you know that is not true." Peter tried to re-enforce that into her head. "Whatever." Was all Jules could manage to say. "Shelby." "I'm Shelby. I'm here because I'm here. And really that reason is none of your business. I feel angry." She said glaring at Shaye who didn't even want to look up. "Shaye, it's your turn now, just do what everyone else did. Say why you're here then an I feel." Peter hoped that maybe she would explain what is bothering her so bad.
"I'm Shaye, My wonderful parents sent me. Although I guess.." She broke down. Everyone was looking at her. "I did what I did last night because I can't deal. Okay!!!! SO STOP STARING AT ME!!!" She screamed.
"Group is over, I expect you all to be in class in 10 minutes. I'll send Roger to make sure you are all there." As everyone got up to leave Peter asked for Shaye and Juliette to stay behind.
Peter pulled Jules aside. "I can't help but notice that something serious is bothering you. I want to see you in my office as soon as class is over. But for now you are Shayes first week buddy. I know you can do this Jules, just be yourself. I need to talk with her for awhile so she won't be attending class today. So you may head off." "What if myself isn't good enough?" Jules asked her self silently walking away. "Don't forget Jules, my office after class." With that she was gone. In Peter's office.
"Have a seat." Shaye sat in the corner of the couch. Knees pulled up to her chest, staring down at the floor. It was an awkward moment of silence then finally she spoke. "I'm sorry." Peter and Sophie both looked at her stunned. "I'm sorry I made everyone hate me already and I'm sorry that I made your jobs difficult, I'm sorry about breaking the mirror and cutting I'm sorry about running I'm just I'm sorry." Tears were welling up in her eyes but she couldn't let them she how weak she was. Shaye blinked them back.
"I know it must be difficult for you. This is new, I understand. But you still have to abide by the rules. I need to know. When I searched your bag we found a vile of Ketamine and some glass. Did you use the day you came?" Peter looker her in the eyes hoping they would tell.
Shaye didn't want to lie, so she nodded. That's all she could manage. After all it was the truth.
"Your file is pretty vague, do you mind telling us why you're here?" Peter questioned Shaye, while looking to his wife. Sophie gave him a reassuring look as to say that he was doing everything correctly. He only managed a shrug out of the girl. Peter questioned her again, question after question all her got was a slight shrug.
"Well, I can see you don't really feel up to talking right now. You may as well go off to class. Soph will go with you."
Shaye got up and reached for the door.
"Oh Shaye. I'd like to see you later today after lunch. Nothing here will hurt you; you're in a safe place." With that she left.
How am I ever going to get through to her? She's solid. Peter thought to himself as he saw his wife and a small figure walk away from his office.
"There's something about her.something" he told himself. Something he couldn't quite put his finger on.