Sophie and Shaye walked silently to her chemistry class, all the while
thoughts were flowing through both of their heads.
Shaye couldn't help but wonder what was going to happen to her while she
served her time in this 'prison' like facility. Being watched constantly-
having to attend class it was just too much to bear.
"Okay class turn to page 227 in your Heath Chemistry lab procedures textbook. We will be completing the prelab for..." a knock interrupted Jeff Sophie walked in, Shaye in tow. "Jeff, this is Shaye, she is new here but will be in your advanced chem. class." "Always glad to have new students, Shaye why don't you take a seat-anywhere is fine." Jeff said rather energetically. Sophie and Jeff walked to the corner of the room to talk, while the class started to talk amongst themselves.
"Jeff, she needs to be under 24hour watch so she is not to leave the room without Kat or any other senior. She has yet to fit in with the cliffhangers. She is really a very nice girl we just, we can't pin what's wrong with her yet...she" Jeff cut in, seeing something in Sophie's eyes, something he hasn't seen in her eyes before. It was almost as if he could sense that Sophie felt for this little girl, almost like it was one of her own.
"Sophie." Jeff started, waiting for her to meet his eyes. Ever since they started talking she had yet to look at him. "It will be okay, i'm sure she will fit in fine." They continued to talk while the other advanced Chem cliffhangers began to talk to Shaye.
"Hey." A tall blond strong figured boy said. "Hey" she replied rather solemnly. "I'm Scott..how do you like it here so far?" he asked unsure of what to say "Well, I ran, 'tried to kill myself' which actually I didn't want to die I just wanted to numb myself, blew up at group, got hated by almost everyone that's in my group-feel like a fool and now I don't know what to do." It was the truth; Scott didn't quite expect an answer like that
"Oh..uhh well we all had bad first days. And as far as running don't worry most of us have tried." "Yah, I got as far as the bus station one time. I hadn't been here longer than 45 minutes Roger was still giving my parents the introduction." Kat broke into their conversation
"Did you catch the bus?" Shaye questioned.
"Nope Peter was waiting at the ticket booth for me." Kat smiled, knowing that he truly did save her life and hoping that maybe but some slim chance Shaye knew it too.
Sophie left can Jeff began class again. Jeff noticed something that rarely happened with new students, Shaye was working and with Scott. Scott wasn't shutting her out or being rude he was helping her. Jeff smiled to himself.
Back in Peter's office. "So, what are we going to do with her?" Sophie questioned. "Well I'll have to inform her parents and perhaps see about getting her out of this school." "What! No. Peter you CANT do that, she isn't well enough to leave, look at her-look at her files-you know what she did she obviously has a lot of demons to fight and getting her out of here? What's that going to do but push her farther into this darkness that already entails her?!!!"
"Soph, I know!!!Okay I know how bad she is hurting but what am I to do? Sometimes cutting is a cry that they want to go home, it's up to her parents. Maybe she needs something more than this school." Peter replied almost giving up hope.
"You can't let her go home Peter, I just have this feeling..." Peter cut her off "Don't assume or go by what you feel. One can not let feelings interfere with jobs like this, only go by what you know. I know she needs help but we can not help her until she is willing to get help-until she reaches out to us."
"Either way I need to inform her parents." Sophie looked down to him, "I know."
She walked behind his chair and wrapped her arms around him. A feeling of safety quickly enthralled them both.
"Okay class, your homework is to finish up the pre-lab. And be prepared for the lab tomorrow and a special 'pop quiz sometime next week." Jeff was trying to yell after his class.
"Oh perfect a 'pop' quiz."Shaye was thinking to herself on her way back to Peter's office. "Why are you following me?" She asked well rather demanded of Kat. "24hour supervision, since i'm a senior and was in your advanced chem. Class I got assigned the job." Kat said.
"Don't sound too happy." Shaye replied sarcastically "Oh don't worry." Kat said while laughing. Shaye couldn't help but smile and laugh with her. "That's what I like to see. " Sophie intruded on their conversation. She smiled.
In Peters office-
There was a knock at the door, Peter dropped Shayes files and opened it. "Jules, come in." "Why am I hear Peter?" She questioned. "I've been eating my meals, I haven't purged.and look" she rolls up her sleeves "No new cuts!..why?" "Jules, both Sophie and I have noticed that something was going on with you. Your merely here because I'm worried about you. We both care about you and it hurts us to see that you're not 'yourself' anymore. We just want to help you sweetie."
"Peter.I.I just well when mail came a couple days ago I got a letter from mother." She turned her head away
"Go on Jules, its okay sweetie." Peter tried to re-assure her
"Well, I opened it when I was alone because I didn't know what to expect.. All the other girls were out by the gazebo and I was alone in the dorm. I read the letter and I felt so awful that I just wanted to hurt myself-to let it all leak out for everyone else to see but I didn't Peter I didn't."
"Jules I'm so beyond glad that you didn't, you've learnt a lot here you know that? You have new coping skills and I'm glad you used them instead..but with all my pride in you I have yet to understand what has you so upset?"
"It was mother, you know parents week is coming up and I was awfully looking forward to seeing her. I mean not once has she come up to visit, everyone else's parents have come and gone while mother just doesn't come. She told me that she wouldn't come up because she doesn't believe that I have made a significant amount of improvement and she would be embarrassed for Bill -That's her new husband's name- to meet me under such circumstances." She wiped a tear from her eye. "Why can't she just love me Peter? Why am I soo awful for her? Why am I such a disappointment?" "Shhh shhh sweetie you're not a disappointment your mother is. She wasn't the mother she should be, you deserve so much more." He walked closer to her and embraced her in a hug.
"Okay class turn to page 227 in your Heath Chemistry lab procedures textbook. We will be completing the prelab for..." a knock interrupted Jeff Sophie walked in, Shaye in tow. "Jeff, this is Shaye, she is new here but will be in your advanced chem. class." "Always glad to have new students, Shaye why don't you take a seat-anywhere is fine." Jeff said rather energetically. Sophie and Jeff walked to the corner of the room to talk, while the class started to talk amongst themselves.
"Jeff, she needs to be under 24hour watch so she is not to leave the room without Kat or any other senior. She has yet to fit in with the cliffhangers. She is really a very nice girl we just, we can't pin what's wrong with her yet...she" Jeff cut in, seeing something in Sophie's eyes, something he hasn't seen in her eyes before. It was almost as if he could sense that Sophie felt for this little girl, almost like it was one of her own.
"Sophie." Jeff started, waiting for her to meet his eyes. Ever since they started talking she had yet to look at him. "It will be okay, i'm sure she will fit in fine." They continued to talk while the other advanced Chem cliffhangers began to talk to Shaye.
"Hey." A tall blond strong figured boy said. "Hey" she replied rather solemnly. "I'm Scott..how do you like it here so far?" he asked unsure of what to say "Well, I ran, 'tried to kill myself' which actually I didn't want to die I just wanted to numb myself, blew up at group, got hated by almost everyone that's in my group-feel like a fool and now I don't know what to do." It was the truth; Scott didn't quite expect an answer like that
"Oh..uhh well we all had bad first days. And as far as running don't worry most of us have tried." "Yah, I got as far as the bus station one time. I hadn't been here longer than 45 minutes Roger was still giving my parents the introduction." Kat broke into their conversation
"Did you catch the bus?" Shaye questioned.
"Nope Peter was waiting at the ticket booth for me." Kat smiled, knowing that he truly did save her life and hoping that maybe but some slim chance Shaye knew it too.
Sophie left can Jeff began class again. Jeff noticed something that rarely happened with new students, Shaye was working and with Scott. Scott wasn't shutting her out or being rude he was helping her. Jeff smiled to himself.
Back in Peter's office. "So, what are we going to do with her?" Sophie questioned. "Well I'll have to inform her parents and perhaps see about getting her out of this school." "What! No. Peter you CANT do that, she isn't well enough to leave, look at her-look at her files-you know what she did she obviously has a lot of demons to fight and getting her out of here? What's that going to do but push her farther into this darkness that already entails her?!!!"
"Soph, I know!!!Okay I know how bad she is hurting but what am I to do? Sometimes cutting is a cry that they want to go home, it's up to her parents. Maybe she needs something more than this school." Peter replied almost giving up hope.
"You can't let her go home Peter, I just have this feeling..." Peter cut her off "Don't assume or go by what you feel. One can not let feelings interfere with jobs like this, only go by what you know. I know she needs help but we can not help her until she is willing to get help-until she reaches out to us."
"Either way I need to inform her parents." Sophie looked down to him, "I know."
She walked behind his chair and wrapped her arms around him. A feeling of safety quickly enthralled them both.
"Okay class, your homework is to finish up the pre-lab. And be prepared for the lab tomorrow and a special 'pop quiz sometime next week." Jeff was trying to yell after his class.
"Oh perfect a 'pop' quiz."Shaye was thinking to herself on her way back to Peter's office. "Why are you following me?" She asked well rather demanded of Kat. "24hour supervision, since i'm a senior and was in your advanced chem. Class I got assigned the job." Kat said.
"Don't sound too happy." Shaye replied sarcastically "Oh don't worry." Kat said while laughing. Shaye couldn't help but smile and laugh with her. "That's what I like to see. " Sophie intruded on their conversation. She smiled.
In Peters office-
There was a knock at the door, Peter dropped Shayes files and opened it. "Jules, come in." "Why am I hear Peter?" She questioned. "I've been eating my meals, I haven't purged.and look" she rolls up her sleeves "No new cuts!..why?" "Jules, both Sophie and I have noticed that something was going on with you. Your merely here because I'm worried about you. We both care about you and it hurts us to see that you're not 'yourself' anymore. We just want to help you sweetie."
"Peter.I.I just well when mail came a couple days ago I got a letter from mother." She turned her head away
"Go on Jules, its okay sweetie." Peter tried to re-assure her
"Well, I opened it when I was alone because I didn't know what to expect.. All the other girls were out by the gazebo and I was alone in the dorm. I read the letter and I felt so awful that I just wanted to hurt myself-to let it all leak out for everyone else to see but I didn't Peter I didn't."
"Jules I'm so beyond glad that you didn't, you've learnt a lot here you know that? You have new coping skills and I'm glad you used them instead..but with all my pride in you I have yet to understand what has you so upset?"
"It was mother, you know parents week is coming up and I was awfully looking forward to seeing her. I mean not once has she come up to visit, everyone else's parents have come and gone while mother just doesn't come. She told me that she wouldn't come up because she doesn't believe that I have made a significant amount of improvement and she would be embarrassed for Bill -That's her new husband's name- to meet me under such circumstances." She wiped a tear from her eye. "Why can't she just love me Peter? Why am I soo awful for her? Why am I such a disappointment?" "Shhh shhh sweetie you're not a disappointment your mother is. She wasn't the mother she should be, you deserve so much more." He walked closer to her and embraced her in a hug.