A/N---I'm going inpatient at the hospital for treatment. So this will be the last update for awhile. Sorry, I just I need to take care of myself now. It's difficult to explain. I promise when I get out though I'll be updating it again. I won't just drop this story.

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Shaye took her time walking back to the dorms, thoughts and emotions were consuming her fully. There was nothing more that she would like to do other than taking a razor and gliding it across her skin every so perfectly. It was like her whole thoughts were engulfed in this feeling. Feeling as if that one object could take her entire pain away. She needed a release.

"If I go into the woods I can find a stick or a rock to cut with….it's better than nothing I mean."

What am I thinking, she thought, I cant possibly cut after Peter told me he trusted me. But there is no other way. She silently made her way into the forest.

"I wonder where she is going?" Sophie questioned herself.

She quietly made her way following Shaye into the woods. All the while telling herself that Shaye is not running. Sophie tried to find ever excuse in the book but couldn't think of why she would break curfew and go into the woods.

Girl's dorm.

"Where do you think she is?" Jules asked Kat.

"I don't know Jules, but I think maybe someone should go and tell Sophie or Peter."

"I'll go!!!" Shelby quickly jumped up.

"Someone eager to get her in trouble." Daisy commented.

"My pleasure." Shelby smirked; she pulled on her shoes and a jacket and made her way out of the dorm.

But, first I can take a little detour over to see Scott.  She began to run.

"I really don't think Shelby went straight to Peter." Jules began

"Yah, well give her some time…" Daisy said sternly.

"Fine"

"Okay guys lets go to bed, tomorrow comes early." Kat broke into their conversation. And she was totally right, tomorrow will come early.

How can she be doing this, where is she? I wish I would've ran after her, maybe I should go back and get Peter? Why? I just need to find her." Sophie was beginning to worry when she couldn't find her.

"Fuck, what was that?" Shaye thought to herself, while she heard the ruffle of leaves. She had made her way back to the oak tree where she first ran too, somehow it gave relief to her. She was holding the broken rock in her hands, contemplating. Sophie walked right past her.

"There you are! What are you doing out here." She didn't even notice the sharp edged rock that was being held in Shaye's grip.

"I just needed to get away."

"It's after lights out, your breaking curfew."

"Yeah I know."

"You also know there will be punishments right?" Sophie questioned.

"Yeah im sorry again."

Maybe I should stuff this in my pocket. She began to think

"What is that?" Sophie questioned finally noticing the rock in her hand.

"What are you doing with that? Are you cutting again?" a shocked look appeared on Sophie's face as she said those words.

"Scott, Scott!" Shelby whispered as loud as she could into the window above Scott's bunk.

"SCOTT!" She finally said again with no reply, she left. Wondering exactly where he was.

Shelby gave up and left to go tell Peter about the newbie.

Shelby walked up into the admin building and straight into Peter's office.

She didn't even bother knocking, seeing as how late it was she didn't think Peter would be holding any personal therapy sessions at the moment.

"Peter…" she began but was cut off as soon as Peter saw her.

"Shelby, what are you doing here its past curfew. Is something wrong?" he questioned.

"No nothing really, just Shaye never showed up after you let us out of group."

"I know she stayed back to talk." He answered her.

"Kay" Shelby turned to leave, and Peter glanced at his watch, he must have lost track of time and didn't realize it's been nearly 20 minutes since he and Shaye finished talking.

"Shelby wait."

Shelby turned around to face him.

"You mean she hasn't gone back to the dorm yet?"

"Yeah that's what I said."

"Thanks for telling me." Peter replied and left along with Shelby to search for the girl.

"No Sophie really im not, or haven't." Shaye could see the look of disbelief in Sophie's eyes.

"Really, I promise, please believe me!!" She practically pleaded.

"Oh, sweetie. Seeing this, your past curfew, out in the woods alone holding an object that one could use to harm themselves. It...It just doesn't look innocent." Sophie began telling her exactly what she was thinking. She decided to be honest with the girl for once.

"I know. I just..." She stopped.

"Go one, don't worry." Sophie urged her to continue. She took a seat next to Shaye under the big oak tree.

"I just, after I finished talking with Peter about stuff. I was walking back to the dorms and I wanted a second to myself to just gather myself I guess and I was walking and I so badly wanted to take all the pain away from me. Just everything and I couldn't help it. So I walked into the woods, not because I was looking for a sharp rock..." she lied "but because I just wanted to get away and recollect myself. You know." Sophie nodded.

"Then I remember when I sat down, this is where Peter found me when I first ran, and it just brought back some memories I guess, and the next thing I know I have this rock in my hand pressed against my skin. I wanted ever so badly to press down but then I remember what Peter said about trusting me, and the choices I make and I didn't want to disappoint him…that's when you came along." She sighed heavily after getting all that out she couldn't help but wonder what exactly Sophie would do.

What Sophie did next shocked and surprised Shaye. Sophie reached over and grabbed the girl and brought her into a huge hug. They sat like that for over a minute, no words were spoken until Sophie broke the hug.

"I am so proud of you." She began

"I thought you hated me. I thought I disappointed you, I mean I broke curfew and I wandered away."

"Your right, you broke curfew and I'll let Peter deal with that but what you did that made me proud was you resisted the temptation to cut. It shows that you want to take a step to getting help and stopping this behavior, and that makes me proud because it means you're getting help." Sophie told her and they got up and walked back to the dorms.

Peter could see the faint shadow of two walking towards the dorms.

Uhhh she ran…again. Was all he could think. So he waited, and waited for Sophie to come to him.

"I'm sorry." Shaye told Sophie once again, as she left to enter her dorm.

"We will talk tomorrow before the solo. Don't think you got off easy. Now go to sleep." She smiled and walked off to meet Peter who was looking rather anxious.

"Where were you? Why was she out, did she run again? What happened" Peter flooded her with questions.

"She wanted to cut but then remember what you said about trust and choices and I found her by the oak tree where you found her before and she didn't." Sophie began

"I told her you will give her punishment tomorrow before the solo."

"Yeah I will." Peter answered rather upset that she would break curfew and think about harming herself but proud that she remembered what he told her.

Peter and Sophie walked hand in hand back towards the lodge.

"Where were you?" Daisy questioned as Shaye walked in the dorm.

"Out" Shaye retorted

"You broke curfew."

"Really, you think!?" Shaye wasn't I the mood for Daisy, she just wanted to sit down and pretend that she was thinking.

Daisy gave up, something she seldom does but she had other things to do….sleep.

I can't believe I fooled them. Sophie didn't even check me to see if there were any new cuts. What a moron. I can't believe she believed me when I said 'I couldn't because I remember what Peter told me about trusting me and choices' when really I would have if she just didn't come along so quickly. Ha a load of bullshit about me wanting to get better, why the fuck would I want to stop the one thing that has helped me forever. It's my way .The only way.

Shaye turned over and tried to get some rest, afraid of shutting her eyes in fear of what she might see. Eventually she got to sleep. Praying that tomorrow will be forever away.

Next morning

"Where were you last night, I was trying to get your attention below your window but you never answered me." Shelby complained to Scott.

"I must have been in a deep sleep, sorry Shel. You know I would've come out had I known." Scott lied.

"Yah I know." Shelby peered around and made sure there were no counselors around and she leaned in and gave Scott a very welcome good morning kiss.

"AUGGIE" Jules squealed.

"Yo Jules, too early. Your rather energetic…I mean more so that usually for this time of hour." He smiled, and gave her a hug and a kiss on the forehead.

Soon after the rest of the cliffhangers showed up, along with Peter and Sophie.

"Well, good morning." Peter said while looking at the tired and groggy faces of the cliffhangers.

"Go grab a breakfast to go in the cafe. Before we head out."

The cliffhangers reluctantly got up.

"Kat, can you grab one for Shaye please."

"Yeah sure."

"Shaye stay here." Peter demanded.

Shaye stopped dead in her tracks, her stomach began to flip. All she could do was turn around and take whatever Peter gave her.

"When we get back from Solo's you have two weeks kitchen duties. We need to have a serious discussion."

"Kay." She had nothing else to do but agree.

"I can't help unless you try as well. No more of this sneaking off and breaking the rules."

Shaye nodded.

The cliffhangers began to file back near the gazebo with brown paper bags in hand.

"Here are your solo journals and a package sent from home. This package is supposed to help you remember the good times of your childhood." Peter told them, and he handed out the journals and packages.

Daisy picked hers up and held it to her ear, "Don't hear any ticking." She said sarcastically, nobody could help but laugh at her comment.

"Alright cliffhangers lets go." Sophie said a little too eagerly.

They all began the hike, Kat and Ezra walking at the head of the group, followed by David and Daisy behind David. Scott and Shelby were walking together behind Daisy and Jules and Auggie were also walking together shortly behind Shel and Scott. Shaye wanted to be alone so she tried as hard as she could to trail behind everyone. Except Peter and Sophie were directly behind her. She just wanted to be alone. That's all, all she ever wanted. To be left alone. But that is one of the greatest mistakes one could ever make.

A/N—Okay im sorry this chap is crap, I'm really really sorry. Then again all my chapters seem to be crap. I just felt like I had to update somewhat before I left. I'll be in treatment for a few weeks minimum. Depends on the state I am in after the two week minimum of when I will be released. Right now it seems like ill be in there forever. I need this though. I'll try to write some chapters while im in inpatient and so when I get out I can just update chapters at a time. Thanks to those who review. I promise I will be back.