A/N-Sorry, bad chapter again. Just haven't updated in a long while, and this chapter is the result of a slightly drunk and dissociative evening. I don't expect reviews on this one. Lol. I'll try and get an actually thought out chapter up soon.

"They are all sleeping except Shelby and Shaye." Peter spoke to his wife.

"That doesn't surprise me, Shelby has been restless these past few nights. Daisy has told me that Shelby keeps saying Walts name in her sleep."

"Nightmares." Peter concluded

"Right on the dot Mountain man."

"What about Shaye? Any of the girls say anything about her sleep?"

"Nope, that is a mystery." Sophie summed up.

"Well what do you say to us getting some quality rest." Peter said as he leaned in to kiss his wife.

"I'm." Sophie began but was interrupted by Peter kissing her once again

"All for that." She finished.

***

"No, stop it, please. You promised you wouldn't hurt her. You promised. Nooooo"

Shelby tossed and turned trying to escape the reality of her nightmare but to her avail she couldn't. She would have to live with this nightmare for the rest of her life, nothing would make it go away.

***

Shaye pulled out her flashlight and opened her journal Peter had assigned.

She finished the questions about her past childhood very quickly. After all her childhood was rather good. Nothing traumatic or serious happened. She had a normal childhood. Normal as normal can be. She began to write a fresh entry.

I wish you knew, but you have no idea. It's not like it seems. I wish I could tell you. But I can't. You would never understand. Never. I feel this every day. This this pain. It engulfs me. It's relentless. I fight a battle with myself every second of every day of every week. There is no escape. I wish you knew. I wish I could tell you the problems and reasons of why I am this way. I just wish I had the strength.

She gently closed the journal and laid still for the rest of the night.

***

The next morning.

***

"Think we let them sleep long enough" Sophie questioned Peter while looking at her watch. It merely read 7am.

"I was just hoping to let them sleep a little longer" Peter told her while pulling his wife in for a kiss.

"No. Peter. Peter okay maybe a second."

They kissed passionately for not long before they split and left their cabin to wake the cliffhangers.

Peter and Sophie went to each campsite finding the same thing at every one. Sleeping cliffhangers. When they arrived at Shaye's solo they saw a sight they had never witnessed before….she was up and packed and ready to go. Highly unusual for any cliffhanger. But Peter knew she was different.

"You're up and ready early" Sophie said while placing her hand on the girls shoulder.

"Yeah I figured the sooner we get out of here the better" Shaye spoke

"Ahh I see the logic. Can't wait for a warm shower?" Peter asked, hoping that she would explain the real reason she wanted to leave.

"Uh yeah I guess." Was all he got out of her.

Once the cliffhangers were all rounded up they began their hike back.

"Meet me at the docks when we get back" Scott asked Shelby

He knew that all other students would be in class, except the cliffhangers because Peter usually tends to give them the day off once they come back from a hike.

"You bet: Shelby answered. Knowing all too well that she and he needed to spend some time together.

The hike back was rather uneventful and quiet. Nobody spoke a word to each other. Except for the occasional whispers and glances back. They were all to exhausted and numb from re-visiting their past that they were worn out.

Back at horizon, Jules ran straight into the shower. Who would have thought otherwise.

Next Shaye snuck into the shower as soon as Jules left. She turned on the hot water and let it hit her like knives hitting the skin. She stayed in there for a long time until the voice of Daisy snapped her out.

"Hey, other people would like to bathe in warm water you know."

"Yeah, I'll be right out."

Getting out she was beat red from the heat of the water.

"I look like a fucking cherry." Shaye told herself while glancing past the mirror

She went to turn out but something caught her attention. She turned back to the mirror.

There she was a frail girl. No taller than 5'3 weighing less than 100lbs, standing in front of a mirror poking and prodding at the excess fat she had. The fat that wasn't there but she thought of constantly.

How did I let this happen? I'm so big. I'm not eating anymore of this crap food here. I hate how I look.

She walked away. Satisfied.

"Whoa somebody used a whole lot of hot water. You look like a huge rash." Shelby commented.

"Yeah im contagious so stay away from me." Shaye replied while running out of the dorm.

She reached the door and collided with Sophie.

"You okay? Where are you going in such a hurry?" Sophie asked, making sure she was okay. Hardly noticing that Shaye's shirt lifted when she fell to the ground. Exposing bruises and the outline of her ribs.

"I just wanted some air, that's all." Shaye quickly replied while pulling down her shirt.

"Okay…girls group in 10minutes." Sophie spoke while leaving the dorm.

"Great I can't even have a shower." Daisy said upset.

The rest of the girls laughed and headed to the lodge.