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September passes, but definitley not easily.Ray gets suspended twice more for fighting and a note home for not doing her homework and for using unappropriate language during school.Lucy keeps trying and trying to help Ray but she gets more and more distant. Jamie on the other hand is doing great in school and has a great behaviour.Although she is only 4.
One October afternoon Lucy arrives at the school to find Jamie's class playing outside on the playground.Jamie runs up to her mom.
L: Hey hun how was your day?
J:Fun.I got to fingerpaint.And the best part is that two police officers came in to talk to our class.The boy one is still here.He told Ms. Kaiser he'd help her watch us outside on the playground.
L:Wow, sounds like you've been busy.
J:Come meet the police officer.He's really nice and has very big muscles.
L:(laughs) Really.You gonna marry him?
J:(giggles) No mommy.He's old, like you.
L:Thanks. Jamie leads Lucy over to the police officer who is standing by the swings pushing kids.
J:Police officer man, this is my mommy.
Police officer: My name's Kevin.Kevin Kinkirk. He shakes Lucy's hand.
L:Lucy Camden, Jamie's mom, obviously.
K:You have a great daughter.She knew a lot of the answers to our questions today.
L:Really.I wasn't aware that she knew much about that kind of stuff. Jamie soon runs off with a little friend, but Lucy stays with Kevin.They take a seat on a bench and begin to talk.They are deep in conversation when the bell rings.
L:Oh, I have to go.My other daughter is going to be out soon.
K:Well I really enjoyed talking to you.Maybe sometime soon we could do this over dinner?
L:Oh, well I don't know.
K: I understand.(sadly)
L:It's not you or anything, it's just my boyfriend, who's also my kids father, and I just broke up a few months ago and I don't know if my kids are ready for me to start dating.Since I moved here it's all about them now, whatever's best for them.
K:Maybe they won't mind.
L:I never asked them yet, but I'd have to talk to them.
K:Well how about I give you my number and you can call me once you find out.
L:I guess I could do that. Kevin gives Lucy his number and they say good-bye.
That night Lucy tried to avoid talking to Ray and Jamie about her starting to date, but how Ray was acting lately, she didn't really want to drop this on her.
It was when she was tucking them in that she brought it up. L:Well you two I've been meaning to talk to you about something.
R:What about?
L: You know the man I was talking to after school?
R&J: Yah.
L:Well he asked me out to dinner and I was wondering how you guys would feel if I went?
J:Umm well that would be fun.Where would we go?
R:We aren't going Jamie.It's her and him, alone.Mom got rid of dad so now she wants someone new.Well if I can't have my real dad I don't want another one. She gets up and runs out of the room.
L:Ray.That's not what's going to happen.
J:He's trying to be our new daddy?
L:No sweetie.You can only ever have one real daddy.I just want to go have dinner with him because he's a nice man.Sometime in the future I will want to marry another man, but don't worry about that right now.
J:So daddy isn't coming back?
L:No sweetie.Well if he does we aren't going to be together anymore.We don't love each other anymore, but we still love you and Ray.
J:Why hasn't he come to see us?
L:Umm well..baby I don't want to make you hate your father, but he's not the best man in the world.He has some problems he needs to deal with and I'm not sure.But if he doesn't deal with him, you may not see him...
J;Ever again?
L:I'm not sure...But maybe not. Jamie looks down sadly.
J:Well I don't care if he doesn't come back because he was mean to you and mean to me and Ray.You should find us a new daddy because he's no good.
L:Kevin won't be your new daddy.Whoever I do marry will be your step- dad.But I'm glad you're ok with it.So you won't mind if I go out to dinner?
J:No.But why can't I come?
L:Maybe another time ok?
J:Ok.
L:Ok good.I'm going to go find Ray so you go to sleep and I'll see you in the morning.Love you.
J:Love you too.And tell Ray what I said about him not being a good daddy so we need a new one.
L:Ok, sweet dreams. Lucy checks the bathroom, kitchen, and living room and can't find Ray.She looks out the window and sees the small blond hair girl sitting on the back porch wrapped up in a blanket, crying. Lucy walked outside wrapping another blanket around her daughter, as it was pretty cold out.Ray tried to wipe away her tears before her mother noticed, but couldn't stop more from flowing.Instead of talking, Lucy just hugged her daughter tightly and didn't let go for what seemed like 5 minutes.When she did let go her daughter's arms remained tightly around her.Her hands were ice cold so Lucy scooped her up and brought her inside.She set her on the rocking chair in the kitchen, still wrapped up in the blankets.
L:I'm sorry.I shouldn't have even thought about dating again.We've only been here for about 3 months.Of course you wouldn't be over your dad and I splitting up.
R:It's not that really.I hate dad.He was always drunk or high and I know that he cheated on you.He didn't do anything.You were a way better parent.I don't know why I ran out.I mean I'm not completely comfortable with you dating but if it's what you want then you should,as long as you don't get married right away or rush things.
L:Well thank you, but if you don't want me to I won't.
R:No go ahead.I guess we do need a new dad soon.One who you love and who loves you.
L:You're growing up so fast.So if you didn't run out because I wanted to have dinner with Kevin then why did you?
R:I don't know.I'm just really sad and mad.I hate it at school.The kids are mean to me I don't fit in.They say stuff about you, and I just want to hit them.You're my mom and I don't like it when people talk about you.Why do people know everything about you anyway?
L:It's because a lot of their parents know grandpa and go to our church and being a Preachers Kid everyone knows everything about me.I'm glad you want to stick up for me, but I don't want you to hit them.Tell the teacher the moment they say something.I don't want you to be suspended.You should go to school and get good grades so you can get a good job.
R:I just want to ask you one thing.
L:Ok shoot.
R:Well, when you had me were you mad because I ruined your life?
L:First of all you didn't ruin my life.I love you and I had and kept you because I wanted you in my life, to be my daughter.My life was harder and it probably would have been better if I could have had you and Jamie a little later in life so you guys would have a good dad and I could have a good job.I want you to be able to get married and have a career first before you have kids.Once you have kids early you try your hardest to make sure that they don't do the same thing.You and Jamie are my girls and I love you and if I could go back in time and change anything, I wouldn't because you guys are my life.
R:Really?
L:Would I lie to you?
R:I hope not.
L:I hope that you don't have to lie to me either.I'm always here for you.At school does Cassie let you play with her?
R:Not really since most of her friends hate me.Lately I've been playing a bit of basketball and dodgeball outside with some other people.I'm not really friends with them, but maybe I could be.
L:Well you should try to.I hate to see you unhappy in school so tomorrow you should try to become friends with the people you've been playing with.
R:I'll try.
L:And no more fighting.
R:I'll try that too.Sometimes I don't think and I just go off on people.
L:Try to think before you do things.Now I know it's late but how about I make us some smores in the microwave?
R:Sure!
Lucy and Ray stayed up late chatting and eating smores.Lucy finally felt connected to her daughter again and could go to sleep peacefully.
September passes, but definitley not easily.Ray gets suspended twice more for fighting and a note home for not doing her homework and for using unappropriate language during school.Lucy keeps trying and trying to help Ray but she gets more and more distant. Jamie on the other hand is doing great in school and has a great behaviour.Although she is only 4.
One October afternoon Lucy arrives at the school to find Jamie's class playing outside on the playground.Jamie runs up to her mom.
L: Hey hun how was your day?
J:Fun.I got to fingerpaint.And the best part is that two police officers came in to talk to our class.The boy one is still here.He told Ms. Kaiser he'd help her watch us outside on the playground.
L:Wow, sounds like you've been busy.
J:Come meet the police officer.He's really nice and has very big muscles.
L:(laughs) Really.You gonna marry him?
J:(giggles) No mommy.He's old, like you.
L:Thanks. Jamie leads Lucy over to the police officer who is standing by the swings pushing kids.
J:Police officer man, this is my mommy.
Police officer: My name's Kevin.Kevin Kinkirk. He shakes Lucy's hand.
L:Lucy Camden, Jamie's mom, obviously.
K:You have a great daughter.She knew a lot of the answers to our questions today.
L:Really.I wasn't aware that she knew much about that kind of stuff. Jamie soon runs off with a little friend, but Lucy stays with Kevin.They take a seat on a bench and begin to talk.They are deep in conversation when the bell rings.
L:Oh, I have to go.My other daughter is going to be out soon.
K:Well I really enjoyed talking to you.Maybe sometime soon we could do this over dinner?
L:Oh, well I don't know.
K: I understand.(sadly)
L:It's not you or anything, it's just my boyfriend, who's also my kids father, and I just broke up a few months ago and I don't know if my kids are ready for me to start dating.Since I moved here it's all about them now, whatever's best for them.
K:Maybe they won't mind.
L:I never asked them yet, but I'd have to talk to them.
K:Well how about I give you my number and you can call me once you find out.
L:I guess I could do that. Kevin gives Lucy his number and they say good-bye.
That night Lucy tried to avoid talking to Ray and Jamie about her starting to date, but how Ray was acting lately, she didn't really want to drop this on her.
It was when she was tucking them in that she brought it up. L:Well you two I've been meaning to talk to you about something.
R:What about?
L: You know the man I was talking to after school?
R&J: Yah.
L:Well he asked me out to dinner and I was wondering how you guys would feel if I went?
J:Umm well that would be fun.Where would we go?
R:We aren't going Jamie.It's her and him, alone.Mom got rid of dad so now she wants someone new.Well if I can't have my real dad I don't want another one. She gets up and runs out of the room.
L:Ray.That's not what's going to happen.
J:He's trying to be our new daddy?
L:No sweetie.You can only ever have one real daddy.I just want to go have dinner with him because he's a nice man.Sometime in the future I will want to marry another man, but don't worry about that right now.
J:So daddy isn't coming back?
L:No sweetie.Well if he does we aren't going to be together anymore.We don't love each other anymore, but we still love you and Ray.
J:Why hasn't he come to see us?
L:Umm well..baby I don't want to make you hate your father, but he's not the best man in the world.He has some problems he needs to deal with and I'm not sure.But if he doesn't deal with him, you may not see him...
J;Ever again?
L:I'm not sure...But maybe not. Jamie looks down sadly.
J:Well I don't care if he doesn't come back because he was mean to you and mean to me and Ray.You should find us a new daddy because he's no good.
L:Kevin won't be your new daddy.Whoever I do marry will be your step- dad.But I'm glad you're ok with it.So you won't mind if I go out to dinner?
J:No.But why can't I come?
L:Maybe another time ok?
J:Ok.
L:Ok good.I'm going to go find Ray so you go to sleep and I'll see you in the morning.Love you.
J:Love you too.And tell Ray what I said about him not being a good daddy so we need a new one.
L:Ok, sweet dreams. Lucy checks the bathroom, kitchen, and living room and can't find Ray.She looks out the window and sees the small blond hair girl sitting on the back porch wrapped up in a blanket, crying. Lucy walked outside wrapping another blanket around her daughter, as it was pretty cold out.Ray tried to wipe away her tears before her mother noticed, but couldn't stop more from flowing.Instead of talking, Lucy just hugged her daughter tightly and didn't let go for what seemed like 5 minutes.When she did let go her daughter's arms remained tightly around her.Her hands were ice cold so Lucy scooped her up and brought her inside.She set her on the rocking chair in the kitchen, still wrapped up in the blankets.
L:I'm sorry.I shouldn't have even thought about dating again.We've only been here for about 3 months.Of course you wouldn't be over your dad and I splitting up.
R:It's not that really.I hate dad.He was always drunk or high and I know that he cheated on you.He didn't do anything.You were a way better parent.I don't know why I ran out.I mean I'm not completely comfortable with you dating but if it's what you want then you should,as long as you don't get married right away or rush things.
L:Well thank you, but if you don't want me to I won't.
R:No go ahead.I guess we do need a new dad soon.One who you love and who loves you.
L:You're growing up so fast.So if you didn't run out because I wanted to have dinner with Kevin then why did you?
R:I don't know.I'm just really sad and mad.I hate it at school.The kids are mean to me I don't fit in.They say stuff about you, and I just want to hit them.You're my mom and I don't like it when people talk about you.Why do people know everything about you anyway?
L:It's because a lot of their parents know grandpa and go to our church and being a Preachers Kid everyone knows everything about me.I'm glad you want to stick up for me, but I don't want you to hit them.Tell the teacher the moment they say something.I don't want you to be suspended.You should go to school and get good grades so you can get a good job.
R:I just want to ask you one thing.
L:Ok shoot.
R:Well, when you had me were you mad because I ruined your life?
L:First of all you didn't ruin my life.I love you and I had and kept you because I wanted you in my life, to be my daughter.My life was harder and it probably would have been better if I could have had you and Jamie a little later in life so you guys would have a good dad and I could have a good job.I want you to be able to get married and have a career first before you have kids.Once you have kids early you try your hardest to make sure that they don't do the same thing.You and Jamie are my girls and I love you and if I could go back in time and change anything, I wouldn't because you guys are my life.
R:Really?
L:Would I lie to you?
R:I hope not.
L:I hope that you don't have to lie to me either.I'm always here for you.At school does Cassie let you play with her?
R:Not really since most of her friends hate me.Lately I've been playing a bit of basketball and dodgeball outside with some other people.I'm not really friends with them, but maybe I could be.
L:Well you should try to.I hate to see you unhappy in school so tomorrow you should try to become friends with the people you've been playing with.
R:I'll try.
L:And no more fighting.
R:I'll try that too.Sometimes I don't think and I just go off on people.
L:Try to think before you do things.Now I know it's late but how about I make us some smores in the microwave?
R:Sure!
Lucy and Ray stayed up late chatting and eating smores.Lucy finally felt connected to her daughter again and could go to sleep peacefully.