Its hard to open my eyes, and I have no idea why. I am trying to
figure out where I am but I cant. I hear the song "I need a girl" playing
off somewhere in the distance, but I can tell its in the same room. I try
to sit up from the king sized bed I am lying on but my body hurts. I feel
very stiff and sore. I can feel are from a fan next to me. My hard is
blowing in my face and I cant bring myself to brush it aside. I can only
now start to make out a picture. All I see if white, from the ceiling. I
now remember where I am, im at some Seattle hotel called "The inside". Last
night comes back to me. I came here with someone, some guy I picked up in a
bar. Some college student that is about 4 year younger then I am. I cant
remember what he looks like. I lie on the bed for a few hours until I sit
up and look around the room. The floor is coved with I guessing his cloths
and mine. The TV is on mute and the show "Friends" is playing. I look to
the night stand beside me and see two open condom rapers and a clock with
big red numbers on it that read 12:45 pm. I get out of the bed and talk to
the bath room, I look down at my sore body and notice some scares and blood
stains on my leg. When in the bath room I look at myself in the mirror and
see there is dried cum in my hair and my top lip was cut and there is a
black line of dried blood. I shower and then sit on the bed, no towel, just
naked and wet, light a cigarette, and take notice the bible half way under
the bed. I pull it out and look am shocked to see that here are some words
cut into the outside cover of it.The cover now reads "Hailey is a Holy
Bitch" with the "itch" scratched over the "ible". I didn't think that the
kid would be that smart. I then dress, watch the end of friends and leave.
As I walk down the long hall way trying to find the elevator I look at the
room numbers, the go up, I start at 112, and I end up at 123 before I find
the elevator. On my way down to the lobby I offer some guy in the elevator
with me for me to give him head for $50 and he gives me a 100 dollar bill
and then asks me if I have change and I tell him no. He comes before we get
to the lobby. I take his money, he asked me if he could tell me to dinner.
I tell him to go to hell. I buy an apple from a near by shop, and see a pay
phone. I walk over to it and call my sister Kirsten. It rings three times
before she answers her phone. "Hello" I hear. I say nothing. "Hello?" I
hear again. I still say nothing. I can hear Sandy and Seth talking about
bagels in the back round and then I hear a voice I never heard before ask
if Seth if he wanted to go the movies tonight. Kirsten hangs up the phone.
I call back. When Kirsten picks up and I drop the phone can catch taxi. As
the taxi drives away I turn and look at the payphone and see the phone
sway, and as the taxi drives on the pay phone gets smaller and smaller. The
driver asks me where to, I tell him Starbucks.