~o~
Who knew happiness could be obtained so cheaply?
Mother is in Taiwan right now. There was a dispute at the factory there that needs to be handled. It's just the summer holidays. She'll only be gone for a day or two. The guards are away for now. I need time to prepare for Naoko's sleep over. What can happen in one afternoon.
The maids are gone today. They offered to help me bake for the party. But I was able to convince them I could handle it myself. Sakura is in Hong Kong today. I put her on the plane myself. She just couldn't stop smiling. She was so happy she could spend the week with her Li-kun.
Should everything be so blurry? It's really hard to focus on anything in particular.
It's too bad I'll miss the sleep over though. But I'll won't get another chance for this for a long, long time.
I hope the cooking staff isn't too upset that I used one of their knives though. I couldn't go out and buy razor blades. People might start asking questions. So I guess happiness does cost a little more then I thought. A plane ticket, a vegetable knife, and a human life.
It's still a bargain at twice the price.
~o~
Okay, calm down. Deep, calming breaths.
Firstly Tomoyo is going to be okay. . . Most likely. The doctors are doing what they can, but she's lost a lot of blood.
Oh my god! What if I went to Rika's house first like I planned yesterday!? Then Tomoyo probably would have bled to death, and no one would have been around to help her. Her muffled voice screaming as she sunk under the water...
No, that doesn't make sense...
It wasn't an accident was it? Tomoyo was trying to kill herself, and I messed all it up.
Why would she want to kill herself though? I mean, she's rich, happy, and has all her friends...
Except we weren't really her friends. We were Sakura's Friends, and she was Sakura's Friend, so we just were a group then... She never completely opened up to the rest of us. And we never completely opened up with her... It's not like I'm without blame.
And... She never was really happy without Sakura around. I mean she liked Sakura, but she liked her more then she liked anyone else, take me for example. But more of a like-like. She might have lov-...
That still doesn't make sense. Girls like Boys. Of course, Tomoyo never really like-liked any boys... The only person she liked in that way was Sakura... And of course she's over in China right now... With her boyfriend... Which would be why she'd kill herself...
They should make a manual: "Congratulations! You're 15! Now you're in trouble!" Complete with chapters on what signs to watch for when a friend becomes suicidal, and a handy dandy guide on graphing your friends emotional state. The red smiley is when they're good, the blue frown is when they're down.
Why are these waiting rooms so boring? Two month old magazines will not keep your mind off of your friend in the operating room.
That it from this day forth, I'll be a better friend to Tomoyo... Though that might just make her think I'm pitying her because she just tried to kill herself.
No wonder Sakura says 'Hoe' so much. This is really confusing.
~o~
"Who's bad, Who's bad, Who's bad? Woot! Woot!"
"Okay, okay, I get your point. But she's still in the hospital."
"Yes, but she's not dead. If she was dead, the Disaster could never be averted."
"True. We just have to see how Sakura reacts when the time comes."
"Kero, can't you ever just say 'Gee Flower, you're totally right this time'."
"I wish I could Flower, I wish I could."
Who knew happiness could be obtained so cheaply?
Mother is in Taiwan right now. There was a dispute at the factory there that needs to be handled. It's just the summer holidays. She'll only be gone for a day or two. The guards are away for now. I need time to prepare for Naoko's sleep over. What can happen in one afternoon.
The maids are gone today. They offered to help me bake for the party. But I was able to convince them I could handle it myself. Sakura is in Hong Kong today. I put her on the plane myself. She just couldn't stop smiling. She was so happy she could spend the week with her Li-kun.
Should everything be so blurry? It's really hard to focus on anything in particular.
It's too bad I'll miss the sleep over though. But I'll won't get another chance for this for a long, long time.
I hope the cooking staff isn't too upset that I used one of their knives though. I couldn't go out and buy razor blades. People might start asking questions. So I guess happiness does cost a little more then I thought. A plane ticket, a vegetable knife, and a human life.
It's still a bargain at twice the price.
~o~
Okay, calm down. Deep, calming breaths.
Firstly Tomoyo is going to be okay. . . Most likely. The doctors are doing what they can, but she's lost a lot of blood.
Oh my god! What if I went to Rika's house first like I planned yesterday!? Then Tomoyo probably would have bled to death, and no one would have been around to help her. Her muffled voice screaming as she sunk under the water...
No, that doesn't make sense...
It wasn't an accident was it? Tomoyo was trying to kill herself, and I messed all it up.
Why would she want to kill herself though? I mean, she's rich, happy, and has all her friends...
Except we weren't really her friends. We were Sakura's Friends, and she was Sakura's Friend, so we just were a group then... She never completely opened up to the rest of us. And we never completely opened up with her... It's not like I'm without blame.
And... She never was really happy without Sakura around. I mean she liked Sakura, but she liked her more then she liked anyone else, take me for example. But more of a like-like. She might have lov-...
That still doesn't make sense. Girls like Boys. Of course, Tomoyo never really like-liked any boys... The only person she liked in that way was Sakura... And of course she's over in China right now... With her boyfriend... Which would be why she'd kill herself...
They should make a manual: "Congratulations! You're 15! Now you're in trouble!" Complete with chapters on what signs to watch for when a friend becomes suicidal, and a handy dandy guide on graphing your friends emotional state. The red smiley is when they're good, the blue frown is when they're down.
Why are these waiting rooms so boring? Two month old magazines will not keep your mind off of your friend in the operating room.
That it from this day forth, I'll be a better friend to Tomoyo... Though that might just make her think I'm pitying her because she just tried to kill herself.
No wonder Sakura says 'Hoe' so much. This is really confusing.
~o~
"Who's bad, Who's bad, Who's bad? Woot! Woot!"
"Okay, okay, I get your point. But she's still in the hospital."
"Yes, but she's not dead. If she was dead, the Disaster could never be averted."
"True. We just have to see how Sakura reacts when the time comes."
"Kero, can't you ever just say 'Gee Flower, you're totally right this time'."
"I wish I could Flower, I wish I could."