He is standing there wearing an open jacket with his green shirt and a pair of jeans. In the dark shadows his eyes are looking at me and his hair and clothes are being pulled back and forth slightly in the weak wind. All rational thoughts forgotten, I stand there and stare. Finally thoughts enter my mind but they are irrational such as, Why did you run away earlier? Why are you here now? Why did you come back? So I say the question that sums up my feelings. "Why don't you kill me?" He stands there for a minute before answering. " I can't........I never could." I smile slightly. " That's unfortunate, I wish you would right now." I think I suprised him a little, but it is too dark to tell. "You can't die, your needed right now. "he said.
I stare right at him as the wind blows again, stronger this time. " I can't fullfill those needs, Heero." He keeps staring at me and I just can't stand it anymore, I lower my head and lean against the Sanc Kingdom wall tensing up, trying to preserve what strength I have left to hold my composure. -Heero believes I'm a stronger person than him, I don't want him to see any more of my weakness, I never want him to lose faith in me.- A long time passes and the wind picks up again, I sigh, " I understand, it's alright if I'm alive. That's all that matters to you, that I will still be the Vice Foreign Minister leading everyone to peace. You came here to make sure I was still protected." Suddenly I realize what I just said, feeling the sadness of the statement hit me in a detached way, and I notice the air is getting colder.
" You're right." I hear him say, " but it's more than that." I turn to look at him, completely surprised. - Maybe I'm not just a burden to him, I hope I'm not- " I can't help but smile, but only a little. " I'm glad." I say, relieved. Then immediatley I feel my slight happiness fade. " I............. I can't go on like this, the Sanq Kingdom deserves a stronger leader, as does the position of Vice Foreign Minister." I say feeling very distressed. I bow my head again and turn away, having no strength to face even him. There is a pause, than the sound of the grass rustling and I feel a warm hand on my shoulder.I feel myself smile again, -Heero is so nice sometimes.- Suddenly, I hear him begin to speak. " .................You shouldn't worry so much, no one should expect you to do everything right, take your time. You are strong Relena, you doubt yourself, but other people can see it." I lift my head and lean against the cold stone Sanc Kingdom wall.
- He's right, I know he is. Heero would not lie, he would not lie just to make me feel better. He's always had a lot of faith in me, as a stronger person than him, though I have never quite understood why......... Maybe I've been to hard on myself, I always try to do my best, and that should be enough for everyone. Yes. (smile) Thank you Heero, you are my strength, you really are. I know of course that I would go on even if you weren't here but I like when you are here.- All of a sudden I feel cold damp water on my forehead. I look up to see white dots floating down slowly in the weak light hidden behind the clouds. "Oh,.......Heero it's snowing." I say with a mellow longing. I look at him but he is looking at the snow falling across the hill in the distance with his hand still softly resting on my shoulder." Yes"
I stare right at him as the wind blows again, stronger this time. " I can't fullfill those needs, Heero." He keeps staring at me and I just can't stand it anymore, I lower my head and lean against the Sanc Kingdom wall tensing up, trying to preserve what strength I have left to hold my composure. -Heero believes I'm a stronger person than him, I don't want him to see any more of my weakness, I never want him to lose faith in me.- A long time passes and the wind picks up again, I sigh, " I understand, it's alright if I'm alive. That's all that matters to you, that I will still be the Vice Foreign Minister leading everyone to peace. You came here to make sure I was still protected." Suddenly I realize what I just said, feeling the sadness of the statement hit me in a detached way, and I notice the air is getting colder.
" You're right." I hear him say, " but it's more than that." I turn to look at him, completely surprised. - Maybe I'm not just a burden to him, I hope I'm not- " I can't help but smile, but only a little. " I'm glad." I say, relieved. Then immediatley I feel my slight happiness fade. " I............. I can't go on like this, the Sanq Kingdom deserves a stronger leader, as does the position of Vice Foreign Minister." I say feeling very distressed. I bow my head again and turn away, having no strength to face even him. There is a pause, than the sound of the grass rustling and I feel a warm hand on my shoulder.I feel myself smile again, -Heero is so nice sometimes.- Suddenly, I hear him begin to speak. " .................You shouldn't worry so much, no one should expect you to do everything right, take your time. You are strong Relena, you doubt yourself, but other people can see it." I lift my head and lean against the cold stone Sanc Kingdom wall.
- He's right, I know he is. Heero would not lie, he would not lie just to make me feel better. He's always had a lot of faith in me, as a stronger person than him, though I have never quite understood why......... Maybe I've been to hard on myself, I always try to do my best, and that should be enough for everyone. Yes. (smile) Thank you Heero, you are my strength, you really are. I know of course that I would go on even if you weren't here but I like when you are here.- All of a sudden I feel cold damp water on my forehead. I look up to see white dots floating down slowly in the weak light hidden behind the clouds. "Oh,.......Heero it's snowing." I say with a mellow longing. I look at him but he is looking at the snow falling across the hill in the distance with his hand still softly resting on my shoulder." Yes"