Authors note: Thank you everyone. You made me smile when I read the new comments. Your all panicky and it's just funny.(no offense though)As I said I have the whole story done. I considered it a really good story though, and the lack of the reviews made me frustrated since it took me so long. I won't even go into that though.(sweatdrop)No I don't just write to get reviews, I write so my brain doesn't explode. I write for fun! I just like encouragement once in a while like everyone else you know? On with the fic!
We stand like that, for a long time. The snow starts to pile up on the ground in the darkness, and the wind blows stronger every once in a while.- I just want to stay here, but I know I cannot. That saddens me, but I have to return to my duties tomorrow.- I sigh and shift position slightly. Heero turns to look at me taking his hand away, " You should go inside." I blink and stare at him in surprise. - Why? Because it's cold? I think it's beautiful, people pass life by without ever experiencing it because they limit themselves to always being perfectly comfortable. I will not live that way, and I cannot leave Heero alone. - I stare at him. " No, I want to stay here.............with you." I knew I let out to much of my emotion in my words, but........I did want him to hear it. I wonder what I should do, I think it is not a matter of whether Heero feels for me or not, but If he's ready to hear me expressing myself in that way.
He doesn't say anything, but he doesn't leave either. I feel my feelings building inside me, making me bold, and I know I am getting carried away by it all, but.... -.......I.........I......- I move my arm outward and grasp his hand lightly. He doesn't move. I am suddenly aware of what I just did, but I don't let go. - Heero has perfect reflexes, he would have seen my movement and been able to avoid it......but he didn't.- The snow continues to fall and blow in gusts towards the ground, but yet....I'm warm inside. Heero keeps on staring forward, but I hear his voice say my name, " Relena" as if he just realized I was here, and.....I feel him intwine his fingers with mine.
I want to say something, to tell him to stay with me, tell him .............everything. But I know I can't. It won't be fair to either of us. We both have responsibilities, and if I told him it wouldn't change that. I know he can't stay. Maybe someday it will be different though, I hope it will be different. "Heero?" I ask. He turns his head to the side to look at me in the darkness. "Why do you say I am stronger than you Heero?" he stares at me for a time with an unreadable expression in those deep eyes. " .....You forgive everyone who hurts you. Sincerely. If they backstab you again, you seem foolish to people, but they can't do the same in your position. You trust people that no one else trusts. You forgave me for hurting you and I won't forgive myself for all I've done. Your stronger than me because you forgave me, someone who was trying to kill you, but I can't forgive my enemies. No matter what the circumstances."
We stand like that, for a long time. The snow starts to pile up on the ground in the darkness, and the wind blows stronger every once in a while.- I just want to stay here, but I know I cannot. That saddens me, but I have to return to my duties tomorrow.- I sigh and shift position slightly. Heero turns to look at me taking his hand away, " You should go inside." I blink and stare at him in surprise. - Why? Because it's cold? I think it's beautiful, people pass life by without ever experiencing it because they limit themselves to always being perfectly comfortable. I will not live that way, and I cannot leave Heero alone. - I stare at him. " No, I want to stay here.............with you." I knew I let out to much of my emotion in my words, but........I did want him to hear it. I wonder what I should do, I think it is not a matter of whether Heero feels for me or not, but If he's ready to hear me expressing myself in that way.
He doesn't say anything, but he doesn't leave either. I feel my feelings building inside me, making me bold, and I know I am getting carried away by it all, but.... -.......I.........I......- I move my arm outward and grasp his hand lightly. He doesn't move. I am suddenly aware of what I just did, but I don't let go. - Heero has perfect reflexes, he would have seen my movement and been able to avoid it......but he didn't.- The snow continues to fall and blow in gusts towards the ground, but yet....I'm warm inside. Heero keeps on staring forward, but I hear his voice say my name, " Relena" as if he just realized I was here, and.....I feel him intwine his fingers with mine.
I want to say something, to tell him to stay with me, tell him .............everything. But I know I can't. It won't be fair to either of us. We both have responsibilities, and if I told him it wouldn't change that. I know he can't stay. Maybe someday it will be different though, I hope it will be different. "Heero?" I ask. He turns his head to the side to look at me in the darkness. "Why do you say I am stronger than you Heero?" he stares at me for a time with an unreadable expression in those deep eyes. " .....You forgive everyone who hurts you. Sincerely. If they backstab you again, you seem foolish to people, but they can't do the same in your position. You trust people that no one else trusts. You forgave me for hurting you and I won't forgive myself for all I've done. Your stronger than me because you forgave me, someone who was trying to kill you, but I can't forgive my enemies. No matter what the circumstances."