"Thank you" I say feeling sad all of a sudden. I didn't really need
to say it, but I appreciate Heero coming here and being so supportive when
he has so many reasons to be sad himself. –The war will always haunt him-
He stares at me once more with a concerned and slightly confused look as
the snow falls relentlessly on the world....." "What's wrong?" –I'm worried
about you.....- Suddenly I know what to do, what I really want to do, to pay
him back for his kindness. I slip my hand out of his grip and move a step
forward, my feet crunching audibly on the snow. I reach my arms up to rest
crisscrossed behind his neck, leaning my head to the side and resting my
cheek against his. A warmth spread through me against the cold of the snow,
and I feel him grow tense. I know I surprised him, I know I broke some sort
of unspoken rule between us, but.....He gradually relaxes and I smile, a real
smile. I know he can feel it against his face. "Thank you Heero" I wonder
if he'd ever really know how much I was indebted to him, throughout the
war, and even now, he's been saving me. He relaxes in my arms finally, and
rests his own awkwardly around my back, gently, in response.
Days pass on. I find myself back in that familiar spacious hall with the bright spotlight shining. Talking about the future with the people listening to me. My voice, and the voices of others like me, fills the silence. So that soldiers like Heero, and civilians like me, never have to face the silence. There will always be answers to questions, ends to wars, and an unsure world to repair and give guidance to. Without guidance for the lost there is no recovery, and no hope. I needed to learn that in order to move forward. Heero has guided me, and in return I will guide him, and others, to a new future.
Days pass on. I find myself back in that familiar spacious hall with the bright spotlight shining. Talking about the future with the people listening to me. My voice, and the voices of others like me, fills the silence. So that soldiers like Heero, and civilians like me, never have to face the silence. There will always be answers to questions, ends to wars, and an unsure world to repair and give guidance to. Without guidance for the lost there is no recovery, and no hope. I needed to learn that in order to move forward. Heero has guided me, and in return I will guide him, and others, to a new future.
