Chapter VII
Fallen
SilentDranzer: Hey guys, I know the last chappie was extremely confusing ^^
Sorry about that... I don't think I could make it simpler unless I told you the rest of story... Like I say, if you don't understand it now, you will one day ^.~ that day will come soon ¬¬ unless I get hit by a car or Kai kills me with a chainsaw.... ¬¬ But anyway ^^ the beginning of this chapter is about Rayne. The feelings on life, her friends, family, her past, her future, Kai and all the things between that teenagers get caught up in... Hope you enjoy ^^.
Once again thank you to all you reviewers, you all know who you are ^^. Thanks to my best mate Gina for putting up with the shit I have been giving her over the past few days and I hope she can get over her own personal problems that she is suffering at the mo. Thanks to Pearse for once again listening to me depressing myself and for working so hard on the site.... ¬¬ I am too lazy to update. That's enough for the shout outs cause I am meant to be typing the story here *ahem* anyway ^^ enjoy. Rayne likes to say Yeah a lot... I don't know why, but when I think I always start my thoughts with a simple 'yeah' It kinda sucks but hey ^^
Chapter VII, Fallen (Rayne's P.O.V)
I am so confused... my head hurts so much. I mean yeah, I like Auron as a friend, we have grown up together but I never thought that would happen... not in a million years. Yeah, he was good, but I think I have let down Kai... Maybe a whole bunch.
Maybe Kai wasn't there when I needed him. Like last week, but we have grown so close to fall apart so far. I know Kai must have had his reason's to leave without telling me. But I thought it was selfish, maybe too much. I know his cold and hurt but aren't we all? The Biovolt tort us much in life, like how to survive in Russian weather without supplies. I mean, that's handy especially in –100 degrees. How to control our emotions and how to remove images and memories at a penny drop, but I never got the hang of what it did to Kai. As a kid he was so happy and lively, look at him now, all he does is glare or scare the crap out of little kids.
Yeah, I love him, maybe too much. I mean we have been though so much. Pain and sacrifice, we've done it all for each other. Again, he left me for 'them' I heard that their a nice bunch of kids, and they've got to be a wicked bunch of beyblader's to win the world championships 2 times in a row. But I still don't get them... I remember when Kai come home. I was so happy; my boyfriend was a world champion. The girls at the prep school where so jealous, I mean, who wouldn't be? All the bitches' boyfriends are amateurs. I had the real thing.
Hehe, I remember Tala's face. So sour, it was kinda funny really. I remember being stood in that skybox, next to father, gripping the rail so tightly that my knuckles went white. Praying that Tala would keep the championship for a whole yearlonger. That Granger kid isn't so bad really I guess, heck I even cried when Ray got sent to the hospital, even though they weren't my team. I guess I felt for Kai, I could never forget what Auron did too him. Nor did Rhoda really.
Yep, Rhoda and Auron go back a long way too. Ex's, I hate them too. Hehe like Jack for instance, I'm glad Kai and Tala beat him up. He shouldn't have messed with that bitch behind my back should he? I fight my own battles, normally I'm the one who starts them, *laughs out loud* Yeah, I like a little fight now and again, I mean it's in my genes for god sake. Tala's just the same I guess. Rhoda is a good friend really. She has ambition. That thrill from learning a new skill that she gets is really, truly amazing. She gets excited a little too often and yeah; it does annoy the fuck out of me and so does her ignorance to believe anything other then what she believes in, like fairies, I mean... who believes in fairies at the age of 17? And then there is warm-hearted Wyatt. He knows what's best for Rhoda and me and he looks out for us. It's really a nice feeling to know, that behind me I have people who have my best interests at heart. I guess I couldn't have become the Russian champion without them. And Tala, I could never forget good old Tala. Tala and I are like normal family. Of course we have to push our differences aside because he is older then me, well I don't consider 19 old, but still. Yeah, we fight. Hey how am I meant to learn how to fight if I didn't?
And then there is Dad and Voltaire, the little creepy bastards or so I call them.
And too be fair, yes I am grateful that they made me. I say made because I am a DNA fumbled mess. How many other 17-year-old girls do you know with her fathers, mother's, bosses, boyfriend and brothers DNA? Not many I guess. Thus proving my point.
I want to make the history between me and Voltaire clear. He is a bastard and I hate him so much and vice-versa. As a little girl I held him in a high light. I thought the world of him, yet I still do in a way. The Biovolt was a very clever idea, but it's just the fact that he is so sick to want to take away children's futures and dreams to become cold, emotionless, dark and sadistic characters. But that was just my past.
My past. Not too much sickening sugar happiness in there. Mum was killed when I was 3... another reason why I hate my dad. Yeah, Tala and me always talk about her a lot. I don't really remember much about her because I was only three but he remembers a hell of a lot. He used to tell me so many wonderful stories. About her long raven hair and her glimmering moss green eyes. How kind she was and how much she adored us. Tala always just beamed with pride when he told the stories, I guess they made me to happy, but so sad at the same time. I would love for her to be alive today, too see how far her daughter had progressed. But, well sadly she can't, because that big, evil.... Arrg words can't describe how much I hate him! I still remember that day I was told she was dead. Yeah, I wasn't told in the nicest of ways and that made me cry a lot. Hell, I still lose sleep over it now. But I always figure it's not the best thing, to think of her when you are so deep in your own troubles. That time would occur to be now.
I think my hole has been dug deep enough. Kai hates Auron enough. I think Red hates him even more, I don't blame him either. I understand it from Red's point of view. Auron has played with Kai's mind a little too much. Auron even tried to kill Red, when he was at his darkest. I know Kai gave up Red for Auron, I think I still have the blade that Kai used to have a while back and it's probably in the trophy case... I'll have to look later.
Stupid blank pages of this stupid diary! I mean why did Auron even give me it? 'Rayne, use this to record your thoughts' Oh, to record my thoughts? *Rolls eyes* Can my thoughts be recorded? They're normally too exposit because of my dirty mind or too long and boring for anyone to care.
I need some miracle drug that can ease away all pain. Ease my suffering and get rid of this fucking headache! I know I can't run, heck I can't even get out of this stupid situation of being torn between my emotions. But anyway, I have a stupid tournament in 5 days, 5 long hard training days. Groan. I have a meeting with Mr. D in 3 hours.... I got to get ready. I can't remember what the initial plan is with him but Auron, is defiantly staying here. I know these Tokyo streets too well to need a bit-beast too. *Sigh* Life is so boring unless your in the beystadium. I love that blood rush, the adrenaline you receive as the fans chant your name, I mean males are rather loud at times, or they're just pure dick-heads. Like I said before, exes are not a good thing. Maybe, just maybe Kai will never know. I highly doubt it... but it's worth a shot I guess...
I think I'm at the point where I hate this. My every footstep seems filled with blood. I let go too early... Now Kai's gone for good. I don't know where he is. I promised myself I'd find him... I haven't even looked. Please Kai... promise me you haven't done anything stupid.
(End Rayne's P.O.V)
Rayne sighed in annoyance. Auron had left some time over 15 minutes ago leaving Rayne to her own devices. She thought over everything. What Kai was to her, what they had left and where the hell he could be. Something in the back of her mind kept telling her that he was with them, although she refused to believe it. Something worried her... something she couldn't put to words.
SilentDranzer: Hey guys, I know the last chappie was extremely confusing ^^
Sorry about that... I don't think I could make it simpler unless I told you the rest of story... Like I say, if you don't understand it now, you will one day ^.~ that day will come soon ¬¬ unless I get hit by a car or Kai kills me with a chainsaw.... ¬¬ But anyway ^^ the beginning of this chapter is about Rayne. The feelings on life, her friends, family, her past, her future, Kai and all the things between that teenagers get caught up in... Hope you enjoy ^^.
Once again thank you to all you reviewers, you all know who you are ^^. Thanks to my best mate Gina for putting up with the shit I have been giving her over the past few days and I hope she can get over her own personal problems that she is suffering at the mo. Thanks to Pearse for once again listening to me depressing myself and for working so hard on the site.... ¬¬ I am too lazy to update. That's enough for the shout outs cause I am meant to be typing the story here *ahem* anyway ^^ enjoy. Rayne likes to say Yeah a lot... I don't know why, but when I think I always start my thoughts with a simple 'yeah' It kinda sucks but hey ^^
Chapter VII, Fallen (Rayne's P.O.V)
I am so confused... my head hurts so much. I mean yeah, I like Auron as a friend, we have grown up together but I never thought that would happen... not in a million years. Yeah, he was good, but I think I have let down Kai... Maybe a whole bunch.
Maybe Kai wasn't there when I needed him. Like last week, but we have grown so close to fall apart so far. I know Kai must have had his reason's to leave without telling me. But I thought it was selfish, maybe too much. I know his cold and hurt but aren't we all? The Biovolt tort us much in life, like how to survive in Russian weather without supplies. I mean, that's handy especially in –100 degrees. How to control our emotions and how to remove images and memories at a penny drop, but I never got the hang of what it did to Kai. As a kid he was so happy and lively, look at him now, all he does is glare or scare the crap out of little kids.
Yeah, I love him, maybe too much. I mean we have been though so much. Pain and sacrifice, we've done it all for each other. Again, he left me for 'them' I heard that their a nice bunch of kids, and they've got to be a wicked bunch of beyblader's to win the world championships 2 times in a row. But I still don't get them... I remember when Kai come home. I was so happy; my boyfriend was a world champion. The girls at the prep school where so jealous, I mean, who wouldn't be? All the bitches' boyfriends are amateurs. I had the real thing.
Hehe, I remember Tala's face. So sour, it was kinda funny really. I remember being stood in that skybox, next to father, gripping the rail so tightly that my knuckles went white. Praying that Tala would keep the championship for a whole yearlonger. That Granger kid isn't so bad really I guess, heck I even cried when Ray got sent to the hospital, even though they weren't my team. I guess I felt for Kai, I could never forget what Auron did too him. Nor did Rhoda really.
Yep, Rhoda and Auron go back a long way too. Ex's, I hate them too. Hehe like Jack for instance, I'm glad Kai and Tala beat him up. He shouldn't have messed with that bitch behind my back should he? I fight my own battles, normally I'm the one who starts them, *laughs out loud* Yeah, I like a little fight now and again, I mean it's in my genes for god sake. Tala's just the same I guess. Rhoda is a good friend really. She has ambition. That thrill from learning a new skill that she gets is really, truly amazing. She gets excited a little too often and yeah; it does annoy the fuck out of me and so does her ignorance to believe anything other then what she believes in, like fairies, I mean... who believes in fairies at the age of 17? And then there is warm-hearted Wyatt. He knows what's best for Rhoda and me and he looks out for us. It's really a nice feeling to know, that behind me I have people who have my best interests at heart. I guess I couldn't have become the Russian champion without them. And Tala, I could never forget good old Tala. Tala and I are like normal family. Of course we have to push our differences aside because he is older then me, well I don't consider 19 old, but still. Yeah, we fight. Hey how am I meant to learn how to fight if I didn't?
And then there is Dad and Voltaire, the little creepy bastards or so I call them.
And too be fair, yes I am grateful that they made me. I say made because I am a DNA fumbled mess. How many other 17-year-old girls do you know with her fathers, mother's, bosses, boyfriend and brothers DNA? Not many I guess. Thus proving my point.
I want to make the history between me and Voltaire clear. He is a bastard and I hate him so much and vice-versa. As a little girl I held him in a high light. I thought the world of him, yet I still do in a way. The Biovolt was a very clever idea, but it's just the fact that he is so sick to want to take away children's futures and dreams to become cold, emotionless, dark and sadistic characters. But that was just my past.
My past. Not too much sickening sugar happiness in there. Mum was killed when I was 3... another reason why I hate my dad. Yeah, Tala and me always talk about her a lot. I don't really remember much about her because I was only three but he remembers a hell of a lot. He used to tell me so many wonderful stories. About her long raven hair and her glimmering moss green eyes. How kind she was and how much she adored us. Tala always just beamed with pride when he told the stories, I guess they made me to happy, but so sad at the same time. I would love for her to be alive today, too see how far her daughter had progressed. But, well sadly she can't, because that big, evil.... Arrg words can't describe how much I hate him! I still remember that day I was told she was dead. Yeah, I wasn't told in the nicest of ways and that made me cry a lot. Hell, I still lose sleep over it now. But I always figure it's not the best thing, to think of her when you are so deep in your own troubles. That time would occur to be now.
I think my hole has been dug deep enough. Kai hates Auron enough. I think Red hates him even more, I don't blame him either. I understand it from Red's point of view. Auron has played with Kai's mind a little too much. Auron even tried to kill Red, when he was at his darkest. I know Kai gave up Red for Auron, I think I still have the blade that Kai used to have a while back and it's probably in the trophy case... I'll have to look later.
Stupid blank pages of this stupid diary! I mean why did Auron even give me it? 'Rayne, use this to record your thoughts' Oh, to record my thoughts? *Rolls eyes* Can my thoughts be recorded? They're normally too exposit because of my dirty mind or too long and boring for anyone to care.
I need some miracle drug that can ease away all pain. Ease my suffering and get rid of this fucking headache! I know I can't run, heck I can't even get out of this stupid situation of being torn between my emotions. But anyway, I have a stupid tournament in 5 days, 5 long hard training days. Groan. I have a meeting with Mr. D in 3 hours.... I got to get ready. I can't remember what the initial plan is with him but Auron, is defiantly staying here. I know these Tokyo streets too well to need a bit-beast too. *Sigh* Life is so boring unless your in the beystadium. I love that blood rush, the adrenaline you receive as the fans chant your name, I mean males are rather loud at times, or they're just pure dick-heads. Like I said before, exes are not a good thing. Maybe, just maybe Kai will never know. I highly doubt it... but it's worth a shot I guess...
I think I'm at the point where I hate this. My every footstep seems filled with blood. I let go too early... Now Kai's gone for good. I don't know where he is. I promised myself I'd find him... I haven't even looked. Please Kai... promise me you haven't done anything stupid.
(End Rayne's P.O.V)
Rayne sighed in annoyance. Auron had left some time over 15 minutes ago leaving Rayne to her own devices. She thought over everything. What Kai was to her, what they had left and where the hell he could be. Something in the back of her mind kept telling her that he was with them, although she refused to believe it. Something worried her... something she couldn't put to words.