Chapter nine - Nightmares
A tall, black haired boy of about sixteen was walking slowly through the woods, his feet crunching on the leaves which were scattered around the damp floor. He continued walking without saying a word. The sky was dark and flecked with glistening stars and the full moon cast shadows in the boy's surroundings.
A soft growl was heard in the distance and the boy became quite scared so he began to quicken his pace. Footsteps could be heard from behind him and the boy knew what was following him. After much walking and sometimes running, the boy became quite tired.
He could no longer hear the footsteps behind him so he leaned against a tree and took a deep breath of relief. A few moments later, the boy heard the soft growling sound again and before he could run, an enormous beast came into view. Its teeth where dripping with blood and salvia, it's cold, dark eyes were sharp and resting upon the boy.
"Remus, it's me. Sirius. Your Sirius. Don't you know who I am?" Sirius asked timidly. The reply was an even louder growl. The beast stepped forward and its mouth widened. "No Remus. Please! I love you Remus" Sirius pleaded fearfully. The beast edged closer and began to prepare to devour the boy.
"No Remus! Remus! Remus!"
Sirius was shaking Remus, trying to wake him. He had heard him screaming out and upon further inspection, noticed he was shaking violently. "Remus! Remus! Remus!" Sirius said shaking him continuously. Remus slowly opened his eyes and was met by Sirius' handsome face and concerned eyes staring at him.
"Are you ok, love?" Sirius asked timidly. "Um yeah, I just had a bad dream" Remus said, sighing deeply. "Ok" Sirius replied, relaxing now that he knew Remus was ok. "I'm going back to sleep, see you in the morning" Sirius said, kissing Remus' lips softly.
"Ok night" Remus replied. Sirius returned to his bed and Remus knew he wouldn't be able to sleep. He understood why he had had that dream. The full moon had only been a few days ago and for the last couple of months, after each full moon he had dreamt of killing of someone he cared about.
First it was Peter and James, then his parents and now Sirius. Tears flowed down his cheeks. He was fed up of these dreams, they really scared him because he knew that there's a possibility they could come true. Remus stayed awake for the rest of the night, afraid that he would dream again.
The next morning, Sirius woke up completely refreshed. He gazed out of
the window and viewed the October weather. Sirius looked at the other boys beds. Tylon and Peter probably had already gone to breakfast and James was most likely with Lily. The two of them had been together for a few weeks now and the pair where inseparable.
Sirius noticed that Remus' bed was empty so he quickly got dressed and walked down to the Great Hall to see his friends. "Hey Siri" James said cheerfully. "Hi" Sirius replied, taking a seat next to Peter. Sirius glanced over at Remus and saw that he looked rather tired.
"Are you alright?" Sirius asked him worriedly. "Yeah" Remus replied quietly. Sirius still didn't seem convinced though but let the subject drop when Remus gave him a weak smile.
"Looking forward to the Halloween feast tonight?" James asked Peter, Remus and Sirius. "Yeah of course. All that delicious food…" Peter replied, trailing off and licking his lips. James laughed slightly. "You really do love your food don't you?" Sirius asked him. "Yes" Peter replied, still daydreaming.
The day passed by slowly and by the evening, Remus was exhausted. He still went to the feast with the others though, so he didn't arouse suspicion. As usual, the feast was magnificent.
James and Lily left hand in hand from the Great Hall and Remus wished he could do the same with Sirius. Occasionally, Remus would ask Sirius whether they should come out and have an open relationship. But whenever he asked, Sirius would start muttering no real answer and quickly change the subject.
Remus hoped that one day, Sirius will be ok about telling people, but until then, their relationship was to be kept a secret except from their friends.
"Come on Rem, the feast is over" Sirius whispered to him. Remus merely nodded and followed Sirius out of the Great Hall. They were greeted by Peter and his girlfriend Penny, kissing each other. Passers by smiled at the pair kissing and whispered things like: "Aww what a cute couple" and "How adorable!"
This depressed Remus further because he knew no one would say those things about him and Sirius if everyone knew. He quickened his pace and Sirius had to run to catch up with him.
"Hey love, are you sure you're ok?" Sirius asked, standing in front of Remus. "Yeah" Remus replied and he walked past Sirius. Sirius frowned at his retreating back. Something is definitely wrong with him he thought worriedly. Oh no, what if I've done something wrong? Sirius thought frantically. Only one way to find out…
Remus carried on walking. He guessed Sirius had gotten annoyed and walked off in the other direction. Soon after he had thought that however, a pair of strong arms had been placed around his waist securely and tightly. Remus looked around and saw Sirius was the one holding him.
"I'm not letting go until you tell me what's wrong" Sirius stated simply. Remus sighed contently. "Fine, but you'll be holding me for quite a while then" Remus replied. "Do you really think that would bother me?" Sirius said, laughing. "Good point" Remus said.
Whilst the two of them were talking, a figure with greasy black hair was watching them from around a corner. Black doesn't deserve Remus, he should be with me, not him. But if they think I'm going to give Remus up that easily, then they're wrong.
Snape glared at the couple before walking away to his common room with his cloak swishing behind him.
Sirius and Remus had seated themselves against a wall and Sirius still had one arm around Remus' waist. "Come on, tell me what's wrong" Sirius said softly. Remus looked at the floor and he knew he'd never be able to get out of telling Sirius.
"Ok, it's just… I had this dream last night, as you know and um, I killed you in it" Remus said slowly, swallowing hard. "In werewolf form" he added. "Oh I see…" Sirius replied, contemplating his words. "But that's not all of the reason. Because these dreams have happened before. I've killed Peter, James and my parents in my dreams and it's so difficult to cope with because…" Remus trailed off but continued in a quiet voice. "It might actually happen".
Fresh tears began to fall down Remus' cheeks and Sirius pulled him close into a tight embrace. "Shh don't cry love. Don't think about that happening because it won't" Sirius said, rocking Remus' gently.
"But it might…" Remus said sadly into Sirius' shoulder. "You've never got out and hurt any of us before so please don't worry" Sirius replied, breaking away slightly from the embrace to look into Remus' amber eyes.
"I would never let something happen to you, or you do something to someone else because…" Sirius began and he kissed Remus softly on the lips.
"I love you"
Remus was startled but smiled sweetly. "I love you too, Sirius". Remus brought him closer for another kiss but this one was deeper and more passionate. They kissed for a while longer, only stopping to take a breath. After a while, they stood up and walked back to the common room, hand in hand.
When they arrived, they saw that the room was deserted; everyone else must have been asleep. Sirius was about to walk up the stairs until Remus stopped him. "There's something else I didn't mention…" Remus said, looking at the floor. "What is it?" Sirius asked.
"Every time I have a nightmare like I did last night, it takes me a few days to recover and last night, I was too scared to sleep" Remus looked up into Sirius' blue orbs and Sirius smiled. "I have an idea" Sirius said, taking Remus' hand and walking with him up the staircase.
They quietly entered the boy's dorm room and Sirius took Remus over to his bed. "You can fall asleep in my arms" he said softly. Remus smiled at him and they both climbed into bed. Sirius wrapped an arm around Remus' waist and brought him closer.
He kissed him softly on the head and they both drifted off into a dreamless sleep.
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A/N: Awww a lot of fluff in that chapter! Thank you to all of my reviewers. Hopefully, the next few chapters will come quickly now that I don't have school for a while.