A.n.-Gomen for the wait on this. I had trouble picking a song for this chapter. I'm still not completely satisfied with this song for it...but I felt it fit pretty well. I hope you all like this chapter:)Don't forget to review 'kay?
And to Draggy, I'll have the next chappie to "Without You" soon^_~, I promise:)
And yes...I decided to change the title. It had been buggin' me for a while...^_^
Dedication-R Amythest, Firedraygon97, Cat, Kely, Sunset-Wolf, Draggy, YaoiFan, Guess, Thocki, Mira-chan, Hikari no Yami, Aznsilhouette247, Moshi, Spark-gurl, and Hana no Ceres. Thank you all of you!!^_^
Disclaimer-I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh or this song "Faithless" by Injected. Songs sung by Ryou are "Cry" by Faith Hill and "Don't Speak" by No Doubt.
~Could you be so lost? Are you so free?
Do you long to be when the sun goes down?
Do you feel the feeling there's no one near?
You know it's such a mystery how you washed up over me
And I couldn't breathe, I couldn't speak, 'lest I drown~
It was dark in Anzu's apartment. My lover laid at my side, her eyes closed in slumber...a satisfied smile taking her full red lips. I looked away. It almost felt wrong, this obsessive need to always be with her. To love her...why did that emotion feel so empty? Why was every thing I saw and heard in gray unless she was in my presence? Why was everything so phony without her? Was this what it meant to love? To not be able to survive without the other with you?
I can barely remember a time when I had laughed at others for this obscene weakness called "love". I used to love seeing the terrified love induced fear when I made their love bleed and scream. Seeing that helpless rage and desperate calls for me to leave them alone and take them...not the other. How I had laughed, how I had enjoyed their screams and tears...
And now here I am, with someone that means more to me then anyone could possibly imagine. I've never felt this much before...and yet at the same time felt nothing at all. A boy with white hair and brilliant brown eyes appeared suddenly and my heart clenched. I hate him so much. Bloody fool, how dare he do this to me...he's just trying to distract me from my beloved Anzu...that's all.
Why then, did I feel so...angry when I saw him and that psycho Marik together? Why did I get so possessive and jealous when I saw them kiss? Why? Stupid questions. I was just embarrassed that he actually did that in public. After all, he looks similar to me...anything he does like that can reflect badly on me...Right?
I growled lowly and slowly slipped off the bed, covering Anzu up gently with the covers. I hate to part from her...but...I don't know why but I can't stay here right now. I need some time to myself, some time to think and sort out these...stupid emotions. It would worry her to see me upset, anyway, and Anzu's feels are my prime priority...
I licked my lips and pulled on my discarded leather pants and a silky black shirt to match it. Dressed, I quickly slid out the open window and landed deftly on my feet. Some rain and sprinkled down earlier making the musky scent of nature and life rise through the cool air. I wandered aimlessly through the moonlit sidewalks. Searching for something I didn't understand. All I wanted to do was get away. Run, run, run, and run until my lungs wanted to burst.
To love was to be in pain, to hate was to live. I didn't know where the thought came from. It just simply rose in my mind...drink. Yes. I need a drink...preferably something hard. Licking my lips nervously I made my way quickly past the houses and toward a local tavern. I was drawn here by an invisible force. It wasn't the alcoholic beverages I was going for...but something else I didn't understand.
I reached up and touched my busted lip slowly, not even wincing at the fiery pain that erupted from the fresh wound. Who'd of thought that my weakling Hikari actually had a mean right-hook? Hmp. Fool. How dare he insult my Anzu. He will pay for that. He will...no one insults what I care about and gets away with it!
I walked into the tavern and dropped gracelessly into an empty booth, scowling at anyone who dared look my way. I grabbed a waiter by the arm and ordered him to bring me a drink. I could see the fear building in his eyes, thin lips paling to white as they pressed hard enough together that they looked like rubber-bands. He nodded his head and walked quickly away to fulfill my demand. Anzu...Anzu...Anzu...
I bet you're lying on your side right now. Soft, supple lips parted ever so slightly, brilliant blue eyes closed in slumber, luscious curves pressed against the covers, that little blue crystal charm you wear around your neck glinting ever so teasingly as it fell in the crevice between your breasts...
I shook my head slightly, disturbed a little by my attraction to her. By the fact that she consumed me so completely. I felt so empty without her bright presence at my side. I was stumbling through a darkened world without her beautiful light to guide me. I felt so torn, ripped and mangled without her. An ugly demon cast into heaven where none could or ever would accept me.
I whimpered slightly under my breath. I loathe this weakness, but she is a desire that I cannot deny even if I tried. It was strange, I woke up after a moment of so-called loving bliss with my ignorant Hikari and all I could think of was her. Every graceful gesture, every smile, every bedazzling look...
I shook my head slightly and let out some of my pent up frustration by giving my waiter a look of pure murder. His hands shook, nearly dropping his tray that held my shot glass and a bottle of vodka. He trembled as he laid them on the table before me.
"W-will tha-there be-be-be anything mah-more, s-s-sir?" he stuttered, high-pitched childish voice grating on my nerves more then anything else.
I just stared at him, narrowing my eyes. He nodded and walked away quickly, giving me a wide berth when he passed my table with drinks for others... I sighed. Tormenting mortals was fun but I couldn't help but feel on edge. Like something...or someone...was watching me. I rolled my shoulders back and downed a shot of vodka. Then another...and another...and another...and another...Until the mild buzz of drunkenness was raging through my mind.
The band on the stage, which hadn't been very good by the way, came to a stop. An old man with wiry gray hair, narrow brown eyes and a pinched face walked over to the microphone and began to speak. I tuned him out, absently imagining gutting him with a knife and watching him scream in agony...that would be fun...
That's when HE stepped on stage, his mere presence knocking me out of my train of thought. Smooth, long white hair with wide innocent brown eyes that seemed harder then they should be. A snarl of rage was fighting its way up, and also a feeling I didn't understand was rising in my mind. I felt almost...happy to see him again. I snorted and downed another shot of vodka.
Images flew through my mind. Moonlit evenings of pure rapture, striving to reach the peeks of ecstasy with a being that had completed me in every sense. The world was colorful then, my mind as open as my heart. I shook my head roughly. I was being stupid. I had Anzu now, my true love and desire. Not that pathetic weakling that didn't even deserve my time...right? Yes. It was a misfortune that he had ended up being my Hikari anyway. Probably Ra's way of torturing me for robbing so many tombs...now those were the days...
~But it's my kind, I'll never be cruel and I'll always play the fool
To be as loveless, as shameless as you...I'm so blind
I'll do it again, I feel your eyes sink in...so
faithless you've been~
~Yes I'm so lost, I am not free but I long to be
When your life goes down, do you feel as though your gonna drown?
You're going down, you're going down, you're going
down, you're going down~
The lights dimmed a little more and smooth beat of music that was nearly pleasant filtered through the air and against my will my eyes rose to my Hikari. He was dressed in a pair of low hanging form fitting leather pants that left little to the imagination. A low hanging red shirt hung over his chest, the buttons all the way done. An interesting mix of innocence and sin...it would have been tempting if Anzu weren't all I could think of. I downed another few shots and looked up in shock as a smooth sweet voice entered the air...Ryou's voice...
"If I had just one tear runnin' down your cheek
Maybe I could, cope maybe I'd get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Baby all my misery would be well spent
Could you cry just a little? Lie just a little?
Pretend that you're feelin' a little more pain
I gave and now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
If your love could be caged, Honey I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me
And you'd hunt those lies...they'd be all you'd ever find
That'd be all you'd have to know...for me to fine
Can you cry just a little? Die just a little?
And baby I would feel a little less pain
I gave and now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
Give it up, baby, I hear your doin' fine
Nothings gonna save me...I can see it in your eyes
Some kind of heart your callin'...give it a try
I don't want pity, I just want what is mine...yeah
Could you cry just a little? Lie just a little?
Pretend that you're feelin' a little more pain
I gave and now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
Could you cry a little...for me?"
I was almost sad when the song ended. Time remained suspended as his voice faded away with the last line. The song was for me, I knew that. But how did he know I was here? Or maybe...he hadn't known at all and this was just his way of venting emotions. I didn't dare reach out to feel my Hikari's emotions. Then, if he didn't know I was here, he would know then. I'd thrown a wall between us, to tear it down would be cause.
A loud applause ripped through the room, startling me out of my trance. I downed another shot, my hands were beginning to tremble despite the fiery liquid I'd downed. Run...I wanted to run more then anything now. Curl back up with my beloved Anzu and forget the world in her arms. Get away from my weakling Hikari and banish him from my mind...I downed three more shots. I was feeling a little more then mildly drunk now. Even the sparkling lights above me were suddenly becoming funny...
A hard somewhat...different beat of music rippled through the air. Filled with life and once more I looked up to see my Hikari on the stage. His hair was wild around his face, sweat dripping tantalizingly across his smooth face. I licked my lips suddenly finding it hard to breathe. I blamed it on the alcohol for the sudden emotions...even still I couldn't help but down another shot of it. It rippled down through my body like a sultry fury, dragging me along for the ride of forgetfulness...
"You and me...we used to be together, everyday together...always
I really feel that I'm losin' my best friend...I can't believe this could be the end
It looks as though your letting go...and if it's real I don't want to know
Don't speak, I know just what you're saying...so please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts...
Don't speak, I know what your thinkin'...I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Our memories...they can be inviting...
But some are all together mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I...with my head in my hands I sit and cry
Don't speak, I know just what you're saying...so please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts...
Don't speak, I know what your thinkin'...and I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts...
It's all ending, we got to stop pretending who we are...
You and me...I can see us dying...are we?
Don't speak, I know just what you're sayin'...so please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
No, no don't speak, I know just what your thinkin'...I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts, don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak, don't speak, don't speak
I know what your thinkin'...and I don't need your reasons....
Don't shh, hush...darling."
The song drifted away, leaving me even as the applause erupted into the air. As much as it killed me to dare admit it...something in his voice tonight had touched me. Something in it had awakened a longing to deep to be described. I wanted to hold him, just as I had held Anzu only hours before. I wanted to caress that creamy white skin, hear the shouts of pleasure from his lips, I wanted to see his blood rain down over my hands. I wanted to feel myself inside of him again.
Lust was the only way to explain such a thing. And why I wanted the pathetic soggy rat I didn't know, nor care. Something had awoken when I'd seen him again. Some pain deep inside. I wanted the answers that continued to elude me. I wanted all the lies that I was telling myself and were fed to me gone...I was tired of wondering why this, why that...why can't things be more simple?
Everyone has always blamed me for everything. Well, except Anzu that is. She never raised her voice to me, always held me and kissed my worries away. An image flashed through my mind. Ryou laughing in my arms, reaching up to steal a lingering kiss before running off. No...he never really blamed me either. Why did I hate him so much? Why did I despise him so, yet long for him beyond anything else in the world? What was wrong with me? What spell had been cast that tossed all my barriers away?
I growled and buried my face in my hands, my slender fingers clinched around my silver hair and tugged hard. I barely felt the pain that surged through my scalp. Against my will I raised my eyes again to the stage to see Ryou stepping off. He smiled and nodded to a few people before walking toward two platinum blondes.
Fury blazed through me as they embraced him and kissed him lightly as he responded to both with a fiery passion. Rage was fueling me at the sight. Possessiveness I didn't understand. It was almost as bad as if they were holding Anzu in such a manner. And the gods know that I do not share.
Marik stiffened suddenly, as though feeling my presence. I leaned back in my booth, thankful for the shadows that engulfed me. He couldn't see me, even if he could for that matter feel me...
~But it's my kind, I'll never be cruel and I'll always play the fool
To be as loveless, as shameless as you...but I'm so blind
I'll do it again, I feel your eyes sink in...so
faithless you've been~
~Yes I'm so lost, but I'm not free...yes I'm so lost...but I long to be~
Marik's eyes passed over me twice before returning to my Hikari. I rose up and walked out of the bar quickly, stumbling a little over invisible bumps in the floor. I cursed in two languages as I made my way to the door. No one dared stop me, of course. I had to get out of there. Back to Anzu. Yes. She was calling me. She needed me, and I needed her. We are one, and can never be otherwise. I walked out into the night and hurried down the path I'd taken back to Anzu's place.
Only to collide with an unmovable, very solid *alive* wall...
Stumbling back I raised my gaze to meet ruby red orbs. Wild tri-colored hair that went in every direction, a face of noble beauty carved with the seduction of darkness lilting toward me. Power of the Ancient World rolled in waves off the ageless once Pharaoh. I snarled in rage.
"Outs of Ma' ways Pharaoh..." My tongue was sluggish and loose, my mouth struggling to form simple vowels.
He didn't move, his arms crossing as his stance shifted cockily. He titled his head at me.
"You're drunk." It was a statement, not a question.
It seemed remarkably funny the way he said it, a single elegant eyebrow raised. I laughed, feeling a fire rush through my veins. Freedom was mine, but I still wanted Anzu. Wanted to feel her in my arms, I wanted the world to be real again. And that would only come when she was with me...
"Give da man an' award...*hic*" I went off on a hic-upping tirade for a minute or so, smiling foolishly at my eternal foe.
He grabbed me by my shirt suddenly, dragging me off into one of the allies and slamming me hard against one of the walls. I grimaced in agony. That *hurt* damn it! Ugh...and did he have to yell like that? It was giving me a headache and tossing off my high I'd gotten. Baka Pharaoh...
"What the hell is wrong with you Yami no Bakura?! You love Ryou! Not that stupid, no good greasy whore!! You don't even know where she's BEEN! And you give up RYOU for ANZU?! Have you lost your friggin' MIND?!" He was passing in front of me, screaming out the words with more anger then I'd ever seen him express.
I'd always thought of Yugioh as King of Ice more then the King of Games. The man never really lost his cool, his fury always dripping clear from the tones he used rather then raising his voice high enough for Ra to hear...hahahaha...Yugioh...King of Ice Men...hehehehe...that thought seemed hilarious right about now...
I pointed a finger at him, blinking hard to keep him in focus, "Now yous lisss..listen ta me...King of Ice...Anzu...is...is...wha was I talking about? Ah, yeah...Anzu...Anzu is...the sun, da moon, n' the stars in one...hehehehe....ya get it? The sun? Ra? Hahaha."
He was looking at me with pure distaste, hatred dripped from his voice, "You are a fool, Yami no Bakura. At least I had *some* respect for you when you were trying to steal my puzzle, not much, mind you, but some...but now...ugh...you're lower then dirt now. To abandon your Hikari like that...have you now friggin' SHAME?!"
I winced and pressed my fingers to my temples, "Stop yelling...it hurts mah ears...I love Anzu...you don't understan...yous canna understand it..." I licked my lips, "I hafta go...she needs me..."
Yugioh backed away, disgust across his face, "You do that. May your heart way heavier then the feather in the After Life, Yami no Bakura, and may the crocodile feast hungrily on that black heart of yours."
He walked away from me then, leaving me staring after where he stood. Stupid Ice King doesn't know what he's talking about. Weigh heavier then the feather...Like his heart will weigh any less...hahaha...
I pushed myself off the wall and began to make my way back to Anzu's apartment. I stopped suddenly and leaned against one of the buildings. Ryou suddenly came to mind as I felt Anzu's call on me waver. I wonder what he's doing right now...?
I turned off from the way to Anzu's and instead made my way to where Ryou's house was...might as well check in on the weakling...For a smile he'll let me have whatever I want anyway. And besides...I wonder what he looks like when his belief in me is shattered twice? I laughed madly and began to run to Ryou's house....
~But it's my kind, I'll never be cruel and I'll always play the fool
To be as loveless, as shameless as you...but I'm so blind
I'll do it again I feel your eyes sink in
So faithless you've been...so faithless as you've been~
A.n.-I know...Incredibly SHORT...I didn't mean for it to be, but it's just the way it turned out. Don't worry, Baku-chan won't be drunk long, I didn't like his vocab that way either^_~. Hehe, review onegai so I'll know to add more^_^_^_^
And to Draggy, I'll have the next chappie to "Without You" soon^_~, I promise:)
And yes...I decided to change the title. It had been buggin' me for a while...^_^
Dedication-R Amythest, Firedraygon97, Cat, Kely, Sunset-Wolf, Draggy, YaoiFan, Guess, Thocki, Mira-chan, Hikari no Yami, Aznsilhouette247, Moshi, Spark-gurl, and Hana no Ceres. Thank you all of you!!^_^
Disclaimer-I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh or this song "Faithless" by Injected. Songs sung by Ryou are "Cry" by Faith Hill and "Don't Speak" by No Doubt.
~Could you be so lost? Are you so free?
Do you long to be when the sun goes down?
Do you feel the feeling there's no one near?
You know it's such a mystery how you washed up over me
And I couldn't breathe, I couldn't speak, 'lest I drown~
It was dark in Anzu's apartment. My lover laid at my side, her eyes closed in slumber...a satisfied smile taking her full red lips. I looked away. It almost felt wrong, this obsessive need to always be with her. To love her...why did that emotion feel so empty? Why was every thing I saw and heard in gray unless she was in my presence? Why was everything so phony without her? Was this what it meant to love? To not be able to survive without the other with you?
I can barely remember a time when I had laughed at others for this obscene weakness called "love". I used to love seeing the terrified love induced fear when I made their love bleed and scream. Seeing that helpless rage and desperate calls for me to leave them alone and take them...not the other. How I had laughed, how I had enjoyed their screams and tears...
And now here I am, with someone that means more to me then anyone could possibly imagine. I've never felt this much before...and yet at the same time felt nothing at all. A boy with white hair and brilliant brown eyes appeared suddenly and my heart clenched. I hate him so much. Bloody fool, how dare he do this to me...he's just trying to distract me from my beloved Anzu...that's all.
Why then, did I feel so...angry when I saw him and that psycho Marik together? Why did I get so possessive and jealous when I saw them kiss? Why? Stupid questions. I was just embarrassed that he actually did that in public. After all, he looks similar to me...anything he does like that can reflect badly on me...Right?
I growled lowly and slowly slipped off the bed, covering Anzu up gently with the covers. I hate to part from her...but...I don't know why but I can't stay here right now. I need some time to myself, some time to think and sort out these...stupid emotions. It would worry her to see me upset, anyway, and Anzu's feels are my prime priority...
I licked my lips and pulled on my discarded leather pants and a silky black shirt to match it. Dressed, I quickly slid out the open window and landed deftly on my feet. Some rain and sprinkled down earlier making the musky scent of nature and life rise through the cool air. I wandered aimlessly through the moonlit sidewalks. Searching for something I didn't understand. All I wanted to do was get away. Run, run, run, and run until my lungs wanted to burst.
To love was to be in pain, to hate was to live. I didn't know where the thought came from. It just simply rose in my mind...drink. Yes. I need a drink...preferably something hard. Licking my lips nervously I made my way quickly past the houses and toward a local tavern. I was drawn here by an invisible force. It wasn't the alcoholic beverages I was going for...but something else I didn't understand.
I reached up and touched my busted lip slowly, not even wincing at the fiery pain that erupted from the fresh wound. Who'd of thought that my weakling Hikari actually had a mean right-hook? Hmp. Fool. How dare he insult my Anzu. He will pay for that. He will...no one insults what I care about and gets away with it!
I walked into the tavern and dropped gracelessly into an empty booth, scowling at anyone who dared look my way. I grabbed a waiter by the arm and ordered him to bring me a drink. I could see the fear building in his eyes, thin lips paling to white as they pressed hard enough together that they looked like rubber-bands. He nodded his head and walked quickly away to fulfill my demand. Anzu...Anzu...Anzu...
I bet you're lying on your side right now. Soft, supple lips parted ever so slightly, brilliant blue eyes closed in slumber, luscious curves pressed against the covers, that little blue crystal charm you wear around your neck glinting ever so teasingly as it fell in the crevice between your breasts...
I shook my head slightly, disturbed a little by my attraction to her. By the fact that she consumed me so completely. I felt so empty without her bright presence at my side. I was stumbling through a darkened world without her beautiful light to guide me. I felt so torn, ripped and mangled without her. An ugly demon cast into heaven where none could or ever would accept me.
I whimpered slightly under my breath. I loathe this weakness, but she is a desire that I cannot deny even if I tried. It was strange, I woke up after a moment of so-called loving bliss with my ignorant Hikari and all I could think of was her. Every graceful gesture, every smile, every bedazzling look...
I shook my head slightly and let out some of my pent up frustration by giving my waiter a look of pure murder. His hands shook, nearly dropping his tray that held my shot glass and a bottle of vodka. He trembled as he laid them on the table before me.
"W-will tha-there be-be-be anything mah-more, s-s-sir?" he stuttered, high-pitched childish voice grating on my nerves more then anything else.
I just stared at him, narrowing my eyes. He nodded and walked away quickly, giving me a wide berth when he passed my table with drinks for others... I sighed. Tormenting mortals was fun but I couldn't help but feel on edge. Like something...or someone...was watching me. I rolled my shoulders back and downed a shot of vodka. Then another...and another...and another...and another...Until the mild buzz of drunkenness was raging through my mind.
The band on the stage, which hadn't been very good by the way, came to a stop. An old man with wiry gray hair, narrow brown eyes and a pinched face walked over to the microphone and began to speak. I tuned him out, absently imagining gutting him with a knife and watching him scream in agony...that would be fun...
That's when HE stepped on stage, his mere presence knocking me out of my train of thought. Smooth, long white hair with wide innocent brown eyes that seemed harder then they should be. A snarl of rage was fighting its way up, and also a feeling I didn't understand was rising in my mind. I felt almost...happy to see him again. I snorted and downed another shot of vodka.
Images flew through my mind. Moonlit evenings of pure rapture, striving to reach the peeks of ecstasy with a being that had completed me in every sense. The world was colorful then, my mind as open as my heart. I shook my head roughly. I was being stupid. I had Anzu now, my true love and desire. Not that pathetic weakling that didn't even deserve my time...right? Yes. It was a misfortune that he had ended up being my Hikari anyway. Probably Ra's way of torturing me for robbing so many tombs...now those were the days...
~But it's my kind, I'll never be cruel and I'll always play the fool
To be as loveless, as shameless as you...I'm so blind
I'll do it again, I feel your eyes sink in...so
faithless you've been~
~Yes I'm so lost, I am not free but I long to be
When your life goes down, do you feel as though your gonna drown?
You're going down, you're going down, you're going
down, you're going down~
The lights dimmed a little more and smooth beat of music that was nearly pleasant filtered through the air and against my will my eyes rose to my Hikari. He was dressed in a pair of low hanging form fitting leather pants that left little to the imagination. A low hanging red shirt hung over his chest, the buttons all the way done. An interesting mix of innocence and sin...it would have been tempting if Anzu weren't all I could think of. I downed another few shots and looked up in shock as a smooth sweet voice entered the air...Ryou's voice...
"If I had just one tear runnin' down your cheek
Maybe I could, cope maybe I'd get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Baby all my misery would be well spent
Could you cry just a little? Lie just a little?
Pretend that you're feelin' a little more pain
I gave and now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
If your love could be caged, Honey I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me
And you'd hunt those lies...they'd be all you'd ever find
That'd be all you'd have to know...for me to fine
Can you cry just a little? Die just a little?
And baby I would feel a little less pain
I gave and now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
Give it up, baby, I hear your doin' fine
Nothings gonna save me...I can see it in your eyes
Some kind of heart your callin'...give it a try
I don't want pity, I just want what is mine...yeah
Could you cry just a little? Lie just a little?
Pretend that you're feelin' a little more pain
I gave and now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
Could you cry a little...for me?"
I was almost sad when the song ended. Time remained suspended as his voice faded away with the last line. The song was for me, I knew that. But how did he know I was here? Or maybe...he hadn't known at all and this was just his way of venting emotions. I didn't dare reach out to feel my Hikari's emotions. Then, if he didn't know I was here, he would know then. I'd thrown a wall between us, to tear it down would be cause.
A loud applause ripped through the room, startling me out of my trance. I downed another shot, my hands were beginning to tremble despite the fiery liquid I'd downed. Run...I wanted to run more then anything now. Curl back up with my beloved Anzu and forget the world in her arms. Get away from my weakling Hikari and banish him from my mind...I downed three more shots. I was feeling a little more then mildly drunk now. Even the sparkling lights above me were suddenly becoming funny...
A hard somewhat...different beat of music rippled through the air. Filled with life and once more I looked up to see my Hikari on the stage. His hair was wild around his face, sweat dripping tantalizingly across his smooth face. I licked my lips suddenly finding it hard to breathe. I blamed it on the alcohol for the sudden emotions...even still I couldn't help but down another shot of it. It rippled down through my body like a sultry fury, dragging me along for the ride of forgetfulness...
"You and me...we used to be together, everyday together...always
I really feel that I'm losin' my best friend...I can't believe this could be the end
It looks as though your letting go...and if it's real I don't want to know
Don't speak, I know just what you're saying...so please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts...
Don't speak, I know what your thinkin'...I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Our memories...they can be inviting...
But some are all together mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I...with my head in my hands I sit and cry
Don't speak, I know just what you're saying...so please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts...
Don't speak, I know what your thinkin'...and I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts...
It's all ending, we got to stop pretending who we are...
You and me...I can see us dying...are we?
Don't speak, I know just what you're sayin'...so please stop explaining
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts
No, no don't speak, I know just what your thinkin'...I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts, don't tell me 'cause it hurts
Don't speak, don't speak, don't speak
I know what your thinkin'...and I don't need your reasons....
Don't shh, hush...darling."
The song drifted away, leaving me even as the applause erupted into the air. As much as it killed me to dare admit it...something in his voice tonight had touched me. Something in it had awakened a longing to deep to be described. I wanted to hold him, just as I had held Anzu only hours before. I wanted to caress that creamy white skin, hear the shouts of pleasure from his lips, I wanted to see his blood rain down over my hands. I wanted to feel myself inside of him again.
Lust was the only way to explain such a thing. And why I wanted the pathetic soggy rat I didn't know, nor care. Something had awoken when I'd seen him again. Some pain deep inside. I wanted the answers that continued to elude me. I wanted all the lies that I was telling myself and were fed to me gone...I was tired of wondering why this, why that...why can't things be more simple?
Everyone has always blamed me for everything. Well, except Anzu that is. She never raised her voice to me, always held me and kissed my worries away. An image flashed through my mind. Ryou laughing in my arms, reaching up to steal a lingering kiss before running off. No...he never really blamed me either. Why did I hate him so much? Why did I despise him so, yet long for him beyond anything else in the world? What was wrong with me? What spell had been cast that tossed all my barriers away?
I growled and buried my face in my hands, my slender fingers clinched around my silver hair and tugged hard. I barely felt the pain that surged through my scalp. Against my will I raised my eyes again to the stage to see Ryou stepping off. He smiled and nodded to a few people before walking toward two platinum blondes.
Fury blazed through me as they embraced him and kissed him lightly as he responded to both with a fiery passion. Rage was fueling me at the sight. Possessiveness I didn't understand. It was almost as bad as if they were holding Anzu in such a manner. And the gods know that I do not share.
Marik stiffened suddenly, as though feeling my presence. I leaned back in my booth, thankful for the shadows that engulfed me. He couldn't see me, even if he could for that matter feel me...
~But it's my kind, I'll never be cruel and I'll always play the fool
To be as loveless, as shameless as you...but I'm so blind
I'll do it again, I feel your eyes sink in...so
faithless you've been~
~Yes I'm so lost, but I'm not free...yes I'm so lost...but I long to be~
Marik's eyes passed over me twice before returning to my Hikari. I rose up and walked out of the bar quickly, stumbling a little over invisible bumps in the floor. I cursed in two languages as I made my way to the door. No one dared stop me, of course. I had to get out of there. Back to Anzu. Yes. She was calling me. She needed me, and I needed her. We are one, and can never be otherwise. I walked out into the night and hurried down the path I'd taken back to Anzu's place.
Only to collide with an unmovable, very solid *alive* wall...
Stumbling back I raised my gaze to meet ruby red orbs. Wild tri-colored hair that went in every direction, a face of noble beauty carved with the seduction of darkness lilting toward me. Power of the Ancient World rolled in waves off the ageless once Pharaoh. I snarled in rage.
"Outs of Ma' ways Pharaoh..." My tongue was sluggish and loose, my mouth struggling to form simple vowels.
He didn't move, his arms crossing as his stance shifted cockily. He titled his head at me.
"You're drunk." It was a statement, not a question.
It seemed remarkably funny the way he said it, a single elegant eyebrow raised. I laughed, feeling a fire rush through my veins. Freedom was mine, but I still wanted Anzu. Wanted to feel her in my arms, I wanted the world to be real again. And that would only come when she was with me...
"Give da man an' award...*hic*" I went off on a hic-upping tirade for a minute or so, smiling foolishly at my eternal foe.
He grabbed me by my shirt suddenly, dragging me off into one of the allies and slamming me hard against one of the walls. I grimaced in agony. That *hurt* damn it! Ugh...and did he have to yell like that? It was giving me a headache and tossing off my high I'd gotten. Baka Pharaoh...
"What the hell is wrong with you Yami no Bakura?! You love Ryou! Not that stupid, no good greasy whore!! You don't even know where she's BEEN! And you give up RYOU for ANZU?! Have you lost your friggin' MIND?!" He was passing in front of me, screaming out the words with more anger then I'd ever seen him express.
I'd always thought of Yugioh as King of Ice more then the King of Games. The man never really lost his cool, his fury always dripping clear from the tones he used rather then raising his voice high enough for Ra to hear...hahahaha...Yugioh...King of Ice Men...hehehehe...that thought seemed hilarious right about now...
I pointed a finger at him, blinking hard to keep him in focus, "Now yous lisss..listen ta me...King of Ice...Anzu...is...is...wha was I talking about? Ah, yeah...Anzu...Anzu is...the sun, da moon, n' the stars in one...hehehehe....ya get it? The sun? Ra? Hahaha."
He was looking at me with pure distaste, hatred dripped from his voice, "You are a fool, Yami no Bakura. At least I had *some* respect for you when you were trying to steal my puzzle, not much, mind you, but some...but now...ugh...you're lower then dirt now. To abandon your Hikari like that...have you now friggin' SHAME?!"
I winced and pressed my fingers to my temples, "Stop yelling...it hurts mah ears...I love Anzu...you don't understan...yous canna understand it..." I licked my lips, "I hafta go...she needs me..."
Yugioh backed away, disgust across his face, "You do that. May your heart way heavier then the feather in the After Life, Yami no Bakura, and may the crocodile feast hungrily on that black heart of yours."
He walked away from me then, leaving me staring after where he stood. Stupid Ice King doesn't know what he's talking about. Weigh heavier then the feather...Like his heart will weigh any less...hahaha...
I pushed myself off the wall and began to make my way back to Anzu's apartment. I stopped suddenly and leaned against one of the buildings. Ryou suddenly came to mind as I felt Anzu's call on me waver. I wonder what he's doing right now...?
I turned off from the way to Anzu's and instead made my way to where Ryou's house was...might as well check in on the weakling...For a smile he'll let me have whatever I want anyway. And besides...I wonder what he looks like when his belief in me is shattered twice? I laughed madly and began to run to Ryou's house....
~But it's my kind, I'll never be cruel and I'll always play the fool
To be as loveless, as shameless as you...but I'm so blind
I'll do it again I feel your eyes sink in
So faithless you've been...so faithless as you've been~
A.n.-I know...Incredibly SHORT...I didn't mean for it to be, but it's just the way it turned out. Don't worry, Baku-chan won't be drunk long, I didn't like his vocab that way either^_~. Hehe, review onegai so I'll know to add more^_^_^_^