Watashi wa hitori: 4. I'm enduring
A/N
Konnichiwa minna! -
Today's been a blessing. I took my state's test, TAKS, and I think I failed! - Hehe. Isn't that great?
I wrote this lunch, while people were still finishing their lunches, and in free periods, which was most of them.
Reviews:
yugischik4eva Hey! - Thank you very much for the review.
Joey'zSk8tergurl Grins Nope. Actually, if you read the Warnings/Notes, it's in #Seto's P. O. V.# in this chapter. In the next chapter though, Jou and Seto get together. That chapter has #Jou's P. O. V.# in it. After that, every chapter goes to Yami's, Seto's, and #Jou's P. O. V.# Or normal.
Gives Joey'zSk8tergurl a Jou plushie Here you go! - It's for being the second reviewer! -
Catey Since you asked so nicely, of course! -
Warnings/Notes: Now, for what you all have been waiting for! #Seto's P. O. V.# Sometimes I do normal for my benefits. As well, some people have been confused, but I always do flashbacks in #Normal P. O. V.# Also, this one will not have a song. I'm fresh out. Anyone have any?
Also, running out of YGO plushies! Hurry! Be one of the first five reviewers and get a plushie to your liking! - Thank you CrimsonEyedAngel99 for giving me Yugi's grandfather's name! -
Disclaimer: Sighs No. I, do not...Gulps... own...Sweats... Yu-Gi-Oh!!...sniff Yami-kun...
Summary: Yami develops a fever and guess who visits him...
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#Normal P. O. V.#
"Ojiisan? Will Yami be all right?" asked Yugi, his eyes full of concern.
Sugoroku nodded. "He had a very high fever. But he will be better if he just rests for a while."
"I hope so. When I saw Yami, he was shivering cold and very pale..."
Sugoroku sighed. "Yes. But don't worry; Yami can fight off a measly fever."
Yugi nodded, even though he was still very worried.
Staying out in the rain
Is not as fun as it used to be
Without you with me
It's just not the same
#Seto's P. O. V.#
Ding dong ding dong
The school bell rang. What an annoying sound. I sat at my desk, the first person to arrive as usual, reading a book. When I saw Yugi and his friends run in at the last moment, I was disappointed that I didn't see Yami with them. Wait. Why would I be disappointed?
A little voice answered.
'Because you still love him.'
I can't love him. I love someone else.
'Are you sure? You don't even care about him anymore?'
I care!
'Then why did you hurt him? Why did you leave him? Why did you make him suffer?'
I-I...
'I knew it. You were afraid.'
Why would I be afraid!?
'Think about it. The reason why you couldn't sleep. The reason why you left him...'
Flashback
Seto squirmed around in bed, tossing and turning.
--Dream mode--
He stood there. Protecting his Pharaoh, his love...
"I will not allow you to sacrifice yourself for me!" Yami screamed behind him.
But he did not budge. He stood there looking at his lover in the eye.
Blue met tearful crimson...
"Do not decline my Pharaoh. I wish to give my life away, so that yours will live on..." Seth said in a soft voice.
His voice held so much emotion; it was almost incomprehensible. The young priest sounded so...
...depressed...
..angry...
...understanding..
...pleading...
He was depressed that he might not see his lover again.
He was angry at himself for not being beside him in the future.
He understood the consequences of this, and he hated it...
But, the most feeling that he placed in his words... in his eyes, was pleading...
He was pleading for Yami to stay behind him. To always love him. To always stay alive.
"I could never live on without you!" Yami cried in a half scream, half whisper. The pharaoh looked down, blinking back tears.
Seto smiled sadly and his eyes glistened with tears of his own.
"And I love you even more because of that..." he whispered to him. He looked ahead and saw the large black energy ball that had been created from the hatred of his people moving straight toward him.
Yami could only watch in horror as Seto smiled one last time before the blackness enveloped him, the last of his being dying out.
Such a beautiful, sad smile...
Dying, a beautiful, sad smile
I want to hold you in my arms
Nothing's ever gonna tear us apart
My hold on you is just too strong
All was dark. He was just standing in complete and utter darkness.
Then a deep rough voice was heard.
"You made him suffer in the past... Leave him... so he will not suffer now..."
Why did you leave him?
Because of a dream?
Because it just so seemed
That you were sick of it?
--End dream mode--
Seto woke up with a scream. The voice echoed throughout his mind.
'You made him suffer in the past... Leave him... so he will not suffer now...'
"I--I... can't... leave... I... love him..." Seto whispered.
The dreams kept on coming though. Every night until he just couldn't stand it...
End flashback
The last time I saw the dream was the night before...
'The night before you left him? The night before you made him suffer?'
No! I did it because I loved him! I wanted to protect him! I didn't want him to be the one in pain!
'And people say... that when one makes a mistake... they learn from it. It looks like you made that same mistake twice... Didn't you learn that when you died that day... you hurt him? That if he and you had died together... you still would be together? You left him to protect him? You said you did it out of love. But did you not just say that you loved someone else?'
I didn't answer. I couldn't answer... because for the first time... I had no answers...
My mind is blank
I just can't reply
How can you
When you can't speak the truth?
At lunch, I overheard a conversation held by Yugi and his friends, who had taken some seats at a table behind me. I flinched at the sound of a cheery high pitched voice. It was disturbing and somewhat depressing to be so near to people who are so cheery, when I was not...
Cheeriness is all around
Sickening, I fall to the ground
Disturbing, I gag out loud
I'm not cheery to be around
#Normal P. O. V.#
"So tell us, is Yami all right?" asked Honda.
Yugi nodded slowly. "He's all right. He just has a high fever. But he really worried me when he screamed yesterday. I asked him if everything was okay through our link, but he just closed it off," Yugi finished with a whisper as he hung his head down. "It pains me to see him hurt, and not even know the cause... I wish he would tell me..."
"Yugi..." Anzu placed her hand gently on his shoulder, trying to comfort her friend.
Yugi looked up slowly, tears forming in his large violet eyes. "And I heard... I heard crying..."
He cried every night
He cried every hour
He cried every minute
But there was only one to hear
"Crying?" Ryou asked worriedly in his soft voice.
"Hai... I could barely make it out, but I was sure, so sure I heard chokes of sobs..."
As Seto overheard these words, his eyes filled with guilt and he lowered his head slightly.
'You should feel guilty. Everything is your fault, you know...' the voice spoke again.
No... it's not.
'It's not? Yami's sick because you left him in the rain.'
I thought he would go home!
'Would you, Seto? Would you just go waltzing back home after your one and only love left you?'
N-no...
'There. You just proved my point.'
#Seto's P. O. V.#
After school, I told my driver to leave without me; I would be walking home. When I came to a street I looked left- the road to my mansion.
I hesitated and looked right- the way to the Kame Game Shop. I nodded resolutely, deciding that I should go and visit him. After what I heard from Yugi, I don't think I would have been able to do much of anything with my guilty conscience as heavy as it was.
I turned right and continued walking, all sorts of thoughts plaguing my mind. What if he was awake? Would he want me to come visit him?
Would he even want me near him? Or would he turn me away? That would be the smart thing to do. After all, I would only hurt him more...
I stopped dead in my tracks, once again unsure. Maybe I shouldn't visit...
After all, I did all this for him. I didn't want him to suffer.
Hesitating to comfort you
All I can think about is you
You plague my mind
Like you have all this time
'How would he suffer, when you are with him? How would he suffer, when you are not? Think about it.
You left him for the second time. You made him suffer for the second time. You left him for the second time...'
For a second time
I say you're not mine
I left you long ago
We both suffer so
#Normal P.O.V.#
Sugoroku knocked on Yami's door. "Yami? Are you awake?"
Yami groaned a bit but didn't answer. Sugoroku sighed and walked away, praying that Yami would wake up soon.
Ring ring
The bells of the small shop rang, indicating that a customer was here. Sugoroku plastered a smile on his face and walked into the shop to greet his customer.
"How may--Oh, it's you," he said, blinking at the person in the shop, "Did you come here to visit Yami?"
Seto nodded silently. Sugoroku turned and began to lead him to Yami's room, even though the blue-eyed boy knew the way so well.
How can I forget
The way to your room
The way to your lock
The way to your heart
"Is he awake yet?" Seto asked.
Sugoroku shook his head slowly."No... I just checked a few minutes ago."
Seto nodded, feeling more guilty by the second.
What now? What would he do?
Sugoroku left Seto with Yami not knowing that the two boys were not together anymore.
Taking a deep breath to calm his nerves, Seto hesitantly reached out for the knob, knowing that his former lover was on the other side.
Hoping to find a way
To relieve all this pain
That love has caused me
That I'm enduring...
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A/N
Minna... --; Look, remember when I said I needed lyrics for this one in my LJ? Well, I decided to maybe just end the whole song thing until the end. Anyways, I typed this a month ago people. Meaning, the chapter was already done a looooooooooonnnnnnggggggg time ago, I just wanted a song but couldn't think of any, so I didn't post it up. Anwyays, I just did the song at the last minute, and I love it. - Best song I think, is Chapter 1 and this one. Anyways, spelling mistakes are rated 7 in my scale of 1-10. Got a new beta-reader by the name of Razberry, hope she can help me...
News: Got a new anime called Houshin Engi. I'm very happy about this new development in my life...
Rant: I met someone who was bisexual in my school. She's 14 years old in Freshman year, she's cool to talk to. She likes my friend's best friend's little sister who is 14 too. -; Sorta cool that I know a bi.End of Rant
Delay: I do have the 5th chapter already done people!! It's a little Seto/Jonouchi fluff, but don't worry!! It's still Seto/Yami!! Just making a little conflict to go on more... Hope I don't hurt Yami too much in the 5th... Anyways, I'm just working on the song now, and it's my 'I'm so sorry reviewers' apology gift. Should be up on Saturday, cause I have to do it only on Saturdays. If I have free time on any other days, I'll move the updating date. So don't worry about it if you love song-fics. people. - Much better than my last chapters.
Random: Has everyone read Wait For Me? Go read it!! As well, 3rd chapter to that is a song-fic. and it's sweet/sad and omg you're gonna kill me for it!! Yami thinks Seto rejected him!! Have part of that chapter as well. And one more thing, I have a new fiction coming up, but I need a name for it. I'm choosing between Melody of Shadows, Yami's Melody, or Shadow's Call [If I do Yami's Melody, I can do an arc, if you would like... Yami's Melody, Hikari's Melody, Tenshi's Melody, etc. ...]. It's a one-shot songfic. about Yami brooding in the dark and he begins to see the inner face of the shadows and hear its melody... "Our similarities are never ending..."Yami. That song is splendid!! Beams Love all my songs! - Also, yesterday I had total inspiration for Wait For Me!! I planned out all of the seasons I'm going to add onto it. It's soooo cool the way I planned it! Sorry people, but I can't put Yugi in there. If I put Yugi in there, it would ruin the whole plot. I have DK in this first part of the arc and then Battle City, then Noa's Ark, and then continuation of Battle City on Kaiba Land and it ends where Seto gives Yami the Obelisk the Tormentor to defeat Marik. It's so sweet at the end!!!!! Just a plus, Chapter 4 for Wait For Me is a definete crying scene!! If you like Mokuba being all caring for Seto, watch them when they're little!! It's so sweet between them two!
RR!
Ja ne! -
Harika Huynh