What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits,
The one who waits for you....

Harry moaned as he started to wake up. He felt so tired, but he was warm. He wondered where he was; everything was a blur. He opened his eyes and looked around the white room. The only other colours he could see in the blur of white were a brownish kind of red colour and black. From far away he could hear a voice, but he wasn't sure from where. Slowly it came clearer, as if some one was calling his name.

'Harry, please wake up.' The voice was familiar, but he couldn't remember. It was comforting, so he did as it said. Someone then slipped a pair of glasses onto his face letting him see his surroundings. He looked around. He was lying on a bed in the hospital wing. Severus and Percy were right beside him. He muttered something incoherently and sat up. Severus pushed him back down.

'Keep still or do you want Pomfrey to shove something down your throat?' He said. His voice was harsh, but it was also a comfort to Harry to hear it. Percy put his hand on Harry's arm; worry laced his chocolate eyes as he examined his friend. Harry could tell that Percy wanted to ask him how he was doing, if he was really all that hurt, so he cave him a reassuring smile telling him everything would be all right. He tired to sit up again, but Pomfrey came in carrying a tray full of potions and ointments.

'How long have I been out?' Harry asked letting the school nurse mend his cuts and bruises.

'A day.' Percy said softly watching Harry. Severus leaned in a moment and spoke.

'He wouldn't leave your side all night.' Harry smiled a bit, but it faded when Madame Pomfrey shoved a pepper-up potion down his throat. He coughed a little and spit some of it out.

Poppy worked for a few more minutes, but she soon walked back into her office to let the young man heal. Severus stood and looked back and forth between the last Potter, and the only Weasley present.

'You should get some sleep Percy, I have to go inform the headmaster that our savior is awake.' There was a hint of playfulness in his voice, but it was still the venomous tone he always had reserved for Harry. He nodded to them both, and with billowing robes behind him, he left the hospital wing. Percy and Harry sat in an awkward silence; neither knew what to say to the other. They both sensed that something was the same with each other, almost like their hearts beat as one, but that was impossible. They had become fast friends over the fortnight they lived together. No, they were just feeling the friendship they had created, that's what they dismissed it as. This feeling, however, felt more than that, stronger almost. They found their eyes connecting like a bolt of lightning connecting to an electric streamer sent from the ground. Their eyes spoke to each other; they said what their voices would not say and something they refused to admit even to themselves.

Dumbledore chose that time to walk in. His blue eyes were sparkling, he was happy to see Harry was awake and feeling better. He sat down and pulled out a package of lemon drops, he offered one to Percy and Harry. They both declined and just watched as the old wizard popped one into his mouth sucked on it a little the looked at Harry over his crescent moon glasses.

'Tell me Harry, why did you decide to run away?' he asked. Harry looked away and bowed his head, Dumbledore wouldn't understand, so he just shrugged and kept his head bowed.

'It's my fault sir,' Percy spoke up trying to cover for Harry. 'I thought it would be nice for him to see my parents again, but then I remembered You-Know-Who would be looking for him, so I've been taking care of him. I'll take full responsibility for him until school starts.' Dumbledore thought about it as he sucked on another lemon drop. His eyes were twinkling in that knowing fashion. He nodded in agreement and stood.

'If Poppy sees it fit; you, can spend the next two weeks in Percy's rooms.' The two young men nodded, and with that Dumbledore walked off to talk to the school nurse. Harry looked at Percy and smiled.

'Thank you,' he said softly. Percy shrugged and smiled back. They sat in silence once again not sure if Harry would be able to leave or not. Percy opened his mouth after five minutes to talk, but Pomfrey and Dumbledore came out. Pomfrey looked over Harry one last time before giving the OK for him to leave. Harry thanked the nurse and followed Percy out.

'Let's go for a walk before we go back to the rooms.' Percy said letting the balls on his barbell grind on his teeth. He often did that when he was nervous about something. Harry nodded and walked out with Percy onto the grounds. Harry looked around, he could tell it was going to be a day that it was sunny out, but he knew it was going to rain at any moment. They walked around for a bit not saying much.

They saw a big rock near the shore of the lake and walked over to it. Percy sat down first a motioned for Harry to sit next to him. Percy watched as his raven-haired friend sat down next to him.

'I was really worried about you. Are you sure you're all right Harry?' He asked his voiced laced with concern. Harry nodded and looked, for the first time since the Hospital Wing, into the older man's cocoa brown eyes. They were shining with worry. Harry was amazed that anyone would care that much about him. Rain slowly started to fall onto the two as they leaned into each other. The rain started to pour as their lips made contact for the first time. They closed their eyes getting lost with in themselves. Harry let his arms move around the taller man's neck as Percy pulled Harry close to him. Water dripped down from their hair and eye lashed, but nothing matter except the kiss. Someone told me long ago, there's a calm before the storm, I know! It's been comin' for sometime. When it's over so they say, it'll rain on a sunny day, I know! Shining down like water! I wanna know: have you ever seen the rain? I wanna know: have you ever seen the rain, comin' down on a sunny day?

Percy let his tongue slip into Harry's mouth and Harry felt like he was melting. It was an amazing experience. Harry could taste the metal of the bar through Percy's tongue and one of the balls would slip over his oral muscle massaging it gently. Harry couldn't help but moan and pull himself closer to Percy. The two pulled away from each other and smiled. This was probably the happiest moments of their life and they were sharing it together. The rain continued to pour and Harry was the one to pull away from the kiss. The two stared into each other's eyes until Harry sneezed.

'We should go back in side.' Percy said getting off the rock. He grabbed Harry's hand and led him towards the school sneezing himself.

There was an awkward silence as the two walked through the quiet halls of the castle. Percy kept his gaze straight ahead and Harry glanced at the taller man every so often. Percy's rooms were big and equipped with, bookshelves full of books, a fireplace, various armchairs, a couch, and a huge four-poster bed with nightstands on each side of it. Harry's eyes were wide as he looked around the room, he felt almost like a prince. Percy shifted a little before walking in.

'I'll sleep on the couch tonight.' Percy said taking off his coat to reveal a white shirt that was clinging to him from being out side in the rain. Harry looked at him, blushed then looked away as he felt his pants get a little tight.

'Don't Percy, I did this to you all summer, I'll take the couch,' he turned around and did all he could from not staring and Percy's body. 'You've done so much for me this summer.' Percy raised a hand to the beautiful boy's cheek and sighed.

'Let's just share.'

Oh what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you....

(So I dub thee unforgiven....)

September 1st came too quickly for Harry, it seemed like yesterday to him that he woke up in Percy's bed and now he was busy getting ready for his last beginning of term feast. Percy walked into the bathroom with Harry's wire framed glasses.

'Here, you'll need these to see won't you?' He asked and placed them on Harry's nose. Harry nodded and sighed. 'We should get going down to the Hall, they should be arriving soon.' Percy said, then turned and walked out of the bathroom. Harry looked back into the mirror and touched his lips remember what it was like to kiss Percy. He smiled lightly and walked out of the room and down to the Great Hall. Only the teachers were seated at the head table. Oliver winked at Harry as he walked in and sat down. Percy watched him with fascination as the boy just sat in thought, he looked innocent and at peace, but the image was soon interrupted by the noise of over 100 people entering the Hall. Percy watched has his youngest brother and little sister walked into the hall with brown, bushy haired Hermione Granger. They were the first Gryffindors to enter. Percy watched as his brother looked at Harry who was watching him. Ron ran to his best friend and hugged him tightly.

'Harry where were you?' Hermione asked her eyes were sparkling with relief and tears. Ron and Hermione sat on either side of Harry and waited for him to tell them where he was. Harry shifted and looked up at Percy for a moment.

'I was safe,' Harry replied to them with a faint smile on his face. Ron gave him a look, but knew Harry would tell him in his own time. During the feast and sorting, Harry and Percy glanced at each other, silently flirting with each other. When Dumbledore sent everyone off to bed Harry kept close to Ron trying not to look back at Percy. Ron sent everyone off to the right place and went up to bed with Harry. The other boys in the seventh year dorm were going to stay up a little longer. Ron and Harry didn't say anything as they got ready for bed, but when they were done they sat on the floor at the foot of Harry's bed and sighed.

'Where were you?' Ron asked holding his knees. Harry did the same and leaned against Ron.

'In London with Percy,' Harry answered looking straight ahead.

'You met his boyfriend then?'

'Yeah, they broke up though.'

'Why?' Ron asked putting an arm around Harry. They were close and often snuggled, though they did it in secret.

'His next-door neighbor got in the way and stuff. So they broke up." Ron nodded and yawned. He kissed the top of Harry's head and went to bed. Harry followed suit, this would be the first night not being close to Percy.

Harry tossed and turned all night, his nightmare returning once again. He could wake up and he was in a cold sweat. He hadn't had the nightmare since he kissed Percy, but now it was back and worst then ever. His scar hurt and was giving him a migraine. He couldn't make a sound, and his body was on fire. He couldn't breath and he felt like he was falling. Harry finally woke up. He was drenched in cold sweat and at one point he had taken off his pajamas so he was in the nude. He got out of the bed and walked into the bathroom. He started the shower up and let it get to the right temperature. That dream again. He thought to himself stepping into the tub and just stood under the hot stream of water. What could it mean? Is it a premonition of what is yet to come? What about the two boys though? I've never seen them before. He shuddered a little and started to wash his hair. He smiled as he felt the suds wash away. His thoughts were wandering to a certain redhead. Harry imagined Percy under a waterfall wearing a white shirt and black pants. He imagined the man slowly taking his soaking wet shirt off exposing his pale skin. Harry moaned at the thought of Percy taking his tight pants off. He looked down and saw he had gotten an erection from thinking sexy thoughts of Percy. He kept thinking them and slowly played with his ball sack. He then slowly ran a finger up the length of his member and teased the head a little. He imagined Percy's mouth around his member as he wrapped his hand around himself. Harry moaned and got caught up in his sexy thoughts of Percy that he moaned his name and got faster in stroking himself. He was soon to climax and as he got closer to releasing his load, the fantasy got more intense. Harry bit his lip to keep from screaming. He was so close now he could feel his whole body tensing. He leaned against the wall and as he did there was a knock on the door.

'Hurry up in there!' Seamus shouted. 'I got to take a piss!' Harry took a deep breath in before answering the grumpy Irish man.

'I'll be out in a second Seamus!' Harry yelled hoping he would come soon and clean it up fast. Dean pounded on the door next.

'Harry you've been in there for hours!' Dean yelled.

'Are you all right Harry?' Neville squeaked. Harry started to panic and went faster. He finally came and happy that it all ended up on his stomach. He quickly washed it off. He grabbed a near by towel, dried himself off then wrapped it around his waist so that it was covering the strange mark on his hip. He walked out of the bathroom, steam exploded from the bathroom behind him and he shivered as he walked towards his bed. Ron watched him pick out his clothes and pull out a mirror. Harry sat on the bed and pulled out a small container with two sides. He screwed off the top of one container and dumped a small bowl like thing onto his hand. He then took a bottle put a small amount of the liquid from with in onto his hand and then using the mirror he but the rubber bowl thing in his right eye. He did the same thing with the other half of the container. Harry wiped his hand on his towel and dabbed at his eyes with his wrists.

'Nothing like putting in contacts.' He muttered then put on a pair of his boxers. Ron shook his head and finished getting ready himself.

'You ready?' Ron asked after he finished tying his shoe up. Harry nodded and swung his bag over his shoulder and messed up his hair more. Ron watched him and laughed. 'You know you look better with no glasses and your hair like that.' Harry gave Ron a side look, but kept walking.

'You think so?' he asked with a raised eyebrow. Ron nodded and laughed again. The two friends kept walking to the Great Hall not saying much, but just savoring their friendship. Ron glanced at Harry again and noticed something he hadn't noticed before. Harry's contacts were blue and not green.

'Harry, your contacts make you look like Percy's ex-boyfriend,' he stated. Harry laughed and shook his head.

'I look nothing like, Mark,' Harry said and ran his fingers through his hair. Ron kept watching him, all of Harry's actions where similar to the actions that Mark did when he met them. Ron stopped a realization dawned on him. Perhaps, Mark really was Harry in disguise. If that was the case, Ron wondered whether or not Harry really new what happened to him twelve years ago.

'Is everything all right, Ron?' Harry asked stopping and looking at his best friend. Ron was paler then usual and had a hard time opening his mouth to speak. He shook his head and cleared his throat finding his voice again.

'You are, Mark!' he half shouted. Harry hushed him down and pulled him into a near by classroom. He closed the door and turned back towards the redhead.

'I don't want everyone to know where I've been the last two months!' he said sharply half glaring at Ron. Ron gave him a look before sitting on a near by desk.

'You could have told me or gave me a sign that that was you.' Ron said feeling a little hurt. Harry noticed that Ron as shivering a little and he watched as his friend ran a shaking hand through his flaming red hair. Ron sighed, 'So you know,' he asked looking at his swinging feet. Harry nodded.

'Percy told me after we left, I only said I knew to Charlie because I had to stick up for Percy, I owed him that and more.'

Harry went on to explain some of the events that went on during the summer. Meanwhile, Percy was walking down the hallways towards the Great Hall, he hadn't had a very good night at all since it was the first night in a while that he hadn't been with Harry. He scratched the back of his head in tiredness before stopping upon hearing voices in a near by classroom. Stopping he listened quickly recognizing the voices. Pressing his ear to the door, the assistant to Professor Lupin listened in to his little brother and friend's conversation.

'Why do you owe him anything?' he heard Ron ask. Percy smiled; his brother always had this sort of thick tone to his voice.

'Well, he took me in. He didn't have to, but he did," Harry voice sounded so tired to Percy like he hardly got any sleep. He kept listening.

'Anything else he did that you should owe him for?' there was this teasing hint in Ron's voice when he spoke.

'No,' Harry lied quickly. The eavesdropper held in a chuckle at the tone. For some reason there was a feeling of hope in Percy's chest. He wondered if Harry would talk about their kiss in the rain, or would he ignore it and pretend it had never happened. Shifting his weight he continued to listen.

'Did you sleep with him?' The older redhead smiled to himself Harry blushing and a look on Ron's face full of disgust and curiosity. Percy heart beat faster.

'No!' Harry sounded like that offended him.

'Just a question Harry,' Ron said trying to calm his friend down. 'What all did you do with my brother?'

'Well,' there was a creaking as Harry thought 'we went shopping; I needed a disguise so Percy bought me a new wardrobe. We, watched movies, ate and slept. I got the couch one night then the bed the next. It was a pretty good summer; better then the Dursley's that's for sure,' there was a pause, obviously Ron was thinking.

'I know this may sound a little out of line, but' another creak was heard. 'Do you have a thing for my brother?'

'What makes you ask that?' Percy felt his heart skip a beat and listened more closely.

'Well, it's just the look in your eyes, it's like you're in love with him or something and there's something you're not telling me,' another brief pause. Percy felt like his heart was going to jump out of his chest from anticipation.

'No,' Harry finally answered. 'I'm not gay and I'm not in love with your brother.' Percy grabbed his chest and ran off, letting his body purge itself in the bathroom. He meant nothing to Harry, how could he be that stupid as to think that Harry liked him. His world came crumbling down, he knew now why he was alone.

Oh, what I've felt....
Oh, what I've known....

A/N: Well here it is, Chapter 4. I know it took a while to get up, longer then I wanted it to take, but I had bad writers block. Thank you for all of you who waited for this chapter. Ideas would be helpful in this story too, what else do you want to see? So review and I will see if I can use them, don't worry; you'll get credit anyway Au Revior, have a wonderful day.