Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN ANYTHING that means the pearl jam lyrics too *sob*.
Except Melissa and my pet pigeon hamburger. I adopted it. I'm going to
adopt another and call it Free slices of bacon.
Chapter Three: Pain is a reminder.
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Melissa opened her eyes. Everything was a blur to her.
"Dean?" She mumbled.
"I am sorry my lady, it is Faramir. Are you well?"
"Huh? I'm fine, yeah, great lightbulbness kicking in."
"What is this lightbulbness? Who is this Dean?"
"Argh!" Melissa slowly dragged herself up and stopped suddenly. Dean. He killed himself. It all flooded back to her. She dropped to the floor weeping.
Faramir rushed to her side. "Lady Melissa, what is wrong?" He lifted her up and carried her over to the bed, worry etched across his face.
"I am sorry Faramir, I can... cannot say."
"That is well, my lady. I will go and fetch you some food."
"Faramir?"
"Yes my lady?
"Why do you care for me and not let some doctor?"
"There are many reasons, you bewilder me, and I would like too know more of your past and the battles you have seen in Rohan. Also I know you were not attacked by orcs, I would like to know your true story."
"But... how.... what...but? Melissa stammered as he left the room. She knew she had few minutes before he returned. She ran through to the bathroom and undid her nightgown so her arm was reviled. Her scars were still there, quickly she found something that looked like a scalpel and started slashing her left arm. It wasn't deep enough to kill her, but it was deep enough to bleed. Pain was her reminder. She grabbed a bandage and messily wrapped it around her arm and did her night gown back up. She calmly walked back into her room.
A few minutes later Faramir returned with food enough for two.
"Is it ok if I eat with you?"
"Of course" She managed to get out, she was beginning to feel faint and was losing a lot of blood although she didn't realise it. She began to sway. Faramir gasped.
"Melissa your arm it's bleeding!" She looked down at her arm. Her white nightgown was now beginning to stain red with blood. Faramir ran out calling for a doctor. She slumped to the ground just as the healers entered the room.
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Melissa jumped up.
"What the fuck has happened? Where the hell am I?" The room was pitch black and she began crying. Her whole body shaking with the sobs.
"Lady, do not worry you are alive, you are still in Minas Tirith" Faramir's voice was soft. She leaned back and her arm began to throb with pain.
"Oh fuck." Was all she could say before she fell back into a deep sleep.
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Melissa awoke. Her room filled with light.
"What the hell is the time?" She asked impatiently.
"It is well afternoon, my lady, please do not use as harsh terms."
"I can say what the fuck I want thank you!" Melissa shouted at the man, "I am so sorry Faramir, please forgive me, I am deeply upset right now!"
"Yes I gathered, might I ask one question. Why did you inflict those wounds on yourself?" Melissa couldn't help herself; she started telling Faramir all that had happened to her.
"Well you see, I am not from this world, God you are going to think I am fucking insane. I am from Earth. Right well the reason I have bruises on my neck is because, well do you know what hanging is? As in the way to kill someone." Faramir nodded. "Well you see, I tried to hang myself, I tried to end my life because I just couldn't be fucked living anymore. The main reason was because my boyfriend didn't love me, or so I thought. I started going out with him, which is courting by the way, when I was fourteen, which was around two years ago. Well after the first month, I was in love with him and I slept with him. Ok that is um... well, how you make kids, as in children." Faramir looked at her in shock. "Oh don't look at me like that, I was the third in our group of friends to do that, I did nothing wrong, I love him. Well I missed my period and I went to a clinic and got tested to see if I was pregnant. And I was. I booked into hospital for an abortion, that's when a pregnancy is stopped, as in the baby is killed. I never told anyone that, everyone thought I was ok, I mean we used protection, that's to stop you from getting pregnant. It didn't work though, after my abortion, I began cutting myself. No- one knew I did this bar Samantha, she did it too. We told each other everything, but I never told her about my pregnancy. I never stopped cutting myself, it is my reminder of everything I have done, pain is my reminder. We were like light bulbs, when people are around we were all bright and happy, but when we were alone or it was just us two, we were dark and unhappy. Our anthem was Alive by Pearl Jam, because in our view no matter what, we could withstand anything, we had been through everything together. Walking down the street we would just randomly sing it and we would always cheer up. Well me and Dean... well, he was there for me a lot, when I turned sixteen my dad died in a car accident. That was only a few months before I tried to kill myself. I started to get the feeling Dean didn't love me anymore, and I started believing it. I guess I was wrong. Well I tried to kill myself and woke up here. When I passed out before I cut myself well I saw Dean commit suicide. He cut himself like I did and bled out. I was hurt really bad by it and I cope by cutting myself so I did." Melissa broke out into violent tears. She lay down on her bed and began singing. "Oh, I'm, oh I'm still alive, oh I, I'm still alive, Hey I, but, I'm still alive, Hey I, boy, I'm still alive" She fell in to a deep sleep. Faramir, who had been sitting quietly, whipped a solitary tear from his cheek and silently left the room.
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Ok well that is shit, please review but don't bother flaming if you don't like the story don't read it or review it simple!! Ok well I will prob not be writing for a bit I got exams coming up but ill write when I can love you guys megsxx
Chapter Three: Pain is a reminder.
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Melissa opened her eyes. Everything was a blur to her.
"Dean?" She mumbled.
"I am sorry my lady, it is Faramir. Are you well?"
"Huh? I'm fine, yeah, great lightbulbness kicking in."
"What is this lightbulbness? Who is this Dean?"
"Argh!" Melissa slowly dragged herself up and stopped suddenly. Dean. He killed himself. It all flooded back to her. She dropped to the floor weeping.
Faramir rushed to her side. "Lady Melissa, what is wrong?" He lifted her up and carried her over to the bed, worry etched across his face.
"I am sorry Faramir, I can... cannot say."
"That is well, my lady. I will go and fetch you some food."
"Faramir?"
"Yes my lady?
"Why do you care for me and not let some doctor?"
"There are many reasons, you bewilder me, and I would like too know more of your past and the battles you have seen in Rohan. Also I know you were not attacked by orcs, I would like to know your true story."
"But... how.... what...but? Melissa stammered as he left the room. She knew she had few minutes before he returned. She ran through to the bathroom and undid her nightgown so her arm was reviled. Her scars were still there, quickly she found something that looked like a scalpel and started slashing her left arm. It wasn't deep enough to kill her, but it was deep enough to bleed. Pain was her reminder. She grabbed a bandage and messily wrapped it around her arm and did her night gown back up. She calmly walked back into her room.
A few minutes later Faramir returned with food enough for two.
"Is it ok if I eat with you?"
"Of course" She managed to get out, she was beginning to feel faint and was losing a lot of blood although she didn't realise it. She began to sway. Faramir gasped.
"Melissa your arm it's bleeding!" She looked down at her arm. Her white nightgown was now beginning to stain red with blood. Faramir ran out calling for a doctor. She slumped to the ground just as the healers entered the room.
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Melissa jumped up.
"What the fuck has happened? Where the hell am I?" The room was pitch black and she began crying. Her whole body shaking with the sobs.
"Lady, do not worry you are alive, you are still in Minas Tirith" Faramir's voice was soft. She leaned back and her arm began to throb with pain.
"Oh fuck." Was all she could say before she fell back into a deep sleep.
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Melissa awoke. Her room filled with light.
"What the hell is the time?" She asked impatiently.
"It is well afternoon, my lady, please do not use as harsh terms."
"I can say what the fuck I want thank you!" Melissa shouted at the man, "I am so sorry Faramir, please forgive me, I am deeply upset right now!"
"Yes I gathered, might I ask one question. Why did you inflict those wounds on yourself?" Melissa couldn't help herself; she started telling Faramir all that had happened to her.
"Well you see, I am not from this world, God you are going to think I am fucking insane. I am from Earth. Right well the reason I have bruises on my neck is because, well do you know what hanging is? As in the way to kill someone." Faramir nodded. "Well you see, I tried to hang myself, I tried to end my life because I just couldn't be fucked living anymore. The main reason was because my boyfriend didn't love me, or so I thought. I started going out with him, which is courting by the way, when I was fourteen, which was around two years ago. Well after the first month, I was in love with him and I slept with him. Ok that is um... well, how you make kids, as in children." Faramir looked at her in shock. "Oh don't look at me like that, I was the third in our group of friends to do that, I did nothing wrong, I love him. Well I missed my period and I went to a clinic and got tested to see if I was pregnant. And I was. I booked into hospital for an abortion, that's when a pregnancy is stopped, as in the baby is killed. I never told anyone that, everyone thought I was ok, I mean we used protection, that's to stop you from getting pregnant. It didn't work though, after my abortion, I began cutting myself. No- one knew I did this bar Samantha, she did it too. We told each other everything, but I never told her about my pregnancy. I never stopped cutting myself, it is my reminder of everything I have done, pain is my reminder. We were like light bulbs, when people are around we were all bright and happy, but when we were alone or it was just us two, we were dark and unhappy. Our anthem was Alive by Pearl Jam, because in our view no matter what, we could withstand anything, we had been through everything together. Walking down the street we would just randomly sing it and we would always cheer up. Well me and Dean... well, he was there for me a lot, when I turned sixteen my dad died in a car accident. That was only a few months before I tried to kill myself. I started to get the feeling Dean didn't love me anymore, and I started believing it. I guess I was wrong. Well I tried to kill myself and woke up here. When I passed out before I cut myself well I saw Dean commit suicide. He cut himself like I did and bled out. I was hurt really bad by it and I cope by cutting myself so I did." Melissa broke out into violent tears. She lay down on her bed and began singing. "Oh, I'm, oh I'm still alive, oh I, I'm still alive, Hey I, but, I'm still alive, Hey I, boy, I'm still alive" She fell in to a deep sleep. Faramir, who had been sitting quietly, whipped a solitary tear from his cheek and silently left the room.
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Ok well that is shit, please review but don't bother flaming if you don't like the story don't read it or review it simple!! Ok well I will prob not be writing for a bit I got exams coming up but ill write when I can love you guys megsxx