Hey there.

I suppose I should start at the beginning if I'm to start a journal. It would make sense.

My name's Rei. Right now I'm thirteen. I got this as a present from Tala for my birthday. He's so sweet. He's one of my 'guardians'. He and Bryan, my other guardian, have been looking after me for a bit more than two years now. That's where everything began, in fact.

I don't remember much about my life from earlier. I was an only child of two foreign parents. I remember being picked on occasionally by the other kids when I was younger, but then, I knew how to defend myself rather well, so they left me alone.

Alone. That's been my life story almost. My parents died four or five years ago. I didn't really care much. I mean, I cared, but it was just they never spent time with me. Most of the time they forgot they even had a son. Anyway, when they died in a car accident, I went to live in an orphanage. I don't think I have any relatives, if I do, they're probably not in the country. I spent a year in the orphanage and decided after a while that I'd rather risk my chances on the streets than stay there a moment longer. It wasn't as terrible as I'm making out (probably) but I just figured there was something else out there for me.

And this is how my story really begins. I spent one month on the street, learning a few things. Of course, one night I slipped up, as people tend to do, and I talked to a guy I shouldn't have.

To get to the point, I was raped. I'm still a bit sensitive about the subject, so don't expect too much detail.

Anyway, the next day, I wake up to find these two guys, Tala and Bryan leaning over me offering help.

Even if I hadn't been on the streets for a month, I still would have hesitated before taking the offer, but thinking things through, I figured things couldn't get any worse for me. I just wanted to die, which I may well have done, going with these strangers likeI did, but I didn't care.

Luckily for me, Tala and Bryan turned out to be decent guys who actually wanted to help.

So I thought.

Don't get me wrong, I love them both to pieces, but that was a really sucky way to start a relationship.

Okay, first, I should explain a few things. Tala and Bryan are two of the top escorts in this hellhole of a city. They're part of an organisation known as Biovolt. Some kooky old guy named it apparently; personally, I think it sounds shit, but hey, maybe they're just using the name as a cover for their operations. Their boss, is Mr. Boris.

He's the guy that raped me.

Coincidence? No, of course not. Tala and Bryan had actually been sent to find me after the 'incident' and were to take care of me and 'recruit' me to their work. They didn't have a choice and neither did I.

I think that's why I really do think I love Tala. He gave me a choice, knowing he could be killed for disobeying a direct order. He offered to let me go. I could tell Bryan wasn't too keen on the idea, but he agreed as well. Bryan's always worrying about us. With good reason I suppose. Tala and I can get ourselves into the worst kind of messes. I'm so glad he's there for us.

Obviously I decided to stay. Seriously though, where would I go? Here, I had a nice place to live, two great guys (not to mention very hot) living with me and an offer at a very high paying job. A secure one at that.

You wouldn't think that, but Biovolt is the best known escort service around, thus there is lots of money. Lots of money in any business usually means a lot of security. Mr. Boris doesn't like his pets getting harmed.

At the same time, Mr. Boris keeps a very tight leash on most of his employees. The exceptions being Tala and Bryan.

Those two are sort of a separate branch of Biovolt. They were trained in the main ... well, it's not exactly a headquarters, but it will do ... along with heaps of others. The thing is, Mr. Boris was scared that they would go off into their own business considering they became so popular among everyone so fast, so he offered them a deal. They didn't have to stay with the rest, but could work independently, so long as they paid a certain percentage of profits to him. A few others had a similar deal out about the city, but Bryan and Tala were the best, everyone wanted them.

Soon, everyone started to notice me too. That got kind of scary, but seeing as Mr. Boris left my training up to Tala, it was his decision what I could or could not do.

I've never ... been on a job.

Off topic, but what's with the euphemisms? Is it that I'm afraid someone will find this and be disgusted reading about my life? Or am I just squeamish?

Anyway, that's where we are now. Tala's 'training' me, so to speak.

Bryan's starting to worry. Mr. Boris is sure to remember me some time and come to check up on everything. I get the feeling he's not a nice guy to cross. Actually, I know he's not a nice guy to cross. But Tala never seems to worry about those sort of things. He has barely done anything to train me, for which I am partially grateful. It shows how much he really does care about me and my wellbeing.

I'd hate to see him hurt though because of it.

Maybe I should ask him to 'train' me a bit more. I really don't know much other than from watching ... nevermind that.

Oh, what the hell, I'm the only one who should be touching this thing anyway.

The most I know is how fucking fantastic it is to get a blowjob off Tala. Trust me, that's only the beginning of his talents apparently. I haven't experienced them all, but by now I was supposed to have. I'm getting old enough for Mr. Boris to consider using me on a regular basis and I don't know how to properly fuck and pleasure people.

I do not want Mr. Boris pissed off at any of us. We're a team, but Tala seems to forget that at times. Hell, he hasn't even asked me if I want to do this. I made the choice, I wanted to stay, but he keeps forgetting that too. I think he's afraid of what will happen if I do become like them. I think he hates the idea of me being like him: he wants more for me.

God I love him, he's just so ... I don't know how to explain it. But I don't think he realises just how far from platonic my feelings and thoughts can get. I think Bryan suspects. But he thinks it's just a crush. Seriously, Tala is fucking gorgeous. If you lived with him you would be having the exact same thoughts about him that I am. But then, I respect him and our friendship more than I want those thoughts to come true. Maybe it is just a little crush, but I know I do love him for everything he's done for me. Bryan too.

They don't seem to realise it, but I love this life now, I've gotten used to it, I've accepted the fact that I will be selling myself to make a living. I don't care, everything else in my life is perfect. They're trying to protect me too much. I can take care of myself. I just don't want them getting hurt on my behalf.

I know they will though. Mr. Boris is coming over today and I'm so not ready for it. I know things are just going to go terribly.

Well, that's it for now. Don't know when I'll write in this thing again, but hopefully it'll be soon.

Rei.

Rei closed the leather-bound book and placed it and the pen on the desk beside his bed. He stretched and finally got up out of bed.

"You've slept in a bit," Tala greeted him with a raised eyebrow as he made an appearance outside of his room.

Rei nodded. "Yeah, sorry."

Tala shrugged and sat down at the table. "No big deal, it's not like you had anything on."

Rei frowned slightly as he sat down. Tala had been doing this a lot lately. It was almost as if he was avoiding the subject of Rei joining him and Bryan in their work. Bryan came in then with breakfast, cutting off any chance of Rei asking Tala why he was doing that.

There was a strained silence around the table that morning. Rei kept looking at his two guardians, but they avoided his gaze. Finally, Rei got sick of it and slammed his cutlery down on his plate.

"What's going to happen?" he asked quietly in a tone that brooked no discussion.

Bryan glanced at Tala then back at Rei again. Tala tried to look ignorant. "With what?"

"Don't bullshit me like that Tala, you know exactly what I'm talking about." Rei stared at him intently, letting a little of his fear shine through in his eyes. "What's going to happen to me, and to you, today after Mr. Boris has seen us?"

"I don't know," Tala replied. He did have an idea though, Rei could see the desperate look in his eyes. "It won't be pleasant."

"Then why didn't you do something about it before?"

Tala glared. "Don't you dare question my actions, Rei. I do what I want when I want. You should be grateful."

"Grateful? I don't want to see you hurt!"

"Nor I you," Tala yelled, "but if my pain is something that spares you, then I will take whatever punishment that Boris gives." Rei stared at Tala, who had gotten up during his talk and had tears standing in his eyes. He looked away painfully and Rei's heart wrenched at the sight. "Just, please, let me do this for you Rei."

Rei looked over at Bryan, pleading with him. Bryan shrugged. "Don't you think I've talked with him about this?" Rei nodded and looked back at Tala, biting his lip in worry.

Tala walked around the table and hugged Rei from behind. "Rei, please, I don't want this for you. If I can give you a chance at something better, I'd want you to have it."

"Is that why you've been spending the past years teaching me everything besides my job?" Tala smiled at Rei's brass.

"Yeah."

"You spoil me too much Tala."

"I know." Tala grinned and released him, sitting back down. "Now eat, you need to keep healthy."

"Yes mother." Rei grinned as Tala poked his tongue out at him and finished eating his breakfast, noticing that the strained air around the table had lifted slightly.

Bryan watched the two of them carefully. He knew that the matter had not been completely resolved, but the two of them had aired out their own concerns and were willing to let things go for now. Studying the two of them, Bryan felt a sudden apprehension. He knew that the matter was far from resolved. They weren't the ones who would decide what would happen, Boris was. And Bryan was sure that he would not agree to the compromise the two had just made. He kept his concerns to himself though, the happiness between the two was a welcome relief. He hated when they fought, rare as it was. The charade would soon be over, so he let them have their fun for as long as they could.

Until the fateful knock on the door.

Rei looked towards the main room and Bryan got up to get the door. Tala had started to shake, only slightly, but they both saw it. Rei was staring at him in concern as he packed up the dishes and walked into the kitchen, while Tala moved after Bryan.

"Good morning," Rei heard the scaly voice of his nightmaresgreet Tala in the main room. He shivered, still not used to being associated with Boris. Gathering himself together, Rei took a deep breath and stepped into the main room.

Boris grinned at the sight of him. Spencer and Ian were with him again. Bryan and Tala stood opposite the three of them, watching him carefully. Rei walked over to them slowly, feeling Boris' demonic eyes following him every step of the way. He tried not to let his unease show.

"I see your apprentice is prompt. Very good." Boris walked around Rei, studying him with fearful intensity. Rei could feel beads of sweat dripping from everywhere, but he kept his composure as best he could. He suppressed a shiver as Boris' hands slid down his shoulders and sides, but he couldn't help the jolt as Boris reached his backside.

"Hmm," was all Boris said before he began the inspection.

Rei whimpered softly and drew away as Boris slowly probed him. His eyes began watering and he struggled, but Boris had his arm in a vice-like grip. Rei hated it. He was standing on show for everyone to see, which was even more humiliating considering what he was undergoing at the same time. He looked away from them all and clenched his teeth as Boris continued his ministrations.

Finally, it seemed that Boris was finished his inspection. He strode over to Tala and punched him.

Rei cried out and Bryan tried to reach to him, but Boris snapped his fingers and Ian grabbed Rei while Spencer punched Bryan in the gut, winding him and sending him to the floor.

"You haven't done a thing," Boris spat at Tala.

Tala stared back at him, cold and composed. "No, I haven't." Boris gave him another slap.

"I'm getting sick of your sentimentalist shit, Tala, you're just lucky you're a good fuck, else you would feel the complete strength of my wrath." Boris looked at him disgustedly. "This will be the last time you defy me, I'll make sure of it. Ian, take the boy away from here. Spencer, I want you to deal with Tala's incompetence."

"No!" Tala tried to get at Rei, but Spencer strode over and punched him, dazing and almost knocking the lithe man out. Rei cried out again and struggled against Ian's hold, but despite the man's short stature, he was strong.

Bryan crawled over to Boris, still winded and got to his knees. "Sir, please, let me finish this. It was my fault, I should have done something earlier. I would like to rectify my mistake."

Boris stared down at him coldly. "You've been getting soft being with him to long, how do I know you'll still follow orders?"

Bryan stared up at him, returning the gaze with his own impassive one. "You don't sir, but you can keep one of the others here to make sure I do." Bryan could see Boris liked this idea.

Watching the three occupants of the apartment carefully, Boris nodded. "I will. Spencer, pick Tala up, we'll be leaving with him. Ian you stay here and make sure Bryan follows through with his orders."

"No," Tala protested weakly, tears streaming down his face. "Bryan, don't."

"I'm sorry Tala, I have to." Bryan looked away and caught Rei's frightened gaze. He winced and looked in yet another direction.

"You're lucky," Boris told Tala, "if not for Bryan, you may not have survived this punishment. As it is, it will be less severe, but I will make sure it is still enough to discourage such insubordination again." Boris walked to the door, Spencer following with Tala firmly in his grasp. "Do not fail me Bryan," he warned before leaving the three in the room.

"Bryan?" Rei whispered.

"I'm sorry kitten," Bryan whispered as he walked over to him. "But this way we all stay alive." Rei thought this over and nodded reluctantly. Bryan smiled gently. "Don't worry, you trust me don't you?'

"Of course."

"Good." Bryan looked over at Ian. "Do you want to be in the same room?"

Ian looked decidedly uncomfortable with the situation he was placed in. "I'll have to be." He sighed. "Bryan, I'm sorry, but you broke the rules. You and Tala do have a certain amount of freedom, but you still have to abide by the rules."

"I know." Sighing, Bryan gestured for Rei to come into his room. Rei looked nervous about everything, trembling slightly as he moved. Ian closed the door behind them. Bryan slowly removed his jacket and shirt, but Rei hadn't touched a thing. "Rei," Bryan whispered softly.

"What's going to happen to Tala if I refuse?"

Bryan looked pained. "I wouldn't do a thing to stop you and Tala could die. Rei, don't let that factor into this, things will only be worse if you dwell on everything."

Rei nodded and glanced over at Ian with a flush before turning away and taking off his shirt.

Ian blushed himself. He walked over to Bryan and whispered in his ear, "I only need proof of initial penetration, then I'll leave." Bryan smiled gratefully. "It would be better for all of you if you do more than that though; Boris won't let up on you now, Bryan."

"I know." Ian walked away to stand by the door as they both continued stripping.

Rei turned around to face his guardian nervously. The situation was bad enough, but there was a spectator now too. He caught Bryan's eye and managed a weak smile, which the older man returned.

"Ready?" Bryan asked softly.

"As I'll ever be," Rei replied.

"Just relax," Bryan said, walking over to him, gently touching his shoulders. "I'll be gentle, but it will hurt a bit." Rei nodded, still looking scared, but Bryan was impressed with his courage. He leaned down and kissed him softly, relaxing him somewhat and allowing things to begin.

Ian squirmed slighty and tried to look away as often as possible. He hated doing this, but it was a part of what he had to do, and too often a part of his job for his taste. As soon as he saw that Bryan had done as he'd been told, he quietly left the room and closed the door firmly behind him. He got out his phone and dialed a number.

"It's done," was all he said before he hung up again. He glanced back once at the closed door with a wince and left the apartment, making sure to lock the door. He hated what Bryan and Tala had to go through, they were close friends, but it was part of their job and no one could do anything about it. Not even them.

Things aren't the same any more. They've completely changed. I don't know what to do or think or feel any more, I'm just so confused by everything. Sometimes I wonder if it would be better to die or go insane.

But then I'd lose them.

Tala and Bryan. I don't want to lose them, they're the closest things to a family I have … It's a very strange family, but one that loves me nonetheless. Bryan's like a father to me, always looking out for me, and Tala too now that I think of it. He's our protector.

I don't blame him for anything, I know he was trying to save Tala and me. But I know that if it was up to him, he would have sacrificed himself to save us both if necessary.

Instead …

Well, there's no use crying over it now, everything's done and I'm 'initiated'.

Bryan told me something while we … yeah, just to ease me up a bit. He was telling me about Tala. When he first met Tala, he was a wreck, wandering the streets half-starved and close to death. Boris found them both about a week later, scouting for possible employees back when his organisation was still fairly new. They were about thirteen. Well, Bryan would have been fourteen, he's a year older than Tala.

They'd been taken in and after only a few months, Boris wanted them to start their training. Bryan was fine; he'd pretty much grown upon the streets and had already done some of the things they'd asked about, but Tala refused to let anyone near him. Bryan suspected that Tala had been raped and had ran away because of it. Having grown close, Bryan offered to help train Tala instead of having an older member do it.

So began one of the strangest relationship's I've ever heard of … well, except for mine with the two of them. Within two years they were the most sought after in the business, they made the company famous, hence the reason for the privileges.

They were fifteen and sixteen.

I met them when Tala was eighteen and Bryan nineteen.

It's strange, but I don't really hate the life that I'm leading right now. Sure, I don't think I'll ever like Boris, or feel anything but disgust for him, but I have something with me now that I don't ever want to give up.

Bryan once told me that it does not matter what you do in your life, but how you live it, who you're with and how you feel about them. Not such bad words of wisdom. I think they'll be my new motto.

Now I'd best go and see if Tala's all right. He was brought back the next day rather bruised and looking very doped up. I've been taking care of him, it's the least I can do for him after everything.

Rei signing out.