Hey hey! I'm back with a new chapter. Yes it is fairly short
unfortunately. I just find it really hard to write long chapters lately.
This entire story is full of shorties!! Man, I'm so sorry it has taking so
unbelievably long for me to update. I'M LACKING! Any ways hope you all
enjoy this!
Dear Diary,
I've done it, I've finally done it. I managed to escape the small town scene and now I find myself living in a run down part of San Francisco a few blocks from the heart of the city. Some would question if this was really an advancement in my life. To me anything is better than that small town. I felt like I was suffocating there. Every breath harder than the last. Now I'm free. Unfortunately the move and my new found freedom haven't been as uplifting as I initially thought. I still have to work shitty jobs with bad hours. I don't think I'll ever get the chance to go back to school and actually make something of myself. It's too costly, and right now all my money goes towards four things: food, shelter, clothes, and Dawn. Who know, I might even be able to cut back on the first three. That way I could send even more money to Dawn.
I need a job immediately, so that I can get that money for Dawn. The whole idea of getting a job makes me want to run away screaming. All I ever get to be is the lowest of the low. A school counselor was the best I ever did, but I only got that job because of Principal Wood. I have no qualifications to do anything. I don't like being independent! Maybe I should just move to England, that way Giles can find a job for me. Or maybe Xander would put in a good word for me with his company. I could do construction. I'm strong and can life things, and help build whatever it is they build. And I bet it pays more than McDonalds. However I'd then have to move back to the small town. That would be the worst pain EVER!
There always Angel. He's always there fore me. I know he'd help out in a second. It's not like he doesn't have enough money to help me, but I don't know if I could handle that right now. It's impossible for me and Angel to see each other and just be friends. We'll always be more than that. Seeing Angel again, working with Angel again would mean re-lighting that flame. Am I ready for that? I don't fell like I am. As much as I would like to work using my expertise in vampires and demons again, I just don't know if I could handle the intensity that comes with Angel. Maybe someday I'll be able to do that. But not right now.
On a less intense note, I got a reply from Dawn. She seems excited about seeing the new home. She's never lived in a big city outside of university. She's happy that I'm finally getting on with my life. I know how much hated seeing me wallow in everything I've lost. She'll be coming home soon for a break. It feels like forever since I've seen her. It's funny, Dawn really hasn't been my sister for that long, and yet I have memories and emotions for her as though she's been in my life since the beginning. I remember when she was just a key, just a thing. Something for the slayer to protect. Now she's my sister and one of the most important persons in my life. I'd do anything for her.
I wonder if San Francisco has any vampires. It must, look at the size of the city! There's no way there are this many people and no vamps. There's too much innocent prey for them not to be here. I really want to patrol. I miss the graveyards. How creepy does that sound? But it's true. There's just an eerie but peaceful silence that comes with them. I love it. Graveyards are like my niche. Its comfort zone, a place where I feel like a belong. Strange isn't it? The slayer feels most at home, where her vampires feel most at home. It's settled as soon as I get settled in I'll hit the first graveyard. The thrill of the chase, and kill might even be enough to lift my spirits, it could bring a bit of joy in my life. Oh my God! Who am I? I sound like a psychopath! It's so funny, I'm actually sitting here and laughing. That's right laughing! I don't think I've laughed once since Dawn left. I haven't even hit the graveyards yet, and slaying is already making me happy. It's quite likely that I won't even find any vampires, but just the thought of patrolling makes my entire body tingle. Oh, I'm excited! Well I think I have to go and finish unpacking stuff. Then I need to find a job! Go Buffy Go!
Alright! Woooo! Doing good! Don't worry though Spike and Buffy will reunite fairly soon I hope. I'm writing it and I don't even know!! Aaak!! That can't be good. No but actually, they'll find eachother soon. I PROMISE!
Dear Diary,
I've done it, I've finally done it. I managed to escape the small town scene and now I find myself living in a run down part of San Francisco a few blocks from the heart of the city. Some would question if this was really an advancement in my life. To me anything is better than that small town. I felt like I was suffocating there. Every breath harder than the last. Now I'm free. Unfortunately the move and my new found freedom haven't been as uplifting as I initially thought. I still have to work shitty jobs with bad hours. I don't think I'll ever get the chance to go back to school and actually make something of myself. It's too costly, and right now all my money goes towards four things: food, shelter, clothes, and Dawn. Who know, I might even be able to cut back on the first three. That way I could send even more money to Dawn.
I need a job immediately, so that I can get that money for Dawn. The whole idea of getting a job makes me want to run away screaming. All I ever get to be is the lowest of the low. A school counselor was the best I ever did, but I only got that job because of Principal Wood. I have no qualifications to do anything. I don't like being independent! Maybe I should just move to England, that way Giles can find a job for me. Or maybe Xander would put in a good word for me with his company. I could do construction. I'm strong and can life things, and help build whatever it is they build. And I bet it pays more than McDonalds. However I'd then have to move back to the small town. That would be the worst pain EVER!
There always Angel. He's always there fore me. I know he'd help out in a second. It's not like he doesn't have enough money to help me, but I don't know if I could handle that right now. It's impossible for me and Angel to see each other and just be friends. We'll always be more than that. Seeing Angel again, working with Angel again would mean re-lighting that flame. Am I ready for that? I don't fell like I am. As much as I would like to work using my expertise in vampires and demons again, I just don't know if I could handle the intensity that comes with Angel. Maybe someday I'll be able to do that. But not right now.
On a less intense note, I got a reply from Dawn. She seems excited about seeing the new home. She's never lived in a big city outside of university. She's happy that I'm finally getting on with my life. I know how much hated seeing me wallow in everything I've lost. She'll be coming home soon for a break. It feels like forever since I've seen her. It's funny, Dawn really hasn't been my sister for that long, and yet I have memories and emotions for her as though she's been in my life since the beginning. I remember when she was just a key, just a thing. Something for the slayer to protect. Now she's my sister and one of the most important persons in my life. I'd do anything for her.
I wonder if San Francisco has any vampires. It must, look at the size of the city! There's no way there are this many people and no vamps. There's too much innocent prey for them not to be here. I really want to patrol. I miss the graveyards. How creepy does that sound? But it's true. There's just an eerie but peaceful silence that comes with them. I love it. Graveyards are like my niche. Its comfort zone, a place where I feel like a belong. Strange isn't it? The slayer feels most at home, where her vampires feel most at home. It's settled as soon as I get settled in I'll hit the first graveyard. The thrill of the chase, and kill might even be enough to lift my spirits, it could bring a bit of joy in my life. Oh my God! Who am I? I sound like a psychopath! It's so funny, I'm actually sitting here and laughing. That's right laughing! I don't think I've laughed once since Dawn left. I haven't even hit the graveyards yet, and slaying is already making me happy. It's quite likely that I won't even find any vampires, but just the thought of patrolling makes my entire body tingle. Oh, I'm excited! Well I think I have to go and finish unpacking stuff. Then I need to find a job! Go Buffy Go!
Alright! Woooo! Doing good! Don't worry though Spike and Buffy will reunite fairly soon I hope. I'm writing it and I don't even know!! Aaak!! That can't be good. No but actually, they'll find eachother soon. I PROMISE!