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Special thanks to Majik! Your review was extremely helpful! I will try to keep everyone in character to the best of my abilities. Oh, this story takes place when Kagome is just
around the age of 18. I needed her to be older, so this story takes place like two years after the real story. If you notice any problems please mention them. I can go back and
fix anything that contradicts something else that I write. Basically, this story is the same as the manga in the sense that all the characters are the same, they are still after Naraku, and they are still searching for the jewel shards. This chapter is dedicated to you Majik!
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The Colors of Emotions
Chapter 3
Guilt
"I had just gotten into a fight with Kagome. She was being her usual unreasonable self, saying she wanted to go home and take those tests things of hers. I of course yelled how dumb they were and tried to drag her back to the village so we could follow up on that rumor of a shard to the east. I said she wasn't allowed to go home unless I said she could. She got mad and sat me and ran off. The dumb wench never would've been hurt if she had only listened to me." Inuyasha was explaining how this whole event had begun. He wasn't actually annoyed with Kagome, but he had to talk about her like he didn't regret having his usual fights with her. Truthfully, he always felt guilty making her mad or cry, and he hated getting into fights. He missed her so much when she went back to her own time.
But he would NEVER let their friends know about that. He had too much pride. So he continued in his gruff uncaring tone.
"I got up after she ran off to follow her but I was blocked. There was some sort of barrier around the small clearing I had been in. I tried to cut it with Tetsusaiga, but it didn't hit anything. I tried to get through again but the barrier threw me back.
Suddenly, all of these weird pictures and stuff started showing up around me. The barrier was like showing me images of my past. Parts of my memories good and bad were being replayed for me. It was really strange." Inuyasha hadn't told them just what those memories were. A lot were of his mother, others Kikyou, but a lot had been of Kagome. The time she had run up and hugged him after he tried to seal her in her own time was one of the most vivid. His companions had noticed the sudden change in his expressions. Miroku smirked.
"Were a lot of those memories of you watching Kagome bath?" The perverted monk questioned. Miroku was soon bopped on the head by Inuyasha. But Inuyasha was bopped on the head by Sango. The two men sat there rubbing there heads.
"I am so telling Kagome you spy on her bathing. You're as bad as Miroku!" Sango glared at the hanyou.
"It is only to make sure she is safe. Besides, Miroku spies on you plenty of times." Inuyasha tried to defend himself. This only resulted on a hit on the head for Miroku and another one for himself.
"Continue with your story Inuyasha." Sango said angrily.
"Alright wench. Geez, that hurts! Okay, where was I. Oh yeah. So I kept trying to break the barrier but it was no use. Most of my senses weren't working in the barrier either. I couldn't smell or hear anything. After a couple of minutes the memories and images disappeared. The first thing I smelled was Kagome's blood. I ran after the scent. I got to the well and she was lying beside it with her eyes closed. I thought she was dead. There was so much blood...." Inuyasha trailed off. He had been so scared when he had found Kagome like that. The members of his group saw the pain-filled expressions flash across the hanyou's face and knew they should stay quiet until he was ready to talk again.
Inuyasha continued, "I felt for her pulse. She was still alive. I picked her up but then she woke up. She said she was really cold and could hardly feel her body. She thought she was going to die. She said she was sorry she couldn't be here for you guys and thanked you for always being there for her. I ran as fast as I could and got here. Than I found you guys. Why were you crying when I got here Shippou?"
"I had smelt Kagome's blood. They told me I was probably wrong because they
said you would never let any harm come to Kagome. Apparently they were wrong!"
Shippou yelled.
"I didn't mean to not be there to protect her. Besides, she was the one who ran off by herself!" Inuyasha snapped back. The kit had hit a nerve. He felt guilty enough not being there with Kagome to protect her. He may have been stuck in the barrier, but if he had agreed to let her go home and had brought her to the well, they might not have been in this mess. And Kagome wouldn't be in the hut next to him fighting for her life.
"Shippou, it is not Inuyasha's fault!" Sango scolded the kit. Shippou didn't care. He needed to get out his anger on the hanyou.
"Yes it is! If he were actually nice to Kagome maybe she wouldn't want to leave so often. If you had brought her to the well you guys wouldn't have been separated. Some protector you are. Kagome is like my mommy. If she died, I don't know what I would do. I can blame whomever I want and I think it is Inuyasha's fault! Do you care about Kagome at all?!" The kit glared at the hanyou. Inuyasha didn't know what to say.
He agreed with what Shippou was saying. He was beating himself up inside for not keeping Kagome safe. He looked around at all of the expectant faces. What was he supposed to say? Should he spill all of his feelings for the girl only to have her find out and reject him? Of course he cared about her! He decided to say the only thing he could say....
"Feh!" And with that, the hanyou jumped up into the tree the group had settled under for this conversation. He ignored Shippou's yelling protests and growled when the kit made a move to come up the tree.
"Inuyasha, if you cared for her at all you wouldn't have let her get hurt. And now you are too proud and stupid to admit to the fact that it is your fault!" Shippou continued his rant. Miroku and Sango stared in awe at the young kit. He seemed a lot older than he actually was by the way he was speaking.
"Shippou, it is getting late. Kagome will probably not wake up until morning. Morning will come a lot faster if you go to sleep now. Go find Kagome's bag and see if she has any chocolate left for you, then go to bed. But be quiet! You cannot wake Kagome up. She is only a couple rooms away from the main room, so you cannot be loud at all!" Shippou brightened at the mention of chocolate and bounded towards the hut with one last glare at Inuyasha.
Kaede came out of the hut and told everyone they could sleep in the hut's main room. Kagome was resting in a back room and should not be disturbed. Kaede called Sango over to her and whispered something in her ear. A look of fear crossed the demon exterminator's face and she nodded. Kaede then went back into the hut to get some blankets out so the others could sleep. Sango told Miroku and Kirara to go inside.
They did as they were told but were reluctant. They wanted to know what Kaede had told the demon exterminator. As soon as the three were inside, Sango called to Inuyasha, "Inuyasha get down here!"
"What do you want Sango?" The hanyou's gruff voice answered when she called his name.
"Are you going to sleep up there tonight?"
"I usually do."
"Can you come down?"
"Why?"
"I need to tell you something about Kagome and I don't want to be yelling it up into a tree."
Inuyasha was down the tree in a flash. Sango stepped back in surprise.
"What is it Sango?!"