Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha and co…too bad though…

A/N: A lot of people we're asking me about the title for this chapter. She won't die though…I won't let her…even if she wants to, Kagome I mean. So stay tuned for the drama!!

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Chapter 8: Suicide? You?

"Naw, your more optimistic then I was."

Kagome walked down the stairs slowly as she stared long and hard at the floor in front of her.

"Chin up…" she muttered to herself. Mother always said…a proud chin is a happy woman. Didn't make much sense then…but now it made perfectly clear sense.

She glanced toward the window. The ground outside was being painted a soft white as the eternal snow fell.

The windows rattled slightly as the distant but resounding slam of a door across the house rumbled. Her father…

"Oyaji!" she heard Rumiyo scream. The door slammed once again. "Don't you slam that door in my face mister! I'll get your head!" she yelled in a mocking motherly tone.

A smack sounded and a thud.

Kagome stared sightlessly toward the stairs as her sister came down fuming.

She ignored her sister's smile and stared blindly at the stairs.

She ignored her brother's hug as he passed and stared unblinkingly at the stairs.

Finally it came time for her to move. He was coming which meant not so great of a greeting as her brother's and sister's.

She turned mechanically and walked into the kitchen where she proceeded in staring unhappily at the setup of the table.

Her mother had placed five places and was humming sadly to herself. She seemed out of it as well.

Kagome ignored her surroundings as she took a seat in one of the end chairs. Her father proceeded in sitting across from her as he mumbled a grumpy good-morning.

"Kagome? Kagome? Are you alright, dear?" her mother shook her lightly.

Kagome stared at her food. She was out of touch today…last night…after that little "Perfect World" incident and seeing her "body-guard" (Inuyasha) almost suffocate her "father" to death.

"Oi! Kag-chan? Oyaji, what'd you do to her?!" Rumiyo yelled at her "father".

They seemed to have a joking relationship in front of her mother but it was anything from so peaceful. Slaps and attempts of sexual harassment was not the kind of relationship that went on front of "Mama". She was too innocent to have to deal with it all…again.

"Kagome?" Her mother lifted her gently out of her chair and led her out of the kitchen, away from him and her ranting sister. Souta sat, quiet and kept to himself, unlike himself, and rolled his food around, staring at the ceiling as if trying to move it with his "superman powers", his hidden land to run to when he was sad.

Back to Kag-chan and Ma…

Kagome and her mother stepped out into the eavesdropper-proof hallway. Mama sighed as she released her tense hold on her daughters shoulder.

"Kagome…what's wrong?" she asked softly.

"Nothing…" Kagome's voice was emotionless as she stared off into space, somewhere that wasn't her mother's face.

"Kagome…I know that face…" her mother said knowingly. "Please don't use that face…" she pleaded. Her face dripped with tears. "Please…" her daughter stared, unmoved and uncaring, at the wall passed her. "Kagome…"

"Sorry…" with that Kagome turned and walked toward the front door, still in her school uniform for the last day of school before break.

"Kagome…" her mother collapsed in a pathetic heap as she cried.

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Where am I going?

Kagome walked slowly and tiredly down the street.

Who am I?

She stopped at the edge of the Sagashite Park and stared as young children danced around with their father's and mothers. Their brothers and/or sister's playing with them, laughing and having a good 'ol family outing.

She stepped forward, into the park filled with happy families and laughing happy children.

Why am I alive? What purpose?

She stopped at the small lake in the center of the park. No one was around and if they were they were having deep and devoted conversations with one another.

There is no reason…time for a change…in every ones life…

"Worthless little…" her father's drunken voice hollered in her ears as tears streamed down her emotionless face. "A woman should be a woman! Clean, cook, and make babies!" he had yelled that and attempted a scaring attack. Luckily her ji-chan had been there and jumped on "oyaji", he had knocked him out with a thick book of "spells". Kagome had only been about seven years old.

She sat on the edge of the small lake/pond/pool and looped her arms around her knees, bringing her legs to her chest. She could cry any longer. It hurt too much to try. But the sobs came and went like small breezes in the summer. Summer…the one time she was safe from the man she was forced, once long ago, to call "daddy".

She closed her eyes slowly and let herself relax, her body falling forward toward the dark pool. She caught herself before she fell and stood, not bothering to wipe the tears from her cheeks.

"Look at that girl…so malnourished." A woman passing by whispered.

"She might be homeless."

"Let's leave her be. You never know what she has…"

Everyone would be…better off!

After that thought she looked around slowly. No one else around. Waiting a bit for the couple who had made the comment to be out of sight completely, she turned toward the dark and dense pond that lay before her.

To be free…

It was a tempting desire. Just jump in, hit your head on a rock, and get amnesia…or suffocate and die, whichever happened she probably be happy both ways.

To be free of him…

She fell forward, the world behind her slipping away as she plunged into the pool. Just as planned she aimed for a large boulder sunken under the water, knocking herself out as she got captured in the long ribbons of seaweed dancing near the bottom. They wrapped around her body, neck and all and held her fast, not releasing.

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Inuyasha jumped through the city, jumping from car to car, smashing the weak roofs and bouncing off to land in trees. He had caught her scent then lost it. He followed the trail she had left toward a small-secluded park in the center of the city. He jumped at high speed toward the heart of the park where he could feel her scent was last held.

Stopping, he stared at the pond, untouched and seemingly peaceful. But her scent led into the pool.

"Shit…that idiot…" he muttered to himself as he pulled off his haori and under kimono and jumped into the pond, searching for the girl.

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Sorry for the short chapter…and a sort of cliffhanger.

So Kagome just dropped into the pond and…got caught in seaweed!! I'm not a very low spirited person in reality. This story is quite hard to portray. Am I good?

Please review people!! I enjoy reading reviews!!

This story will be about…uh…12…13…14…15 chapter's? Who knows but it won't be a big 47 chapter story…I don't think. I don't have it in me to torture Kag-chan that long. And she already tried to commit suicide…so it's coming…sorta to a close!

Oh! Plus some fluff in the next chapter…stay tuned!!

Next chapter:

Chapter 9: Hold Me Tight, Don't Let Go