~Whispered Secrets~
Chapter (11) How Do I live?
They were suppose to meet Haley and the James's at the restaurant.
It was a quarter to a six and they were already late . She called up to Lucas while she put her hand on the rail and cocked her head up the stairs.
Karen: Lucas, we need to get a move on.
Lucas: I'm coming, I'm coming (he said storming down the stairs. He had on some khakis, a wife beater underneath an ocean blue dress shirt. ) His mother smiled at him and handed him his coat but he took a quick glance in the mirror before putting it on.
Lucas; Mom you look nice (referring to the black, spaghetti strapped dress that fell a couple inches below her knees. With black heels to match.
Karen: your one to talk (she said shooting her son a smile)
Lucas: so is Keith coming? (he said giving her a knowing smile, he loved to give his mother a little taste of her medicine)
Karen: yeah, matter of fact (looking at the clock on the wall) he should be here by now. (as if on cue, the doorbell rang)
Karen put her cat on as she went to open the door, and met with the eyes of Keith.
Karen: speak of the devil
Keith (he laughed lightly); you look beautiful
Karen: you clean up good to (she said and they shared a smile)
Keith: so are we ready to go?
Karen: (she looked back at her son who had been watching them the whole time) Are we ready to go?
Lucas: yup, were ready. (they made their way out side the door and to Keith's car.)
Karen and Keith talked on the way there while Lucas Looked out the window. Everything looked blurry, colliding into each other. Anything and everything outside the car looked like a water based painting that had got rained on. But it comforted him while the wind combed through his hair because the world looked and seemed more confusing and mixed up then he was. He still didn't know whether he should tell Haley how he felt before he left, after or if he should tell her at all. It really didn't make a difference any way the out come would sill be the same. Haley wouldn't feel the same, he might ruin everything they have. He wasn't ready to take that chance. He didn't know why his mother was so persistent about him telling Haley, sure him and his mom had the same happy ending written in their head but Haley's happy ending probably was written by an entirely different author. He had kept it to himself all this time…well except his mother, he could keep it to himself some more, maybe forever.
They finally reached the restaurant and they were glad they had reservations with the James's because other wise they would have to stand in that line out side the restaurant. The waiter showed them to where the James's were sitting. Passing the dance floor , and a couple more tables they finally reached where they would be sitting. The Mister James and Misses James were already seated.
After they greeted one another they finally took their seats. The seat beside him was vacant.
Lucas: where is Haley? (he asked curiously looking between Haley's mom and dad)
Misses James: She went to the bathroom before you guys arrived, actually she should be back by now (she said glancing at her watch)
Lucas; oh okay, I'm just going to go look for her.
Haley: A girl's gone a little over find minutes and they want to send a search party. (she said an a teasing voice (mainly at Lucas) approaching the table)
Lucas turned around and he almost forgot how to breathe. She looked so beautiful, breath taking. She had on a silky red dress that was off the shoulders that accentuated her figure, falling a couple inches above her knees. Her hair was in loose curls a little red flower in her hair, was just the touch.
She also had on red pumps. She had her famous strawberry lip gloss on, she never was a lip stick girl, but she didn't need, she was still beautiful as ever.
Karen: You look beautiful (as the older woman hugged the younger girl)
Mr. James: Yeah her mother wanted to doll her up for what reason I don't know. That's why I brought my base ball bat…it's in the car (they laughed lightly)
Keith: oh don't worry, me and Lucas will help, won't we Lucas?
Lucas was still looking…no starring at Haley. He hadn't heard a word since Haley came back from the bathroom.
Keith: Lucas? (as he followed his eye's to Haley (his distraction)
Lucas: huh? He said finally making his eyes look in any other direction but her.
Keith laughed at this and Karen just smiled broadly at her on. Lucas looked away embarrassed hoping Haley wasn't paying attention to his torture by Keith and Karen and then again her.
Haley finally making her way over to her seat by Lucas, Lucas got up and hugged her, seeing as how he was to 'busy' to do it when she first came back.
Lucas: you look beautiful, nice, you know what I mean (he stammered, he laughed at himself at how he sounded and acted. No girl had ever made him feel like that. But he covered it up quickly by trying to say the last part nonchalantly. Haley looked at him amused, she knew Lucas wasn't used to her dressing like that.
Haley: thanks, you look good, nice to, you know what I mean ( she said mocking him teasingly) They laughed lightly, an the adults were just looking at this whole scene. They were all wondering how they could see it but they couldn't. You could tell by the feather touches and the smiles and the laughs and just the atmosphere around them. They said nothing just smiled at each other as Haley finally took her seat.
It kind of fell silent for a minute while everyone was looking at their minute but then the waitress came by.
Waiter: Hi my name is Stacey, I'll be your waitress for this evening. I hope you all are doing fine. Are you ready to order? (she said all this with a never fading smile and a chirpy attitude)
They all nodded and she went around the table one by one taking their orders.
They were all finished eating and just sipping on their selected drinks while talking.
Misses James: So tomorrow's the big day Lucas?
Lucas: yeah, I wish I had more time. I don't know what Haley's going to do with out me. (he noticed Haley was really quite when they started talking
About leaving and college. He was trying to lighten the mood and to include her in the conversation.)
Haley: please, more like what you're going to do with out me.
Lucas: more like what are we going to do with out each other. He said seriously as he looked at her with such an intensity that she took a sip of her soda just she could take her eyes off of him.
Mr. James: All this leaving stuff is dampening the mood come on lets' go dance. (he asked his wife as he heard a fat beat song come on.) She said yes and the they were off.
Keith: would you like to dance?
Karen: (looked dup at him with wide eyes) sure. But before leaving she made sure she encouraged Lucas and Haley to dance to.
Karen: Lucas stop sitting there and ask Haley to dance. As she made her way to the dance floor with Keith.
Lucas was red now, embarrassed out of his wits.
Lucas: unbelievable
Haley: what?
Lucas: nothing, never mind.
Haley saw Lucas' mom headed back this way.
Haley: Come on get up quick your mom is coming back over here.
He got up and they started walking to the dance floor, where Mister and Misses James were already dancing and Keith and Karen started back dancing again. They started to dance to the music, they actually were having fun. But then like 3 fast songs later a slow came on. Haley and Lucas were both trying to decide whether to sit down or dance. They just went with it and they moved in closer, as Lucas put his arms around Haley waist and
She just kind of laid her head on his shoulder as they moved in slow but in tune with the song as it droned out everything else.
How do I,
Get through one night without you?
If I had to live without you,
What kind of life would that be?
Oh, I need....
I need you in my arms, need you to hold,
You're my world, my heart, my soul,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything good in my life,
And tell me now
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Without you,
There'd be no sun in my sky,
There would be no love in my life,
There'd be no world left for me.
And I,
Baby I don't know what I would do,
I'd be lost if I lost you,
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything real in my life,
And tell me now,
How do I live without you?
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
Please tell me baby,
How do I go on?
If you ever leave,
Baby you would take away everything,
I need you with me,
Baby don't you know that you're everything,
Real in my life?
And tell me now,
How do I live without you,
I want to know,
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go,
How do I ever, ever survive?
How do I, how do I, oh how do I live?
How do I live without you?
How do I live without you baby?
It was about a quarter to nine now and they were getting ready to leave the restaurant. Lucas didn't know here Haley was, he looked but didn't find her, so he just decided to ask her mom.
Lucas; Misses James do you know where Haley is?
Misses James: Oh yeah she said, she wasn't feeling well and the she would meet us back home. She told me to say good night you. She said as she gave her an apologetic smile.
He saw Keith and Karen putting their coats on.
Lucas: Um I got to go do something so, go ahead and go home don't wait for me. (he said after he kissed her on her cheek and he was off)
Lucas checked The James's house to see if she "really" had gone home. All the lights were off and he knew it, he knew Haley wasn't going to go home. He doesn't even know why he checked. He headed some place he knew she would be.
A/N: The song used in this chapter is called "How do I live?" by Leann Rimes. Please R/R and tell me how you liked this chapter. I'm putting Lucas/Haley together next chapter.