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~End of Days~

By Alpha-Parvani

That's what started the downhill rolling of my life. A human in her time caught her eye. I've never forgiven her for that… most likely never will. She never seemed to realize that breaking that bond caused physical pain. I went through a week of being unable to eat without throwing up, pain shooting through my very bones… She never knew…

She was gone by then.

            I was back in the village, the first day after Kagome left. The pain was mere twinges then, but my eating… was severely hampered. Even the thinnest broth wouldn't stay down… it was horrible. Sango and Miroku fussed over me like I was a newborn pup. It was really annoying, but…necessary. I probably would have killed myself otherwise.

            I went mad for some time. It could have been a week, a month, or maybe only a few days. I don't remember. I just know that I ran and ran, going past my limits. I would stop, I remember that much. Those were times when I was calm. Then the pain would hit and I'd be running again.

I ended up at the well in the end.

            That well was, strangely, a comfort. With the Jewel, I could have gone to Kagome, begged her to come back… but that wasn't like me. She would have to come to me. I could care less if she ever returned.

            I went back to the village. Sango and Miroku bombarded me with questions. It was Kaede who shooed them away so I could rest. I insisted I was fine until I fell asleep… walking. It was definitely one of my more embarrassing moments.

            I think I slept for three or four days straight. Needless to say, I could run longer and faster when I recovered fully. It was when I woke up that I decided I needed to tie up all loose ends in my life… I had a plan. I only told Shippo. He begged me not to.

"Otousan, you can't! I'd be all alone then!" I shook my head. "I have to, Shippo… if I do this, you'll be alone for only years. If I don't…you'll be alone forever." He eventually agreed.

            Sango pestered me continuously, hoping I would tell her. I never told her anything. I just told her I'd be back in a few weeks, maybe longer. I had a journey to take.

            I left the village two weeks after Kagome's departure. I still felt the pain and the sickness of the bond breaking, but it didn't matter anymore. I felt…empty. Incomplete. And I needed to fix that. After all the problems and ends in my life were eradicated.

            My first step…was Kikyo. The dead miko I used to love still hadn't been sent back into death. She'd been hidden the entire time, before and after the defeat of Naraku. I was set on finding her and returning her to where she belonged.

            I passed through Koga's territory, a minor greeting from a lower member of the pack letting me know I was welcome as long as I wanted to stay. I was there for the day and that night. The new moon had risen. Koga came to me personally, keeping me company and protecting me… although he'd rather eat his own tongue than admit it. The wolf leader was still fast, but he often complained that it was too slow. I offered to give him two small chips of the Jewel. He hit me and called me an inukoro. Then laughed. It was the first time I laughed in days.

            The next morning, Koga told me to come back for a stay when I completed my quest. I had to think it over. How long was my journey going to take? I shrugged. "Whatever, ookami. Seeya 'round." And I left, seeing him smile slightly out of the corner of my eye before he ran off.

            Another two days travel and I was in a small forest. I camped in the middle of it, deciding I needed to rest a little. In the middle of the night, I was awoken by a twig snap and a splash. I slipped out of my tree silently and went to a nearby stream

Shippo was crawling, sodden, out of the water.

            After a fair scolding and a sharp tug to a fluffy tail, the two of us were back in the tree. Shippo went to sleep instantly. I wasn't so lucky… Sleep didn't come for the rest of the night. I sat up and stared at the stars, wondering what god out there decided that he didn't like me anymore.

~~~ Okay guys. We have problems again… I'm losing interest in this story already… Is there anyone who could help? Ideas maybe? I hate giving up on stories so much, but it's really hard to keep ideas coming. So, if you want this story to keep going… help me. *puppy dog eyes* R&R!

~~ Alpha-Parvani