"The Perfect Fool"
By: Lexie-chan
Funny...
All that I can do is stare, stare at her as it crushes my heart. I'm in love with her but I do nothing to make it work. It's really stupid and I hate myself for it. How can I just let love slip away? She could've been mine if I had wanted to anyway. But it turns out that I am actually the one helping her to forget and ignore me.
Funny isn't it?
I keep on pushing her away when all that I can ever for is to be with her and be her love. I want her to love me the same way I love her. But the feeling is never there. It never was... all thanks to my freakin' pride. I thought I could live life without Aya. It was no big difference before. But as time passes on, now that she finds herself falling in love with Tooya, things starts to change. I get hurt without any particular reason but her. I find myself crying my heart out
And at times, it also confuses e when we touch. The warmth of her skin is soothing as if it could heal wounds. It breaks my loneliness even if she, and my love for her is th main cause of all of these heartaches.
I don't think we are better off as friends. I want her more than that. But I am too late...
If I hadn't pushed her away...
If I hadn't stop myself from falling...
If only I hadn't love her first, maybe things wont be this complicated. Maybe she could have seen right through me. And yes, I loved her first but I was to blinded to see it before. Damn... I am so desperate for her to know my real intentions but seeing her now, happy with Tooya, discourages me big time. I am no match to her one love. I'm just a small squirming 'friend figure' in her life. What can I possibly do at thyis stage?
Nothing.
It's hard telling this especially to myself but it is, this is who I am. I'm the one who ignored love at the precise moment it finally came to my life. I'm the one who ruined everything, everything that could have been the cause of my eternal bliss, o what could've been mine and not Tooya's. I am the one who should be blamed.
But come to think of it, I am the perfect fool anyway. Yeah, me Yuhi Aogiri and my miserable life.
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Disclaimer: Okay. Alright. Ayashi no Ceres' not mine.. WWWHHHAAAHHH
Author's note:
Te-hee... my very first fanfiction of the year 2004. yeah, I wasn't that active these past year and I am so sorry... it's just that my passion for eriting hadn't come out till a couple of days ago. You see, I'm devoting most of my time to making my manga.
Anywayz, regarding the story, it's a bit cliché-ish... I know, I know. But I just want to elaborate Yuhi's feelings in this short entry. Hope you like it despite of it. Leave a review okay? I would truly appreciate it!
Anywayz, pardon my wrong grammars coz like I've said in my other stories, I'm not at all particular to the tenses or whatever that concerns grammar echus-echus I use... as long as we could understand each other, it's okay, ne?
So please, just bear with me, please...
By: Lexie-chan
Funny...
All that I can do is stare, stare at her as it crushes my heart. I'm in love with her but I do nothing to make it work. It's really stupid and I hate myself for it. How can I just let love slip away? She could've been mine if I had wanted to anyway. But it turns out that I am actually the one helping her to forget and ignore me.
Funny isn't it?
I keep on pushing her away when all that I can ever for is to be with her and be her love. I want her to love me the same way I love her. But the feeling is never there. It never was... all thanks to my freakin' pride. I thought I could live life without Aya. It was no big difference before. But as time passes on, now that she finds herself falling in love with Tooya, things starts to change. I get hurt without any particular reason but her. I find myself crying my heart out
And at times, it also confuses e when we touch. The warmth of her skin is soothing as if it could heal wounds. It breaks my loneliness even if she, and my love for her is th main cause of all of these heartaches.
I don't think we are better off as friends. I want her more than that. But I am too late...
If I hadn't pushed her away...
If I hadn't stop myself from falling...
If only I hadn't love her first, maybe things wont be this complicated. Maybe she could have seen right through me. And yes, I loved her first but I was to blinded to see it before. Damn... I am so desperate for her to know my real intentions but seeing her now, happy with Tooya, discourages me big time. I am no match to her one love. I'm just a small squirming 'friend figure' in her life. What can I possibly do at thyis stage?
Nothing.
It's hard telling this especially to myself but it is, this is who I am. I'm the one who ignored love at the precise moment it finally came to my life. I'm the one who ruined everything, everything that could have been the cause of my eternal bliss, o what could've been mine and not Tooya's. I am the one who should be blamed.
But come to think of it, I am the perfect fool anyway. Yeah, me Yuhi Aogiri and my miserable life.
- - - o O o - - -
Disclaimer: Okay. Alright. Ayashi no Ceres' not mine.. WWWHHHAAAHHH
Author's note:
Te-hee... my very first fanfiction of the year 2004. yeah, I wasn't that active these past year and I am so sorry... it's just that my passion for eriting hadn't come out till a couple of days ago. You see, I'm devoting most of my time to making my manga.
Anywayz, regarding the story, it's a bit cliché-ish... I know, I know. But I just want to elaborate Yuhi's feelings in this short entry. Hope you like it despite of it. Leave a review okay? I would truly appreciate it!
Anywayz, pardon my wrong grammars coz like I've said in my other stories, I'm not at all particular to the tenses or whatever that concerns grammar echus-echus I use... as long as we could understand each other, it's okay, ne?
So please, just bear with me, please...