Disclaimer: I forgot to put one of these in the Prologue, but ain't it obvious yet that I don't own any of these characters? Too bad, ne? =P

MEILIN

(POV)

Cherry blossoms...

Well, yeah. Those pink little flowers that pour their petals down on Tomoeda (if not the whole of Japan) in autumn and the blooming of which is looked upon as a divine spectacle in spring. They seem to represent much of this country's traditions. And their beauty... their existence... Everything about them seems to point to something positive. Something awe-inspiring. Something nice and happy.

So why does a single floret cause me this much pain?

Sakura Kinomoto...

Yeah, right. The prettiest, nicest, COOLEST girl Syaoran has ever met. Come to think of it, it has been a year since they got together. And not by simple means, mind you. A lot of factors had to first make them realize their feelings for each other (me included) and it took a forlorn and lonesome Clow Card (The Emptiness) and its transformation into a Sakura Card (The Hope) to pull them close together and thrust them both into the swirling eddy of sweet and infinite love. I used to think it was the most exciting thing.

So why is it causing me this much tears now?

I don't mean to sound bitter so gomen if I sound that way to you. And please don't ask me to justify my tears. 'Coz no matter how many times you prod me to, there just seems to be no justification. I promised myself I'd never cry this way again for Syaoran. But it's awfully hard to keep all the pain inside especially if lump after lump of it kept adding up every time I would see them together while I stand cold and alone from afar. It's scorching and desiccating, this feeling that would occupy my heart whenever I see them holding each other's hand or laughing at something together. The sight of them never failed to bring to my memory that time when Syaoran brought my lost bird back amidst heavy rain. Or the countless times he would stand in front of me in protective stance before an enemy. I always knew he's a sweet guy, caring and loving though a little aloof and snobbish at times...

...Then one day I just suddenly realized how much I was missing and how much more I am going to miss.

It sucks, but that's the truth.

I think I'm falling once again for Syaoran...