(A/N: Believe me, the last chapter was very hard to write. And it was me. Before I wrote it, I had been stalling the fic, writing up almost useless chapters. Oh my god, and this was supposed to be a 3 chapter fic. LOL. I'm glad I finally got the climax out of my stomach, as bad as it was. Now I can finish the freaking story. Btw, thanks for the reviews, and keep them coming.)
Chapter 8:
"Where am I?" I asked, suddenly.
And then I told myself. "You are deep within your soul."
I looked around the dark and foreboding chamber I was standing in. I felt a chilly wind fly around me, twiddling my ribbons. I sighed deeply as I felt the cold wind lay pain upon my body.
I inhaled, and took some steps. As my bare foot hit the ground, I felt it sink a few inches into the ground. The ground felt rough and unstable. I tried to keep my balance, but the ground forced me to lose my balance, and I fell on my back. When I hit the ground, it suddenly decided to be rock hard, and cold. I yelled in agony.
Suddenly, I saw a blinding blue light coming from an undistinguishable location. I looked up at the light in a sitting poisition, using an arm to hold me up.
I squinted and used my other hand to block the light, but I couldn't see what was making the blue light.
Suddenly, the blue light broke apart, and there was a thundering sound that hurt my ears.
"Where am I?" I said again, except much louder.
And then I told myself, "You are deep within your soul."
"What is my purpose here?" I asked.
And it was quiet. I wasn't able to tell myself anything. As I got back up on my feet, I heard a voice.
"Bijou... Bijou..." the voice called.
I looked up once again at the bright blue light.
"What are you doing?" the voice demanded forcefully.
I paused for a moment, then spoke confidently. "I am spying on Hamtaro. I am being obsessed with him. I am stalking him. I am getting jealous of Pashmina."
"Where is your posture?" the voice asked again, moving on.
I laughed, then spoke grimly. "It's gone. I no longer need it. My image goes to no one but Hamtaro. He doesn't love me. There is no reason to keep it."
"Where is your beautiful aura?"
"I am not beautiful. I was never beautiful. I only wanted to impress Hamtaro."
"Where is your purity?"
"I can't find it. But I'm not looking for it. Only Hamtaro can make me pure again."
I could tell that my answers were getting lamer and lamer. My tone was faltering, and I was beginning to create a wet layer of tears over my eyes.
"Where is your dignity?"
I ran out of answers. "Uh... gone too. Was I ever?"
I didn't know what to say, but she quickly moved on, and asked the final question.
"Where are YOU?"
And I woke up.
I felt my eyelashes, bent and folded lift. When I awoke, I saw all the Ham-hams above me. I was lying down on a comfortable mat, and Ham-Hams smiled fiercely when I awoke.
"Bijou! You've awoken!" Maxwell cried.
"Yeah! We were so afraid!" sobbed Pashmina. "You just shrieked suddenly, and all the Ham-hams found you, lying on the ground."
"Everything's okay. It's all fine. Thanks for caring for me."
I pulled myself up on my feet, and went home, leaving all the Ham-hams stunned. None of them knew of anything to do. Stan, who was at the door, looked at me with a worried look on his face.
At home, I thought of my dream. I recalled the questions that were given to me.
["What are you doing?"]
I decided to make a little game out of it, and I answered the questions again for real.
"What am I doing? What am I doing? I am making the decision to change. I don't need Hamtaro."
["Where is your posture?"] I recalled.
And I conjured a shining answer, giving me hope. "My posture was under my pet shavings, and I couldn't find it. But trust me, its back, and I'm going look and feel wonderful!"
["Where is your beautiful aura?"]
"Its here. All this dirt in my fur covered it. It was trapped. But it's coming back. With my friend's help, I'm going to get myself cleaned up. And it will happily explode around me."
["Where is your purity?"]
"My purity has always been with me. And I am going to keep it that way!" I exclaimed. I laughed softly, and I could feel my beauty return to my once-forsaken body.
["Where is your dignity?"]
"I am dignified. I believe I'm amazing. And I know that everyone agrees with me."
And now I was ready to answer the final question.
["Where are YOU?"] I asked myself.
"I am on Earth, in my cage in Maria's house. And I am right here, in my shining body. I am going to be found by everyone else. They will find me, and my posture, aura, purity, and dignity. I love myself, and so will everyone else. I am able to exist without Hamtaro. Forever."
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The End.
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(A/N: And the epilogue will come. :))
Chapter 8:
"Where am I?" I asked, suddenly.
And then I told myself. "You are deep within your soul."
I looked around the dark and foreboding chamber I was standing in. I felt a chilly wind fly around me, twiddling my ribbons. I sighed deeply as I felt the cold wind lay pain upon my body.
I inhaled, and took some steps. As my bare foot hit the ground, I felt it sink a few inches into the ground. The ground felt rough and unstable. I tried to keep my balance, but the ground forced me to lose my balance, and I fell on my back. When I hit the ground, it suddenly decided to be rock hard, and cold. I yelled in agony.
Suddenly, I saw a blinding blue light coming from an undistinguishable location. I looked up at the light in a sitting poisition, using an arm to hold me up.
I squinted and used my other hand to block the light, but I couldn't see what was making the blue light.
Suddenly, the blue light broke apart, and there was a thundering sound that hurt my ears.
"Where am I?" I said again, except much louder.
And then I told myself, "You are deep within your soul."
"What is my purpose here?" I asked.
And it was quiet. I wasn't able to tell myself anything. As I got back up on my feet, I heard a voice.
"Bijou... Bijou..." the voice called.
I looked up once again at the bright blue light.
"What are you doing?" the voice demanded forcefully.
I paused for a moment, then spoke confidently. "I am spying on Hamtaro. I am being obsessed with him. I am stalking him. I am getting jealous of Pashmina."
"Where is your posture?" the voice asked again, moving on.
I laughed, then spoke grimly. "It's gone. I no longer need it. My image goes to no one but Hamtaro. He doesn't love me. There is no reason to keep it."
"Where is your beautiful aura?"
"I am not beautiful. I was never beautiful. I only wanted to impress Hamtaro."
"Where is your purity?"
"I can't find it. But I'm not looking for it. Only Hamtaro can make me pure again."
I could tell that my answers were getting lamer and lamer. My tone was faltering, and I was beginning to create a wet layer of tears over my eyes.
"Where is your dignity?"
I ran out of answers. "Uh... gone too. Was I ever?"
I didn't know what to say, but she quickly moved on, and asked the final question.
"Where are YOU?"
And I woke up.
I felt my eyelashes, bent and folded lift. When I awoke, I saw all the Ham-hams above me. I was lying down on a comfortable mat, and Ham-Hams smiled fiercely when I awoke.
"Bijou! You've awoken!" Maxwell cried.
"Yeah! We were so afraid!" sobbed Pashmina. "You just shrieked suddenly, and all the Ham-hams found you, lying on the ground."
"Everything's okay. It's all fine. Thanks for caring for me."
I pulled myself up on my feet, and went home, leaving all the Ham-hams stunned. None of them knew of anything to do. Stan, who was at the door, looked at me with a worried look on his face.
At home, I thought of my dream. I recalled the questions that were given to me.
["What are you doing?"]
I decided to make a little game out of it, and I answered the questions again for real.
"What am I doing? What am I doing? I am making the decision to change. I don't need Hamtaro."
["Where is your posture?"] I recalled.
And I conjured a shining answer, giving me hope. "My posture was under my pet shavings, and I couldn't find it. But trust me, its back, and I'm going look and feel wonderful!"
["Where is your beautiful aura?"]
"Its here. All this dirt in my fur covered it. It was trapped. But it's coming back. With my friend's help, I'm going to get myself cleaned up. And it will happily explode around me."
["Where is your purity?"]
"My purity has always been with me. And I am going to keep it that way!" I exclaimed. I laughed softly, and I could feel my beauty return to my once-forsaken body.
["Where is your dignity?"]
"I am dignified. I believe I'm amazing. And I know that everyone agrees with me."
And now I was ready to answer the final question.
["Where are YOU?"] I asked myself.
"I am on Earth, in my cage in Maria's house. And I am right here, in my shining body. I am going to be found by everyone else. They will find me, and my posture, aura, purity, and dignity. I love myself, and so will everyone else. I am able to exist without Hamtaro. Forever."
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The End.
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(A/N: And the epilogue will come. :))