A/N: Hehe... ^_^ -- that's all I'm gonna say for now.
Sorata sat on top of the roof staring up at the stars. Each one twinkled one after the other. It was beautiful... just like his Ise maiden. He missed her so much.
// All day //
// Staring at the ceiling making //
// Friends with shadows on my wall //
It's been six months since he's seen her last and it hurt to be away from her. It hurt every single day. He wanted to be with her all the time, he wanted to protect her, and he did, but then he came back. He didn't know why he came back. He did what he set out to do, so why was he still alive? Why was he sent back? Stargazer did try to explain it, but it was something that couldn't exactly be explain rashonally. He was just here and that was that.
// All night //
// Hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep //
// Because tomorrow might be good or something //
He didn't even know if his maiden was still alive. He didn't know if she survived or not. But his gut told him she did. Or at least that was what he hoped for.
// Hold on //
// Feeling like I'm heading for a //
// Breakdown //
// And I don't know why //
He couldn't get her off of his mind. He couldn't concentrate anymore. With her gone, he was completely empty. He didn't know how long he could last without her. He still smile sometimes, but it would never reach his eyes. Some of the other monks were starting to worry about him... but he would never admit there was anything wrong.
// But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell //
// I know right now you can't tell //
// But stay a while and maybe then you'll see //
// A different side of me //
He knew the old Stargazer could tell what it was. He knew that he understood too. He just didn't know why he hadn't said anything yet.
// I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired //
// I know right now you don't care //
// But soon enough you're gonna think of me //
// And how I used to be //
// Me //
He wanted to go back to Tokyo and search for her, but he couldn't ignore his duties at Kouya either. He was stuck. Sometimes he wanted to run away so badly and then he'd remember where he was and what he had to do.
// Talking to myself in public //
// And dodging glances on the train //
A while ago he had started to talk in his sleep, some of the monks said they heard him. Though he never slept that well anymore. He'd always wake up in the middle of a dream. He'd always dream of her. Always. Her shadow hunted him in the night. Even then he could never stop thinking about her.
// I know //
// I know they've all been talking about me //
// I can hear them whisper and it makes me fell there must be something wrong //
// With me //
That was why he was sitting on the roof watching the stars. He didn't want to have another dream... not another one... He didn't want to see her grave again...
// Out of all the hours thinking //
// Somehow //
// I've lost my mind //
He was slowly going insane. He wanted to run away. He HAD to run away. He couldn't stay here like this. But he still had responsibilities he had to take care of. 'Fuck the responsibilities... I have to go...'
// But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell //
// I know right now you can't tell //
// But stay a while and maybe then you'll see //
// A different side of me //
He stood up a jumped down to the ground. He took a look back and turned around.
// I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired //
// I know right now you don't care //
// But soon enough you're gonna think of me //
// And how I used to be //
"Sorata?" a familiar voice called out. Sorata turned around and came face to face with the old man Stargazer. "Ah! Jii-san... beautiful night isn't it? I just came out to watch the stars...!" Sorata said. "That's not all you came out here for..."
// I've been talking in my sleep //
"I've seen the way act," Stargazer began, "I've also heard you when you sleep and I know your heart does not rest here with us." Sorata winced. He knew what he was saying was true but he never wanted to admit it to himself. He'd just convince himself that he lived in both worlds... but that was hardly true.
// Pretty soon they'll come to get me //
"I know you've become distracted... it's because of the girl isn't it?"- Sorata closed his eyes and nodded-"Then I'm sending you back to Tokyo to go join her." He finished. Sorata's eyes widened.
// They'll have taken me away //
"J-jii-san!" Sorata started. Stargazer put a hand up to stop him. "Don't worry she's alive and healthy... and she needs you now more than anything." A smile spread across Sorata's face and this time it did reach his eyes. "Arigotou gozaimasu!"
// I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell //
// I know right now you can't tell //
// But stay a while and maybe then you'll see //
// A different side of me //
Sorata ran inside to start packing his things and left Stargazer outside, smiling.
// I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired //
// I know right now you don't care //
// But soon enough you're going to think of me //
// And how I used to be //
// How I used to be //
// How I used to be //
// I'm just a little unwell //
// How I used to be //
// How I used to be //
// I'm just a little unwell //
A/N: How was that for chapter one? ^_^ Well I've got a surprise for chapter two... So until then R+R pwease!
Sorata sat on top of the roof staring up at the stars. Each one twinkled one after the other. It was beautiful... just like his Ise maiden. He missed her so much.
// All day //
// Staring at the ceiling making //
// Friends with shadows on my wall //
It's been six months since he's seen her last and it hurt to be away from her. It hurt every single day. He wanted to be with her all the time, he wanted to protect her, and he did, but then he came back. He didn't know why he came back. He did what he set out to do, so why was he still alive? Why was he sent back? Stargazer did try to explain it, but it was something that couldn't exactly be explain rashonally. He was just here and that was that.
// All night //
// Hearing voices telling me that I should get some sleep //
// Because tomorrow might be good or something //
He didn't even know if his maiden was still alive. He didn't know if she survived or not. But his gut told him she did. Or at least that was what he hoped for.
// Hold on //
// Feeling like I'm heading for a //
// Breakdown //
// And I don't know why //
He couldn't get her off of his mind. He couldn't concentrate anymore. With her gone, he was completely empty. He didn't know how long he could last without her. He still smile sometimes, but it would never reach his eyes. Some of the other monks were starting to worry about him... but he would never admit there was anything wrong.
// But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell //
// I know right now you can't tell //
// But stay a while and maybe then you'll see //
// A different side of me //
He knew the old Stargazer could tell what it was. He knew that he understood too. He just didn't know why he hadn't said anything yet.
// I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired //
// I know right now you don't care //
// But soon enough you're gonna think of me //
// And how I used to be //
// Me //
He wanted to go back to Tokyo and search for her, but he couldn't ignore his duties at Kouya either. He was stuck. Sometimes he wanted to run away so badly and then he'd remember where he was and what he had to do.
// Talking to myself in public //
// And dodging glances on the train //
A while ago he had started to talk in his sleep, some of the monks said they heard him. Though he never slept that well anymore. He'd always wake up in the middle of a dream. He'd always dream of her. Always. Her shadow hunted him in the night. Even then he could never stop thinking about her.
// I know //
// I know they've all been talking about me //
// I can hear them whisper and it makes me fell there must be something wrong //
// With me //
That was why he was sitting on the roof watching the stars. He didn't want to have another dream... not another one... He didn't want to see her grave again...
// Out of all the hours thinking //
// Somehow //
// I've lost my mind //
He was slowly going insane. He wanted to run away. He HAD to run away. He couldn't stay here like this. But he still had responsibilities he had to take care of. 'Fuck the responsibilities... I have to go...'
// But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell //
// I know right now you can't tell //
// But stay a while and maybe then you'll see //
// A different side of me //
He stood up a jumped down to the ground. He took a look back and turned around.
// I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired //
// I know right now you don't care //
// But soon enough you're gonna think of me //
// And how I used to be //
"Sorata?" a familiar voice called out. Sorata turned around and came face to face with the old man Stargazer. "Ah! Jii-san... beautiful night isn't it? I just came out to watch the stars...!" Sorata said. "That's not all you came out here for..."
// I've been talking in my sleep //
"I've seen the way act," Stargazer began, "I've also heard you when you sleep and I know your heart does not rest here with us." Sorata winced. He knew what he was saying was true but he never wanted to admit it to himself. He'd just convince himself that he lived in both worlds... but that was hardly true.
// Pretty soon they'll come to get me //
"I know you've become distracted... it's because of the girl isn't it?"- Sorata closed his eyes and nodded-"Then I'm sending you back to Tokyo to go join her." He finished. Sorata's eyes widened.
// They'll have taken me away //
"J-jii-san!" Sorata started. Stargazer put a hand up to stop him. "Don't worry she's alive and healthy... and she needs you now more than anything." A smile spread across Sorata's face and this time it did reach his eyes. "Arigotou gozaimasu!"
// I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell //
// I know right now you can't tell //
// But stay a while and maybe then you'll see //
// A different side of me //
Sorata ran inside to start packing his things and left Stargazer outside, smiling.
// I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired //
// I know right now you don't care //
// But soon enough you're going to think of me //
// And how I used to be //
// How I used to be //
// How I used to be //
// I'm just a little unwell //
// How I used to be //
// How I used to be //
// I'm just a little unwell //
A/N: How was that for chapter one? ^_^ Well I've got a surprise for chapter two... So until then R+R pwease!