My friend and I bought a tarot cards this weekend. We also played the
Korean version of "Dance Dance Revolution", "Pump it up". It was a lot of
fun! We also did a buttload of walking for exercise (like more than 5 miles
on Saturday and Sunday) so I am really tired right now... On with the
chapter! Remember that reviews are more than welcome!
Disclaimer: I don't own Inu-Yasha.
'Inu-Yasha... why...? Why does my heart ache? What was our relationship before I lost my memories? And what is theirs? I wonder why I feel this way even though I've only just met him...' Kagome thought as she helplessly watched Inu-Yasha embracing Kikyou.
Inu-Yasha heaved a big sigh and pulled away from Kikyou.
'I chose Kikyou... I thought that it had caused Kagome pain the first time, yet she still had the heart to ask if she could remain by my side... Now look what I've done... I've... I've caused Kagome to loose her memories... It's my fault...' Inu-Yasha thought, pained.
"Kikyou, you died for me... all of this time, I thought that the only right decision for me to make was to repay you with my own life..." Inu-Yasha smiled weakly, not looking into her eyes and continued, "But... there's nothing that I can do to change the past and all I can do now is make amends."
(A/N: There's a reason that he's not looking into Kikyou's eyes! She's like Medusa, really! Think about it, when Inu-Yasha looks into her eyes, he loses himself and is basically under her spell, a mere puppet. I got this idea from "Pet shop of Horrors" that manga rox my sox! You should read it! Go Count D! Go Dreizehn!)
Kikyou looked at him in disbelief and asked him, "Inu-Yasha, what are you saying?! You're supposed to go to hell with me, remember?"
Inu-Yasha still kept his eyes averted and replied in a soft voice, "Kikyou, you're no longer the woman I fell in love with so long ago. You left this world, and I feel sorry that you had to re-enter it... You should've rested in peace. You are no more than an empty shell now Kikyou, you don't have the pure soul that I love; you only wander this earth by stealing others' souls."
"What do you mean?! I would have my soul if that wench of yours hadn't taken it from me!" Kikyou hissed.
Inu-Yasha closed his eyes, trying his best to gather himself. It pained him to leave the one woman that he had loved for so long, but he had come to the decision that it what he was now doing was the best thing to do... for Kagome...
"Kikyou, I don't love you anymore... I can only leave you now, with my best regards at hoping that you will find peace and be, once again, laid to rest, never to be bothered again." Inu-Yasha told her in a dry, raspy voice and walked off in the other direction.
It went without saying whom he loves now. Kikyou's heart burned with rage. Up until now, she had him right where she wanted him, and she could have easily dragged him to hell with her. But now his perspective was no longer warped by the dark will of Kikyou, he was finally free of her.
Kagome was a bit confused at the play she watched unfold before her eyes. She then fell to her knees, unintentionally and tears began to pour down her cheeks as the memories of the day she left and was hit by the car flooded into her head. Images of Inu-Yasha and Kikyou flashed though her mind and she remembered the overwhelming feeling of betrayal, sadness, pain, sorrow, guilt, etc.
*FLASHBACK* Kagome walked out of the well, now feeling her legs leaden with guilt, feeling that the suffering her friends felt was due to her being there.
Kagome walked, blinded by her tears, sadness, and anger. 'I wish that I had never met that jerk, Inu-Yasha...' she thought depressed, not seeing the car. *END FLASHBACK*
'So... It was of my own will that I lost my memories...? I want to remember everything else! Everything that happened before that! EVERYTHING!' Kagome thought, angered, as she slammed her fist to the ground and the tears continued to flow.
Kagome stood and whipped her eyes with her sleeve, deciding that crying wasn't going to help regain any memories.
'I guess I should just hope that by spending more time with everyone, something will trigger my memories... I really do hope that I will remember everything...' Kagome thought sadly, yet determinedly, as she walked slowly back to the hut.
She just happened to run into a distraught hanyou on her way back to the hut. She smiled at him, not telling him what she saw or how she had gained the memories of that fated day back. Inu-Yasha was too distracted and in his own thoughts to guess that she'd witnessed or heard anything that had just happened with him and Kikyou. Inu-Yasha blushed as they walked side by side, without either of them speaking, back to Kaede's hut.
When they got back, it was already pretty late (not that it took them long to get there), so everyone was already asleep. Kagome told Inu-Yasha goodnight and he told her the same, as Kagome went to the room with her futon, and Inu-Yasha went in the other direction, where his futon was located.
Kagome slept and her dreams were of Inu-Yasha. Inu-Yasha slept soundly also; his dreams were of the times that him and Kagome had spent together.
Kagome awoke to the aroma of Kaede's cooking around 8 or 9 in the morning. She went over to where Kaede was, since everyone else was asleep.
"Good morning, Kagome. Did you sleep well?" Kaede asked with a warm smile as she stirred the miso soup.
Kagome nodded her head, returning her smile.
"Where were you last night?" Kaede asked (since Kagome had come back kind of late, and it was after everyone else had fallen asleep).
"I... last night, I regained some of my memories..." Kagome whispered, not to wake anyone else up, "I now remember the day that I was hit by the car and I had lost my memories. I still don't remember much... all I remember is that day, sorry..."
"Kagome, ye do not have to apologize. It is a good thing, no, a great thing that you are at least remember SOMETHING. This is a sign of progress... and hope... It must be possible that you can regain your memories." Kaede assured her.
"Thanks..." Kagome replied.
"But... I remembered something important... the reason why I lost my memories in the first place..." Kagome dropped her voice.
'It was of my own free will... I WANTED to forget everything about them... I went through repression- blocking out thoughts about unpleasant things or experiences (forgetting on purpose)...' Kagome thought to herself with a sigh.
(A/N: I had to go through all of my old Health papers to find that word and definition... like I said, I got the idea for this fanfic while in Health class. Our Health teacher told us that this can happen, and in Kagome's case, it's a bit more severe. Normally it would be something like forgetting to do the dishes because it's an unpleasant task or whatever. Kagome, though, went through so much trauma and wanted to forget everything [which turned out to be pretty bad, ne?]. There were even some bad cases where a girl would be raped, and wouldn't even remember what happened that whole day or week or whatever... Sorry for rambling like that...)
"What was it that caused your loss of memories, child? I thought that it was being hit by the car and being in a coma..." Kaede responded.
"Well, I think that has something to do with it also, but none of this would've happened if it weren't for..." Kagome whispered, feeling guilty.
That's the end of the chapter! Sorry if you think that was short. It may look shorter than the last chapter, but it actually has quite a few more words (since chapter 8 had so many conversations in it). PLEASE review! I really didn't get many reviews last time... maybe it's because I made you think that Inu-Yasha chose Kikyou or whatever... well, please tell me what you thought of this chapter! Please? PLEASE?!
Responses to reviews-
Demongirl6381- Anou... It would be loverly (( my word) if you, (when your computer is fixed) could go back and review for the chapters that you haven't reviewed for yet... Sorry about taking long to update ^_^; I really procrastinated, gomen! I will hopefully not have too much homework this week, and I'll try to post again, m'kay? Thanks for reviewing!
Eternal Serena- I'm glad that you didn't get too angry, thinking that Inu- Yasha really had chosen Kikyou (I think some readers may have done that). "tanoshinde kudasai" used together means "have fun". I use that phase a lot with my friend, Lili-chan. I made a 96 on my Spanish exam, and it didn't hurt my average, because it was still a 100 ^_^. I guess I will find out what I made on my Tennis exam and my Health exam soon... Thanks for reviewing!
funmaker- Aww... maybe you will cough up the pocky for me since the Inu- Yasha/ Kikyou scene didn't turn out too bad ^_^. That reminds me... I got some pocky from my friend, Lili-chan in Spanish and my teacher saw it, and thought that it said "Porky" LOL XD XD XD! I thought that it was so funny, especially to see the stumped look on her face! It's grrr8 that you got another review! I am happy for you! Thanks for reviewing!
Gothic Youkai666- Hey, super-silly is cool for you, whereas special is cool for me lol. I took your "... Kagome must regain her memories or heads will roll" threat seriously so I at least gave her a little. Hey, isn't it grrr8 that Inu-Yasha didn't really choose Kikyou over Kagome? ^_^ Hey, good guess on how it would trigger her memories, though! Thanks for reviewing!
Inuyasha-n-Kagome-luva- Thanks for thinking that my story is good ^_^. That makes me feel special. Sorry for making you wait for this chapter... I'll try not to take so long next time... Thanks for reviewing!
ladyhawk89- Really? This story is too awesome ^_^? I feel loved lol. I'll keep up the writing and updating if others will keep up the reviewing ^_^. Thanks for reviewing!
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Disclaimer: I don't own Inu-Yasha.
'Inu-Yasha... why...? Why does my heart ache? What was our relationship before I lost my memories? And what is theirs? I wonder why I feel this way even though I've only just met him...' Kagome thought as she helplessly watched Inu-Yasha embracing Kikyou.
Inu-Yasha heaved a big sigh and pulled away from Kikyou.
'I chose Kikyou... I thought that it had caused Kagome pain the first time, yet she still had the heart to ask if she could remain by my side... Now look what I've done... I've... I've caused Kagome to loose her memories... It's my fault...' Inu-Yasha thought, pained.
"Kikyou, you died for me... all of this time, I thought that the only right decision for me to make was to repay you with my own life..." Inu-Yasha smiled weakly, not looking into her eyes and continued, "But... there's nothing that I can do to change the past and all I can do now is make amends."
(A/N: There's a reason that he's not looking into Kikyou's eyes! She's like Medusa, really! Think about it, when Inu-Yasha looks into her eyes, he loses himself and is basically under her spell, a mere puppet. I got this idea from "Pet shop of Horrors" that manga rox my sox! You should read it! Go Count D! Go Dreizehn!)
Kikyou looked at him in disbelief and asked him, "Inu-Yasha, what are you saying?! You're supposed to go to hell with me, remember?"
Inu-Yasha still kept his eyes averted and replied in a soft voice, "Kikyou, you're no longer the woman I fell in love with so long ago. You left this world, and I feel sorry that you had to re-enter it... You should've rested in peace. You are no more than an empty shell now Kikyou, you don't have the pure soul that I love; you only wander this earth by stealing others' souls."
"What do you mean?! I would have my soul if that wench of yours hadn't taken it from me!" Kikyou hissed.
Inu-Yasha closed his eyes, trying his best to gather himself. It pained him to leave the one woman that he had loved for so long, but he had come to the decision that it what he was now doing was the best thing to do... for Kagome...
"Kikyou, I don't love you anymore... I can only leave you now, with my best regards at hoping that you will find peace and be, once again, laid to rest, never to be bothered again." Inu-Yasha told her in a dry, raspy voice and walked off in the other direction.
It went without saying whom he loves now. Kikyou's heart burned with rage. Up until now, she had him right where she wanted him, and she could have easily dragged him to hell with her. But now his perspective was no longer warped by the dark will of Kikyou, he was finally free of her.
Kagome was a bit confused at the play she watched unfold before her eyes. She then fell to her knees, unintentionally and tears began to pour down her cheeks as the memories of the day she left and was hit by the car flooded into her head. Images of Inu-Yasha and Kikyou flashed though her mind and she remembered the overwhelming feeling of betrayal, sadness, pain, sorrow, guilt, etc.
*FLASHBACK* Kagome walked out of the well, now feeling her legs leaden with guilt, feeling that the suffering her friends felt was due to her being there.
Kagome walked, blinded by her tears, sadness, and anger. 'I wish that I had never met that jerk, Inu-Yasha...' she thought depressed, not seeing the car. *END FLASHBACK*
'So... It was of my own will that I lost my memories...? I want to remember everything else! Everything that happened before that! EVERYTHING!' Kagome thought, angered, as she slammed her fist to the ground and the tears continued to flow.
Kagome stood and whipped her eyes with her sleeve, deciding that crying wasn't going to help regain any memories.
'I guess I should just hope that by spending more time with everyone, something will trigger my memories... I really do hope that I will remember everything...' Kagome thought sadly, yet determinedly, as she walked slowly back to the hut.
She just happened to run into a distraught hanyou on her way back to the hut. She smiled at him, not telling him what she saw or how she had gained the memories of that fated day back. Inu-Yasha was too distracted and in his own thoughts to guess that she'd witnessed or heard anything that had just happened with him and Kikyou. Inu-Yasha blushed as they walked side by side, without either of them speaking, back to Kaede's hut.
When they got back, it was already pretty late (not that it took them long to get there), so everyone was already asleep. Kagome told Inu-Yasha goodnight and he told her the same, as Kagome went to the room with her futon, and Inu-Yasha went in the other direction, where his futon was located.
Kagome slept and her dreams were of Inu-Yasha. Inu-Yasha slept soundly also; his dreams were of the times that him and Kagome had spent together.
Kagome awoke to the aroma of Kaede's cooking around 8 or 9 in the morning. She went over to where Kaede was, since everyone else was asleep.
"Good morning, Kagome. Did you sleep well?" Kaede asked with a warm smile as she stirred the miso soup.
Kagome nodded her head, returning her smile.
"Where were you last night?" Kaede asked (since Kagome had come back kind of late, and it was after everyone else had fallen asleep).
"I... last night, I regained some of my memories..." Kagome whispered, not to wake anyone else up, "I now remember the day that I was hit by the car and I had lost my memories. I still don't remember much... all I remember is that day, sorry..."
"Kagome, ye do not have to apologize. It is a good thing, no, a great thing that you are at least remember SOMETHING. This is a sign of progress... and hope... It must be possible that you can regain your memories." Kaede assured her.
"Thanks..." Kagome replied.
"But... I remembered something important... the reason why I lost my memories in the first place..." Kagome dropped her voice.
'It was of my own free will... I WANTED to forget everything about them... I went through repression- blocking out thoughts about unpleasant things or experiences (forgetting on purpose)...' Kagome thought to herself with a sigh.
(A/N: I had to go through all of my old Health papers to find that word and definition... like I said, I got the idea for this fanfic while in Health class. Our Health teacher told us that this can happen, and in Kagome's case, it's a bit more severe. Normally it would be something like forgetting to do the dishes because it's an unpleasant task or whatever. Kagome, though, went through so much trauma and wanted to forget everything [which turned out to be pretty bad, ne?]. There were even some bad cases where a girl would be raped, and wouldn't even remember what happened that whole day or week or whatever... Sorry for rambling like that...)
"What was it that caused your loss of memories, child? I thought that it was being hit by the car and being in a coma..." Kaede responded.
"Well, I think that has something to do with it also, but none of this would've happened if it weren't for..." Kagome whispered, feeling guilty.
That's the end of the chapter! Sorry if you think that was short. It may look shorter than the last chapter, but it actually has quite a few more words (since chapter 8 had so many conversations in it). PLEASE review! I really didn't get many reviews last time... maybe it's because I made you think that Inu-Yasha chose Kikyou or whatever... well, please tell me what you thought of this chapter! Please? PLEASE?!
Responses to reviews-
Demongirl6381- Anou... It would be loverly (( my word) if you, (when your computer is fixed) could go back and review for the chapters that you haven't reviewed for yet... Sorry about taking long to update ^_^; I really procrastinated, gomen! I will hopefully not have too much homework this week, and I'll try to post again, m'kay? Thanks for reviewing!
Eternal Serena- I'm glad that you didn't get too angry, thinking that Inu- Yasha really had chosen Kikyou (I think some readers may have done that). "tanoshinde kudasai" used together means "have fun". I use that phase a lot with my friend, Lili-chan. I made a 96 on my Spanish exam, and it didn't hurt my average, because it was still a 100 ^_^. I guess I will find out what I made on my Tennis exam and my Health exam soon... Thanks for reviewing!
funmaker- Aww... maybe you will cough up the pocky for me since the Inu- Yasha/ Kikyou scene didn't turn out too bad ^_^. That reminds me... I got some pocky from my friend, Lili-chan in Spanish and my teacher saw it, and thought that it said "Porky" LOL XD XD XD! I thought that it was so funny, especially to see the stumped look on her face! It's grrr8 that you got another review! I am happy for you! Thanks for reviewing!
Gothic Youkai666- Hey, super-silly is cool for you, whereas special is cool for me lol. I took your "... Kagome must regain her memories or heads will roll" threat seriously so I at least gave her a little. Hey, isn't it grrr8 that Inu-Yasha didn't really choose Kikyou over Kagome? ^_^ Hey, good guess on how it would trigger her memories, though! Thanks for reviewing!
Inuyasha-n-Kagome-luva- Thanks for thinking that my story is good ^_^. That makes me feel special. Sorry for making you wait for this chapter... I'll try not to take so long next time... Thanks for reviewing!
ladyhawk89- Really? This story is too awesome ^_^? I feel loved lol. I'll keep up the writing and updating if others will keep up the reviewing ^_^. Thanks for reviewing!
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