Its hard to open my eyes, and I have no idea why. I am trying to figure out where I am

but I cant. I hear the song "I need a girl" playing off somewhere in the distance, but I

can tell its in the same room. I try to sit up from the king sized bed I am lying on but my

body hurts. I feel very stiff and sore. I can feel are from a fan next to me. My hard is

blowing in my face and I cant bring myself to brush it aside. I can only now start to

make out a picture. All I see if white, from the ceiling. I now remember where I am, im

at some Seattle hotel called "The inside". Last night comes back to me. I came here

with someone, some guy I picked up in a bar. Some college student that is about 4 year

younger then I am. I cant remember what he looks like. I lie on the bed for a few hours

until I sit up and look around the room. The floor is coved with I guessing his cloths and

mine. The TV is on mute and the show "Friends" is playing. I look to the night stand

beside me and see two open condom rapers and a clock with big red numbers on it that

read 12:45 pm. I get out of the bed and talk to the bath room, I look down at my sore

body and notice some scares and blood stains on my leg. When in the bath room I look

at myself in the mirror and see there is dried cum in my hair and my top lip was cut and

there is a black line of dried blood. I shower and then sit on the bed, no towel, just

naked and wet, light a cigarette, and take notice the bible half way under the bed. I pull

it out and look am shocked to see that here are some words cut into the outside cover of

it.The cover now reads "Hailey is a Holy Bitch" with the "itch" scratched over the

"ible". I didn't think that the kid would be that smart. I then dress, watch the end of

friends and leave. As I walk down the long hall way trying to find the elevator I look at

the room numbers, the go up, I start at 112, and I end up at 123 before I find the

elevator. On my way down to the lobby I offer some guy in the elevator with me for me

to give him head for $50 and he gives me a 100 dollar bill and then asks me if I have

change and I tell him no. He comes before we get to the lobby. I take his money, he

asked me if he could tell me to dinner. I tell him to go to hell. I buy an apple from a near

by shop, and see a pay phone. I walk over to it and call my sister Kirsten. It rings three

times before she answers her phone. "Hello" I hear. I say nothing. "Hello?" I hear

again. I still say nothing. I can hear Sandy and Seth talking about bagels in the back

round and then I hear a voice I never heard before ask if Seth if he wanted to go the

movies tonight. Kirsten hangs up the phone. I call back. When Kirsten picks up and I

drop the phone can catch taxi. As the taxi drives away I turn and look at the payphone

and see the phone sway, and as the taxi drives on the pay phone gets smaller and

smaller. The driver asks me where to, I tell him Starbucks.