Why is life so hard, why is there a billboard down the street from my apartment that
says "You Can Not Stop This"? What did it mean, why was i thinking about it more
then half the day. I heard the song "I Don't Want To Know" at my friend Jenna's house
and i cant get it out of my mind. I look at myself in the mirror and I start to day dream. I
place my hand on the mirror and the world starts to change around me. I find myself
siting on the steps of my old house. Waiting for My sister to come home from her date
with this guy who I didnt like. I look out the window and see them, siting in his car. I
walk outside, I stand next to this dudes car. My sister rolls down the window and tells
me to get in, now. I dont want to be i can see her arm being held by this man. I open the
door and jump in the back seat. The car smells new, but the back seat is filled with
empty beer cans, half smoked bags of hash, Billy Idol and Pantara cds, and A picture
that has him and his twin brother side by side, beaten, scared, crying. I look at the back
and start to read at the car starts to drive faster and faster from our house. I can only
read a word at a time because it is dark and i can only see with the street lights passing
by. I hear my sister ask where we are going. But thats all that is said. I read the picture,
that says "Brother, its not your I have to do this, it is Dad's. I wanted a better life for
you. I know we always had the money to be happy, but I know as well as you that I think
the money is not worth it. When Dad sees my blood on the floor of his Malabu home he
will remember me forever. Good bye brother. And dont for get, You Can Not Stop This.
The car stops at a red light. The Song "Every Breath You Take" by the police is
playing from the sound system in this car. I don't say a word, we drive for about an
hour. We pull up to this house, looks about 5 floors, is in the middle of a large feild, no
other human contact for miles. I get out of the car with my sister, I try to look into her
eyes but its too dark out. The man tells us to follow him. We do, he leads us into the
house. I ask my sister why are we doing this. She just looks at me, starts to cry, and
then puts her arm around me. We enter a big bed room, white, king sized bed, nothing
else, just a closet door. "Ok, here, and dont look so sad bitch" the man tells my sister.
"hey, you fuck up, dont talk to my sister that way!" I tell him, getting in his face, he
grabs my hair and throws me into the closet door. I fall to my knees. He then grabs my
sister and tells her not to cry for Jimmy's sake. He then starts to take of her Armani
jeans and she lets him. I am on my hands and knees. I wonder why this is happening, i
told my face, warm and swollen from the hit. I get up and I can hear some thing move in
the closet. I flig the door open and all i see is black. The man looks at me and yells for
my to close the door. He walks over to me grabs my neck and tells me to look harder.
He turns on a light in the closet and there are two bodys in clear bags, jung by there
spines, I almost throw up. "Mom and Dad" he said, he throws me to the ground. "You
too have everything, good life, money, and a loving family. I have nothing, i only have
you" he says walking over to my sister. "Why did you let Jimmy come between us?
Why dont I just kill you both?" he starts to rape my sister. I grab a hanger in the closet
and bend it out to make a spear, i run to the man and stab him. He elbos me in the nose.
I fall to my ass, my eyes tearing. No Blood. I don't remember much after that, I start to
pass out, I can hear my sister tells me "Hailey, You Can Not Stop This". Suddenly im
back in my apartment, my handprint on the mirror. I look into my eyes trying to
remember if that really happend. My nose starts to bleed. I keep looking into my eyes
leting the blood flow down my face, and I keep telling myself :Hailey You Can Not Stop
This, Hailey You Can Not Stop This..........