Disclaimer – I don't own FFVIII or the characters in the game, Squaresoft does. I have no money and anything I own is not worth having. This story is fiction.

Warning – male male thoughts, swearing

Rating – R, it will heat up later on

This will be yaoi folks but for now it is shounen-ai, boys liking boys

Dedication – To Shaeric Draconis, I luv you very much! Also Eliza, miss you babe…

Authors Note – sorry this took so long. There were five in our gang, now there is only four, one of us is gone and it's just strange without her being there anymore. Shaeric knows what I'm talking about.

On a lighter note: Thanks to Chandrakan, yeah I luv it when Zell's not so innocent, Zell4eva, It would be interesting to see if someone did read someone's nudge, nudge, wink, wink journal entries, will see what happens, Sun God, Thanks bud glad you like my Rin.

Seifer Almasy Journal

[Tuesday 26th May XXXX Centra – Matron's Orphanage 0410 hours]

[Journal entry # 2]

This will be a quick entry because I'm beat.

Yeah we finally arrived here at Edea and Cid's place and I thank Hyne we did because Rinoa really has something up her hoity toity nose.

I can't even look sideways at her and she's at my throat and get this, Rinoa had a hissy fit with me earlier, fuck knows why but then, she has been this way for awhile.

Hell all I want to do is keep away from her, I mean I wasn't the one that broke up with her. No…it was his royal coldness, the commander. Geez why couldn't she be in his team, I mean it's his mess not mine.

I really have nothing against her, honest, well not honest…more like really chuckles evilly and I tried to ignore her when she kept insulting me, but anything I did was like fuel to the fire because she exploded even more.

Surprisingly Irvine came to my rescue…I would thank him but lets face it smirks that's just not me. I'm a bastard and I've a reputation to keep up, being thankful isn't part of that persona, but secretly I'm grateful.

And speaking of Irvine…he's been checking me out…a lot!

I'm flattered but…I'm not too sure what I think about that, because I like the male anatomy just as much as the females and I thought he was into the ladies anyway but the way he's been checking out my ass I'm beginning to think he likes the males as well.

Heh, he's writing in his journal too, yep obviously we all have to do it. Hang on; I think I'll be nice and speak to him, hey! he's the leader, and it might help me later on if I was nice now.

Did you know Irvine has a nice smile? Never really noticed before and his eyes they are a nice colour, blue with a touch of violet and I won't touch on about his hair…but…he is quite the looker…not sure what it means but I will blame it on me being tired so I will think on it later.

As for the mission, still don't know what the hell is going on, because Matron was speaking in riddles so won't know until we get there and as for Headmaster Cid, he's starting to act a bit macho with Matron, heh, I can just see her clipping his ears for him.

She's quite the looker ol' Matron, shame really that I can only see her as a mother figure and sometimes, don't get your knickers in a twist with this either, sometimes I wonder……What the hell she sees in Headmaster Cid!

But then I'm a bastard chuckles wickedly and well, I'm not into all that lovey dovey crap, no, I'll leave it for the others and as for Rinoa….shrugs I'll just stick close to Irvine, that bitch can keep away from me.

Well I better get some shuteye, big day tomorrow.

[smiles at Irvine] thought I'd make his day…I'll be watching him myself now, see what's going on with him because the last time I looked at him he had a wart on his hip named Selphie. Be interesting to see what's going on.

Check with you later journal…

[Seifer Almasy signing out at 0420 hours]