AN: You missed the episode where Mac's feather died? Seriously though thanks for pointing it out to me, I've corrected the mistakes now.

Part 12: Missing Him

September 5th 2003

Harm never got to meet Jimmy. Early the next morning he got a call to go out on a mission again. He didn't even have time to go and say a proper goodbye to Mac. There was just a message on her voice mail explaining that he had to go away again. She had been sad and disappointed even though she knew he couldn't do anything about it. She couldn't be angry with him directly, so instead his new trade of work got some pretty tough curses thrown at it. Somehow she had to deal with it.

Mac and Bud were sitting in the cafeteria having lunch together.

"Maybe it's time you call Webb?" Bud suggested. He knew how horrible it must be for Mac to not know where he was and he tried to cheer her up somehow.

"Seriously, Bud?" she asked him. 'Did he really think she hadn't tried that one yet?' she thought. "Bud, if I call him one more time asking about Harm he will change his number and move out of the country. He says he doesn't know anything and even if he did he couldn't tell us."

"I guess that's true... I must say I'm so impressed with how you're dealing with this. I know what it's like to work here at JAG and have a baby at home. Harriet has pulled a lot of that at home and now you have this thing with Harm in the CIA on top of that."

"It's all an act," Mac said and tried to joke about it.

"I don't think it is, ma'am. I mean I would have suspected you to totally close down like..." Bud stopped mid-sentence remembering this was a superior officer he was talking to.

"Like I've done in the past," Mac finished Bud's sentence.

"Sorry, ma'am."

"It's the truth."

"Well, at the moment you seem to embrace the world and that seems to be working for you. Harriet and I would love to help you if we can."

"You don't have any more time than I do..." Mac protested.

"We'd make us time."

"I appreciate that," Mac said and smiled gratefully. She really was in no position to say no to help. "You know, I'm sure Harm will call you and Harriet. He's just going through a lot right now."

"He did call and congratulated us on the baby," Bud informed her, but he had also noticed how Harm seemed to be distancing himself from everyone at JAG, well except for Mac.

"I'm glad to hear that," Mac said.

TBC