Disclaimer-I don't own Inuyasha nor the song 'Unwanted' by Avril Lavigne… I have no talent in composing poems and song lyrics of my own. *Shudders* I much prefer writing stories! ^^
A/N- Well, here's the fic that I wrote when I was suppose to write the chapters for 'A Miko's Revenge'. V.V I'm sorry! I hope you enjoy this song fic.
Italics = thoughts
~Italics~ = song lyrics
Let Go
Chapter One
Inuyasha and company arrived back at Kaede-sama's village in the night. It was the day after the new moon. Yesterday, the group had been attacked by two snake youkais; one was ten feet the other twelve feet. And they were only babies! Sango wounded both of them with her Hiraikotsu but they got away, hissing that they'd come back with their elders. Kagome became worried; after all, they nearly killed Inuyasha with their fangs but luckily just bit him on the shoulder. The wound stopped bleeding a while ago, but it was still painful.
"I don't care if they come back! They have jewel shards!" Inuyasha complained while taking care of not hurting his shoulder any worse then it already was.
"Inuyasha, they do not have jewel shards. I asked Kagome-sama already and she says she never sensed jewel shards," Miroku placidly replied. "Besides, you only want to fight because your pride is ruined," he added with a smirk.
Shippou nodded while the two girls of the group laughed. They continued to walk and stopped in front of Kaede's hut.
"Your shoulders' hurt too much anyway. You need to rest!" Kagome said.
"Who says my shoulder hurts too much? Not me!" He replied stubbornly.
"Oh yeah?" Kagome prodded him on his left shoulder wit her index finger. He let out a howl of pain.
She scoffed. "Mmhhmmm, right."
"What did you do that for?!" Inuyasha yelled.
"To prove that you're hurt!"
"So?! Can't you tell that I'm hurt enough?!!!"
The rest of the group sighed in unison. If noone stopped the stupid argument, it would probably continue for another half hour.
"What in the world is going on here? Can't an old woman get her sleep?" Kaede joked as she walked out.
Inuyasha and Kagome shut up at the sight of their beloved friend. She was hobbling on a cane, her right leg as stiff as wood.
"Kaede! What happened?!" Kagome gasped.
"I tripped over a tree root and fell. Child, I'm not as young as you are. I get hurt easily."
Sango smiled. "Come on, let's go inside."
Kaede agreed and hobbled back into her hut. The rest followed, all except Inuyasha.
"Inuyasha? Are you coming in?" Kagome asked, one hand on the bamboo door hanging.
"Later," he replied in a serious tone.
Wonder what's up with him… is he worrying about last night? Kagome pursed her lips and reluctantly stepped inside.
Inuyasha stared at the night sky, not believing what he just saw. Was that a soul-stealer?! A small, spectral white dragon form floated through the sky, carrying with it a soul. It was headed in the direction of the Forest of Inuyasha.
"Kikyou…" he whispered and began to run, ignoring the pain that had came back alive in his shoulder.
"Inuyasha, are you coming…?" Kagome popped her head out again and saw his fleeing figure. Just where does he think he's going?!
She stepped back inside and told everyone that she would be back in a minute. The moment she was out of the hut, she ran after him. Where is he going?!
Suddenly, a white thing floated just out of her vision. She looked up into the sky, and felt her stomach tie into a knot. Soul-stealers…Kikyou's gonna be there… Kagome slowed down to a walk and looked around her. She was still walking on the road that led out of the village and into the forest. I shouldn't go…I know what's gonna happen anyways
She turned around and began to walk back when a horrible thought struck her head. What if she drags him down to Hell again?! Like the first time we met… she bewitched him with a kiss… if it weren't for me being there, Inuyasha would be in the pits of Hell now
That thought made up her mind. She began to run towards the Goshin No Boku, her heart sounding like a jackhammer.
Meanwhile, Inuyasha had already arrived at the Goshin No Boku. He looked at one of the trees' lower branches and found Kikyou there. She laid there, her onyx black hair loose and draped across the branches. Her head turned and faced Inuyasha; a smile broke her calm face.
"Hello, Inuyasha," she murmured and jumped down from the branch with a cat-like grace, her hair floating up amongst her face.
He took a step back. "Why are you here?" he hissed.
Kikyou chuckled and walked towards him, laying a hand onto his face. "I'm not here to drag you down to Hell. I just want to get a few facts straightened up," she said seductively, her hand stroking his face.
He flinched and took her hand, holding it away from him. "What facts? What straightening?" Inuyasha asked, puzzled.
She laughed. "You think I do not know what happened between you and Kagome yesterday night?"
His face burned. Wha…? How does she know?
~*^ Flashback^*~
Before the snake youkais attacked, Inuyasha had been sitting on a low tree branch; he would've gotten onto a higher one if he weren't a human. Sango and Shippou had gone off to fetch some drinking water while the lecherous monk followed after them, a devilish grin on his face. Kagome stayed behind, staring at the dark sky that held no moon in it.
Inuyasha was deep in thought, brooding over the past. Maybe if Kikyou wasn't so kind and forgiving about Onigumo, none of this would have ever happened. But then again, I wouldn't have met Miroku or Sango and Kirara or even Shippou… and Kagome would be in her own time… oblivious of the past and leading a life of her own with her mom, Souta, and grandpa… I wouldn't have met Kagome…
"Hey, Inuyasha?" Kagome called up to him, disrupting his thoughts.
"What?" he asked as he stared down at her. Normally, she didn't bother him when he was thinking about something.
"I-I'm… okay this is going to sound stupid but I was wondering…how does it feel to change from a hanyou to a human once a month?" She was curious, Inuyasha knew that but he didn't know why she was asking this question now. Kagome had plenty of chances before to ask that, yet she never did.
After a moment of silence, she probably thought he said no in his own way, silent and ignoring her. Kagome turned around and began to walk back when Inuyasha called out to her to stop.
"Come up here," he ordered from the branch.
"What?! You expect me to climb the tree?" Kagome exclaimed.
Inuyasha sighed and bit his lip to keep from screaming. He was only about a story off the ground, not too high for her to climb.
"Come up if you want to know."
She sighed. Obviously, Kagome was very curious, for she began to climb up to tree, taking care not to scratch her clothes and skin.
"First you answer my question," he said the moment she got onto the branch.
Kagome was dismayed and began to say so when he silenced her.
"Fine then," she said and gave in.
"Okay, why do you ask that question now? You've had a lot of chances, I mean; well it has been about two years, right? You've had what…24 chances?"
Kagome cocked her head. "Well… its just that by the time I found out you turn human once a month, Shippou had already joined us. And well, it's been awhile since we've been alone together. And like, I figured it would be awkward for you to tell me with Shippou, Miroku, and Sango around," she said.
Inuyasha nodded, and muttered, "Thanks. Yeah, it would've been awkward for me if well… other people were hanging around…"
Kagome smiled brightly. "So, now you answer my question!" she stated with enthusiasm.
Inuyasha raised one of his perfectly arched eyebrows and smiled. "Well, it feels unsettling when you go through it. I mean, I've had it for a long time but it still feels… weird… whenever you go through it. All of a sudden, everything around you becomes a lot less clearer and sharper," he confessed.
She was startled. "Okay, so what you really mean is that you just feel… lost without your heightened senses?"
He nodded. "Well, yeah exactly. And also… well I'm just less aware of everything… y'know like what everyone is doing and… safety…"
"So like, you worry about our safety?! Inuyasha! You shouldn't be so worried! Sango has Kirara there to protect her, not to mention the fact she's an experienced taijiya! And Miroku has his kazaana and abilities he learned! And well, Shippou has all these neat tricks up his sleeves when we're in danger!" Kagome exclaimed.
Inuyasha nodded yet again. "I know that they all are pretty safe being by themselves… but I'm worried about you. I mean, arrows run out of supply sooner or later and your miko powers aren't very dependable except sensing jewel shards if you get what I mean," he muttered as Kagome studied his face.
She smiled after he was done with is explanation. "I-I don't know what to say… I mean all of this comes as a shock and everything…"
Inuyasha's amber eyes twinkled caringly. "It shouldn't come as a shock!" he protested and tilted her chin up, her own eyes staring into his. She hugged him, and whispered something Inuyasha couldn't hear, due to his own feelings surging out of the long, over protected shell.
It was then that they were drawn into a quick, yet deep and emotional kiss.
~*^Flashback End^*~
"You're at a lost of words, aren't you?" Kikyou chided, smiling.
Inuyasha gave her a small glare. "Okay, great, your correct, so what? Why do you need some facts to straighten up?"
She laughed. "My goodness, even though you changed quite a bit, you still are ignorant, aren't you?"
"Just answer my question, how come you need some facts to be straightened up?"
Kagome, by that time, had already arrived by the site and was now hiding behind a few, dense bushes. Her own face had turned a new shade of red. After all, Kikyou knew what had gone on last night. Not even Sango, her most trusted friend, knew.
"Ahhhh, perfect timing," Kikyou said pleasantly. "Come out reincarnation! I know you are there!"
Inuyasha stumbled a few steps away from Kikyou and turned to look at Kagome who had just stepped out of the bushes.
"Ka-Kagome!" he gasped out her name. "What are you doing here?"
"I walked out of Kaede-sama's hut and saw you running towards the forest," she explained.
"Be quiet, the both of you! Now, I must ask my question. Inuyasha, you have sworn to me that you would go down to Hell together with me once you are done battling Naraku. With the pace you are going at, it might be another few years before you have the strength to defeat him. And during those few years, you and Kagome will become even closer, am I not right?" Kikyou stated.
Inuyasha and Kagome didn't argue back. So maybe she's right…
"I was wondering, who do you love more Inuyasha? Kagome, the wretched, false copy of me or I?"
"Wait, you expect me to answer that question in front of Kagome?!" he exclaimed.
Kagome had gone silent. I know what the answer is. I know why he wont say it in front of me. Hatred that had filled her since the first time these meetings occurred (Episodes 22-23) suddenly erupted and burst out of the vault she had tried to contain them within.
"Inuyasha, just say the answer! I know you're going to choose Kikyou! You always have and you always will!" she yelled, startling him while Kikyou smiled. "Besides, I'll always be second compared to her in your eyes," she bitterly said in a lower tone.
"What?!" he yelled, close to a shriek. How long has she kept those feelings in?
"You can have her, Inuyasha. I'm sick and tired of these games we play. First, you're so kind and caring and the minute I turn around, you're with someone else!" she whispered with malice.
Kagome turned around and ran blindly through the dark forest towards the village.
"Wait! Kagome, come back!" he yelled after her, but it was no use. Her figure had disappeared.
Inuyasha turned to face Kikyou, his expression un-readable.
"So what's the answer?" she asked amusingly.
His reply was lost in the sudden wind that picked up, along with Kikyou's reaction.
Kagome had ran, ran until all the different feelings she had at the time wore out from being tired. She stopped running and leaned against a tree, panting as her sides gave off sharp pains that felt like knives.
~All that I did was walk over,
start off by shaking your hands,
that's how it went
I had a smile on my face
And I sat up straight~Yeah right, I wish Kagome thought as the familiar lyrics ran through her head. She had listened to the song for a week straight a few months ago. When we first met, he tried to attack me to steal the Shikon No Tama. But he's changed now…
~Oh ya ya
I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you~
She hummed as she began to walk again, but as slow as a turtle. I did want to know him. He was just so fascinating and interesting… I wanted to show him how much I love him
~You don't know me
Don't ignore me
You don't want me there
You just shut me out
You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me up
Make me go away~He knew next to nothing about her! She just realized that. Sure, he knows my family, the way I live my life, my time but yet he knows nothing personal about me! Back there at the Goshin No Boku, he certainly didn't want me there. Well, for once I let him have his way. I went away, leaving him to Kikyou
She sighed as silent tears ran down her face. Kagome stopped walking and leaned against a tree, taking in where she was. She was on the outskirts of the village, but at this time at night, noone would be up and noone would seen her.
~No I just don't understand why you
Won't talk to me It hurts that I'm
So unwanted for nothing don't
Talk words against me~
Whenever he met with Kikyou, afterwards he wouldn't say a thing to her, except his eyes that revealed everything that had happened. He didn't want her, yet she didn't understand why.
~I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you~She definitely wanted to know him. Now she wasn't so sure, both about wanting to know him and showing him how deep she cared for him.
~I tried to belong It didn't seem wrong
My head aches It's been so long I'll
Write the song it that's what it take~
There was the time with her dressing up in miko clothing; he had been completely bummed out. And ironically, she was developing a headache right now. Now she understood why Avril Lavigne wrote the song even though it hurt so much.
Inuyasha, wherever you are, I regret ever meeting you~*^*~
A/N- 2,531 words!!! *Faints with shock* Even without all the A/N and disclaimer and chapter and title words, its 2,531!!! Whoa! That's the most I ever wrote! SO don't expect the next chapter to be that long. Please review! Tomorrow's my birthday! Give me a review as a present! ^^