For the last time I don't own the ronins… I don't own the ronins… But if I did… I'd go crazy and never let it die out… I swear if I owned them, it would last longer than Friends… I swear on Gimli's bearded chin… If I owned them… I'd make them great… Okay… I'm done… I'll just keep on writing.

Enya turned her head in her sleep. She closed her hand around Rowen's. He shifted, but did not wake up. She shifted even more.

"The day has never been there for me, the light has never sided on my part," echoed in her dream. "Luck?… Luck never had anything to do with this… Destiny, nothing but false… No one runs your life except for yourself. I've learned to live happily, at least that's how it appears, but in reality… I'm deteriorating… Slowly and painfully. Watching the randomness of the fate that I'm said to have… What if I could go back and change everything… It's a hard decision, but I'd give up anything just to see my brother… Anything just to know the structure of his face… See his smile…" it went on, "as the road of success turns down my way, it proposes treachery and deceit… My world is crushed and turned upside down and my place in the world is already set in stone never to be removed…"

Enya's eyes snapped open and she shot up gasping. Rowen and Sage both awoke in surprise… Kagimi had left the room to go to the bathroom. She held her throat and looked up.

"No…" she said as she grabbed the I.V.s and pulled them out. They looked to her in surprise. She slid off of the bed and started walking toward the window, the sheets still around her. "I refuse to give up… I refuse to let my existence be planned out and something tell me, control me… I won't let anything take over my being… I am my only owner… I won't let anyone control my life," she said as she stopped in front of the window. "Nothing will get in my way," she said as she turned to them. A wind picked up and blew her shoulder length hair around. They stared at her in amazement.

She slid down the wall and sat there… "I want…" she started. She pulled her knees to her chest and placed her forehead upon her knees. She sobbed… "I just want to know what things look like… I want to be able to defend myself, and walk down a street alone," she said. "I don't want better hearing, all I ever hear is criticism… I don't want better smell, all I smell is smoke, alcohol, and other putrid stenches… I don't want a better sense of touch, it just hurts to much," she cried.

"I want… I want… I want so much," she told herself, "all I ever say or think is I want!"

Rowen stepped to her and placed a hand on her shoulder. He wrapped the blanket around her shivering body. "Rowen… Why did this happen," she asked as she closed her eye. "Why did mother have to die, why am I with father… He tried to kill me… He stabbed me in the stomach and put me on top of the kitchen table… He said something, but I don't know what, it was slurred and disrupted by the sound of glass crashing … I heard him start to throw papers everywhere… He came to me and spoke into my ear. He called mom a bitch, a whore… Everything… He said if he could, every day he would go out and piss on her grave… I don't know if it was just the alcohol, but either way… It still hurt to hear that from him," she explained.

"He kept screaming that it was my fault that…" she started with a sob… "he kept on screaming that it was my fault… My fault that mom is dead… It's my fault!"

"No…" Rowen said as he hugged her. "it's not your fault," he said as he placed his forehead on her shoulder.

"No!… I was yelling at mom… She wouldn't answer me… I asked her why we were going to father's… She wouldn't tell me," she explained. "If I hadn't been yelling, she wouldn't have hit the guard rail… If I had just shut up… She would still be alive and I wouldn't be here in the hospital and I could be a regular girl," she explained. "I'm the one to blame… It was me… I killed mother," she cried.

"No!… Stop it… You did not kill mom," he yelled slightly. "Enya… You can never predict these things," he explained. "It's not your fault," he said softly.

She closed her eyes and hugged him tightly. He stared down at her and was surprised to see no tears in her eyes. She was trembling terribly, though. She pushed away and leaned her head against the wall.

She began to remember the incident. She held her eyes as she remembered the pain that stung immensely… She touched her head and placed her hands on her ears as she heard all the crashes and the shattering of glass, and the scream of her mother being cut short. She leaned her head back with her hands still over her ears. She remembered the smell of the blood on her shirt as the people laid her on a stretcher. She remembered the sound of yelling people… and the paramedic say that the woman was dead… Her head crushed. She covered her head completely and forced her head down.

Rowen looked to her in terror. Sage ran over to them. "Rowen," he said. Rowen looked to him, not knowing what was wrong.

She threw her head back and looked up. "Uh… Uaaaaaaahhhhhh," she cried aloud in mourning. She covered her face and continued to cry, crimson rolling down her cheeks. Rowen grabbed her and held her in a hug.

"Enya…" he yelled, tears running down his own cheeks. "Please… Don't cry… Nothing is your fault… Absolutely nothing is your fault… Believe me… Believe me you're not alone," he explained as he brought her close to him in a hug. "I'm here now… You don't need to cry anymore… I'll always be here!"

After an hour, Enya had fallen asleep in Rowen's arms. He sighed and stared down at her soft face, covered with crimson. He looked to Sage who was still awake. "Sage… He whispered. Sage looked up to him and smiled.

"What is it," he whispered. Rowen took his sleeve and wiped her face.

"Are red tears normal," he asked.

"I'm not quite sure actually," Sage shrugged. Rowen nodded once and looked back to her. "should we put her back in the bed," Sage asked. Rowen nodded and gently lifted her up. He placed her atop the bed and covered her.

Sage looked around. "Hey…" he said, "where's Kagimi?!"

Rowen looked up and stared at him. "Where is she," he asked. "I'm sure after that yell she would have come running in, but she never showed up…" he explained as he looked out the window.

"I'll go see if I can find her," Sage said as he headed for the door. He looked back to Rowen and nodded. He opened the door slowly and turned his head with his eyes closed. He stepped out of the room and closed the door behind him. He opened his eyes as the door clicked shut. He stopped dead in his tracks.

He looked around as the hospital walls were covered in blood. The bodies of people lying on the floor. Strangely they were all mostly men. He was so horrified at the massacre in front of him, he couldn't blink. He couldn't move at all. "Wh-what…" he managed to squeak aloud as he trembled slightly.

Something like a shadow flew over the walls and flew to the ceiling. It was heading for him at full speed, but stopped for a second. Sage looked down slightly and noticed Kagimi. His eyes widened as he saw the shadow sweep down and a giant black hand reached down quickly for her head. "No…" he shouted as he blinked.

He opened his eyes and everything was normal. "What the hell," he said. "Oh my god, what just happened," he asked an invisible person. He looked up and spotted Kagimi. She was standing at a window and staring outside. "Hey…" he called to her. She looked up to him and smiled.

"Sup Sage," she said as she raised a hand in greeting. He walked over while looking around still. "What's wrong… You're pale… Are you feeling well… Is Enya okay" she asked. He stared at her and nodded.

"Yeah… I'm okay and she is too… She just kinda had a break down, but she's fine," he explained as he turned. "Where have you been…" he asked her.

"Huh… Oh… Mom called from home and I stepped outside to talk to her," she explained. He nodded and headed for the room. He looked at the doorknob and hesitated, remembering the whole image that had appeared after he had left the room. He would have to tell Rowen and the others later.

Kagimi and Sage walked in after a few moments. Enya was awake and talking to Rowen. Kagimi walked up to Enya and placed a hand on hers. "You okay," she asked. Enya smiled and nodded. Rowen looked up to her and nodded. Enya sighed and looked to Rowen.

"I wonder… Where father ran off to," she said. Rowen looked to her and touched her hand. "Where am I going to live…" she asked.

"You can live with us… If Mia doesn't mind," Rowen said as he looked to Sage. Enya smiled.

"I'd like that… I wanna meet all your friends and… See if you're still hard to wake up," she giggled. She sat up and placed her feet on the ground and had the blanket draped over her shoulders.

"Ha ha…" Rowen smiled as he held her shoulder. She smiled to him and laid her head against his chest. Kagimi looked to him and held up some clothes. "Mom dropped off some clothes that Enya left at our house in case of emergency," Kagimi smiled.

"Thanks," Enya said.

That day she was able to leave the hospital. She sighed and Rowen led her out of the hospital after getting permission from Mia. "Hello," Mia greeted… "it's nice to meet you." Enya nodded and smiled.

"Thank you Ms. Koji," Enya said as she bowed. Mia smiled and opened the door.

"Please… Just call me Mia," she said as Rowen helped Enya into the car. Enya nodded to where she remembered her voice. Mia was amazed that Enya knew where to nod.

"Hi… My name's Ryo," she heard from behind. She heard the creeking and squeaking of springs from someone shifting on a car's back seat.

"It's nice to meet you Ryo," she said as she buckled her seat belt. She heard him shift again and she sighed. Rowen sat behind her and Sage sat in the middle… Like he usually did. "Hey… How many friends do you have," Enya asked Rowen.

He smiled and thought… "A bunch," he finally said. She smiled and sighed. He placed a hand on her shoulder. "And you get to meet most of them," he said with a smile.

"Hm…okay," she smiled softly. Mia climbed in the driver's seat and turned the car on. "Are you hungry," Mia asked.

"Only a little bit," Enya replied. She closed her eyes and managed to lean her elbow on the window frame. She placed her hand in her palm and continued to think. "I wonder what Rowen's friends are like," she wondered. "I bet they're all guys," she smiled to herself. "Mia… May I open the window," Enya asked.

"Sure," Mia smiled. Enya pressed the button and the window rolled down slowly. The wind picked up and blew all around her. Her heavy sweatshirt was being tugged slightly, as if telling her to come every which way. She smiled and sighed as the wind hit her face. She placed her hand out the window and let the cool air run through her fingers and gracefully in cascades swooped across her hand.

They decided to stop for a bit to get something to eat. "She seems so frail," Ryo thought as he watched her walk softly next to Rowen. She held onto Rowen tightly as if he were the only thing there that could possibly keep her safe and out of danger. But Ryo already noticed, that when she's determined or angry, she gets the same as Rowen, but a little more fierce.

He smiled as he shrugged it off. They sat down and began to eat over small conversations.

"Finally… I'm reunited with my brother," she smiled to herself.

Yo… I guess this is the third chapter… I'm starting to lose sight of this story, but I'll find it again… I am gonna actually finish this story. I swear on Gorny's stuble… I will finish!!!!