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A/N: T.T So sorry my lovely reviewers. I have those annoying little p signs all over the place. xx; But I was afraid it'd mess up the writing and it might be one big paragraph if I didn't, because I saved it as HTML and paragraph signs are HTML and all that but… bla. THANKS FOR THE REVIEWS. ^^ I LOVE YOU. I was so happy, I humped my sister's bed hard, and my dog saw me and came to join the fun. XDDD; Bai, for now. OH. WAIT. o YUKI-FANS. Here is your adorable fic. ^^ I really wanna put Ayame in this fic right now. Ayame and Shigure… Speaking of which, I haven't put Shi in here at all. O.o I should sometime. It just isn't complete, a story without a Shi-chaaaaan. ^^ Bai again.
A young boy stood in the corner of a dark room. His kimono was torn and lightly tainted with blood. His ashen hair fell over his face, violet eyes glassy with tears he wouldn't let fall. His skin was pale, even in the veil of black covering him and he was rather thin.
"Why are you doing this, Akito? This doesn't help anyone. This won't solve any of our problems." he said, voice shaking slightly. He sat on his knees, bent over so he was looking down at his lap. He had a death grip on his clothes.
Another slightly taller boy sat, holding a fine whip within his slender fingers. He looked a bit gangly compared to the other boy, being taller and even scrawnier than him. He had the same hair-cut, but it was dark and almost black looking. "Oh, but Cousin, it does. It makes me feel so much better, and it let's you know who's master." His face was wry and made him look evil, and even more sickly.
The taller boy whipped the other, leaving painful welts all over him. The ash-haired boy dare not make a sound. He had learned crying would only make it worse
The sound the whip cutting the air and the loud cracking sound of leather hitting flesh filled the eerie silence of the Sohma's mainhouse. The shorter boy finally broke, yelling in anguish. The black haired boy looked pleased with himself.
"No one will ever accept you, you disgrace. You're not made for interacting with anyone, ever." he spat, taking the whip and tying it up carefully.
With a malicious smile on his face, he walked towards the sliding door. "Have a nice day, Yuki…"
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*Today is a Saturday, in my fic.
Yuki sat in his room. It was pitch-black, and the door was locked. He had been up all night. Yuki remembered that day, with Akito. Those words had been scarred into his skin, literally. He could never forget. He bet he couldn't even forget if Hatori brainwashed him.
If you want to sleep I'll pull the shade
If you should vanish I'm sure to fade
He felt so stupid to ever think he had a chance with people. He hated himself so much. He had loved her, Tohru. He'd do anything for her. He'd die for her. He'd kill everyone in the world if she wanted it. Not that she ever would. She's too sweet.
If you should smolder I'll breathe in your smoke
If you should giggle
I'll smile and pretend that I made the joke
Yuki always had a fondness for gardens, with their simple beauty, and grace. They were also a symbol of hope to him. Flowers died, but they always left their seeds behind and started life over again, and even when the winters were harsh and could, they somehow always came back and were there in the spring. No any how many times it was smashed, killed, beaten, pulled out or burnt it always came through. That and the vegetables were why he loved gardens. He had one special garden though, and it wasn't his secret garden.
And if you should ever leave me I will crumble
That's just the way I am
It was his Garden of Eden.
I hope you never leave me
That is to say
His Garden of Eden was… Tohru. Like a flower, she always survived and like the Garden of Eden, she was heavenly. But when he had seen her so happy with Kyo, touching Kyo, smiling for Kyo, with her sunny smile that destroyed any sorrow he felt… It hurt so badly. He'd never seen her do that for him. Yuki felt like he had been kicked out from the Garden of Eden.
If you should sink I don't want to swim
If you lock the door I'll beg to come in
It felt like Akito had won. Like he had been right all along and was laughing at him in his own dark room. To him, Tohru showed that people would except him. That people truly, and deeply, would love him like she seemed to. With that idea in mind, he was more open to people. More genuine in his kindness and happiness. But he had been a fool to think that.
If you should sing I won't make a sound
If you should fly I'll curse the ground
If she couldn't love him like that, no one could. No one could fully accept him like she did. Yuki felt so stupid, and he opposed stupid people.
And if you should ever leave me
I will crumble
Yuki reached under his mattress and pulled something shiny out from under if. It glistened in the darkness. It was a steak knife. Yuki looked at his reflection in it.
That's just the way I am
A weary young man looked back at him, aged beyond what his reflection showed. He was tired of the Sohma curse. So very tired.
I hope you never leave me
That is to say
He ran the knife along his wrist in three different locations, thin lines of crimson appearing. Brows furrowed and eyes closed, he took in the pain. He felt so foolish. The ignorant need punishments.
The blood dripped down his palm. He licked the blood off of his hand and then the cut, causing a small burning sensation. It continued bleeding. He'd need a bandage. He got up slowly and went to the door.
If you're an explosion I won't search for shelter
If you're the sun I'll sit here and swelter
He turned sharply in the hall, and bumped into Tohru, who's view had been obstructed by a basket of clean clothes. Tohru fell onto the ground dropping the clothes.
"Honda-san, I'm sorry!" Yuki said he said, quickly helping her up, kneeling down and folding the scattered clothes. He didn't look up at her the entire time.
If you're the moon I'll stay up all night
If you're a ghost I'll be haunted for life
She smiled. "It's okay, Sohma-kun." Tohru reached out to grab a shirt when she noticed a wet red substance on the hand Sohma-kun had helped her up with. She looked to his hands and noticed on his left hand there were three cuts. He stopped picking up clothes when he noticed her staring. "Honda-san… what's wrong?" Yuki asked.
And if you should ever leave me
I will crumble
She dropped to her knees and grabbed his hand, looking at his inner arm. Tohru looked worriedly up at him. "Sohma-kun… You're hurt." She gave his hand a quick squeeze and slowly pulled him up so he stood. Instinctively, she dragged him to the toilet to get him some bandages, being gentle on his injured arm.
That's just the way I am
I hope you never leave me
Yuki hung his head low and sat on the (closed) toilet, awaiting treatment. He looked and felt like a helpless child. He glanced back at his arm. The cut closest to his hand was still bleeding. Tohru rubbed alcohol on his arm, looking extremely worried. "Yuki-kun… How did you hurt your arm?" She asked, whilst wrapping bandages around his arm.
That is to say
I will crumble
Kyo walked through the doorway into the hall, toothbrush in his mouth, towel on his shoulder, but stopped to eavesdrop.
Yuki tried to make his voice work but couldn't. He succeeded on his second try. "I… cut."
I will crumble…
She felt her heart sink at that. How long had this been going on? She looked at her arm again. There were pale, pale, scars that blended smoothly into Yuki's pale skin, at least to the untrained eye. "Oh, Yuki… the top one won't stop bleeding… Why Yuki? Please tell me why you're so upset… Was it because of me?! I'm so sorry!" She could feel the tears in her eyes pool, and did everything she could to stop them from dropping. "I want to help, Yuki."
I will crumble…
He folded his hands loosely and set them between his legs. "Sort of… I saw you. And Kyo. And I realized who you had… chosen… I love you." He broke off there. Tohru looked at him seriously. Maybe right now was the time. But she didn't like the idea of him being even more sad but… She had to.
I will crumble…
Kyo walked silently over to hear better and was shortly joined by Shigure, whom was wondering where breakfast was, and about to make some smart-ass comment on eavesdropping before Kyo put a hand to his mouth.
She sighed, and let the tears fall freely. "Yuki-kun… I love you so much. You've been so kind to me, letting me live with you, helping me with my own problems… But I just can imagine myself more with Kyo, that's all… I'm not even sure he likes me the same way… I wish I could have you both, but that'd kill him, and you…" She entwined her fingers with his, put his to her lips and sat there like that for a moment. 'God, what am I doing crying… You're the one who needs love." She said, smiling sadly at him. Tohru lifted his chin so he'd finally look up.
"You are loved. There are people out there who love you too. You have friends. You're so kind, and smart. You have Shigure…" Shigure appeared at the door on cue, smiling. "…Kyo-kun… --well, maybe not, but you two have seemed a bit nicer to each other since I first saw you fight--" Kyo appeared at the door, looking pissed off that his cover had been blown by Shigure. "He's no friend of mine…" murmured Kyo. "…and me." finished Tohru. Yuki looked into her soft brown eyes and smiled. A genuine smile. "Thanks…" he murmured, getting up.
Kyo looked to Shigure. "Go call Hatori, Yuki's arm won't stop bleeding." Yuki looked utterly surprised. Kyo glared down at him. "Only I can hurt you, damn it! And I don't want to fight some ass who's bleeding half to death." he snarled.
Yuki got up. No. It would be okay. He would just find someone else. There were so many girls at his school. He didn't know all of them. There could be one must as nice as Tohru. And Akito was wrong. He had wonderful friends and could get more if he wanted to.
"Tohru…" said Yuki quietly.
"Hm?" she asked, perking up.
"Let's not ever do that again." he said, smiling.
Tohru laughed and smiled at him. "C'mon, you look like you haven't slept all night. Lets get you breakfast and then you're going straight to bed…"
"Gladly…" Yuki murmured. The foursome walked to the kitchen in lighter spirits.
If you want to sleep I'll pull the shade
If you should vanish I'm sure to fade
If you should smolder I'll breathe in your smoke
If you should giggle
I'll smile and pretend that I made the joke
And if you should ever leave me
I will crumble
That's just the way I am
I hope you never leave me
That is to say
If you should sink I don't want to swim
If you lock the door I'll beg to come in
If you should sing I won't make a sound
If you should fly I'll curse the ground
And if you should ever leave me
I will crumble
That's just the way I am
I hope you never leave me
That is to say
If you're an explosion I won't search for shelter
If you're the sun I'll sit here and swelter
If you're the moon I'll stay up all night
If you're a ghost I'll be haunted for life
And if you should ever leave me
I will crumble
That's just the way I am
I hope you never leave me
That is to say I will crumble
A/N: T.T So sorry my lovely reviewers. I have those annoying little p signs all over the place in chapter 2. xx; But I was afraid it'd mess up the writing and it might be one big paragraph if I didn't, because I saved it as HTML and paragraph signs are HTML and all that but… bla. THANKS FOR THE REVIEWS. ^^ I LOVE YOU. I was so happy, I humped my sister's bed hard, and my dog saw me and came to join the fun. XDDD; Bai, for now. OH. WAIT. o YUKI-FANS. Here is your adorable fic. ^^ I really wanna put Ayame in this fic right now. Ayame and Shigure… Speaking of which, I haven't put Shi in here at all. O.o I should sometime. It just isn't complete, a story without a Shi-chaaaaan. ^^ Bai again. This chapter was cute but evil. Oh. You shall find Yuki's secret lover in the next chapter, I PROOOOMISE. ^^