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A/N: I know a lot of
you have been asking for longer chapters. Hopefully part 4 was longer for you. I know this chapter I will try to
make a long one. Thanks to all of my
great and continuing reviewers.
Also special thanks to my boyfriend for listening endlessly
to my ramblings about the story. Also a
special shout out of thanks to Xanthia Morgan for offering to beta read this
for me. You're the best.
Now with out further ado since you've all been so wonderful
while waiting chapter 5…
Last time in
chapter 4….
"Hedwig are
you up to doing a favor for me?" In answer to Sirius' question, the snowy owl
jumped over to the desk and hooted softly while sticking out her leg. Sirius
tied the letter and whispered to Hedwig. She took off out of the window and
into the night. Sirius then turned his attention back to his godson. He watched
once again as Harry twisted and turned back and forth in his bed plagued by
another nightmare.
"My boy, my poor
boy," Hedwig lamented as she soared above the treetops. "I
can't believe I actually took off so quickly while he is back there all
alone. He needs to see someone who
cares about him when he awakens afraid…wait he's not alone. That man Sirius is
with him. My boy trusts him with his life and that is good enough for me. Still
I want to get back to them as soon as I can.
"I know my boy has nightmares. Ever since I have been his post owl he has awoken many nights. Never quite as severe as this summer however, I have never seen him sleep while at school. I am with the other post owls in the owlery.
"They always
talk of him as the boy who lived… I often question in my mind the boy who lived
through what? What kind of life does he have now? I know he is fine while at
school but here during the summer… the only one close enough for him to touch
is myself. His family hates everything
he stands for. It's hard enough with
what is on his shoulders without them making it worse for him. They don't care.
They let him go on the way he is for weeks…then again so have I. I am supposed
to be his friend in this lonely time and yet all I did was return from my
hunting early when I realized there was a problem. I'll never forget that first night I came back early since the
fog had gotten too thick for me to see my prey through."
FLASH BACK
"Noooooooooooo."
Harry cried out as he woke from a nightmare. He was shaking and he was covered in sweat. He placed his head on his arms. He didn't realize the eyes of
his snowy white owl were on him. He just stayed where he was in the bed rocking
himself back and forth trying to shake the images from his mind. The eyes followed every move. They were
watching for the sign that meant trouble but that sign of the boy's hand moving
to the lightning shaped scar on his forehead never came. So she just watched
silently ready to fly out with a message if needed. She heard him talking to
himself….
"I'm sorry
Cedric…I'm so sorry. If I had known what would've happened. I wouldn't have let
you touch that cup. I'm sorry."
END FLASH BACK
" It was that
night that I resolved to come back early every night. I'm just glad that he finally asked me if it was a dream or not
and that I didn't have to nip him hard to get my point across to write to
someone. At least it wasn't a fight.
All I had to do was fly there and wait for him to go to his desk. Once he
picked up his quill I knew that he would finish it and send me to someone. I
was relieved when he wrote that letter. I knew that some form of help would
come to him. It's better even than I had expected. I thought for sure it would
just be a reply strapped to my leg but it was more. When I landed back at the
Dursley's, Harry was not in his room but as soon as he heard the tapping I'll
never forget the look of relief that came to his face. It was like the weight
he had been carrying for so long had been lifted from his shoulders somewhat.
Then when he read it he relaxed some more but he seemed to be nervous but happy
at the same time. I was happy that the
reply had been something good for him.
"I know I may sound repetitious but the sooner this letter gets to it's addressee the sooner I can get a reply and even more help for my boy. I hope he is all right. Sirius seems to make him go to sleep I don't like him forcing my boy to sleep just so that man can see what is going on. I'm glad to have something to do though, if I had to sit there I would surely have started losing my feathers from pulling them out because I worry so.
"Now it's
starting to get foggy. Oh please be kind to me tonight! I want to deliver this
message as soon as possible but if the fog gets much worse I am going to have
to land and wait it out. It wouldn't do to get myself killed. Not when my boy
needs me. I'll try flying for a bit
more, at least get a quarter of the way to my destination. I must! Oh, please,
powers that be, let the fog not be so dense. My boy needs me to get this through, don't you even care? No, of course
you don't. Otherwise his life would be much different. Or would it? Listen to
me, I sound like my mother… or is that everybody's mother? That aunt of his is
a prime example of a mother when it comes to her own son. She does it
naturally. But when it comes to my boy she couldn't care if he was raging with
fever. I mean she let him go on like
this with out so much as an 'are you all right?'. Really people
can be so cruel.
"Oh no! The
fog is getting so dense! Maybe just a few more minutes…think Hedwig you stupid
girl! You can't even see three feet in front of your own beak. There is a tree over there. I'm so sorry,
my boy, but I am going to have to land here and wait out the fog. I don't like
doing this but I don't have a choice and you are in good hands. I won't stay
longer than I have to… I hope you are alright my boy."
Meanwhile, back
on Privet Drive Harry had woken yet again. But since it wasn't light out yet
Sirius had him try to go back to sleep after telling him about the dream.
Sirius had taken a leaf out of Dumbledore's book by letting Harry talk about it
before anything else. It helped calm
him down and let Sirius know exactly what was going on. Sirius had sat by in
the chair all night and dozed while Harry was sleeping. He had been woken five times by Harry's
waking up shaking and even crying sometimes. Even though Harry knew by Sirius's
telling him over and over again that Cedric's death was not his fault, the
dreams still had not ceased. Harry was starting to feel horrible, but this he
kept to himself. Sirius didn't need to know that right now. He had enough to
worry about.
Harry awoke
again but this time from a shrill yell from downstairs.
" Harry Potter
you lazy boy get up and down here this instant." Harry groaned as he got out of
bed. Sirius's head had popped out from thin air and looked groggily at his
godson.
" Aunt Petunia,
if I don't get down there now I don't want to think about what might
happen. You can stay here if you want.
Under my bed there is a loose floorboard with cake in it from my birthday. Help
yourself." Harry said quickly and in a hushed voice.
" Harry Potter
do you hear me? Get down here NOW!!" his aunt's voice had gone up a few notches
and was very shrill. Harry turned back to look at Sirius.
" Don't worry
about me, thanks. I'll be fine. Besides even when I leave the room they won't
see me." His godfather answered tiredly. After Harry left the room and closed the door Sirius looked in the
mirror. 'Good thing this is a muggle mirror otherwise it would have had a
screaming fit' he thought amusedly. Then his thoughts turned to the boy who
had just left the room. ' Oh James…he's so like you. He never wants anyone to worry about him.
I'm just glad the good sense that must have come from his mother finally kicked
in.' He thought turning away from the mirror. He sat down on the floor to stick his hand under the bed for the
loose floorboard. Finding it he pulled it up and peeked in. He took a chunk of
cake from its hiding place and put the floorboard back.
At that moment his godson was downstairs just looking at the breakfast before him. His stomach gave a small lurch he just couldn't bring himself to eat this morning. After all the dreams last night he just didn't have the stomach to eat this morning. Dudley's piggy eyes were darting over at his cousin's plate. Harry didn't make a move and as quick as Dudley's piggy hands could stole Harry's breakfast. Aunt Petunia said nothing.
" Well boy,
since you are done eating why don't you get started on your chores for today."
His uncle Vernon said not as a question but as a statement. He then looked at
Harry as if daring him to say something smart-alecky back to him. A moment passed and since Harry said nothing
Vernon continued one of his normal complaints about his nephew " Well don't
just sit there and stare boy get to it."
Harry went over to the fridge where his daily chores were
listed and tore the piece of paper from the fridge. It read as follows.
Harry's list of chores for today and they better be done to
perfection or else…
1. Mow the lawn
2. Trim the hedges
3. Weed then water the garden
4. Paint the fence
Harry folded
the list and headed out the door. He
went to the shed that just hours before he had first talked with his godfather
to get out the mower. He started the
mowing. Even though Sirius was there he couldn't do anything really to help
Harry out of this, Harry knew he wanted to or at least would want to when he
found out.
The mowing didn't take that long, it never
did. He was also able to trim the
hedges before Dudley could come out and bother him. His cousin was one of the biggest couch potatoes that Harry
knew. He was busy cleaning up the
branches when someone goosed him under the arms. Harry jumped and turned around
but found no one there. The look of momentary confusion on his face sent the
cloaked form into hysterical laughter. Realization dawned on Harry.
"Ha..ha very funny." Harry said a bit
grumpily but with a small smile on his face. He was answered by thin air that said while still laughing
" Oh Harry it was hysterical just to see
your face that way." Harry just looked to where the voice came from and
grinned.
" Okay you got me. Don't expect for it to happen again." Harry
said still with a smile as he turned back to finish picking up the fallen
branches from his cuttings.
" You need any help?" Sirius asked from
behind him. Harry would've loved to
have some help especially with how he was feeling at the moment.
" Sirius you know as well as I do that if
anyone saw things moving without anyone behind it they would find it odd. Not to mention that if Aunt Petunia or
Dudley saw it they would have a conniption fit and tell Uncle Vernon. But you can keep me company." Harry said looking around to the possible
place where his godfather was. He then
turned again to dump the branches in the bin. Harry was now sitting down to weed the garden.
" You know I don't really understand why
she wants the garden weeded twice a week. I mean really how fast can weeds
grow?" Harry complained. Sirius had
opened his mouth to reply when they heard the screen door slam and they both
saw Dudley waddling out.
" Talking to yourself Harry? Don't you
know what that means? No…well it means that you're crazy. But that should be
nothing new dad always says you are." Dudley said sitting down eating an ice
pop. He just stared at Harry with his greedy eyes daring for Harry to say
something. Harry however just continued to weed the lawn. Harry was hoping that by ignoring his
humongous cousin that he would get board and go away. Sure enough when Dudley finished his ice pop he looked at Harry
and saw that the boy was still weeding and not paying attention to him at all.
Dudley proceeded then to get up and started waddling towards the house but saw
a rock lying in the dust by his feet. Before Harry knew it he had been hit in
the face with a rock. Dudley then ran
or rather walked as fast as he could into the house. Just incase Harry should
dare complain Dudley could just say that Harry is lying since he was in the
house. He knew Petunia would believe him over Harry.
"Harry are you alright?" Sirius said
after Dudley was out of view. Harry had brought his hand up to his face rubbing
the spot where the rock had hit and just nodded yes. The rock had missed his
glasses by mere inches. He only had to
pull out one more weed and he'd be finished with it. He then stood and fell back to the ground. Harry felt hands on
his shoulders.
" Harry that rock did hurt you didn't
it?" The voice said moving his hands from Harry's shoulder to his godson's
face. Harry shook his head no and wished he hadn't he was feeling very dizzy.
" No it's not the rock." Harry started to
say then he knew he had to tell some of the truth. " It's just that I got dizzy. I'm okay now." He said trying to
convince, though he was no longer certain of weather he was trying to convince
Sirius or himself.
" Harry…." Sirius started out sternly but
Harry cut him off.
" If I don't finish before Uncle Vernon
gets home I'm afraid that you might actually become guilty of murder. When
Uncle Vernon gets stuck on something especially when it has to do with me it
usually winds up…" Harry stopped suddenly he had never mentioned how it could
really be before to Sirius and was afraid of a stern talking to later that
evening in his room.
"Winds up what? Harry. Please tell me."
Sirius said from somewhere next to him.
" Hitting me." Harry answered in almost
a whisper. Sirius said nothing but Harry could tell he was mad. " I'm sorry I
never said anything before but I didn't want you to worry about me." He added.
"Harry I will always worry about you
weather you want me to or not. I am your godfather and believe it or not I do
love you. I also want to know immediately if he ever hits you again all right?"
Sirius said hugging his godson. Harry returned it and then he stood up again he
was still dizzy but it had subsided enough for him to paint the fence. Sirius however saw his godson close his eyes
briefly but said nothing. He did however, stay close by encase Harry fell
again.
"Harry I'm right here if you need me
okay?" Sirius added as Harry dipped the brush into the paint can.
" Okay. Really though I'm all right.
Please don't worry." He answered as he started painting the fence. Knowing full
well that Sirius would worry but Harry felt like it needed to be said
anyway.
Harry was half way finished painting the fence when he had another dizzy spell and he closed his eyes for a moment to make it pass. Sirius put a steadying hand on his godson's shoulder.
"Forget it Harry this is over now." With
that Sirius took the wand he had out of his pocket and muttered a few words and
the fence finished painting itself. Then they walked into the yard and Sirius
muttered another few words and the paint can flew back into the shed. All the
while Sirius kept a hand on his godson's shoulder. He then proceeded to lead his godson into the house, up the
stairs and into the bedroom.
"Stay here and get into bed." Sirius said
and left the room again. Harry didn't feel like arguing and did as he was told.
Sirius came back a moment later and handed Harry a glass of water. " Drink it.
It'll help you to feel better. The dizziness is probably just from not sleeping
well all this time and it's finally catching up with you." Sirius said
truthfully. Harry drank the water
greedily. " Lie down and try to get some sleep all right?" Sirius asked. Harry
complied since he was pretty tired.
He didn't sleep long however, it wasn't a
dream that woke him though. It was pain but it wasn't coming from his head.
Harry thought for a moment as to when he might have hurt himself. Probably when
I was pulling out those darn weeds. He thought idly. He was pulled out of his
thoughts by a familiar voice.
" Harry…. was it another dream?" Sirius
asked. Harry thought for a quick moment and nodded yes. "Well what was it
about?" Harry knew that Sirius was going to ask that and had a story ready.
" You're going to laugh… I thought Aunt
Petunia was calling me." Harry answered laughing to himself. Sirius bought it
since Harry hadn't woken up with a scream or shaking with fear for once Sirius
was relieved he didn't have to tell Harry that the death of Cedric wasn't his
fault. But just as Sirius was about to
tell Harry to lie down again he heard Uncle Vernon bellow
"BOY GET DOWN HERE NOW!!!!"
" Now what?" Harry half complained to
himself but Sirius had heard it and said
" I don't know but we will find out
together." And with that Sirius put the invisibility cloak back over his head. They made their way down stairs. Vernon was
standing at the foot of the stairs and was already purple in the face.
"Boy I have some important business
investors coming over in one hour. You will take your dinner upstairs with you
and stay in your room all night. You are not to make a sound. Understand?"
Harry just said
" Okay." Harry said.
" Okay what?" Uncle Vernon asked.
" Okay I'll stay in my room Uncle
Vernon…and I won't cause any trouble." Harry finished before his uncle could
say anything. Vernon's color came back
to normal he nodded and said.
" Well don't just stand there get in that
kitchen and get your dinner. Once that doorbell rings I don't want to hear a
peep or otherwise out of you." With that the lecture was over. Harry was happy
that no one saw the little escapade that Sirius had done earlier with the
fence. Harry went into the kitchen Aunt Petunia had a plate waiting for him
with a glass of water. He looked at it and his stomach lurched again. He closed
his eyes for a moment. Sirius had seen it. He put a hand on Harry's shoulder
and kept it there until they were back up in Harry's room. Harry set it down on
the desk and went to the bed.
" Go on Sirius you need it much more then
I do." Harry said lying down on the bed. He wasn't feeling well at all. He just wanted to go unconscious so he
wouldn't dream but he wouldn't be awake either. Unfortunately that was not an option.
" Come on Harry" Sirius said picking up
the plate. "We'll split it. Just because you think I need it. I know you need
it as well. The way that your aunt and uncle running you around like that all
the time, not to mention that you are thinner than I've ever seen you. Tuck
in." Sirius said. Harry just looked at his half for a moment. He had two
choices. One tell Sirius how he really felt, or two just eat it and deal with
the possible consequences later. He chose the second choice at first. He picked
up his half and was about to eat it when his stomach lurched again. He put it
down and just put his head in his hands.
" Sirius I'm gonna be sick." Harry said
running from the room and to the next door on the left. A moment later Harry
came back to the room. Sirius's expression was one of worry.
" Feeling better?" Sirius asked him.
Harry lied and shook his head yes. Sirius didn't believe him for an instant but
let it slide for the moment. 'Oh
Harry when will you stop being so stubborn you really are your father's son.'
Sirius thought. " Alright you win you
don't have to eat this but you do have to lie down and go to sleep." Sirius
said to Harry. Harry knew better than to argue with him so he lied down but
said.
" Sirius can I just get a drink please?"
Sirius smiled at him waved his wand over an empty glass and water spurted out
of the wand tip and into the glass. Harry gulped it all down. " Thanks" he said
as he lied down. Sirius smiled as he took Harry's glasses off of his face.
"Goodnight Harry." He said as he watched
Harry fall almost instantly asleep. A
half hour later Sirius had dosed off but heard movement in the room. He saw
Harry getting out of bed. " Where are you going?"
" I shouldn't have drunk that water."
Harry said in answer as he walked out of the bedroom. Sirius just laughed a
bit. Then he heard footsteps coming up the steps. Then a yell that he knew was Vernon's.
"Boy
didn't I tell you something?" Sirius came out of the room in the cloak just in
time to see Vernon push Harry hard in the chest. The force of it sent Harry
into the wall. This enraged Sirius he stepped up behind Vernon and grabbed the
hand that was raised and ready to strike the boy again. Sirius then performed a quick memory charm
that he had picked up all those years ago working for the ministry. Vernon
forgot about Harry and returned downstairs.
" Harry.." before Sirius could finish his
statement Harry interrupted.
"I'm fine. Thanks for the rescue that was
great. But I thought only ministry aurors knew that charm."
" Only ministry aurors do. I was one
before my time in Azkaban along with your father and mother. Of course your mother became a part time
auror when you were born." Sirius had explained in a whisper as they got back
into Harry's room. Harry lied down on the bed again before Sirius told him to.
"Maybe tomorrow you can tell me more
about them?" Harry asked as his eyes started to droop. Sirius nodded in
agreement. About midnight Harry woke up
feeling awful. He just couldn't keep it
from Sirius any longer.
"Sirius?" Harry asked since his godfather
was still in the invisibility cloak. "Sirius" Harry called again.
"Hummph" came a groggy reply.
" Sirius please wake up." Harry said with
a pleading in his voice.
"Okay… okay I'm up I'm up." Sirius said.
He then took the cloak off his head so Harry could see him. " What is it?"
" Sirius I don't feel so good." Harry
answered him. Sirius sat up, took the wand and said
"Lumos" He looked at Harry, the boy was in
a cold sweat and he looked pale. Sirius
put his hand to his godson's forehead and registered that he was indeed running
a temperature. " Where do you hurt?" he asked hoping it was something that
could be taken care of with muggle measures since there was no way he could get
help from the wizarding world.
A/N Well that
was chapter 5… Sorry it took so long. Me and my wanting to get it up fast but
like JKR herself I had a change of mind when I thought it could be made better
and I hope you agree that it is good. It's also longer like I promised
Thanks
goes out to so many wonderful reviewers who have kept with me through the
story. I promise to get you all listed next chapter. I just want to get this up
so you can enjoy it. ( I hope)
Until next
time… stay away from the rock cakes and keep cool in this lovely heat wave -
sweets
