And this is chapter number 6…enjoy!
Sirius awoke the next morning expecting to find Remus lying next to him, but he was alone in the bed. He strained his ears to see if he could hear anything, the making of a cup of tea, the popping of toast, the shuffle of feet. He didn't hear anything.
He climbed out of bed and walked through the front room to look for Remus. He wasn't in there, or the kitchen. The back door was open.
Sirius went out into the garden and was hit by a cold breeze. He found Remus standing next to the tree, looking towards the forest in the distance.
"Morning." Sirius said, going to stand next to Remus and taking his hand.
Remus turned to Sirius and smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes. "Morning Padfoot." He said quietly before turning back to the landscape. He sighed heavily.
Sirius gazed at Remus wishing that he had the ability to read minds because it looked as though Remus had a lot on his.
"So are you going to tell me what's the matter or am I going to have to stand here and look at you with that expression on your face?" Sirius looked at Remus and squeezed his hand, willing him to speak.
Remus sighed again and reached into the back pocket of his trousers and pulled out a piece of parchment "I got an owl from Dumbledore this morning." He paused.
"And?" Said Sirius, anxiously.
"The Ministry for Magic are getting suspicious of me. They have come up with the idea that you and I have been in contact." He let go of Sirius's hand and turned to look him in the eye "Dumbledore said that they are going to come and raid the house."
There was a very long silence. But Sirius knew what this meant.
"I'm going to have to go on the run again, aren't I? That's what this means, doesn't it?"
Remus said nothing, but turned away.
"Remus? Doesn't it? I have to leave?" Sirius asked, already knowing the answer, but not wanting to hear it from Remus.
Remus looked up, his eyes bloodshot. He nodded slowly.
Sirius couldn't breathe. He was going to have to leave. Again. He was going to have to face leaving Remus all over again. He couldn't believe how happy he was last night, and now they were going to have to be alone again. He didn't know if he would be able to bear this.
"You know that this is the last thing in the world I want Padfoot. But if you stay then the both of us are in trouble. If you go, neither of us will suffer."
"Oh I'm not sure about that Moony, I can feel my heart breaking right now. I'm pretty sure I'm already suffering." Said Sirius, close to tears.
Remus sniffed and took Sirius's hand again. "I love you Sirius, you know that right?" he looked him in the eye "Right?" He asked again, when he got no answer.
"Yes I know." Sirius moved closer and put his arms around Remus's neck, their noses almost touching "And I love you Remus." He smiled sadly "And a tiny little thing like the Ministry of Magic wanting to kill me and put you away for being in contact with me is never ever going to change that."
Remus chuckled quietly into Sirius's neck.
"Remus?"
"Yeah?"
"We will see each other soon, wont we?"
"We had better do. I don't know if I will be able to live without you again, Padfoot." He looked up into Sirius's eyes sadly.
Sirius kissed him quickly mouth and sighed. "I suppose I should pack my stuff then."
"I guess…" Said Remus feebly "What did you do with that Hippogriff?"
"I hid it at the old Black house, it's the pits in there, but I had to keep it somewhere. Although I can't go and stay there permanently because I'm not sure if the enchantments my dad put on there are still secure." Said Sirius.
"Oh…so what are you going to do until then?" Asked Remus
"I dunno…" Sirius trailed off. Remus wanted to suggest something. What he really wanted to suggest was that Sirius stay with him forever and tell him that everything will be alright.
"Come on." Remus said, and dragged Sirius into the house by his hand. When they got into the kitchen Sirius pulled Remus into him.
"I am going to miss you like hell." He kissed him on the cheek. "I am going to think about you everyday." He kissed Remus on the other cheek. "Every minute." He kissed Remus lightly on the mouth. "Every second." His kissed Remus fully on the mouth.
Remus moaned into the kiss and tried not to think that maybe in half an hour they would be sharing their final kiss for a very long time.
When they finally pulled away and came back to sharp reality, they began gathering all of Sirius's things up from the bedroom. His few clothes that were scattered carelessly around the room were scattered even more carelessly into Sirius's bag.
"Take a toothbrush…and a brush…and you'll need food, so take all of this…" Remus crammed most of his cupboard's contents into the bag "take some of my clothes, you might freeze to death…and take some blankets…do you know where you'll stay?"
"Probably hide out in some unknown areas. Look Remus, will you calm down for just a minute?" Sirius grabbed Remus, who had been running around the house like a headless chicken for the past fifteen minutes. He looked at him to find that his eyes were full of tears.
"Sit down Remus, calm down alright?" Said Sirius gently just as his own eyes were filling with tears. He pulled Remus onto the sofa with him.
"For God's sake Padfoot, why did this have to happen to you?!" Remus blurted out suddenly "How could anyone possible want to come after you? How could anyone think that you would murder a single living soul?" Remus sniffed loudly "You are the most funny, loyal, caring person I have ever known. You haven't got a single killing bone in your body."
Sirius blinked and felt tears stream down his face. He couldn't believe how much he loved Remus right now.
He felt Remus touch his face and wipe away the tears on his cheeks. Sirius closed his eyes and tried to imprint the feel of Remus's touch in his memory forever.
When he opened his eyes again he saw that Remus now had tears flowing freely down his face too. Remus wiped them away impatiently.
"We are a pair of soppy old fools aren't we, Moony?" Sirius joked, his voice breaking wore than ever.
"Yeah." Replied Remus as a small sob escaped.
Sirius sniffed and wiped his eyes.
"Come here."
Sirius suddenly felt the comfortable warmth of Remus's arms around his neck. He buried his face in the other man's neck and put his own arms around his middle and held on as though for dear life.
They sat there for nearly half an hour, just clinging on, occasionally one of them would let out a small sob, their tears never stopping.
"I have to go Remus…" Sirius said finally, hating the words that escaped his mouth.
"No."
"No?"
"No, you're not allowed to go. I'm not letting go." Said Remus stubbornly.
"We'll get into big trouble Remus." Said Sirius sadly, although he didn't let go either.
"I don't care."
"Well I do." Said Sirius, letting go of Remus. "You know I have to go."
"Yeah…" Remus agreed finally, he let go of Sirius. Both men stood up and Sirius led the way to the front door, his bag in hid hand.
"So…I guess this is it…" said Remus, reaching for the door handle.
"Wait." Said Sirius abruptly.
"Wha-"
Sirius pushed Remus against the wall and smashed their lips together in a passionate kiss. He put one hand on Remus's neck, feeling the hair at the nape, his other hand was at the base of Remus's spine, pushing him close. Remus's hands were on Sirius's chest, grabbing hold of the material of his thin robes, his mouth tasting Sirius's lips…mouth…tongue.
"Now I really do have to go." Said Sirius as they pulled away reluctantly.
"Alright. If you can, please stay in touch?" Remus asked.
"I will, I promise." Sirius smiled miserably " I love you." His voice wavering as he tried to keep it together.
"I love you too. I'll hear from you soon then." Said Remus, giving Sirius a final quick kiss and hug.
"Yeah." Sirius looked quickly into Remus's beautiful brown eyes and then transformed into the giant black dog.
Remus opened the door and let the dog hurry out of the door. He watched him disappear around the corner.
"Goodbye Sirius."
End! Well, sort of. There's going to be one more chapter to sort of…round things off I guess. I hope you liked. Please review it for me and tell me what you think!