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"Manny wait!" Craig said with a desperate voice, but it was too late, she had already walked away, disappearing into the crowd.
* * * *
"Emma, I think I have that ammunition you needed," Manny said whispering to her friend. Emma turned to face her looking interested.
"What do you mean?"
"Well, let's just say I walked in on something that will really help you with getting Sean back," Manny said. Emma's eyes lit up.
"What is it?!" Emma asked excitedly, her eyes lit up.
"I just walked in on Craig, and Lux, in the bedroom, kissing. AND, they were heading for the bed," Manny said. Emma's eyes widened.
"Are you serious?" When Manny nodded, Emma broke out into a grin. "This is too good to be true. When I tell Sean he's going to flip out! He'll never want to talk to Lux again." Emma threw her arms around Manny.
* * * *
Lux lay on the bed looking up at the ceiling. She didn't know what to do. She knew what she did was wrong, horribly wrong. No matter what kind of mood Sean had left her in, she had no excuse to go kiss another guy. But it felt so right it left her with an eerie feeling.
"Lux," she heard Craig ask her. "Are you ok?" He was sitting on the floor with his back leaned up against the bed. She heard him ruffle his hair about a million times. She thought about an answer with her eyes closed. When she opened them Craig was hovering above her. He was surprised to see that her eyes were completely dry. "Look, I'm really really sorry. We just got caught up in the moment, that's all." Craig tried to make excuses.
"It's ok Craig, I don't blame you or anything," she said in a steady firm voice. Craig nodded his head. He looked rather shaken.
"Are you ok?" Lux asked him sitting up. He quickly looked at her and then looked away.
"Sean is going to kill me," he said simply. Lux shook her head and looked back up at the ceiling.
"He's going to be pissed," she muttered under her breath. In fact, Craig probably didn't understand just how mad he would be. Lux had done exactly what Sean had accused her of doing. "Well we can't change anything now," she muttered more to herself than anyone else. "Look, I better head home." Craig nodded his head as he watched her collect her coat and bag. Then she reached for the picture he gave her. "Thanks again," she said. Craig nodded his head and watched her leave. He took her place on the bed and stared up the ceiling. The main problem wasn't just that he had kissed Lux, it was that he enjoyed it. He guiltily wanted to kiss her again, and he even more guiltily wanted Sean and Lux to end their relationship. He closed his eyes and groaned out loud.
"Fuck," he muttered to himself as he rubbed his eyes.
* * * *
The next two days passed in a blur. Lux spent most of the time with her family. It was the one time a year when they made an effort to be together. Her cousins distracted her from any fleeting thoughts of Sean. However, she couldn't ignore the fact that he was coming home the day after Christmas. Lux hadn't spoken to Craig since the incident. She had managed not to tell anyone what had happened, even when Paige seemed to ask her endlessly why she left the party so early.
Meanwhile, Emma was planning to let Sean in on Lux's little secret as soon as he stepped foot in Toronto. She left an anonymous note under his door. Emma knew that if she told him in person he would never believe her. She just had to wait for Sean to get home and open the note. Then he would call everything off with Lux,. She was sure of it. There was only so much Lux could get away with.
* * * *
Ding Dong.
Lux opened the door tentatively.
"Sean?" she asked surprised, she hadn't expected him to be home so early.
"Hey," he said. Lux tried to read the expression on his face. It looked like he was very uncomfortable. "Look, I know that we left on bad terms," he began. "I'm really really sorry. I know what I accused you of what stupid. I know I can trust you," he said in a rush. Lux's stomach felt sick all of sudden. She felt so guilty she couldn't meet his eyes. "Come on Lux, don't be mad at me!" he said misreading her emotions.
"No, no, I'm not mad at you," she said softly, still not able to look him in the eye.
"Then what's wrong?" Sean asked. "I didn't even get to wish you a Merry Christmas," Sean said as he pulled Lux into his arms.
"Sean," Lux said pulling away. "I'm sorry."
"What's wrong?" Sean asked looking worried all of a sudden. Lux hesitated, but then continued.
"I need to tell you something," Lux began slowly. Sean's look turned from worry to suspicion.
"What?" he asked a little more firmly. Lux looked from him to the floor.
"Can we go somewhere?" Lux asked suddenly aware that her parents were in the room next to her. "Like, on a walk or something?" she asked. Sean glanced into the room next to them and nodded his head. "Ok, just let me go to the bathroom," Lux said quickly excusing herself. She emerged 2 minutes later and headed out the door with Sean. It was a brisk day, the chilly air cut through her jacket easily. Lux pulled her scarf around her tightly. Sean seemed to have gotten even colder, and not body temperature wise.
"So what was it you wanted to tell me?" he asked in a hardened voice. Lux swallowed hard and continued to walk.
"Umm," she began. "Ok, well, you know how Paige was having a party," she began weakly. Sean looked at her, glared at her more like it. Lux paused again. "Well, umm." She stopped. She couldn't tell him. She just couldn't. He would be so mad, he would be out of control. She fell into a silence.
"Would this have anything to do with it?" Sean practically spat at her. Lux stopped walking and turned slowly to look at Sean. He flung a piece of crumpled paper to her. Lux slowly unfolded it and read it. She felt the blood drain from her face as she read it.
"Where did you get this?" she asked him after a moment.
"Is it true?" Sean asked, his eyes glinting icily.
"Sean, it wasn't like that. We just got caught up in the moment." Lux tried to make excuses.
"So it's true?" Sean asked quietly, he couldn't look at her.
"Yes," Lux said quietly. Sean let out a malicious laugh.
"After all my apologizing to you for suspecting you, it ended up being true. You do have a thing with Craig."
"Sean, I told you, we just got caught up. I felt horrible after and I still do!" Lux said trying to explain herself.
"Did he kiss you or did you kiss him?" Sean asked so suddenly. The question caught Lux completely off guard.
"What?" she asked.
"Did he kiss you or did you kiss him?" Sean asked speaking clearly and slowly. Lux paused, deciding how to answer. She knew she had to tell the truth.
"I kissed him," she said softly. Sean looked at her with a pain in his eye she hadn't seen before. "I'm so sorry Sean," Lux began, but Sean was already walking away from her. "Sean, wait," Lux said desperately.
"I can't talk to you right now," he said quietly and turned away. Lux watched his back as he turned down his street. Lux looked hopelessly around her, wondering if she had ever felt so confused in her life.
"Manny wait!" Craig said with a desperate voice, but it was too late, she had already walked away, disappearing into the crowd.
* * * *
"Emma, I think I have that ammunition you needed," Manny said whispering to her friend. Emma turned to face her looking interested.
"What do you mean?"
"Well, let's just say I walked in on something that will really help you with getting Sean back," Manny said. Emma's eyes lit up.
"What is it?!" Emma asked excitedly, her eyes lit up.
"I just walked in on Craig, and Lux, in the bedroom, kissing. AND, they were heading for the bed," Manny said. Emma's eyes widened.
"Are you serious?" When Manny nodded, Emma broke out into a grin. "This is too good to be true. When I tell Sean he's going to flip out! He'll never want to talk to Lux again." Emma threw her arms around Manny.
* * * *
Lux lay on the bed looking up at the ceiling. She didn't know what to do. She knew what she did was wrong, horribly wrong. No matter what kind of mood Sean had left her in, she had no excuse to go kiss another guy. But it felt so right it left her with an eerie feeling.
"Lux," she heard Craig ask her. "Are you ok?" He was sitting on the floor with his back leaned up against the bed. She heard him ruffle his hair about a million times. She thought about an answer with her eyes closed. When she opened them Craig was hovering above her. He was surprised to see that her eyes were completely dry. "Look, I'm really really sorry. We just got caught up in the moment, that's all." Craig tried to make excuses.
"It's ok Craig, I don't blame you or anything," she said in a steady firm voice. Craig nodded his head. He looked rather shaken.
"Are you ok?" Lux asked him sitting up. He quickly looked at her and then looked away.
"Sean is going to kill me," he said simply. Lux shook her head and looked back up at the ceiling.
"He's going to be pissed," she muttered under her breath. In fact, Craig probably didn't understand just how mad he would be. Lux had done exactly what Sean had accused her of doing. "Well we can't change anything now," she muttered more to herself than anyone else. "Look, I better head home." Craig nodded his head as he watched her collect her coat and bag. Then she reached for the picture he gave her. "Thanks again," she said. Craig nodded his head and watched her leave. He took her place on the bed and stared up the ceiling. The main problem wasn't just that he had kissed Lux, it was that he enjoyed it. He guiltily wanted to kiss her again, and he even more guiltily wanted Sean and Lux to end their relationship. He closed his eyes and groaned out loud.
"Fuck," he muttered to himself as he rubbed his eyes.
* * * *
The next two days passed in a blur. Lux spent most of the time with her family. It was the one time a year when they made an effort to be together. Her cousins distracted her from any fleeting thoughts of Sean. However, she couldn't ignore the fact that he was coming home the day after Christmas. Lux hadn't spoken to Craig since the incident. She had managed not to tell anyone what had happened, even when Paige seemed to ask her endlessly why she left the party so early.
Meanwhile, Emma was planning to let Sean in on Lux's little secret as soon as he stepped foot in Toronto. She left an anonymous note under his door. Emma knew that if she told him in person he would never believe her. She just had to wait for Sean to get home and open the note. Then he would call everything off with Lux,. She was sure of it. There was only so much Lux could get away with.
* * * *
Ding Dong.
Lux opened the door tentatively.
"Sean?" she asked surprised, she hadn't expected him to be home so early.
"Hey," he said. Lux tried to read the expression on his face. It looked like he was very uncomfortable. "Look, I know that we left on bad terms," he began. "I'm really really sorry. I know what I accused you of what stupid. I know I can trust you," he said in a rush. Lux's stomach felt sick all of sudden. She felt so guilty she couldn't meet his eyes. "Come on Lux, don't be mad at me!" he said misreading her emotions.
"No, no, I'm not mad at you," she said softly, still not able to look him in the eye.
"Then what's wrong?" Sean asked. "I didn't even get to wish you a Merry Christmas," Sean said as he pulled Lux into his arms.
"Sean," Lux said pulling away. "I'm sorry."
"What's wrong?" Sean asked looking worried all of a sudden. Lux hesitated, but then continued.
"I need to tell you something," Lux began slowly. Sean's look turned from worry to suspicion.
"What?" he asked a little more firmly. Lux looked from him to the floor.
"Can we go somewhere?" Lux asked suddenly aware that her parents were in the room next to her. "Like, on a walk or something?" she asked. Sean glanced into the room next to them and nodded his head. "Ok, just let me go to the bathroom," Lux said quickly excusing herself. She emerged 2 minutes later and headed out the door with Sean. It was a brisk day, the chilly air cut through her jacket easily. Lux pulled her scarf around her tightly. Sean seemed to have gotten even colder, and not body temperature wise.
"So what was it you wanted to tell me?" he asked in a hardened voice. Lux swallowed hard and continued to walk.
"Umm," she began. "Ok, well, you know how Paige was having a party," she began weakly. Sean looked at her, glared at her more like it. Lux paused again. "Well, umm." She stopped. She couldn't tell him. She just couldn't. He would be so mad, he would be out of control. She fell into a silence.
"Would this have anything to do with it?" Sean practically spat at her. Lux stopped walking and turned slowly to look at Sean. He flung a piece of crumpled paper to her. Lux slowly unfolded it and read it. She felt the blood drain from her face as she read it.
"Where did you get this?" she asked him after a moment.
"Is it true?" Sean asked, his eyes glinting icily.
"Sean, it wasn't like that. We just got caught up in the moment." Lux tried to make excuses.
"So it's true?" Sean asked quietly, he couldn't look at her.
"Yes," Lux said quietly. Sean let out a malicious laugh.
"After all my apologizing to you for suspecting you, it ended up being true. You do have a thing with Craig."
"Sean, I told you, we just got caught up. I felt horrible after and I still do!" Lux said trying to explain herself.
"Did he kiss you or did you kiss him?" Sean asked so suddenly. The question caught Lux completely off guard.
"What?" she asked.
"Did he kiss you or did you kiss him?" Sean asked speaking clearly and slowly. Lux paused, deciding how to answer. She knew she had to tell the truth.
"I kissed him," she said softly. Sean looked at her with a pain in his eye she hadn't seen before. "I'm so sorry Sean," Lux began, but Sean was already walking away from her. "Sean, wait," Lux said desperately.
"I can't talk to you right now," he said quietly and turned away. Lux watched his back as he turned down his street. Lux looked hopelessly around her, wondering if she had ever felt so confused in her life.