PART V
I am so afraid. I am all the time. No, not about Voldemort whom I've finally started to call by his name. He does not frighten me because I know he will be defeated one day, hopefully by my best friend, Harry Potter.
Which brings me to what I'm so terrified of.
I look into the mirror and see red hair and freckles. I look inside and I see guilt, jealously, and all around turmoil. Why does harry put up with me? I get upset at him all the time, and I'm no big help to him, after all, I'm not terribly smart.
That make me think of Hermione. What does she see in me to consider me a friend when I'm so awful to her? I can't help but feel like a burden, so useless and unneeded. In the corner of my mind I worry that people are talking about me behind my back while another corner worries that no one cares enough to do so, which is ridiculous.
Have you guessed my fear yet?
I think back on my life and wince, the bad things far more clear than good. I look in the present and want to hide in shame because of my cowardly, insecure attitude along with my abysmal dealings with school.
I wonder if anyone can guess how I feel? Do I hide my emotions under a mask carefully enough, or am I so transparent that everyone can see how easily I am hurt, how much I worry over stupid things?
I might as well say it. What I'm most afraid of is being rejected, ending up all alone when everyone realizes," Why are we bothering to put up with Ron? We don't need him." And they abandon me. Yes, I Ron Weasly am far too insecure for my own good- but I'm not telling anyone else that.
All right, this take place just after Sirius's death when Ron is feeling guilty about how he's acted over the years and is thinking about his own faults, which are magnified in his own mind by far. He's basically thinking that one day he'll wake up and Harry and Hermione will dump him because he realizes he's acted terrible sometimes since their first year. If you want me to write a prequel to go along with this, it would basically follow Ron from the beginning of sixth year and follow him up until right after he finds out Severus is Hermione's guardian. Please review and out of these five you MUST vote on your favorite!