His eyes wondered aimlessly towards the sky as he thought angrily of how he
almost listened to Kikyo's bloody demand. His hands fisted into the dirt as
his white hair blew in the cool wind. "Kagome.. Somehow I was brought
back to Kikyo.." Before he went on I swallowed, the wolf demon was right, "
You left me for Kikyo didn't you Inuyasha?" He saw the despair in my eyes
and softly held me closer. He knew underneath he wanted Kikyo and was glad
to see her face, but his face couldn't lie to me for I knew he wanted
Kikyo, but for some reason I was holding him back. "Kagome.. It isn't
like that..I longed for Kikyo but I'd never leave you just to see Kikyo,
Kagome. Kagome, my purpose was he was to find you Kagome, and Kikyo... Kikyo
wanted me to hurt you Kagome. She begged me, to kill you and for Kikyo to
rise as a person once again. I vowed.." Before He could finish his
sentence I coldly shivered and felt tears water down my eyes imagining
Kikyo embracing him telling him that she could only live if I died, and
seeing Inuyasha's sorrowful face understand to do it for Kikyo.
"You only came back to kill me Inuyasha?!" Tears were slowly forming as my
pale face looking at his as I could only stare into his wandering eyes that
seemed that didn't tell the truth.
"Kagome.. I vowed to her I would kill you but Kagome... I love you more than
Kikyo than I realized. Kikyo, well she was everything to me. Until I found
out she died, things weren't the same. When I was with you you seemed to
fix all my problems. Kikyo, doesn't love me anymore as much as I love her
she coldly desires my death, to see my dead corpse laying on the ground
just to make her become coldly happy. After she disappeared she has only
come back to try to attempt to kill me, and I understand I should love
someone who I care for, and who actually cares for me. She's not the Kikyo
she use to be..."
I felt myself feel bad for Inuyasha. It was hard for him to admit Kikyo had changed when he was overly head over heals for her. "It must be hard for him to realize he made a mistake to love her when she was gone. Only to know she wants him to die now.. Inuyasha your so loyal, so caring all you wanted was her back. You desired her back, and once you she came back she wasn't the person who you remembered anymore..." Inuyasha's face was only pale with sorrow and anger, he understood there was no use loving someone that only seek him to hurt him. I slowly placed my cold hands into his, as he slowly closed his warm hands tightly over mine. "Inuyasha.. I know it must be hard to understand who Kikyo is now.. But everyone learns from there mistakes..." He looked at me. "Kagome you don't understand! I was so close of obeying her for me to kill you in order for her to live. I was so god damn close of risking your own life just to bring back someone that was a memory... What if that did happen Kagome?! There would be no way I could ever get you back! You wouldn't exsist here or from your era.!!" One tear slid from his cheek as I felt his heart beat rapidly through his chest, and watching himself horribly beat himself up. I held his hand tightly with a smile.. "Inuyasha, but you didn't. All I wanted back was you.. You didn't kill me, and I hoped for you to come back Inuyasha. It both turned out for us. I guess when it came down to it we needed each other.. Inuyasha, don't be upset your alive and so am I. We have each other, and I know whatever happens I'll be my your side no matter what mistakes you've made." Slowly a smile grew apoun his face and I knew how he felt. His past ruined him, and Kikyo did... I slowly looked at his face catching each other off guard, all I could care about was him and I knew nothing could change that. His hands lowered towards my waist pulling me further in. Before I knew it Inuyasha's sorrowful eyes calmly looked at me as he stood quiet. He leaned me in and placed his arms over top of me with a smile. His cool lips pressed against mine for moments at a time as I feel stunned and feel a chill go up my spine. "Inuyasha, cared for me?" I couldn't realize what was happening, it was more than I ever wanted, or ever expected from him. He turned away, as my face rose red with happiness. "So, you really cared for me all along?" He smiled, "You made me realize Kikyo, I couldn't face the fact she changed.. I understand you were along side of me more than Kikyo ever was." "So, what was Kikyo like?" His smiled as he looked up at the dead trees swaying in the wind.
"She was a great person. She was a lot like you, when we were together fifty years ago. I'd seen her wandering around the village and had few run in with her when she was bathing in the lake. I heard she was going to be the shrine maiden that protect the shikon no tama. To her I was only a waste of time she never respected me and dedicated her life to protecting that jewel. She was beautiful, and always remembered her with the bows and arrows everywhere she went. She was her own.and wasn't friendly all she did was everything. It was only her that was living on her own everyone she knew had died in there village by a vicious demon. The jewel was basically a memory of her family and of course she had her younger sister to look after. Well I understood what she was going through, to be the different one out of all. Kikyo and I had a lot to relate to, and a lot in common. She talked about everything to me about her life, her secrets and her past and then it went further than expected. We only trusted each other, no one else could seem to understand us. Being a half demon, and her being a lonely child on her own I understood everything. "So she was all alone and forgotten just like you were right?" He nodded, "Ya we were to people only live a life known with such anger and sadness. Kikyo, well she cared about me, and she believed that we were sure to have a future together. But then everything changed, and she thought I'd steal the jewel.
We were close with each other, always we were together there was never a day where we weren't. Then her villagers always told her never trust a demon.. she began to realize I was partly a demon and she decided to believe the villagers... Every demon attacked the village of the shikon jewel, and attacked her to posses it's power. She began listening to the villagers realizing any type of demon couldn't be trusted. Those thoughts begin to sink in, and the one day she turned on me only for me to have one of her arrows against my neck. Once I gained her trust back, that horrible day came when that demon turned us against each other. He knew we were close together and only trust one another. He broke our trust, everything we had only for me to die in the forest, and Kikyo to die forever. If that misunderstanding never occurred maybe I would have lived a happy life with Kikyo. Since her life was cut short everything changed and I knew nothing could ever change back"
It was hard for me to listen to Inuyasha's words to know she was a sweet innocent young women that grew up with many problems of her own. To me, Kikyo was only a dead dreadful witch that use to be in love with Inuyasha now only to want him to die in hell's arms. The one thing that struck me how Inuyasha said me and her were alike, hard for me to believe all this was true. But I knew it had been hard on Inuyasha even to talk about her.. to know she had changed, and he remained the same. "Me and Kikyo were alike at one time? Hard to even believe she ever was... To be a nice loving person that cared for Inuyasha. Well that's probably why Inuyasha cares for me. When looks at me, he has always said he has seen Kikyo. Kikyo knew she was lonely, was alone only to know for her whole life she had to protect this cursed jewel. That's why she begged for herself to have the jewel burned with her body. Poor Kikyo.. maybe she wasn't that bad back then. She was emotionally dependent on Inuyasha, and Inuyasha was emotionally dependent on her. Those two keep each other from falling, now everything is beginning to make sense now. I guess Inuyasha never wanted to tell me his past, he knew it was way worse than I could imagine. Inuyasha..." I could understand why he was cherched Kikyo. He had nothing else to love than her. Knowing his mother loved him, and later he resented his mother just because she was human. They knew Inuyasha wasn't going to be the same, to grow up living being a half breed.. to be hated because he had a demon nature.. never to be loved for who he really was...
I felt myself feel bad for Inuyasha. It was hard for him to admit Kikyo had changed when he was overly head over heals for her. "It must be hard for him to realize he made a mistake to love her when she was gone. Only to know she wants him to die now.. Inuyasha your so loyal, so caring all you wanted was her back. You desired her back, and once you she came back she wasn't the person who you remembered anymore..." Inuyasha's face was only pale with sorrow and anger, he understood there was no use loving someone that only seek him to hurt him. I slowly placed my cold hands into his, as he slowly closed his warm hands tightly over mine. "Inuyasha.. I know it must be hard to understand who Kikyo is now.. But everyone learns from there mistakes..." He looked at me. "Kagome you don't understand! I was so close of obeying her for me to kill you in order for her to live. I was so god damn close of risking your own life just to bring back someone that was a memory... What if that did happen Kagome?! There would be no way I could ever get you back! You wouldn't exsist here or from your era.!!" One tear slid from his cheek as I felt his heart beat rapidly through his chest, and watching himself horribly beat himself up. I held his hand tightly with a smile.. "Inuyasha, but you didn't. All I wanted back was you.. You didn't kill me, and I hoped for you to come back Inuyasha. It both turned out for us. I guess when it came down to it we needed each other.. Inuyasha, don't be upset your alive and so am I. We have each other, and I know whatever happens I'll be my your side no matter what mistakes you've made." Slowly a smile grew apoun his face and I knew how he felt. His past ruined him, and Kikyo did... I slowly looked at his face catching each other off guard, all I could care about was him and I knew nothing could change that. His hands lowered towards my waist pulling me further in. Before I knew it Inuyasha's sorrowful eyes calmly looked at me as he stood quiet. He leaned me in and placed his arms over top of me with a smile. His cool lips pressed against mine for moments at a time as I feel stunned and feel a chill go up my spine. "Inuyasha, cared for me?" I couldn't realize what was happening, it was more than I ever wanted, or ever expected from him. He turned away, as my face rose red with happiness. "So, you really cared for me all along?" He smiled, "You made me realize Kikyo, I couldn't face the fact she changed.. I understand you were along side of me more than Kikyo ever was." "So, what was Kikyo like?" His smiled as he looked up at the dead trees swaying in the wind.
"She was a great person. She was a lot like you, when we were together fifty years ago. I'd seen her wandering around the village and had few run in with her when she was bathing in the lake. I heard she was going to be the shrine maiden that protect the shikon no tama. To her I was only a waste of time she never respected me and dedicated her life to protecting that jewel. She was beautiful, and always remembered her with the bows and arrows everywhere she went. She was her own.and wasn't friendly all she did was everything. It was only her that was living on her own everyone she knew had died in there village by a vicious demon. The jewel was basically a memory of her family and of course she had her younger sister to look after. Well I understood what she was going through, to be the different one out of all. Kikyo and I had a lot to relate to, and a lot in common. She talked about everything to me about her life, her secrets and her past and then it went further than expected. We only trusted each other, no one else could seem to understand us. Being a half demon, and her being a lonely child on her own I understood everything. "So she was all alone and forgotten just like you were right?" He nodded, "Ya we were to people only live a life known with such anger and sadness. Kikyo, well she cared about me, and she believed that we were sure to have a future together. But then everything changed, and she thought I'd steal the jewel.
We were close with each other, always we were together there was never a day where we weren't. Then her villagers always told her never trust a demon.. she began to realize I was partly a demon and she decided to believe the villagers... Every demon attacked the village of the shikon jewel, and attacked her to posses it's power. She began listening to the villagers realizing any type of demon couldn't be trusted. Those thoughts begin to sink in, and the one day she turned on me only for me to have one of her arrows against my neck. Once I gained her trust back, that horrible day came when that demon turned us against each other. He knew we were close together and only trust one another. He broke our trust, everything we had only for me to die in the forest, and Kikyo to die forever. If that misunderstanding never occurred maybe I would have lived a happy life with Kikyo. Since her life was cut short everything changed and I knew nothing could ever change back"
It was hard for me to listen to Inuyasha's words to know she was a sweet innocent young women that grew up with many problems of her own. To me, Kikyo was only a dead dreadful witch that use to be in love with Inuyasha now only to want him to die in hell's arms. The one thing that struck me how Inuyasha said me and her were alike, hard for me to believe all this was true. But I knew it had been hard on Inuyasha even to talk about her.. to know she had changed, and he remained the same. "Me and Kikyo were alike at one time? Hard to even believe she ever was... To be a nice loving person that cared for Inuyasha. Well that's probably why Inuyasha cares for me. When looks at me, he has always said he has seen Kikyo. Kikyo knew she was lonely, was alone only to know for her whole life she had to protect this cursed jewel. That's why she begged for herself to have the jewel burned with her body. Poor Kikyo.. maybe she wasn't that bad back then. She was emotionally dependent on Inuyasha, and Inuyasha was emotionally dependent on her. Those two keep each other from falling, now everything is beginning to make sense now. I guess Inuyasha never wanted to tell me his past, he knew it was way worse than I could imagine. Inuyasha..." I could understand why he was cherched Kikyo. He had nothing else to love than her. Knowing his mother loved him, and later he resented his mother just because she was human. They knew Inuyasha wasn't going to be the same, to grow up living being a half breed.. to be hated because he had a demon nature.. never to be loved for who he really was...