The bitches put it in my food. I paced in the common room, scratching that
none-existent itch. They dripped heroin in my drink, and now a longing
that hurt like a punch in the gut.
Cole came in whistling, but stopped as soon as he saw me he stopped. Then he saw me scratching.
"Oh no. Hermione you didn't."
"No. Those bitches I'm meant to be friends with did." I exclaimed furiously.
"How much do you think?"
"Too much. My stomach's twisting, and I would kill for some more."
"Shit, baby. Now we have to do it all over again."
"Bollocks." I said, frowning. That was a long two weeks. Looked like another one was coming, and I only had 3 and a half weeks left.
*&*
"I hate this!" I screamed at him across the common room. He stood there, looking at me with sad brown eyes. "I cant think, I cant write, I cant do anything! I hate it!"
"You're nearly clear." His voice was soft.
"But I'm not!" I said, struggling to keep my voice down. "And Draco sent me a letter." I said finally.
"Ah." Cole said in understanding. I know Cole loves me. But how can I tell Cole he has no chance, simply because I think I'll love Draco until I fall down dead. I like him. He's been my best friend for three months, and leaving him is going to hurt like hell. I guess I love him too. I just love Draco more.
"What did it say?" He asked. I took a deep breath.
"It said he might come with Dumbledore and Ron to pick me up in two weeks. He asked if I was mad at him because I haven't written. He complained about Evesham throwing herself at him."
"Nothing else?"
"Not really." I crossed my arms, clenching my hands into fists to stop me scratching.
"That's what upset you then?"
"On top of everything else. We have NEWTs in less than two months." I added.
"Ah, yes. You'll do fine Hermione. You've been top of every class since you came, even when you were so high you could barely read." I laughed.
"That was fun." It was. I was flying and working at the same time.
"I'm sure it was." Cole said dourly.
"Don't be such a spoilsport." I said, laughing. Cole rolled his eyes at me. I stuck my tongue out at him, then winced as a twinge pulled at my stomach. He frowned.
"What?"
"Withdrawal cramps." I smiled.
"You okay?"
"Yep. I'll need some more in about half an hour, though." Cole nodded. He was proud of me, I could tell. He was angrier with me accidentally getting back on drugs than I've ever seen him in my life. True, I've only known him for three months, but that isn't the point.
*&*
2 Weeks Later.
"Oh for god's sakes!" I exclaimed. This really wasn't funny. First Andrea tries to overdose with ecstasy pills - a messy situation if I hadn't gone down there for a book. I know I sound stuck up, you know, "she would have died if I wasn't there!" kind of thing, but really.
And then, Emily Sanders does almost the same thing, determined to overdose on heroine. I had to convince her friends that this really wasn't a good thing. After spending ten minutes trying to get them to understand that she could, god forbid, actually die from an overdose - I swear the Beauxbatons students all think they are immortal - Cole waltzes in and says that Dumbledore, Ron and Draco are here.
So now I'm walking up the hall, tugging at my skirt. Damn it.
"Hermione." Cole turned me to face him and held onto my shoulders.
"What?"
"Don't try to hide this. If this is what you are, then don't try to hide it. If it isn't, then I wish you had told me before. Even if they think you're a slut, they're only looking at your skirt length." Cole stared at me, and I fought my way out of his green eyes.
"I know. Thanks." I smiled and let go of my skirt. The two of us walked up the stairs to Madame Maxime's study, and we heard people talking inside. Cole kissed me quickly on the lips.
"Good luck." He said with a grin.
"I don't need luck." I shot back. I knocked on the door. It swung open, and we walked in.
*&*
Everyone stood when we walked in. Ron's mouth dropped open, and I avoided looking at Draco. I didn't want to see him just yet. I smiled at Dumbledore.
"Miss Granger. I trust you are well?"
"Very, thank you Professor." I said softly.
"This is Cole, our Head Boy. However, I think you are needed in the boys dormitories, Cole." Madame Maxime said. Cole nodded, touched my arm, and left. I glanced at Draco and saw a twist of jealously grace his face quickly. But then it was gone as fast as it arrived. We all sat down, and I crossed my legs without thinking. Everyone here did it, and no one was bothered that skirts were small and legs were long. It was just one of those things. I heard Ron's quick intake of breath, but stopped myself from putting my leg down. I refused to be ruled by his hormones.
They talked. And talked. And talked. Did they have nothing better to do? I could feel Draco's gaze on me, and unfortunately, Ron's too, which was very uncomfortable. My arms began itching and I ignored it as best I could. I had been clear for two weeks, and I hadn't eaten anything all day. It was just me remembering while being uncomfortable. Dammit.
The door flew open, and Cole stood there panting. He was staring at me, and I rose.
"Who and where?" I asked. Oh please. This is absurd.
"James Andrews, boys dormitory. Ad shot. Well, he needs one." My fist clenched, and I turned to the Head Teachers.
"Could I be excused? I'm needed." Madame Maxime nodded.
"Of course, dear. Why don't you take the boys with you? They can see the school." I stared at her in amazement.
"Madame, James needs an adrenaline shot." I said, stressing the word.
"I know what to do." Draco said, standing. I turned to him.
"You sure?" I asked. He shrugged. Ron stood as well. "Can you?" He shrugged as well. I rolled my eyes.
"Hermione." Cole said urgently.
"Fine. Whatever. Don't get in my way." I nodded to the professors, and ran out the room, the boys following us and we ran down stairs and down corridors. Cole pulled ahead of me as we reached the dorm entrance, and had it open before I got there. I ran straight through and took the stairs two at a time. I entered the sixth year dorm and saw James lying on the floor. His chest wasn't moving.
"Okay, I need an Ad shot. Who's got the OD kit?" I demanded. Adam handed me the red box. Cole came to the door, followed by Ron and Draco. Neither looked out of breath. "Draco, hold his arms. Ron, his feet. Don't argue with me, just do it. The two knelt by each end of James and grabbed onto the limbs. A girl ran in, and Cole caught her, and folded her tight against him.
"Lucy be still. She cant save him if you get in the way!" he said. I ignored them, and straddled James, resting my weight on his hips. Draco's eyes widened at this but he said nothing. I pulled open James shirt, and made a turquoise X over his heart. I filled the syringe, checked to make sure it still worked, then took a deep breath. Lucy shrieked, and my hand trembled. The itchiness returned, and I let my breath out in a huff.
"Cole." I said, pleading in my voice.
"Do it now, Hermione. You've been clear for weeks. Do it."
"I cant!" I said frantically, on the verge of crying.
"Do it! One. Two." I looked up. Cole nodded. Draco frowned. "Three!" I plunged the syringe into James chest. There was that horrible cracking noise the needle makes as it goes through the breastbone, and James jerked, his eyes flying open. I saw Draco immediately tighten his grip to keep James from hitting me. Ron gave a high girlie scream. Draco and I locked eyes, and we both looked over my shoulder at Ron. His eyes were wild. James stopped jerking and I rose up on my knees and checked his pulse. Steady. I laughed to myself. Cole let go of Lucy, and she flew over, knocking me to the side. I landed hard on the floor, and a couple of fourth years giggled. I rolled my eyes and stood up. I took two steps in their direction but Cole got there first.
"You couldn't save James' sorry ass, give a little respect to the woman who could, yeah?" He had them by the scruff of their collars, and was whispering in a deadly tone in their ear. They nodded hastily, and Cole let them go. Draco watched us both like a hawk.
"Miss Granger, are you done?" Rose came in. "I believe your Headmaster would like to leave." I nodded.
"What the hell?" James stood up. I looked over. The needle lay on the floor and I picked it up, and disposed of it. "You're leaving?" He came towards us.
"It was only temporary, James. You know it. You've known it since I came here."
"You mean we get Evesham back? Cant we keep you?" I laughed. Draco's eyes narrowed, and I ignored him.
"No, you cant. I have to go." He hugged me tightly. I rose up on my tiptoes and kissed his cheek. "Now be good, and don't OD again, please?"
"For you, hon."
"Thank you." I grinned, and turned away. "I'm ready. Let's go before the whole school finds out, and I'm swamped." Ron raised and eyebrow. It looks better when Draco does that. I walked out the room. The three boys followed me.
"What was that about?" Ron asked.
"What can I say? Everyone loves me." I smiled and looked straight at Draco. My smile slipped from my face. "Hi." I murmured under my breath.
"Hi." Equally as quietly. I smiled again, and he reciprocated.
*&*
We met Dumbledore at the foot of the stairs in front of the school. A Hogwarts carriage stood in the drive, and Dumbledore and Madame Maxime stood there talking. They looked up when we appeared at the top of the stairs. I shivered, and Cole handed me my cloak.
"Where did you get this?" I asked.
"Where you left it, in the girls dorm with Andrea." Cole answered with a chuckle. I rolled my eyes. Dumbledore, Ron and Draco got into the carriage, and I hugged Cole one last time.
"Don't you dare not write me." I said harshly. He nodded with mock seriousness. He kissed me on the forehead. "Thank you for everything." I whispered.
"You too." He smiled, and let go of me, stepping back.
"HERMIONE!" Danny ran down the stairs and swept me up. He kissed me on the mouth, and when he drew back I was gasping for air and kicked him in the shin.
"You dickhead!" I gasped out.
"I told you I'd kiss you." He said with a grin. I slapped him as hard as I could.
"And I told you I'd slap you if you did. Bye, Danny." He hugged me, but didn't try to kiss me again.
"By Granger. Don't be too cruel to those lads."
"There isn't anyone like you there to be cruel to. I suppose I'll get over it." I smiled, and climbed in the carriage, and Danny slapped my ass. "Fuck off, D."
"Rather fuck you." He replied. I stuck my tongue out, blew a kiss at Cole, and then we were off.
A/N I'd just to thank people who reviewed! I really, really appreciate it, since I honest to god didn't think anyone liked it. (well, other than my best friend, but I swear she just says it to shut me up.)
Thank you to: Freyliskat - thanks, I'm glad to know someone's reading this!
Beautiful-star13 - I'm glad you like it so much. I try and make it good, but half the time I'm sure what comes up on the screen is definitely not what I typed in!
Eriador - Hermione hasn't confronted Draco about cheating on her because her whole life's upside down at the moment, and she's really preoccupied. What with the drugs, her parents dying (not that there's anything she can do about that) and the responsibility of being head girl in a school that isn't particularly fond of her, she's been a bit busy to talk to Draco about him cheating on her.
Cole came in whistling, but stopped as soon as he saw me he stopped. Then he saw me scratching.
"Oh no. Hermione you didn't."
"No. Those bitches I'm meant to be friends with did." I exclaimed furiously.
"How much do you think?"
"Too much. My stomach's twisting, and I would kill for some more."
"Shit, baby. Now we have to do it all over again."
"Bollocks." I said, frowning. That was a long two weeks. Looked like another one was coming, and I only had 3 and a half weeks left.
*&*
"I hate this!" I screamed at him across the common room. He stood there, looking at me with sad brown eyes. "I cant think, I cant write, I cant do anything! I hate it!"
"You're nearly clear." His voice was soft.
"But I'm not!" I said, struggling to keep my voice down. "And Draco sent me a letter." I said finally.
"Ah." Cole said in understanding. I know Cole loves me. But how can I tell Cole he has no chance, simply because I think I'll love Draco until I fall down dead. I like him. He's been my best friend for three months, and leaving him is going to hurt like hell. I guess I love him too. I just love Draco more.
"What did it say?" He asked. I took a deep breath.
"It said he might come with Dumbledore and Ron to pick me up in two weeks. He asked if I was mad at him because I haven't written. He complained about Evesham throwing herself at him."
"Nothing else?"
"Not really." I crossed my arms, clenching my hands into fists to stop me scratching.
"That's what upset you then?"
"On top of everything else. We have NEWTs in less than two months." I added.
"Ah, yes. You'll do fine Hermione. You've been top of every class since you came, even when you were so high you could barely read." I laughed.
"That was fun." It was. I was flying and working at the same time.
"I'm sure it was." Cole said dourly.
"Don't be such a spoilsport." I said, laughing. Cole rolled his eyes at me. I stuck my tongue out at him, then winced as a twinge pulled at my stomach. He frowned.
"What?"
"Withdrawal cramps." I smiled.
"You okay?"
"Yep. I'll need some more in about half an hour, though." Cole nodded. He was proud of me, I could tell. He was angrier with me accidentally getting back on drugs than I've ever seen him in my life. True, I've only known him for three months, but that isn't the point.
*&*
2 Weeks Later.
"Oh for god's sakes!" I exclaimed. This really wasn't funny. First Andrea tries to overdose with ecstasy pills - a messy situation if I hadn't gone down there for a book. I know I sound stuck up, you know, "she would have died if I wasn't there!" kind of thing, but really.
And then, Emily Sanders does almost the same thing, determined to overdose on heroine. I had to convince her friends that this really wasn't a good thing. After spending ten minutes trying to get them to understand that she could, god forbid, actually die from an overdose - I swear the Beauxbatons students all think they are immortal - Cole waltzes in and says that Dumbledore, Ron and Draco are here.
So now I'm walking up the hall, tugging at my skirt. Damn it.
"Hermione." Cole turned me to face him and held onto my shoulders.
"What?"
"Don't try to hide this. If this is what you are, then don't try to hide it. If it isn't, then I wish you had told me before. Even if they think you're a slut, they're only looking at your skirt length." Cole stared at me, and I fought my way out of his green eyes.
"I know. Thanks." I smiled and let go of my skirt. The two of us walked up the stairs to Madame Maxime's study, and we heard people talking inside. Cole kissed me quickly on the lips.
"Good luck." He said with a grin.
"I don't need luck." I shot back. I knocked on the door. It swung open, and we walked in.
*&*
Everyone stood when we walked in. Ron's mouth dropped open, and I avoided looking at Draco. I didn't want to see him just yet. I smiled at Dumbledore.
"Miss Granger. I trust you are well?"
"Very, thank you Professor." I said softly.
"This is Cole, our Head Boy. However, I think you are needed in the boys dormitories, Cole." Madame Maxime said. Cole nodded, touched my arm, and left. I glanced at Draco and saw a twist of jealously grace his face quickly. But then it was gone as fast as it arrived. We all sat down, and I crossed my legs without thinking. Everyone here did it, and no one was bothered that skirts were small and legs were long. It was just one of those things. I heard Ron's quick intake of breath, but stopped myself from putting my leg down. I refused to be ruled by his hormones.
They talked. And talked. And talked. Did they have nothing better to do? I could feel Draco's gaze on me, and unfortunately, Ron's too, which was very uncomfortable. My arms began itching and I ignored it as best I could. I had been clear for two weeks, and I hadn't eaten anything all day. It was just me remembering while being uncomfortable. Dammit.
The door flew open, and Cole stood there panting. He was staring at me, and I rose.
"Who and where?" I asked. Oh please. This is absurd.
"James Andrews, boys dormitory. Ad shot. Well, he needs one." My fist clenched, and I turned to the Head Teachers.
"Could I be excused? I'm needed." Madame Maxime nodded.
"Of course, dear. Why don't you take the boys with you? They can see the school." I stared at her in amazement.
"Madame, James needs an adrenaline shot." I said, stressing the word.
"I know what to do." Draco said, standing. I turned to him.
"You sure?" I asked. He shrugged. Ron stood as well. "Can you?" He shrugged as well. I rolled my eyes.
"Hermione." Cole said urgently.
"Fine. Whatever. Don't get in my way." I nodded to the professors, and ran out the room, the boys following us and we ran down stairs and down corridors. Cole pulled ahead of me as we reached the dorm entrance, and had it open before I got there. I ran straight through and took the stairs two at a time. I entered the sixth year dorm and saw James lying on the floor. His chest wasn't moving.
"Okay, I need an Ad shot. Who's got the OD kit?" I demanded. Adam handed me the red box. Cole came to the door, followed by Ron and Draco. Neither looked out of breath. "Draco, hold his arms. Ron, his feet. Don't argue with me, just do it. The two knelt by each end of James and grabbed onto the limbs. A girl ran in, and Cole caught her, and folded her tight against him.
"Lucy be still. She cant save him if you get in the way!" he said. I ignored them, and straddled James, resting my weight on his hips. Draco's eyes widened at this but he said nothing. I pulled open James shirt, and made a turquoise X over his heart. I filled the syringe, checked to make sure it still worked, then took a deep breath. Lucy shrieked, and my hand trembled. The itchiness returned, and I let my breath out in a huff.
"Cole." I said, pleading in my voice.
"Do it now, Hermione. You've been clear for weeks. Do it."
"I cant!" I said frantically, on the verge of crying.
"Do it! One. Two." I looked up. Cole nodded. Draco frowned. "Three!" I plunged the syringe into James chest. There was that horrible cracking noise the needle makes as it goes through the breastbone, and James jerked, his eyes flying open. I saw Draco immediately tighten his grip to keep James from hitting me. Ron gave a high girlie scream. Draco and I locked eyes, and we both looked over my shoulder at Ron. His eyes were wild. James stopped jerking and I rose up on my knees and checked his pulse. Steady. I laughed to myself. Cole let go of Lucy, and she flew over, knocking me to the side. I landed hard on the floor, and a couple of fourth years giggled. I rolled my eyes and stood up. I took two steps in their direction but Cole got there first.
"You couldn't save James' sorry ass, give a little respect to the woman who could, yeah?" He had them by the scruff of their collars, and was whispering in a deadly tone in their ear. They nodded hastily, and Cole let them go. Draco watched us both like a hawk.
"Miss Granger, are you done?" Rose came in. "I believe your Headmaster would like to leave." I nodded.
"What the hell?" James stood up. I looked over. The needle lay on the floor and I picked it up, and disposed of it. "You're leaving?" He came towards us.
"It was only temporary, James. You know it. You've known it since I came here."
"You mean we get Evesham back? Cant we keep you?" I laughed. Draco's eyes narrowed, and I ignored him.
"No, you cant. I have to go." He hugged me tightly. I rose up on my tiptoes and kissed his cheek. "Now be good, and don't OD again, please?"
"For you, hon."
"Thank you." I grinned, and turned away. "I'm ready. Let's go before the whole school finds out, and I'm swamped." Ron raised and eyebrow. It looks better when Draco does that. I walked out the room. The three boys followed me.
"What was that about?" Ron asked.
"What can I say? Everyone loves me." I smiled and looked straight at Draco. My smile slipped from my face. "Hi." I murmured under my breath.
"Hi." Equally as quietly. I smiled again, and he reciprocated.
*&*
We met Dumbledore at the foot of the stairs in front of the school. A Hogwarts carriage stood in the drive, and Dumbledore and Madame Maxime stood there talking. They looked up when we appeared at the top of the stairs. I shivered, and Cole handed me my cloak.
"Where did you get this?" I asked.
"Where you left it, in the girls dorm with Andrea." Cole answered with a chuckle. I rolled my eyes. Dumbledore, Ron and Draco got into the carriage, and I hugged Cole one last time.
"Don't you dare not write me." I said harshly. He nodded with mock seriousness. He kissed me on the forehead. "Thank you for everything." I whispered.
"You too." He smiled, and let go of me, stepping back.
"HERMIONE!" Danny ran down the stairs and swept me up. He kissed me on the mouth, and when he drew back I was gasping for air and kicked him in the shin.
"You dickhead!" I gasped out.
"I told you I'd kiss you." He said with a grin. I slapped him as hard as I could.
"And I told you I'd slap you if you did. Bye, Danny." He hugged me, but didn't try to kiss me again.
"By Granger. Don't be too cruel to those lads."
"There isn't anyone like you there to be cruel to. I suppose I'll get over it." I smiled, and climbed in the carriage, and Danny slapped my ass. "Fuck off, D."
"Rather fuck you." He replied. I stuck my tongue out, blew a kiss at Cole, and then we were off.
A/N I'd just to thank people who reviewed! I really, really appreciate it, since I honest to god didn't think anyone liked it. (well, other than my best friend, but I swear she just says it to shut me up.)
Thank you to: Freyliskat - thanks, I'm glad to know someone's reading this!
Beautiful-star13 - I'm glad you like it so much. I try and make it good, but half the time I'm sure what comes up on the screen is definitely not what I typed in!
Eriador - Hermione hasn't confronted Draco about cheating on her because her whole life's upside down at the moment, and she's really preoccupied. What with the drugs, her parents dying (not that there's anything she can do about that) and the responsibility of being head girl in a school that isn't particularly fond of her, she's been a bit busy to talk to Draco about him cheating on her.