You know that moment when you get to school and realize you forgot your
homework at home? That's how Lianna feels when her Realization hits her.
Chapter 5 – The Realization
During the night, Lianna woke up several times. What woke her, was a mystery, but she always had only one thing on her mind: Legolas. About the fourth time she woke in the night, she though hard. Why was this happening? It hit her like a ton of bricks. In the pit of her stomach, she felt a heavy weight. She sat up straight in her bed. "No." She whispered. Was she in love with Legolas?
Apologies for the night of the feast had long since been exchanged when Lianna began unconsciously trying to either avoid Legolas, or pretend nothing was wrong. She was trying too hard, though, and came off a little weird. He had asked her if anything was the matter, but she denied there was anything bothering her. The days that followed strained Lianna greatly, for Legolas began speaking to her about Katarina, and gradually, Katarina became a more and more frequent sight. Until it seemed she and Legolas were always together.
Everyone had noticed this, and were happy for the couple. They seemed a smart match, and both very pleased in the other's company. Lianna had withdrawn into herself, and was barely seen outside anymore. She was too afraid to run into Legolas and Katarina walking hand in hand in the gardens looking sappy and gazing into each other's eyes with bliss. She pictured the sight in her head a lot, and it made her want to vomit.
She had realized the twang she felt before at seeing them together was jealousy. For Li had always had Legolas to herself. Well, mostly anyway. Legolas had many other friends in Rivendell, but Li had always been number one. She was his right wing. His copilot. The ying to his yang, the pea in his pod...or so she thought. Now it seems she had been replaced.
One day, she decided it was too much to bear on her own, and sought counsel in Arwen. Lianna walked into Arwen's room, unannounced and sat on her bed, not looking at the Elf Princess. "Sure Lianna, come on in." Arwen said sarcastically. "Arwen I need to tell you something." The grave tone in her friend's voice demanded her attention. Lianna took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
"I'm in love with Legolas." The sound of that sentence spoken aloud startled her a bit, but she immediately felt as if a weight had been lifted off her. She looked to the face of her friend, which was surprisingly not surprised. "Well?" Li asked after a moment of silence. "It's about time you admitted it." "You knew? Hell, I didn't even know." Li was bewildered. "It was kind of obvious." Lianna looked suddenly scared. "Wait, obvious for you, cause you got that thing going on in your head, or obvious for normal elves?" "Settle. Obvious for me." Li breathed a sigh of relief. That meant Legolas didn't know. She NEVER wanted him to know.
"What should I do?" she asked Arwen, needing some direction, since she had no idea whatsoever what she should do. "Let him know." Great. Just what she didn't want to do more than anything in the world. She scrunched up her nose. "Do I have to?" Arwen looked deep in her friend's troubled eyes and answered, "Do what your heart says. It may lead you to heartbreak, but everything happens for a reason, and you must trust it."
Arwen was always good for advice. She was wise and had experienced much in her lifetime. Lianna walked solemnly to her bed and lay down to another restless night.
Chapter 5 – The Realization
During the night, Lianna woke up several times. What woke her, was a mystery, but she always had only one thing on her mind: Legolas. About the fourth time she woke in the night, she though hard. Why was this happening? It hit her like a ton of bricks. In the pit of her stomach, she felt a heavy weight. She sat up straight in her bed. "No." She whispered. Was she in love with Legolas?
Apologies for the night of the feast had long since been exchanged when Lianna began unconsciously trying to either avoid Legolas, or pretend nothing was wrong. She was trying too hard, though, and came off a little weird. He had asked her if anything was the matter, but she denied there was anything bothering her. The days that followed strained Lianna greatly, for Legolas began speaking to her about Katarina, and gradually, Katarina became a more and more frequent sight. Until it seemed she and Legolas were always together.
Everyone had noticed this, and were happy for the couple. They seemed a smart match, and both very pleased in the other's company. Lianna had withdrawn into herself, and was barely seen outside anymore. She was too afraid to run into Legolas and Katarina walking hand in hand in the gardens looking sappy and gazing into each other's eyes with bliss. She pictured the sight in her head a lot, and it made her want to vomit.
She had realized the twang she felt before at seeing them together was jealousy. For Li had always had Legolas to herself. Well, mostly anyway. Legolas had many other friends in Rivendell, but Li had always been number one. She was his right wing. His copilot. The ying to his yang, the pea in his pod...or so she thought. Now it seems she had been replaced.
One day, she decided it was too much to bear on her own, and sought counsel in Arwen. Lianna walked into Arwen's room, unannounced and sat on her bed, not looking at the Elf Princess. "Sure Lianna, come on in." Arwen said sarcastically. "Arwen I need to tell you something." The grave tone in her friend's voice demanded her attention. Lianna took a deep breath and let it out slowly.
"I'm in love with Legolas." The sound of that sentence spoken aloud startled her a bit, but she immediately felt as if a weight had been lifted off her. She looked to the face of her friend, which was surprisingly not surprised. "Well?" Li asked after a moment of silence. "It's about time you admitted it." "You knew? Hell, I didn't even know." Li was bewildered. "It was kind of obvious." Lianna looked suddenly scared. "Wait, obvious for you, cause you got that thing going on in your head, or obvious for normal elves?" "Settle. Obvious for me." Li breathed a sigh of relief. That meant Legolas didn't know. She NEVER wanted him to know.
"What should I do?" she asked Arwen, needing some direction, since she had no idea whatsoever what she should do. "Let him know." Great. Just what she didn't want to do more than anything in the world. She scrunched up her nose. "Do I have to?" Arwen looked deep in her friend's troubled eyes and answered, "Do what your heart says. It may lead you to heartbreak, but everything happens for a reason, and you must trust it."
Arwen was always good for advice. She was wise and had experienced much in her lifetime. Lianna walked solemnly to her bed and lay down to another restless night.