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Chapter IV - Hate Me
They both walked up the rest of the way to her house in complete silence, not sure of what to say to each other after the whole scenario.
When they reached the front of her apartment building he spotted the cut on her shoulder, which was still bleeding a bit. He reached out to graze his fingertips on her cut. She shivered from his touch and felt like crying again. He stared at it and asked,
"Does it hurt?"
Tohru bit her lower lip, felt her eyes water, and stuttered,
"A...A little"
The silver stars twinkled against the black sky, and the clouds wrapped their arms around the silver moon, signaling that night had fallen. Kyo felt so guilty about the cut so he said softly,
"Come on, let's go upstairs and get that wound fixed up..."
Tohru opened her mouth to protest that she was okay but he lifted a finger to her lips and said,
"I'm helping you out no matter what you say."
She bowed her head in defeat and then looked back up at him with a smile on her face. She turned around and opened the door to the apartment building and led him up the flight of stairs that led to her room. When they reached room 116 they went inside and he asked,
"So where are the bandages?"
Tohru's cheeks flushed pink and she said,
"Ano... I don't have any."
Kyo felt his mouth turn downward into a frown and he asked incredulously,
"How can you not have any bandages?!"
Tohru looked at her shoes with embarrassment and sat down on the couch with shame,
"I'm sorry..."
Kyo put his hand on his forehead and cursed at himself inwardly,
"No, no... I'm sorry for yelling."
Kyo sat down next to her and thought for a while before reaching into his pockets for his favorite bandana. He grabbed her wounded arm and tied the bandana around her shoulder tightly,
"Here, I'll just use this for now."
Tohru's eyes widened with concern and she asked,
"Is that okay for you to use that?"
Kyo nodded and gave her a reassuring smile. Tohru looked down at her hands in her lap and finally asked tentatively,
"Kyo-kun...I'm sorry to have caused you any trouble today..."
Kyo felt the ice around his heart melt away as his mouth dropped open slightly,
How can anyone be so innocent? So sweet? Even after I ditched her, and let her get hurt, she still thinks that it's her fault? Is she some kind of angel?!
He felt himself raise his arm up and place a warm, but rough, hand on top of her smooth cheek. She let out a small gasp from his touch and felt time stop as he inched closer and closer to her with the sweetest look in his eyes. Her eyes fluttered close and her heart beat faster and faster as his lips brushed gently against her soft pink lips. Before she knew it, she was kissing him on the beige colored couch, with no regrets. It was her greatest moment ever... to be kissed by Sohma Kyo. Ten seconds passed and when those seconds ended, Kyo finally realized what he was doing and pulled away abruptly. He stood up, with a red face, and stumbled out of the front door,
"I-I gotta go..."
As he rushed out of the front door, Tohru was left sitting on the couch, shocked from all the events that had just occurred. She touched her lips that were still warm from his kiss and whispered softly to nobody in particular,
"Thank you..."
Kyo was racing down the steps of the apartment building and pushed the door to his exit, breathing in the fresh air that burst into his lungs. He placed his hands on his knees and then broke into a run for his house.
What the hell are you doing?! Don't you have any self control?
Once Kyo got home he rolled right into his beat up old bed, not wanting to think about anything anymore. Soon enough Kyo was being drifted into a dream...
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Dream sequence~
There was a woman with short brown hair, and ocean colored eyes laying with Kyo on a beautiful sunny beach. The ocean waves crashed against the warm sand, caressing their toes softly. The gentle summer breeze came around and tickled their skin. The woman let out a low sigh and smiled deeply before asking with innocence,
"Kyo-kun, don't you wish everyday was as peaceful as this?"
Kyo lay on his back, with his arms resting underneath his orange colored hair. He smiled at the clear blue skies and the occasional seagulls that flocked by and said with no regrets,
"Yea...I wanna spend everyday with you..."
He turned his head slightly to give her a warm smile and his crimson eyes shined with happiness as his eyes melted into her ocean eyes. Suddenly a crash of thunder collided with the tranquility of the moment, making Kyo and the woman sit up with a sudden fear that bubbled up inside of them. The sky suddenly deteriorated into a black color and the clouds morphed into a dark gray color. Kyo and the woman looked around at the strange change of scene and stood up from the now cold sand. The woman held onto Kyo's hand tightly and asked with terror,
"What's happening?!"
Kyo's eyes widened as he gaped at the now black water that was rising high. Suddenly the woman let out a high pitched scream as her foot was caught by a long hand that had risen from the black water. Now she was being pulled into the sea of black water by more long hands shooting from the waters. Kyo scrambled up from the sand and he grabbed the woman's hand, screaming,
"AYUMI!!!"
She cried out to him with tears in her eyes,
"Kyo-kun! Help me!!"
He grasped her hands tightly in his rough hands, but her fingers still began to slip, one by one, from his hands. He felt himself perspirating as he held on to her with every bit of his strength, but no matter how much he gripped, her hands kept on slipping. She struggled helplessly and Kyo screamed out,
"Don't let go!!"
Ayumi whimpered and let out one last scream as her last finger flew from his grasp and he watched in horror as she was slowly sucked into the black water. Kyo ran to the water, but a force pushed him back as he watched Ayumi being devoured in front of his own eyes. He reached out his arms with tears in his eyes and screamed with all the anguish that his body possessed. He squeezed his eyes shut and banged his fists into the sand, feeling as if a million shards of glass had just pierced him in the back.
"Why?! Why?!!!! WHY??!!!"
When he opened his eyes again he gasped when he saw that he was sitting on the beautiful beach again... except this time there was someone different sitting beside him. It was Tohru. She lay beside him with a serene smile on her face and she rolled her shoulders back, letting out a low sigh before asking with innocence,
"Kyo-kun, don't you wish everyday was as peaceful as this?"
Kyo snapped up from his bed with a cold sweat prickling down the side of his forehead. His chest went up and down from the pain, and he felt that his eyes were wet. He put his hand over his face when he thought about Ayumi's face and how he never wanted to feel the same pain again.
Remember the promise you made with yourself? The promise to never love again? I want to keep it so badly... but Tohru's got a hold on me and I can't shake her off. She makes me do things that I can't even control.
He looked straight into the dark room, staring into nothingness, and then he felt thoughts form in his mind.
You know what you have to do Kyo... you have to make her hate you.
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Tohru was humming happily in the bakery, wiping the counter clean. She felt so happy from the night before. She kept thinking about how his lips felt against hers and the warm fuzzy feelings it gave her. The bell on the door rang through the bakery and she looked up to see Kyo enter the bakery at that moment, making her mood brighten up even more. She got out from the counter and gave him a sunny smile, greeting him pleasantly,
"Good morning Kyo-kun, would you like anything?"
When she peered at his face she saw that he wasn't well at all. His whole facial expression was dark, and he looked like he had gotten no sleep at all with the bags that had formed beneath his eyes. She looked at him with concern and touched his hand gently,
"Are you okay?"
Kyo took a deep breath and then forcefully swatted her hand away from him. She gasped at his harsh movement and felt a wave of hurt pass through her body. He started to shake a little as he said with an angry voice,
"You know... how I didn't show up the other night?"
Tohru's eyebrows scrunched together at his sudden change of subject and asked with curiosity,
"What about it? Is everything okay?"
Kyo licked his dry lips and felt his throat dry up when he said in a scratched up voice,
"I...I meant to ditch you. In fact I was avoiding you that day."
"But you still came... and I'm so thankful for that."
Why does she have to make this so damn hard?!
Kyo squeezed his hands into fists and yelled with anger and frustration,
"Don't you get it?! I didn't want to be around you!! In fact, I-I was only... using you to get you... to get you... i-in bed..."
His last words seemed to come out softer than the other ones. He gulped loudly and felt his heart being torn into pieces when he saw the look of hurt that crossed over her features. But her look of hurt changed into a look of sadness and she whispered out,
"You... don't mean that, do you?"
Kyo opened his mouth to say 'yes' but he couldn't find the strength to get the one simple word out of his mouth. He stood there staring at her for a few seconds and then just dashed out of the bakery as fast as possible. Tohru fell against the wall and felt the hot tears slide down her face.
How can you be so happy one minute and so sad the next?
She raised a shaky arm up and rolled her sleeve up a little bit. The bandana that was wrapped around her shoulder was blurry from her tear filled eyes. She lifted her other arm and touched the wool fabric of the black bandana. She let out a loud sniffle and then unraveled the bandana from her wound, uncovering a closed up cut.
… I wish I knew why you did those things to me…
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ACKKK, I need to seriously think up some good ideas . damn writers block...