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A/N: Someone asked me why Kyo didn't change when he got hugged. Well, it's because this is an AU (Alternate Universe) version of Fruits Basket, which means that the characters and their personalities are the same, but the story and stuff about changing is different. Hope that clears things up :D Anyways, enjoy the chapter ;]
Chapter X - Tomorrow
It's so... cold.
Kyo shivered as he walked through a scene of pure black color. The air was extremely chilling and he felt another creepy chill scamper through his spine again, causing yet another shiver. He walked through the tunnel of darkness, wondering where he was headed and decided to just keep on walking, walking, and walking until he finally tripped on his own feet and fell down to his knees where he sat there, his chest rising heavily up and down. That's when he just broke down and cried...
Out of no where an outstretched pale hand reached out for him, making him look up with surprise. The female voice was soothing and full of comfort when she said his name gently,
"Kyo-chan..."
Kyo stared up at the woman with the oval shaped face, light brown hair and a jubilant smile on her pale colored face. He opened his mouth with a dazed look and croaked out,
"M-Mother?"
He placed his hand into her warm hand and pulled himself up to his feet where he felt shaky on his weak knees.
What's going on...?
She smiled pleasantly at him and asked lovingly,
"Kyo-chan, you know that I love you?"
Is this a dream…?
"Yea...I love you too..."
Kyo reached out to hug her but then her gasp for life made him snap backwards in surprise. It was all in slow motion as he took in a large gulp of air and watched as the blood spurted out from her heart like a sprinkler. He used his arms to shield himself from the blood that splattered onto his trembling arms. Acidy tears stung his eyelids painfully as he took in deep and heavy breaths. He slowly put his shaking hands down from his eyes and lifted his eyes back to where she had been standing, but now she was gone...
Before another thought could run through his mind he turned around and broke into a run but stumbled backwards when he nearly crashed into Ayumi who was standing right in front of him. He tried to move away from her but she blocked his way. She pouted while giving him a hurt expression and asked,
"What's wrong Kyo-kun?"
Kyo felt like everything was so messed up right now and pushed her out of his way, screaming,
"Get out of my way!! This isn't real!!"
Ayumi fell over and began to laugh happily for a while, but the laughter began to fade in a matter of moments. More tears leaked from his eyes as he watched her vanish from the darkness and into a whirl of nothingness. He started to sway and stumble through the never ending darkness, limping a little now.
From behind him, he heard a far away voice that sounded so very familiar, making him turn his head around to see Tohru standing by herself. He backed away slowly, not sure of what he wanted, but she continued to advance closer to him. He finally stopped to his temptation and allowed her milky white hand to caress his cheek tenderly as she whispered softly,
"Everything's going to be alright Kyo-kun, I promise."
Kyo felt a tear slide down his cheek, letting his emotion inundate as he lunged forward and embraced her tightly in his arms,
"Don't leave me.... please, you're all I've got left. I need you."
Tohru closed her eyes and put her arms lightly around his waist,
"I'm not going anywhere Kyo-kun...no where...."
A burst of pain diffused throughout his entire body when he felt a sharp object being twisted into the middle of his back. He gasped and spit out a glob of blood onto the ground as she pulled out a bloody knife from his back. She gave him a malignant grin and cackled as she walked away from him and into Hikaru's waiting arms. The whites in Kyo's eyes were shown all around as he shuffled backwards in pain. He lost all color in his features when he plopped down onto the ground where he lay there, feeling completely lost and lifeless.
He felt his spirit being lifted up from his unmoving body and he could feel it being lifted out of the black darkness and into a new scene... a graveyard. It was still daylight and he saw through floating eyes his very own grave sitting right before him. He was astounded by the scene of his funeral happening right in front of him... and what made him even more shocked was the fact that no one was there. The place was completely deserted and there wasn't even a single wilted flower planted anywhere near his stone... there was nothing.
Everyone's... gone. No one cares about me anymore, I'm all alone...
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Tohru opened her eyes drowsily and lifted her head up from the hospital bed groggily. She had spent every night at the hospital, waiting for Kyo to open up his eyes one morning and give her that bashful smile that he possessed.
After the accident Kyo had fallen into a coma and he had lay asleep for over a week now. However, Tohru never lost hope in his awakening and she felt her heartbeat stop when she saw the sight that she saw. She blinked rapidly a few times and her eyes widened when she saw Kyo sitting up and looking out the open window with a sullen look on his face. She gasped and without even thinking she grabbed him into a tight embrace,
"You're awake!! Kyo-kun, I'm so glad! I was so worried... you don't know how worried I was..."
She continued to hug him tightly but loosened her grip when she didn't hear any reply at all. She bit her lower lip and let go of him, examining his face to see that he wore the same sullen look on his face that he had on before. She asked with fear and concern mixed together,
"Kyo...kun?"
No answer.
The door pushed open and a nurse stepped inside to see Tohru with a bewildered look on her face. She approached the two and said gently,
"I need to give Kyo a check up if you don't mind."
Tohru looked up at the nurse with tear filled eyes and asked with concern,
"Do you know if he's okay? He isn't speaking..."
The nurse stayed silent for a while and then finally spoke up with a voice full of sorrow,
"I'm sorry, but I think the boy has gone through a lot of trauma before the accident because he seems to have lost his ability to speak... this happens in many cases of depression... so it's just something that he will have to get through if he has the will to overcome his depressed state. I'm sorry, but that is all I can say."
Tohru grabbed his hand and he turned his head slightly to the left to look at her with empty eyes. She couldn't believe what she was hearing, she couldn't believe the fact that he wasn't able to speak...
How can this be?
Tohru asked hopefully,
"What can I do to help?"
"You can just try your best to make him happier or push him out of this state he is stuck in at the moment… I'm sorry but that is all I can say."
The nurse ushered Tohru out and said that she was sorry again but she had to give him a check up. Tohru leaned on the wall outside and felt a sudden thirst for a drink. She staggered slowly to the soda machine where she got a can of soda and gulped half the can down in five seconds. She felt her throat tingle with caffeine, and then she slipped down against the wall, dropping the half filled can of soda onto the tiled floor. It rolled away gradually, letting the contents of the soda pour out into a puddle. She sat there and watched the soda can roll away, and then positioned her head up so that she was staring up at the fluorescent lights for a long time before finally getting back up again. She clenched her fists together and told herself to be strong for Kyo, and to stay by his side no matter what. She was going to help him find his voice again, she just had to.
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Kyo was released from the hospital that evening and Tohru walked with him back to his apartment through the breezy weather. When they reached the front of the building she racked her brain for something to say, but nothing came up. She had no idea of what to say to a guy who couldn't say anything back.
Come on Tohru, think! You're such a horrible person... you can't even think of a single cheerful thing to say when a guy needs you the most.
She opened her mouth to say something random but before she could say a word he turned his back to her coldly and slammed the door to his apartment in her face. She jumped back from the loud echoing noise the door left behind and felt confused and hurt at the same time. She stared at the door with tears in her eyes and wondered to herself,
What have I done...?
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The very next morning, Tohru worked her shift at the bakery and then went straight to his apartment after her job. She was determined to make him feel better, and to let him know that she cared about him. She knocked on his door loudly, waiting patiently for him to come out but there was no answer for a few moments so she continued to knock repetitively on the door until her fingers were tinged with red. She sighed and banged on the door with her fist, yelling out,
"Please Kyo-kun, I just want to talk to you!"
After another few minutes she gave up from waiting and wondered if he was even in his apartment. She sighed and began to walk away, but then she heard the lock click and the door swing open. She turned around to see him standing by the doorway with a sorrow look on his face and he stared at her with eyes that had no love inside of them. Tohru approached him slowly and asked cautiously,
"May I come in?"
He stared at her carefully for a few good seconds and finally stepped to the side to let her in. She gave him a shaky smile and stepped in, not feeling fully comfortable. She cleared her throat and stood in the middle of the room awkwardly, not quite sure of what to do, or what to say. Kyo sat down on the bed quietly and stared at the wall blankly. Tohru gulped and asked quietly,
"Would you like anything to drink, or something to eat? I can run down to the bakery and get you something..."
Kyo just sat there with a stone cold face for a long while until she saw something glisten in his eye. She sat by his side and embraced him close to her wanting to stop the tears. He didn't hug her back but the tears just fell stronger and stronger. That's when he pushed her off of him gently and crossed his arms over his chest with a hurt expression crossing his face. She said softly,
"I'm sorry if I hurt you in any way..."
Kyo just looked away and stared out the open window next to his bed. Tohru bowed her head down in defeat, not knowing what to do when he didn't even want her nearby. She had wanted to help him so badly, but how was she going to help him if he constantly pushed her away?
Hours passed and Tohru stuck around in his apartment, giving him food and drinks, making sure that he was comfortable. After a while, he fell asleep on the bed with Tohru still in the house. She came out of the kitchen holding a cup of tea and found him asleep on the bed, looking peaceful. She let out an audible sigh and set down the saucer onto the table nearby. She sat down on the chair next to him and took his rough hands into hers. She caressed his hand, soaking them with her fallen tears. She lay her head down on the bed and her shoulders shook as she cried silently by his side, whispering out in a cracked voice,
"I want to know what you're thinking right now...I want to hear all your complaints and more about your life, and I want to hear you call out my name in that voice that gives me chills whenever I hear it...I want to hear it all so badly... so badly..."
She lifted her head slightly to see that he was still sleeping, giving her the courage to let out more of her pent up feelings. She grasped his limp hands tighter and continued with a choked up voice,
"If you're listening, I want you to know that you're not alone and that I'll always be here with you no matter what. I know you probably don't feel the same way about me, but... but I'm in love with you and I've always been..."
Tohru laughed a little, reminiscing about the first day that they met,
"I remember the first time you stepped into that bakery with that cold exterior and icy glare."
She paused for a moment and then continued with a small smile playing on her lips,
"To tell you the truth, I was kinda scared when I first met you... but when you said that you'd protect me, I felt safer and I began to realize that underneath the cold smirks and glares, there was something more...something deeper and warmer. After all those weeks of you walking me home gave me comfort and warmth...and I started to live for those moments of when you gave me those rare but genuine smiles that you have. You can't see it but, I've fallen so deeply in love with you that it hurts so bad to see you like this right now. I never knew love could hurt so much...and I'm sorry for being such a coward and not being able to admit my feelings to you sooner, I'm so sorry Kyo-kun... please forgive me."
Tohru felt her heart get lighter and her shoulders roll back in relaxation after her confession. She had been holding all those feelings bottled up for so long now. She suddenly felt his fingers wrap around her hand slowly and she snapped back when she saw him smile and whisper out,
"Tohru..."
Did I just hear him speak?
To make sure she wasn't dreaming, she whispered out his name softly,
"Kyo-kun?"
His eyes opened up slowly and his crimson orbs had a newfound softness shining inside of them. He held her hand tightly in his and gave her one of his rarest smiles that made her blush madly. He asked in a low and gruff voice,
"..Yea?"
"K-Kyo... you're voice! It's back!"
Kyo sat up from his bed slowly and pushed the blanket away, revealing his long tan legs and toned arms to go with it. She blushed at his lack of clothing and looked down at her lap from embarrassment.
"Tohru?"
Tohru's head whipped up and their eyes locked, taking her breath away and causing her heart to freeze in place. Kyo leaned over and pulled her into a warm and tight embrace which made her blush more than she already was. Kyo closed his eyes and thought about the words that she had said to him before when she thought he had been asleep. Those words had really brought him out of his state of loneliness and depression that he had been stuck in... her feelings had saved him.
"Thank you..."
Tohru's eyes widened and she laid her chin down on top of his warm shoulder, asking with curiosity,
"For what?"
"For feeling the way that you do..."
"You don't have to thank me for anything...I'm just glad you're alright."
Kyo shook his head, touching her silky long brown hair with his fingertips, and said sincerely,
"But I do have to thank you... because before I felt as if no one cared about me anymore and that I was alone. I had lost so many people in my life, and I thought I had lost you too a few weeks back, but now I know that you're still here... and that's all I really need. You're the only person that I really care about. The only one."
"Kyo-kun..."
A giant smile spread across her features and she sighed as she wrapped her arms around his back with happiness. He smiled and put his arm around her shoulders, pulling her in closer to him, not wanting to let go of her. He looked out the window and saw the full moon gleaming brightly against the midnight heavens. He smiled to himself and thought,
I haven't really confessed everything that I feel about you, but maybe tomorrow... maybe tomorrow I'll read you that piece of paper that I spilled my heart onto, the piece of paper that is deep down in my pockets somewhere... yes...maybe tomorrow. But for now? I wanna remain like this, not exactly platonic but not yet lovers either, just somewhere in between. That's where I wanna be... for today.
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I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day
It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do...
Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...
I know I'm not ready,
Maybe tomorrow…
Tomorrow it may change…
Avril Lavigne – Tomorrow
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