"Hi Mark," I said to him, "You look a bit sick, is everything alright?" "Yeah, everything's alright girl. Since I saw you." I smiled to him. I think he really meant that. " We have to talk Mark. Please sit down." And he sat down on a chair. I gave him a cup of tea. I thought he looked really sick and I felt sorry for him. "Would you like a cigarette?" I gave one to him. And I gave myself one too. "Alright, to be honest, I missed you a lot. I want to start all over again, but there are things I need to know. I need to know things about you, do you understand?" Mark nodded. "Alright, I think it's nice if I know where you live, and if I know what you've been up to all day long." I looked at him for a long time and he looked to the ground. "Look Mark, if you don't want to tell things because you don't trust me, than I don't want to go further with you. You have to be honest with me."

I had to make something up now. And fast. My brain was working like a maniac. What if I give her the address of Spud and said I lived there? And I can say that I'm still looking for a job. You don't have much jobs these days in Edinburgh. A lot of people are unemployed and are living from money of the state. And so I said that. And she answered: "Well, was that so hard to tell me?" And I saw that cute smile of hers again and she kissed me for the first time in 2 weeks. Oh God I missed her. But I felt so angry at myself for not telling the truth. And then she asked if I stayed for the night. It would be the first one together. And I felt even worse about myself. I really didn't deserve her. But I tried to stay cool and said: "Yeah, off course I will stay here tonight." "Mark, I want to go to your parents tomorrow. I want to see where you grew up." And I had to say yes because otherwise I don't think she would let me sleep that night in her house. "That's alright girl, but don't expect too much about it." And then we kissed and she took my shirt off and. she saw the scarves and bruises.