I finally got the second chapter done! Yay! Sorry it took me so long, but
I've had a nasty cold this week and my brain hasn't been functioning
properly. Here it is though. It's mostly an emotion chapter, not a lot of
action. Gomen ne, but I needed to get this out of the way.
Disclaimer: Same rules apply! I don't own Teen Titans. . I wish I did though.
So Many Secrets Chp. 2
Raging
One would look around the room of the 'great and fearless' Robin and think that perhaps he had been surprised in the night, a victim of attack or kidnapping. I let out a bitter laugh as I surveyed my room. My desk upturned, the papers once scattered across its surface now strewn about the floor, pillows torn, glass shattered glinting tauntingly up at me. No one would dare to think that in a fit of rage Robin the Boy Wonder had destroyed all of his belongings, hoping to stifle the raging emotions within himself. I sat, slumped against the wall, staring intently at my hand.
No one had bothered to check in on me; I doubt the thick metal door stifled my cries of rage. They knew it best to leave me be, even Starfire had made it a point to not disturb me. A tray of food was left at my door, and though I made no move to slip in it my room, I was thankful. It was a comfort to know that she still cared. Ironically, it was that very thought that had pushed me past breaking point. Starfire cared about me. How much she cared was beyond me, but I was certain she cared. But... the others cared for me as well, did they not? Of course they did. So why were Starfire's feelings getting to me like this?
Why? That very question echoed through my mind as I had lost control earlier. But for now my body was too weary to do anything, save sit here and think; something I wasn't accustomed to doing. I was most comfortable in the heat of battle, making snap decisions, saving the consequences for later. I didn't care to dwell on things. I remembered all to well what happened if I let my mind linger on certain thoughts. It was only a few months ago when my obsession with Slade was in full force. And who had it been to drag me back from the threshold? The very girl that pushes me towards it.
Still I couldn't bring myself to admit if I had feelings for Starfire. I was stubborn like that. Slowly, I brought my injured hand up to my face, following the same line her fingers had traced the previous night. Suddenly, I recalled the feeling as she disappeared into the wormhole. Never had I felt more helpless in my life. It was almost as if a part of me had disappeared along with her. I had been scared. Scared damn it! I wasn't supposed to get scared. I wasn't supposed to feel at all. Ferociously, I clawed at my mask, but still I could not find the courage to pull it off. I could feel the blood trail down my face; there was no pain. I made no move to wipe away my crimson tears. What use was it?
There was a knock at my door. I turned my head slightly but remained silent.
"Yo Robin." I let out a breath I hadn't known I was holding. I'm not sure if I was disappointed or relaxed about it being Cyborg and not Starfire knocking on my door.
"Robin, you feelin okay?"
I couldn't find my voice in which to answer. I merely sat there, my head tilted to the side. Cyborg must have grown impatient because he didn't call out again. The brief visit from my best friend had pushed me to wonder what time it really was. It had to be well past dark. It was times like these that I wished I had chosen a room with windows. But truthfully, I was more content to wallow in the darkness than to let the sun glimmer in. I was better off alone.
"Robin!" Damn it Cyborg. I thought he'd gotten the idea.
"Look man, I don't know what's goin-"
"I don't want to talk about it." I quickly cut him off. I wasn't in the mood for one of his lectures.
"No one said you had to talk, but you're gonna listen. I don't know what's going on with you and Star, but I suggest you get over it and quick. Starfire cares about you and it's not right to put her through this."
Put her through what? She's the one who started all of this with her talk of the future. Accusing me of having secrets. Of course I had secrets. Everybody does. Star probably has a few of her own. Slowly, I pushed myself up and stumbled into the bathroom. I had seen better days. With practiced ease I slipped the mask off my face, washed my face, and placed the mask back on, all without looking in the mirror once. Back in my room, I lay on my bed, my hands folded beneath my head. Soon, my world was dark with sleep.
It was scary to watch the tent burn down. People fled in all directions, hoping to escape the flames deathly path. I wanted to scream. They were still in there. Why wasn't anyone going to help them? Why wasn't I going to help them? They'd come out. Mom first, a big smile on her face. Then Dad. He'd sneak up behind Mom and tickle her sides. That was his favorite game to play. Where were they? It was getting late. It was bedtime. Dad was gonna read me a story. I didn't care if it hurt! I had to help them! They were coming, any second now. They were. They were!
TBC
The next chapter should be up by mid March, maybe sooner. Don't forget to review. Oh, and that last part was supposed to be a dream. I was hoping I wouldn't have to point that out, but some people are a little slow. ^^''' Not that any of you are slow! Please review!!!
Disclaimer: Same rules apply! I don't own Teen Titans. . I wish I did though.
So Many Secrets Chp. 2
Raging
One would look around the room of the 'great and fearless' Robin and think that perhaps he had been surprised in the night, a victim of attack or kidnapping. I let out a bitter laugh as I surveyed my room. My desk upturned, the papers once scattered across its surface now strewn about the floor, pillows torn, glass shattered glinting tauntingly up at me. No one would dare to think that in a fit of rage Robin the Boy Wonder had destroyed all of his belongings, hoping to stifle the raging emotions within himself. I sat, slumped against the wall, staring intently at my hand.
No one had bothered to check in on me; I doubt the thick metal door stifled my cries of rage. They knew it best to leave me be, even Starfire had made it a point to not disturb me. A tray of food was left at my door, and though I made no move to slip in it my room, I was thankful. It was a comfort to know that she still cared. Ironically, it was that very thought that had pushed me past breaking point. Starfire cared about me. How much she cared was beyond me, but I was certain she cared. But... the others cared for me as well, did they not? Of course they did. So why were Starfire's feelings getting to me like this?
Why? That very question echoed through my mind as I had lost control earlier. But for now my body was too weary to do anything, save sit here and think; something I wasn't accustomed to doing. I was most comfortable in the heat of battle, making snap decisions, saving the consequences for later. I didn't care to dwell on things. I remembered all to well what happened if I let my mind linger on certain thoughts. It was only a few months ago when my obsession with Slade was in full force. And who had it been to drag me back from the threshold? The very girl that pushes me towards it.
Still I couldn't bring myself to admit if I had feelings for Starfire. I was stubborn like that. Slowly, I brought my injured hand up to my face, following the same line her fingers had traced the previous night. Suddenly, I recalled the feeling as she disappeared into the wormhole. Never had I felt more helpless in my life. It was almost as if a part of me had disappeared along with her. I had been scared. Scared damn it! I wasn't supposed to get scared. I wasn't supposed to feel at all. Ferociously, I clawed at my mask, but still I could not find the courage to pull it off. I could feel the blood trail down my face; there was no pain. I made no move to wipe away my crimson tears. What use was it?
There was a knock at my door. I turned my head slightly but remained silent.
"Yo Robin." I let out a breath I hadn't known I was holding. I'm not sure if I was disappointed or relaxed about it being Cyborg and not Starfire knocking on my door.
"Robin, you feelin okay?"
I couldn't find my voice in which to answer. I merely sat there, my head tilted to the side. Cyborg must have grown impatient because he didn't call out again. The brief visit from my best friend had pushed me to wonder what time it really was. It had to be well past dark. It was times like these that I wished I had chosen a room with windows. But truthfully, I was more content to wallow in the darkness than to let the sun glimmer in. I was better off alone.
"Robin!" Damn it Cyborg. I thought he'd gotten the idea.
"Look man, I don't know what's goin-"
"I don't want to talk about it." I quickly cut him off. I wasn't in the mood for one of his lectures.
"No one said you had to talk, but you're gonna listen. I don't know what's going on with you and Star, but I suggest you get over it and quick. Starfire cares about you and it's not right to put her through this."
Put her through what? She's the one who started all of this with her talk of the future. Accusing me of having secrets. Of course I had secrets. Everybody does. Star probably has a few of her own. Slowly, I pushed myself up and stumbled into the bathroom. I had seen better days. With practiced ease I slipped the mask off my face, washed my face, and placed the mask back on, all without looking in the mirror once. Back in my room, I lay on my bed, my hands folded beneath my head. Soon, my world was dark with sleep.
It was scary to watch the tent burn down. People fled in all directions, hoping to escape the flames deathly path. I wanted to scream. They were still in there. Why wasn't anyone going to help them? Why wasn't I going to help them? They'd come out. Mom first, a big smile on her face. Then Dad. He'd sneak up behind Mom and tickle her sides. That was his favorite game to play. Where were they? It was getting late. It was bedtime. Dad was gonna read me a story. I didn't care if it hurt! I had to help them! They were coming, any second now. They were. They were!
TBC
The next chapter should be up by mid March, maybe sooner. Don't forget to review. Oh, and that last part was supposed to be a dream. I was hoping I wouldn't have to point that out, but some people are a little slow. ^^''' Not that any of you are slow! Please review!!!